Yep, turning 2 again ^^

I had no idea he did so many character voices of stuff I adored. Brave Heart Lion in the original Care Bears movies, Father Bear from Little Bear, and many others. You'll be missed :(

If I can wrap my head around it, I'll post stuff there. Not sure how to do all that or organize it properly... anyone got some ideas? I've been on here for years and never went to any other New Art Place since up to this point, it didn't seem necessary. It does now. Wish there was a site with similar mechanics to this, I don't want to read endless feeds and wade through stuff. Feel free to add me!

shawnbunburr.bsky.social

Also.... Asking for suggestions - do I need to limit the posting audience or use specific tags? Or just start uploading with similar blurb as my posts here?

10 years to the day. Not really how to feel about this. Haven't tried finding anyone else, not sure I ever will. Still employed, still have my condo, still hurting (more from the damage done to me, not the breakup itself), still lonely.

Bitter? Not really. Depressed? That's something I've lived with almost my entire life (since age 7) so that's not going away. Wishing I had friends to visit? Absolutely. Wishing I could get over the fear and worry over meeting new friends to allow them to visit? Yup.

Drugs? Nope. Smoking? Been quit 25 years. Drinking? I'll have one of those adult slushies after a crappy day, maybe 2-3 times a month. So at least those sorts of addictions are not a concern. A six pack of beer can last me several months.

Yep, it's that time again, am turning 2 ^^ Hopefully is nice day, stayin home from nursrey school today *giggle*

Hopefully you're having a good one, or managing to hold on there during times that can be unpleasant for those without family and friends around. Also hoping next year will be better! ^^

So I broke down and am trying once again to actually make music (or at least noise) with some synthy stuff. The price of all vintage stuff is getting silly (plus maintenance/capacitor aging issues) so I'm going for some of the new Behringer clones.

I also got a cheap MIDI controller, a Samson Carbon 49, so I don't have to tether myself to the PC to route USB MIDI devices together.

First up is the WASP Deluxe synth module, based upon the mid-late 70's British synth of the same name. Very basic, good to (hopefully!) learn on.

Today I got the second module, a Solina String Ensemble<3 The availability of which is what poked me into giving all this another try. It sounds GLORIOUS with the chorus and phaser onboard effects.

I also ordered a Zoom MS-70CDR multi-effects pedal which arrived today also, but I don't yet have the instrument cables to connect everything together.

I'm also very tempted to get the Behringer CAT (clone of the Octave The Cat) too, or maybe (maybe also...sigh) a K2 (their clone of the Korg MS-20) - I want to stick with cheap stuff and not pay too much for yet another exercise in futility where it sits in closet for 2-3 years and I end up taking a massive loss just selling it off.

If I ever want to go into poly, the Pro-800 (clone of the Prophet 600) seems to be quite nice, or there's those two new little dinky ones based on the Prophet VS and the JP8000, but those won't be available for months.

Hopefully I don't end up buying too much again, and regretting it.

Good bye Grandma, I'll miss you :( She was the last of my grandparents to pass away.

Not really sure what else to put here for now, she was 95 or 96 so she had a good run, and it's good she didn't suffer in the end.

I'm turning 2 again ^^ Yay! <3 Will go and get a cake to enjoy, and a cupcake to smush on my face ^^ (giggle)

Yep, no surprise, turning 2 again ^^ (on Jan 26, which it technically is now) I got a cake and a cupcake to maul, some other treats, a cute outfit, and some Other Stuff, both here and on the way. Hopefully will have a happy hoppy day ^^

I do hope it's better than last year however.

Nude Deers and all that sorta stuff too.

Hope everyone able to be with the families that love and care about them, even if that isn't necessarily the one you were born into. Online is better than nothing and in many ways can be better than a real one that is toxic.

...still dang lonely though.

Happy birfday to me ^^ Yep, turning 2 again <3

I got an emergency alert about a flash flood warning that lasted a couple hours.

My thought was "But i'm not THAT wet!" *giggle*

All fine now, was just a big thunderstorm with tons of rain, more covering the roads than flooding them.

Yep, turnin 2 again ^^ I gotted a cutey cake and some toys and a card and a cupcake I can smush on my facey, an some juice an babycookies for more yumyums ^^

Or Merry Kiss-mouse or whatever ^^

Happy birfday to me! ^^ Yep, turning 2 again. *giggle*

I'm ShawnBunnybear there - please dont add/invite me to groups, i get overloaded on them too quickly.

What a cute, silly, and utterly stick-in-your-head song. With cute video! *giggle*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxrwSmjtglc


I think the red one's my favorite.

