just a remember im out of town for a few days be back wesday i hope. so ill have the net for a few days befor the move saterday

iv got to go out of town tomarrow for a few days to get the new place cleaned and ready to move in.. im hopeing to be back Wesday. to do the last of the packing and setting up to move wesday night and thursday. Friday is bill paying day and packing and hopeing resting some and Saterday is moveing day...

ill be moveing the 30th and the 1st on the month so this is my last few weeks with being here befor the move i dont have net wher im going and i dont know when ill have it if ever there isnt any DSL wher im going its 180 a month there and i cant pay that right now so ill be here far in few


If you want my cell number so you can stay in touch with me u have umlimted texting and free calling after 9pm you bettter hurry and get it time is short

i just got home iv got 78 J and 111 S so if youv poststed something and want me to see it note me or give me a shout

somethins came up and iv got to leave t onight to go to my moms shes in trouble i dont know when ill be back itl be in no more than a few days a week i hope

my mom callled at the ass crake of daylight ...


she and my step dad want me to move down by them befor the middle of next month befor school starts back up... so that wer not moveing in the middle of the school year .... i think the school there would be a lot better. IDK but iv heard good thinks around it... and id be like 5 sec from my mom ... iv know iv been wanting to move but this is WAYY sooner than i had though its be and im nirves as hell.....

im liveing with family now but all we do is fight and fight and scream at each other. he yells and bitches about what the lil ones doo all the time.... but i have more money here..

moveing would be less stress. LESS money but more freedom. less screaming, less fighting, i like never fight with my mom and step dad, only had a few issues with them ever.......

my ricky loves us to death and i though would do anything he could for us thats new for me on that on anyone giveing a shit about the 3 of us.... and its a step dad so ya........

The trailer im in now is Bowing up and faling apart the floors are roteing out the land lord WONT fix them .. i dont think he cares...


i really dont want to move but i think it would be for the best... i dont think iv ever EVER done anything my mom has said but for once -knock on wood- i think she may be right about us moveing to the hill with her and rick......

i ran over my sons boxer{his dog} going to town he folloed the car and i didnt know it .....

im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bbbbbbbored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i went to my moms on the 3rd they had a big bbq my step dad cooked and i got talked into helping like always and than of corse i baught some little fire works for the kids and everyone is like well we cant do anything so i had to help get bigger stuff for everyone else that was like 85$ of MY money on everything and than HAD t help dig and buarry a water pip and dig up rocks the size of your head so like 20 pound rocks . {i remember you i have a plate in my left wrist} so ya that was lots of fun -.- helped build part of a chicken pen


Took my car to the shop tusday got it back wesday {as you can see its when i got home} and had to pay for that Alone when my mom and stepdad primased to pay half of it, they didnt.. so that was 514$ SOOO ya im way past my spending limet here...

its going to be a long hard month for us hopefuly i can sell some stuff
if you want to help note or take a look at this stuff.
iv also got a 360 power cord i could sell but for home much and to who ? idk..


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1451725/



1 :42 Pm Edit add another 100$ to all that had to take baby girl to the hospitle
> <

iv been gone for nearly a week so if ther is someting you wanted or needed me to see and i didnt see it let me know and ill look ^.^

i wish i could hate you but i cant. i wish i didnt love you but i do.... i wish i could forgot you but i cant.... why cant i just hate you.. it would be easer if icould...

I still need t oget one > <....

as some of you may have seen im Home how and im still really tired from the ride home, i took The grayhound buss which was cool but from dallis to longfiew and the buss Traz blew up and caught on fire SOO i was stuck on the side of the road with the buss full of people tryin to get home... iv got only a few pics seing all i had was my phone XD but ill post them and maybe when i rest some ill get to posting a few pics i took with my phone of the colorada montens too

Im leaving thrusday for 2 to 3 weeks , which is a good think becae i just got in a huge fight with smeon that means a lot to me today so hopefull this brake will be good. i dont know how much or if any time i will be on the net so just note me or whatever and ill get backto you when i can





dont forget about the suff i got for Sell or im willing to do trades on them ..
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1451725/

Iv came across sme things that iv desides is time to go, so ill be takeing pics and adding them to this list.. Of corse if my waches get tired of it.. i will thak them i mind and will stop addeing to it if they get unhappy about it... Ill be willing to Work out somekind of Trade on pretty much anyting that i add here... All i ask is that if there is no price posted to either ask or make an offer im willing to work out something ... Also im on bead Pets. so they take time to do and add.. When making an offer keep in mind That i have to Ship this stuff to you and stamps alone are ike 50C so no icant sell you something for a 1$ itll take more than that just to get it ready to mail...


I ask that you help to please help me get this out if you dont mind Thanks!

