We just got the call that my Grandma Beth died this morning. She would have been 100 next month. I’m so heartbroken that she’s gone. At least we got to say goodbye to her yesterday.

But I can’t right now. All I want to do right now is cry and go back to bed. I wasn’t expecting her to go this soon. I just lost my grandpa in 2017 and now this.

I’m sorry but I won’t be active for a few day’s I need sometime to heal from this as I was really close to her.

I can’t believe she’s gone. And when I said goodbye to her yesterday I didn’t think it would mean for her to leave us today.

I miss her so much.

Here are some photos of her https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23487542/

Hello everyone I am in desperate need of money to pay for college. So with that being said I am selling a lot of my characters. If your interested in any of them please feel free to let me know. Also feel free to make an offer on them as well. I really just need them all gone. And there will be more where characters as well.

I will be adding the links to each character here but in the meantime here is a folder full of characters that I have up for offers http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....for-Sale-Trade

I will be updating this journal with more links to characters that I am putting up for offers. Also like I said before I am desperate for money but I will also except trades as well. Just keep in mind that if someone wants to pay for said character that your also interested in. I will be taking money over trades.

But please make offers and trades are also welcome. Just be prepared for me taking money first before a trade. Also if your offering to do a trade for one of my characters please make sure that you show examples of your art or what your offering. Thank you.

And lets get these babies adopted and give them some loving forever homes <3

I just turned 26 on the 9th. So to celebrate I was wondering if anyone would like to either do some art of my girl Honey who is a corbee which is part corgi and bee. And or my vintage corgi who’s name is Churro. He has to have pie eyes though.

Honey’s ref can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32667764/

Churro’s ref can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28347819/

Hey guys sorry for this post I normally don’t vent here unless it’s through art. But I tried that and I can’t even draw right now. I was going to draw churro or honey crying because I got some news I wasn’t expecting to hear. And I literally can’t stop crying as I type this right now.

My grandma on my moms side of the family is dying. I just got the call the day after my birthday that she fell and broke her hip and she’s not doing to well.

And unfortunately I’m not allowed to see her due to family drama and as punishment I’ll never be able to say goodbye.

So I’m definitely not ok right now. For those who are trying to message me I’m not ignoring you I just need space.

I’m hurting so much right now. I lost my grandpa in 2017 and he died right in front me. And now I have to deal with this. Why can’t the pain stop. I just want it to end or somehow get better.

I can’t lose her as well. I’m too close to her. She taught us how to make homemade ice cream when we were little. And among other things.

Why does it have to be so hard?

Does anyone have any bat characters for trade? I’m looking for a female bat character that I want to name marceline she will be named after Walt Disney’s childhood home which is Marceline, MO

I can also offer characters for trade as well which can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....for-Sale-Trade

And here https://m.facebook.com/cater.chalme.....8793028574117/

Also if you have any coati’s I’m looking for one as well.

I have made up my mind and i'm going to sale Tria. I'm looking to get $20 for her.

If your interested in Tria she can be found here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27829168/

So I’m thinking about selling my raptor character named Tria but it’s not official yet. So I just want to get an idea on how much you guys would offer on her?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27829168/

Like I said it’s not official but I’d like to know how much you would pay for her if I did sell her.

Hey guys want to play a game. I’m not sleepy yet and I want to draw. So I thought maybe you guys can help me by picking out what species I should draw, gender etc etc.

I might even raffle them off that’s if I don’t have an attachment to them.

I’m hoping I’ll get a lot of comments so each person can join in on this. That way all the ideas are coming from a lot of people instead of just one which makes it more fun.

How it will work is one person will suggest a species I’m mainly looking for real animals not mystical creatures although I do love mystical creatures.

And then the next will tell me color and so on. Each person has a say in what this character should look like.

So who’s up for some fun?

Hey guys I need money to save up for college so I’m selling a bunch of characters https://m.facebook.com/cater.chalme.....8793028574117/ (will credit each piece soon)

And here as well https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....for-Sale-Trade

I got some bad news I won’t be uploading any more digital art. That includes adopts on bases that I normally use.

Apparently my laptop is to old to connect to our internet so I’m without a computer right now.

I can’t color in lineart either so please don’t ask.

If you want art the only thing I can do is traditional and I can only upload from my phone.

Also I can’t upload on FA or DA either as my phone won’t let me so I can only upload here until I get a new computer whenever that will be.

Hello everyone I know its been awhile since I have done a raffle so to start it off

We are looking for members of this community with helping us come up with a name for our K9 mascot.

The k9 we are referring to can be found in our logo with Backbone. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27401537/

All you have to do is put your name suggestions down in the comments below. Also please only post one name so its fair. The one who has the most likes will win and that will be our mascots name.

The winner will also win some art of their character as well.

So what are you waiting for? You like free art right? Come on and enter this awesome raffle and lets find a forever name for this pupper.

Does anyone want to do a trade I need some help with a logo idea I have and I cant seem to get it right when I draw it out. So I thought maybe someone could help me and I could draw their character or characters for them in return.


