September 3rd to October 18th 2025, I did something I've never done before - post every single day (and post twice for when I did miss a day) to get my art commissions FINALLY into my gallery. It has been incredible getting the amount of feedback, statements, and conversations from the art I post. I've been as diligent as I can in responding to comments, favorites, and the like. I'm completely blown away by the reception, and I'm very appreciative of all the kind comments and conversations with folks. ^.=.^

Since injuring my left arm about a week and a half ago at the gym, to then exacerbating my right arm and showing it too was injured from the same gym workout, I've refrained from putting stories in the posts or keeping up with my notifications. Rather than view myself no longer daily posting as a failure, I'm choosing to 'end' the streak on a high note. Of course, I will still be posting as I get art in, and there's still more in the backlog, but I have to take a break. While my arms are getting a bit better, whenever I try to be more online and type back and forth with people, my arms don't take long to start hurting once again. Admittedly, I have also been trying to simply self-care and be mindful of using them, however I think it's best I get some additional assistance and get a medical professional to do a once over - not that I have an issue in attending an appointment out of fear or anything as such; moreso, it's a 'mental spoons' thing for me.

That's all for now, much love.
Mlem! ^.=.^

This year on February 5th, during a session of Puzzle Monday that I co-host with others on the Discord server that  chaosthesalamander has, it was a rather down-day for me leading up to it: a crappy lunch I ordered that had to be thrown out due to being undercooked by the restaurant being the main kicker, and it being one I looked forward to, then coupled with just not feeling physically great that day.

I could barely function hours later despite having gotten something else for lunch. My mood was shot completely, and I couldn't snap out of the funk I was in. Hours later was the show, and I lasted all of twenty minutes before needing to take my headset off. I tried showerin', nibbling a small snack in-case I was hungry and not entirely realizing it, but nothing helped. Then having to answer a call from a family member as my vocal intonations are broadcasting I'm not in a good way - not that there's any issue with them and I, just didn't expect it and answering the phone like that was stressful.

So eventually I realize if I don't get out of my bedroom right now, I wouldn't. So I get up and back to my main room with my PC, and I tell my co-hosts I'm not doing great.
 amethystine being one of the co-hosts pings me on the side to ask what's up, and after a brief dialogue I suddenly felt something in me I had never before. I tell him I'm going to try something since it "feels more right here." I then feel myself slowly 'slipping back', and I start changing my profile picture and display name, and suddenly I'm not in my body, someone else is piloting! But I knew who it was as it was happening, and I knew it was going to be ok.

While he had only been a character in RP/ERP before, suddenly D.S. was fronting and engaging in the chat and call without issue. A good couple of hours of him fronting later, a thought came across that was much more from 'me'. I remember him smiling, and realizing that I had essentially woke up, and he gently handed the control back to me before slipping back. I can only describe it as being a very refreshing nap, and I was my usual bubbly self without any effort.
I never felt stress or a sense of being 'trapped', merely that he was helping out and well, he's here now. I remember thinking to myself if this was just me but being in-character, but I could watch and see his thought process, and his was very different than mine. First-reactions were completely different, and even voice!

We rapidly worked out basics the next day, and working together along with the help of some friends, we realized that we shared memory basically 100% along with other details that'll take a while to go through.
One detail to specify is that we don't really 'blend' at this point - it's either D.S. or I fronting, and that's it.

It's been nearly six months and we're both happy to be here together. ^.=.^

If you have questions, feel free to ask - though if you have a specific question to one of us, do make sure to specify whom you're asking.
Oh and yeah, there should be another announcement I make. I'll get to it eventually!~

I am extremely excited to announce that I am and have been working with  chaosthesalamander for a couple months now on the game development studio Defied Realities! ^.=.^

In working with Chaos and his team, I am writing transformation scenes in Shifter Labs 3 as well as assisting with commissions accepted (which you can check out here!
Shifter Labs 3 is being developed and updated constantly with new floors, scenes, and features.
You can check out a demo of SL3 here.

I have found that working alongside others and in an existing framework is what helped push me to finally start writing transformation short stories and scenes, beyond doing it in role-play. At this point I’m not accepting commissions, but I may revisit the decision in the future.
*Happy wiggles.* ^.=.^

Look, I had to do it. The title and context was just impossible to resist. ;.=.;


Forgive the long absence in posting anything on my page (though folks may have noticed new commissions in my favorites), but with this journal I'm here to end that long drought.
While it's not going to be chronological, I'll be trying to get things submitted into my gallery.

There's also an announcement I'll be making about a project and team I'm working with, but I'll be updating in a week or two on that. ^.=.~

Anyway that's all for now, and hopefully folks will enjoy what's to come! ^.=.^

*Wiggle.*

That's what younger me said when I first found the picture of the naga that would be known as Solidus (and henceforth referred to as such), and would eventually become my fursona.


At the time, I didn't even know what fursona meant.
I was just some guy coming off another 'picture' of a blue-feral Dragon and wanted a new character to RP as after taking a break from the community.

So get comfy, and get ready.


 Artonis made a rather devilishly handsome naga.
Taking a gander over it, I figured why not give that a go for a character to RP as.
So I did, not knowing the trap I had just set for myself later in life.

It was a blast; playing a big ol' snek and having a graaaand ol' time! Oh how popular he was and how much my writing improved, people met and fun things done.

"Woah you want to draw me? Oh, uh...sure!"

I had art of him. He was established; my only character. (Honestly I never was much on having multiple characters)

Now, fast-forwarding many years and many many many ^many RP/ERP sessions, scenarios, people, and what have you later:
"Wow, I'm really attached to this character....I think this really is my fursona."

*SNAP.*
But you took it. You don't own that character.
I fell into my trap that younger me set.
Full, blown, panic.

You might say to yourself:
"Bah who cares, it's whatever."

I cared. Suddenly, I realized just what I had done and felt like I didn't even own a massive part of myself.
It had always felt like the elephant in the room, but started as a minuscule thing....and over time, it grew and grew to this massive problem.

So with the help of someone close, I spoke to Artonis (whom I thought would just bite my head off; very easy-going derg' and cool guy) and told him truthfully what I'd done.
Paraphrasing here, but the naga was actually part of an art trade, for someone else....in 2005.

Thankfully, he was able to navigate me to the requestor's page on another art site.

Over the course of about three or four days, I talked to the original requester; told the truth and the whole thing.
Every single day it was like tiptoeing along a cliff. Am I going to have an asterisk next to everything I've done in my time as the naga?

The only reason anyone is reading this journal is because I was very, very lucky.
I was given the full rights to the naga with their blessings, and was now the owner of him.

That was just over a year ago.


To anyone new or experienced, young or old, here for the porn or here to make friends:

Don't do what I foolishly did.
Take the time to make a character, whether by your hand or someone you commission.
Make it yours, and breathe life into something new!
Go have fun! Do silly stuff! Do sexy stuff!

After all, it's not just a picture.