1}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3944571/ shells { might trash }
2}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3944579/ silver flowers /miss [ might trash}
3}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3944583/ oil and ele { might trash}
4}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3926997/ Angel blacket
5}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3927246/ Shirt 1
6}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3926992/ shirt 2
7}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3947326/ charms
8}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3950141// butterfly{gone}
9/http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3953724 bunny {gone}
10}http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3957205/ Dragonfly {gone}

OOOOk i just spent over an hour with my printer/scaner its DEAD so iv to get a new one.. . so i need like 200$ish for a GOOD one i just went though my stuff and i dont think i have any thin woth any falue i could sell to get a new one righ now so im a little annoyed

i want a ref sheet for lilly it would be soo sweet if i could get one > <

GO here to read more .

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1426351/

im Sooo bored, tell me of some goo games or somthing todo onte pc, the gamecube, ps2. 360 Ds. wii, im more into the RPGs but i like all kinds of stuff i dont like "sports"

LAst few months iv had More bad dreams than iv ever though was even possable.. Well last night i mangen to an OK sleep but i guess i slept a little funy i woke up a few times with my back and neck hurting but than feel back to sleep and was doing ok...


BUT i woke up to something that nearly made my heart just stop ......... i woke up to a blood curling scream . of MOMMMY help ... i roll over and my 5 year old's face and shirt is corved in think red blood...... from him wakeing up with a nose bleed.... that was a first

i woke up in a Pretty good mood dont happen to offten for me really im justly just so so or more of a i dont give a ... mood... but withine the last few mines i just feel really blah but still in kind of a happy mood , messed up right idk.....i read a journal from someone i watch on here , right off i dont think he watches me. lol. anyway ... it got me to thinking out of all the people i know how many are REally my freinds. how many are just" kissing ass" for idk what the hell they would get from me by doing that, and how many freinds are not trutly freinds and im just a time killer when there bored ? Its funny this came up today when 2 people i looked at as a friend the othe i simifriend showed there true colors and i pretty well told them to F off... and here on FA i know so very few and the onesi do know i swear we never talk anymore not like we used to .... and the rest that watch me i wonder way i have no art skills i never really post anything other than me bitching about something so im not sure why.. . some of the poeopel i held as close have stoped talking to me when i changed and stoped doing some of the things i was soo was they freinds or only usely me to helpthem selfs are maybe just busy? 99% of everyone wont read this for ehat e ver reason and if they do wont comant, FA is for art and i dont do art i could;t if my life depended on it so. depending on how things go from this post i may just stop writing here and find somewher else to go.. and just fav art and say nothing more .... not like me not being here would be anykind of a loss to anyone.


Funny i got on here to ask about songs for an mp3 player im going to get in 2 weeks and it never was even talked about lmao

i got this from  BloodyxSerenadeicon


[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
x[ ] You own a credit card.
[x ] You know how to change the oil in a car.< doest me i do it ^^ >
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[ x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting.

TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[ ] You show up late for work (classes) a lot.
[x ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[x ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[] You like to take walks by yourself.
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[ x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn.
[] You study even when you don't have to.
[x ] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ x] You have filed a tax return
[ x] You have used a pay phone
[ ] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[ x] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[x ] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[ x] You still have and use a VCR

TOTAL AGE: 23

i hate when people tell you and preomase they will help you than dont.... my dad usely buys food atlest 200 at the begain of the month, but he didnt this time becae he blew it on WHAT? idk

i hate that i was told to be at the dentis at noon but i had to come early i got there at 11 30 and my son didnt get seen tile 1 and was in ther for 15 mins to get a crown replaced...

i hate the fact i have to go BACK friday at 2 becase its the kids cheek up and cleaning which will be ther for ever..

ialso hate when people say youl lget payed and than you dont.. ill be payed on the 1st? maybe .. which means i have no money to get food for the house for the next 2 weeks .. when wev been straching what we had from not getting food on the 1st as it was.. so a month without being able to go buy any grostrys .....

I stole this idea from  Lieka :)


So I'm wondering how you guys found me. What made you watch me. And what keeps you around? :3

Tell me~

I really want to know.

::WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...::


I died:

I kissed you:

I fell:

I lived next door to you:

I showed up at your house unexpectedly:

I stole something:

I was murdered:

I cried:

I asked you to marry me:

I was hospitalized:

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Family:

Smile:

Voice:

::WOULD YOU::/

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?

Keep a secret if i told you one?

Hold my hand?

Study with me?

Cook for me?

Love me?

Date me?

Have sex with me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?

Wanted to kiss me?

Wanted to kill me?

Broke my heart?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?

Hated me?

Wanted to tell me something but didn't?

Wondered about my sanity?

Wanted to do something to me?


::More::

When and how did we meet?

Describe me in three words.

What was your first impression of me?

What do you think of me now?

What reminds you of me?

Could you see us together forever?

When's the last time you saw me?

Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?

Do you care?