If your interested please post an example of your art down below.

I want to practice my digital art style so I wanted to know if anyone would want some free vintage characters. If so comment down below on what animal you want and I will do the rest.

Also to get an idea of what I mean by vintage please visit Churro & Friends which can be found here https://www.facebook.com/LilChurro911/

If you don't have a Facebook you can find Churro & Friends here http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....Churro-Friends

Also please feel free to spam this journal as I have a love for creating vintage characters. <3

Anyone have a ArtFight and want to fight me?

I’m still trying to figure out how to fight people. Also I’m on team Dream❤️

https://artfight.net/~Backbone911

Hey guys you should check out this awesome raffle that  pumpkin_hyena is currently hosting right now.

You guys can check it out here by following this link https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31065376/

Hello I have been wanting a corgi bun character for awhile now and was wondering if any of you have this base https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26530318/ and if you guys do how much do you charge for a custom?

I have a design already in mind but I am looking for someone who would be willing to help me make a ref of my boy with the design I have in mind.

If you have the base and you take customs please post examples in the comments along with your prices as well.

Thank you so much and I can't wait to do business with you.

I am not exactly sure if I am allowed to vent here but if not then FA you can take this down.

I would post this on Facebook but as of recently that kinda caused the mess i am in to begin with that I am about to explain now.

And please before I begin explaining what happen don't criticize me on how I did things. I have pretty shitty as it is. I don't need to feel more like shit. I just honestly need some support right now from my followers. You guys are my rock and soul and I love you guys. <3

I am not sure how to start this as I am quite emotional typing this and I am not going to get into full detail either just because it's kinda personal. But I need your love and support right now as I am going through a mini crisis and I am quite scared.

I made a vent post on Facebook on Mother's Day complaining about how my mother and her fiance were treating me. In the post I was talking about a day we were in the car and my mom out of the blue said I have no friends and that I needed to get a life. I then told her that I did have friends on Facebook and other forms of social media. Her and her fiance started to verbally harass me in the car saying things like those are not your friends you never met them and chatting with them every day or night does not count.

So I said your saying a friend who stays up and chats with you every day every night is not a friend? A friend who sends you stuff in the mail or does gift art for you is not a friend? Or how about a friend who stays up all night with you and tries to help cheer you up or tries to help convince you that you do have a purpose here and that you matter is not a friend?

Their answer was no. They said a real friend is not one you chat with on a screen it's one you actually meet and have a relationship with.

I've mentioned some other things in my post that day because it honestly bothered me as both her and her fiance are both narcissist's.

It probably would have been best to tell this to her in person some might say. But if you have ever met my mom you would understand that she's not like most mom's how they are loving and kind and understanding to what you have to say.

No my mom is quite the opposite I can't tell her anything even though she says I can. And trust me I have tried to tell her many times how I feel and then she takes everything out of context and makes me feel even more worse then what I already was.

Anywho the post on Facebook has been deleted by yours truly only because a family member ratted me out ans screen shot it and showed my mom. To be honest I was actually happy that she saw it as she had it coming that was the only way she would find out how I felt without her taking things out of context. So I thought.

Your probably wondering who ratted me out? Yea that would be my own brother who is now not talking to me.

And that's not all he screen shot either he happen to screen shot a commit my cousin made about my mom's work. Which is classified by the way. But she had it coming because honestly he was just trying to stand up for me.

I've told her that she should honestly get a job that one she would love and enjoy then one she has to hide. I've also told her that she can't keep what she does a secret forever even how hard she thinks she can hide it the truth will eventually come out.

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Long story short after all this has happen my mother, her fiance, my brother , and his girlfriend have all stopped talking to me. Just because I vented.

And you think that's worse? No it gets way worse from there. Even before this happen my mom has been threatening me about getting rid of Bentley my dog. He's my child my fur child and he means the world to me. If anything happen to him I would probably die no joke.

Well it's been off and on with the threats from my mom about my dog. And since after this whole drama thing my mom sent me a bunch of messages to my phone taunting me about my precious boy. She sent me a photo of him in a cage that was to small for him. I showed a friend of mine on Facebook and he told me that's animal abuse.

She texted me saying he's crying and I told her to take him out. She told me that I am a horrible mother and that she's going to find a better family for him then what I was.

Oh and to top that all of she then sent me a huge ass email saying she's going to send lawyers after me because of my vent post. She's cutting me out of her will, selling all of my personal belongings that are at her house which I am not allowed to go get as apparently have a restarting order on me that i have yet seen.

Along with other things as well. I've sent screen shots of the email to my mom's sister (My aunt) and her two boys (My cousins) Who happen to be on my side with this. They said I have nothing to worry about with the email and that its all talk and no show. They told me that she's only doing this to scare me and that she can't handle the truth.

My Aunt also told me that my mom won't let this happen and it should not stay like this for long as I am my mom's only daughter. She also said that my mom just now reacted to this so that's why she is doing what she is doing.

