I've been a captain of a sinking ship for far too long. Never navigating in the right direction, never making the better decision. That ends here, it ends now.

This is the time to find a way to break the fall, the time to find the cure for all.

Many seek suicide as a way out, they seek pain, and causing pain to others to deal with their own.

I am stronger than many, if not most. I have realized this. That hero?

That is me, to save myself from what I have become. The endless peril ends now, those endless haunts and fears set aside.

No one seems responsible, but I know who is. I constantly blamed the world for how I am.. but the real truth that I see now is I allowed myself to be bent like this. Overtime I took personality traits from those I knew, taking their strongest trait and adapting it for myself. This is what I did in the most painful and stressful moments.

That can't go on anymore, I am not me like that. The Legend I knew, I thought had been lost ago, never able to be retrieved. I was wrong, I am wrong.

I have not been stronger ever before, nothing like I am now. Constant pain beats at a person, eventually making them break in their own way. This is the result of me breaking? Restoring order?

It appears so.

Hope had been successfully undone. This is what I thought before. It wasn't undone, but it was unravelling on me. Losing hope and faith in too much. There is a limit of where hope should be placed, and where it shouldn't be taken from.

Someone who holds out a hand and turns back time. This is something I must become, I must do now. I must undo the damages over time to me, and those around me. Only to end the suffering.

Over a year of being present on Fur Affinity, and I finally find the light in the tunnel. The direction that I must follow.

I am moderately happy about this. Such as one gets about suicide once they figure a way out. I have found a way out of this suffering, but not suicide. I have to fix my way out, instead of breaking and running when it falls on me.
Legend wasn't destroyed in me. Only damaged, and lost. Finally finding my way once more,

I did and said some things yesterday.. that I really shouldn't have..

Yesterday was thanks giving... but I spent it hurt... upset.. depressed almost..

Wanted vengeance on those of why I am how I am..

Not much sleep, just an hour on and off ever few minutes..
I want to be tormented in my sleep... to forget it all..

I want to be broken... is there even a reason to have will anymore...?

Should I be afraid..?

Love.. it is such a strange thing... it does such strange things to people..
I used to be fearless... I wasn't afraid to die... I used to want to end it all..

Now.. things are much different...

The next few months.. I always hate.. hated them last year, and the year before.. aint gonna be any different this year.

Already been feeling quite bad for a bit now, recent events haven't been helping at all. Computer craps out yesterday, spent 6 hours trying to get it back online so I could talk to  FutureP.

I tried as quickly as I could, but despite the effort I got lip for it, and just the general event made it worse.

Better now I suppose. Something I am still not used to, I have always been a rebel, so I am not used to being controlled. Makes me angry when someone tries to tell me what to do... but there is nothing that can be done when someone you actually respect tells you what to do.

Did so on my old account, but got too occupied with everything else to actually finish it. This is a separate one from that. Current sona I have now, all for now.

Legend
Age: 20
Species: Human
Faction: None
Height: 6'2 Feet
Weight: 189 Pounds
Equipment: Arch Plate body, Arch Plate leggings, Colossus Long sword, Bvere Keep tower shield, Grandmaster robes
Gender: Male
Preferred Element: None

Always fighting with myself, with others.
Never had true friends.
Never had true peace in my life.
Never had true happiness.

Then I found Fur Affinity.
Then I found  FutureP
Then I found  Shadownin070 and Mik.

My year here so far, things have changed for me, by far. I have known Shadownin070 since we were children, but many people I know now are very new.

Times change, and lives being and end.
It is time to end my perils, and start mine.