Starting my classes today, really excited to be doing something that I feel is a good fit for me and I find interesting. In 4 years with all things going well I will be a fully fledged electrician.

Normally I am not one to share my problems. I keep everything to myself most of the time, but I need to let off some steam before I breakdown and cry. I have been real down lately due to some extremely complicated family issues that I will go into a bit more detail. My brother sister and I have been taking care of and attempting to get custody of our half brother and sister since our mother passed away over 2 years ago, from lung cancer. This week it was finally decided who would receive custody of them and that was there abusive father who is not a man I would trust with a house plant never mind an impressionable child. We only had a few days to say goodbye and it is so painful, I can barely stand it I am doing my best not to cry in front of them. On multiple occasions I have almost lost it quite a few times and had to regain my composure before they noticed. I am in great fear for their safety when they are back with their father, the other fear is that we may never be able to speak to them again being cut off completely from them.

Sorry if bring anyone down with my issues, but I needed to say this somewhere. >_<

I do my best to never be down about things I have no control over, this is one of those things that I just can’t help but be upset. Lately I have not had the drive to do much at all, I am working hard to get back into my routine but it’s so difficult to do. I have been getting so much support from my friends and that helps so much and I love you all and can’t thank you enough for it. ^_^

Megaplex was so much fun I have to thank everyone that made it so amazing. At first I did not know how it was going to go, but I privileged enough to meet a bunch of new people and reconnect to some old friends after far too long. I hope i get to see you all again soon and once again I can't thank you all enough for making my first con so much fun, and all the good memories.

^_^

One happy armadillo here, I was trying to hit 5 miles in an hour on the treadmill today, but did so much better then I expected nearly hit 6 that made me so happy to hit my goal and to be so close to my next. I know to some it’s not much but for me it means quite a bit I have always been bad at setting goals and I can’t help but celebrate when I get to them.

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Your Existing Situation

"Creative and emotional, looking for ways to further expand those qualities. Looking for a partner who enjoys the same activities. Seeking adventure and new and unusual activities."
Your Stress Sources

"Seeks freedom and the chance to do as he wishes; avoids restrictions or things that try to hold him back. Feels an intense amount of pressure being put on him and would like a chance to escape in order to do the things he wants and needs to do for himself. However, he lacks the determination and motivation to escape and pursue his own personal gains."
Your Restrained Characteristics

Open and emotionally involved in relationships and easily finds satisfaction through sexual activity.

Emotionally distant even from those closest to him.

Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. He is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity.

"Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. He is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity, as long as there is not a lot of conflict or emotional difficulty."

Your Desired Objective

Very active imagination and may be prone to fantasies and daydreaming. Always dreaming of interesting and exciting things to happen to him. Is a charmer and wants to be admired for that.
Your Actual Problem

"Feeling tension and stress brought on by situations which are out of his control, leaves him feeling helpless, anxious, and in adequate. In order to build his self-esteem back up, he looks to others for recognition, respect, and encouragement. This can be a problem since he tends to blame others for his shortcomings. Searching for solutions that are geared toward his needs and self-consciousness."
Your Actual Problem #2

"Feeling held back and restricted from moving forward, looking for a solution that will give him more freedom and less obstacles."

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Strangely close aside from a few little things.

Taking an active role in making changes has always been my weak point always just letting what happens happen and doing stuff for others but not for myself. After putting myself out there more and talking to some of the amazing community here I have the found my drive and courage to make changes I should have long ago. Finally coming out to my loved ones it is sad it took me this long but it feels amazing to not have to hide a part of myself from them anymore. Doing a solid push to finish and get my degree I let my fears control me for way too long this is the end of that. I can already tell that I am going to be much happier then I have been in a long time and have a sense of pride I have not known for even longer.

Just some stuff I needed to get off my chest thanks. =)