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And I am not the only one they have stopped talking to. My mom, her fiance, my brother and his girlfriend have all stopped talking to my aunt and our cousins just because my cousin stood up for me in my post.

Apparently my mom things family standing up for other family members is bad thing and that all hell has to break because a family member stood up for me. Because what I said was true.

As of right now with my mom, her fiance, my brother and his girlfriend all giving me the silent treatment I have no news for you on Bentley. I'd like to stay positive and hope for the best. But as far as this has gone out of hand over one little post that could have gone a lot better. I hate to think the worst right now.

I haven't been sleeping much lately because of this and because of my Boy hoping he's still with us and not with another family. But chances are he probably is and he's probably waiting for me and he does not realize yet that he will never see me again. He's probably wondering what he did wrong and or wondering if I ever loved him. And wondering other things.

And what's worse is if he is actually gone the sad part is I never got to say goodbye. And I am hurting and very emotional right now just thinking about it.

!!!Free Art!!!

Who doesn't like free art? Anyways I am doing free art for those who donate to my fundraiser. The donation starts now and ends at the end of June. Also for each person that donates they will get free art you could get a head shot, bust, or even a full body it all depends on how much your willing to donate.

If you click on the link it will explain more. Your donation really matters and will make a huge difference. So thank you <3

https://www.facebook.com/donate/391276134811560/

Hello everyone Backbone and I have some exciting news for you all. Tomorrow is the start of a very special month for both Backbone and I. It Scoliosis Awareness month so as most of you know Backbone is an advocate for this awareness. This is a special month for me as well because I have scoliosis.

So starting tomorrow and up until the end of June I am hosting a donation pool for those who would like to donate money to NSF which is National Scoliosis Foundation. http://www.scoliosis.org/

For every person that donates will receive free art from yours truly. It can be a head shot, bust, or even a full body. It all depends on how much your willing to donate.

And the more you donate the more art you can get as well.

If you donate:

$1 to $9 you can get a headshot or bust.

$10 and up. you can get all three a headshot, bust, and a full body.

If you would like to donate please go here https://www.facebook.com/donate/391276134811560/

Having friends suck. I rather just have no friends at all so no one can hurt me. I have been crying since 8pm and it's now 10:33pm.

I guess there's no such thing as having a true friend or best friend or whatever you want to call it.

Once again I have been betrayed. Someone who I trusted with my life and called a best friend as they would do anything for me. We even chatted every day and every night.

But never in my life did I think they would turn on me and betray me.

This is why I hate this fandom even more with a passion. I am sick and tired of me getting hurt all the time by fake people who pretend to be my friend.

I am done. Stop using me. Stop taking advantage of me. I don't need fake people.

If your on my list and your intentions are to be a fake person or anything I just listed now is the time to get off of my list. You know where the door is.

It's hard enough that I can't even make friends in public. Not even at work. Yea I have friends but not like friends where you hang out after work etc.

Do I want friends yea but it's hard to make them. Hell when I first joined this fandom it was so easy to make friends left and right but after all the drama and pain and sorrow that this fandom has caused me it's been hell making friends. Because I am the one always getting hurt. So deep in my mind I am scared to make friends because I am scared they will end up like the fakes and then once again I will get hurt.

So I kinda just keep to myself when it comes to stuff out side of work.

Hello everyone I have a bunch of characters still up for trade and or for sale.

I am looking to get a custom dutchie made for whichever character you want that is in this folder. http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....for-Sale-Trade

If your able to draw skulls and bones like skeletal things then I would really appreciate your help designing my new boy.

Please make sure you post examples of your skeletal work as I would love to see examples.

And thank you so much. This really means a lot to me.

I can give you a basic description of what he will look like in PM as well.

Is anyone open for fursuit bandana commissions? I am looking to get a green bandana like this with the words Scoliosis Awareness imbrodrized on it in white.

Please make sure you post your prices and examples as well. Thank you so much.

Concept design by myself http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31225945/

Does anyone have any gray or gray and white dutchie adopts?

Hey guys I won’t be as active or talkative today. This morning we lost our cat Zorro and I’m really emotionally hurting. He was a good cat and lived a good life.

But not having him here is going to feel different. He’s up in heaven now with my grandpa and my other dog who’s name is Pongo.

I’m going to draw Backbone with him later taking him up to heaven. Or something like that.

So if I don’t respond I’m sorry but I just need some time and space to myself. Thank you.

Has anyone ever had a family member that they were super close to and all of a sudden they shut you out of their lives with no explanation as to why. They just leave you hanging wondering what you did wrong.

Well if you have I need some advice as I am sadly currently going through that. A family member who I was close to and looked up to. Even considered him my hero/idol. Shut me out of his life and I can't help but wonder if I did something wrong. I don't even know if he hates me or if he loves me anymore.

I am emotionally hurting and this all happen on Sunday and I am still hurting and still crying. Idk what i did wrong. Why would he shut me out? we were close so I thought.

I feel so lost and empty inside. I don't even think he knows how I feel. I am so confused.