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Posted 2 months agoIts pretty much all I got now. Just gotta keep going for the very few who do care about me.
Life Hurts.
Posted 4 months agoI'm a broken man from what I once was. I have an entire bloodline of family who don't care about me nor even bother to check up on me unless its to do manual labor for them. I've never had so few of friends as I've had now, and I've been betrayed and backstabbed by a group I spent 7-8 years of my life with.
Everyone I talk to is a heartless, soulless creature who is only concerned about the next crap that comes out of THEIR mouth. I'm watching my friends list just shrink and shrink and shrink. More and more people are becoming worse and worse friends, or are just proving to me more and more how invisible and easily forgettable of a person I am.
It feels like every day I'm just getting harder to see for people, gradually becoming more and more invisible despite me crying my heart out about my pains and sufferings. It REALLY stings when your own fucking mother just sorta tells you "Well, that sucks. Welcome to life." As her supportive parent talk.
I'm no longer a happy guy whos trying to make as many friends as possible, and just overall much more positive and even possibly joyous at times.
What I became was a rage filled, forgotten, angry, sad, lonely, abused, and loveless tool who only gets talked to when I can give something.
But who tf is gonna read this even? Or even bother to glance my direction without being "weirded out" or "uncomfortable" BECAUSE I JUST WANT A FRIEND. All I'm doing is shouting to the void, here. But I'd rather it be known how broken of an entity I am instead of the 3 year old "lets find rp partners" journal. This one is more accurate now.
Update: the people that would talk to me, turns out, are people that think they know better and how they could do my life better.
Everyone I talk to is a heartless, soulless creature who is only concerned about the next crap that comes out of THEIR mouth. I'm watching my friends list just shrink and shrink and shrink. More and more people are becoming worse and worse friends, or are just proving to me more and more how invisible and easily forgettable of a person I am.
It feels like every day I'm just getting harder to see for people, gradually becoming more and more invisible despite me crying my heart out about my pains and sufferings. It REALLY stings when your own fucking mother just sorta tells you "Well, that sucks. Welcome to life." As her supportive parent talk.
I'm no longer a happy guy whos trying to make as many friends as possible, and just overall much more positive and even possibly joyous at times.
What I became was a rage filled, forgotten, angry, sad, lonely, abused, and loveless tool who only gets talked to when I can give something.
But who tf is gonna read this even? Or even bother to glance my direction without being "weirded out" or "uncomfortable" BECAUSE I JUST WANT A FRIEND. All I'm doing is shouting to the void, here. But I'd rather it be known how broken of an entity I am instead of the 3 year old "lets find rp partners" journal. This one is more accurate now.
Update: the people that would talk to me, turns out, are people that think they know better and how they could do my life better.
I greatly enjoy meeting new people.
Posted 4 years agoIts fun. I enjoy meeting people who enjoy my stuff. But most of it just ain't on here. Make sure to check my twitter if you wish to see more of it. Thats where I actually upload everything. Plus I have been having a bit of issues with some other friends, so it would be nice to add some numbers to my friends list again.
I'm always open! Note me or DM me on either Twitter or Discord.
I'm always open! Note me or DM me on either Twitter or Discord.
RolePlaying. A cry for help in a way.
Posted 6 years agoI am honestly kinda sick of being constantly baited into thinking my RP partner is about to be this really cool and descriptive person who I may have the potential of doing something neat with. Maybe even creating an epic story filled with love and passion in the writing! But no... Somehow people are masters at making me think that, only to realize that they suck really badly at long responce and description.
If I put effort in a huge responce, I want to see at least 3/4ths of that effort put back to me. I can understand if you may just straight up not be good at that kind of stuff, and thats perfectly fine. But at least make it perfectly freaking clear what your level is before we start an rp and my excitement gets shot down.
Yea... I guess this is kinda a cry out there for some possible RPers who I could have a good time with. If you are out there, I am practically always gonna be here waiting for someone cool. I will sit down and devote my time to long responces and greatly emotional description just for you being a kind enough friend to do that stuff with me. I hope I will encounter someone who would enjoy that.
If I put effort in a huge responce, I want to see at least 3/4ths of that effort put back to me. I can understand if you may just straight up not be good at that kind of stuff, and thats perfectly fine. But at least make it perfectly freaking clear what your level is before we start an rp and my excitement gets shot down.
Yea... I guess this is kinda a cry out there for some possible RPers who I could have a good time with. If you are out there, I am practically always gonna be here waiting for someone cool. I will sit down and devote my time to long responces and greatly emotional description just for you being a kind enough friend to do that stuff with me. I hope I will encounter someone who would enjoy that.