So I've heard a few rumblings and musings and gotten a few basic questions and so on, regarding the ending of the relationship between Wolfcub and myself...Here's a bit more data.

Am I blameless? Nope. Hardly. I'm aware I've been quite selfish in many respects, and this is the ultimate price to pay in a relationship.

Do I feel bad about the ending? Hmm. The obvious answer is yes. But it is for the best. It seems like it has been a very, very long time that we've been together, *however* there were clear signs of discontent for a very, very long time too.

Did I have my share of screw-ups? Yep. No doubt about it. Plenty.

Is this the place to list them all? Nope. I feel that information does not need to be publicly sent to anyone who cares to read these words, whether I know them or not.

Am I sorry for how I screwed up? Yes, but at this point, no amount of I'm-sorries is going to get us back together as a couple. Our interests and my comfort levels are too diverse.

Do i feel animosity towards Wolfcub? Not at all. He's being very helpful in making this...I wouldn't say *easy* as possible (considering the end of a relationship is never 'easy'), but helping increase my chances of successfully living on my own. I am very, very grateful for his generosity there.

Speaking of living on my own, what are my plans there? I plan to look for an inexpensive mobile home I can purchase in a park, that I can wholly afford on my own, in an area that is within a short driving distance of my place of employment. Hopefully a large 2-bedroom or a medium-size 3-bedroom, so if i ever meet someone that might make a good *roommate* (see below), they'll have their own room. If I can find a small detached home outside of the city (insane taxes in the city) after a year or few of living in a trailer and want to commit to staying in the area for at least 5 years, then I'll likely try that route. I don't make a whole lot of money, but I should be able to afford my own place without fretting too much if I live within my means - and I intend to keep things quite plain and simple and inexpensive.

Why did I say roommate and not mate above? I'm not really interested in looking for someone else in that sort of relationship - Wolfcub was my best chance for a long-term relationship, and if I couldn't manage that...then I don't really have any business potentially upsetting or hurting someone else. I don't plan on any 'rebound' and honestly would be quite surprised if anyone would be really interested in such a thing. I'm no spring chicken anymore, and I'm very reclusive and fearful about stuff outside my comfort zone. Which is very, very small. I'm hoping to make friends in the area for socializing and so forth, so I'm not totally alone and also so I don't turn totally into a hermit.

If you've more questions, I'll try to answer them, but again I'd really prefer to not air too much dirty laundry in a public forum.

I can say that when I finally move out and everything is over and done with, the character of Snuggems will be permanently going away. I will choose another name by which to be known, and I believe Wolfcub will do the same. Actually I had been considering the idea, and he asked me what my thoughts were on it - I am a little relieved he not only felt it OK, but that he would probably do it too...and that it wasn't just me over-reacting.

It is with a heavy heart and a lot of worry for the future that I announce my mate/daddy Wolfcub and I are going to be parting ways in the coming year. It is as equitable as it can be, I think, and for mutual benefit. I'll be saving up money to put a down payment on a mobile or small home in the area, hopefully with some assistance from my RL parents and g'parents, who are both selling their homes this year to move permanently down to Florida.

I may seek a roommate eventually but one of my requirements I'm putting on my self for my own sanity (what little remains, haha) is that I be able to afford everything on my own, without depending upon someone else to make the mortgage/lot rent/bills/what-have-you.

That way, if I screw it up, I can't blame anyone but myself. ^^

It'd be nice to maintain/re-establish/form some social contacts in the south central Pennsylvania area as I will stay there, my place of employment is stable and changing jobs is one thing I don't need to be worrying about right now.

I'm not asking for money, or a place to live, or to join a group of cubfurs in their living situation - just some support and understanding if I'm seeming more "off" than usual. I'm aware my social-fu is lacking to begin with.

This isn't a fault-finding post, we simply changed in ways that mean we are no longer meant to be together in a relationship. Perhaps this is a little late in the coming, but the timing seems appropriate now, to take these steps.

If there is a magic land where everything from sunrise to sunset is better than the best of sunny days....

If there is that land somewhere, we'd love to take you there, and we'd never let it go.....

Cerberus does AMAZING stuff. I've told a few of you individually about this but figured others that watch me might have not seen it. So, here it is! Just click the 1 at bottom left to play :)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8420182/

This has so much awesome in it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S3xAeTmsJfg

Hee!

Okay, his art's cute too *Giggle* Anyways!  bosky issa linky! He wants to improve his drawing skillz, and is taking requests! How many, I dunno, but thought I'd post here in cases some folks that are watching me, aren't watching him yet and wanna have a look!