I know I'm a bit late signing up, but it wasn't until I talked with one of my favorite artists that I decided to try.

I'm officially set up for Patreon, and while I don't expect anything, I'm excited to say I've taken the step! I've been having some good vibes about my art career recently (despite feeling a bit down about it) and it looks like there may very well be a chance for me. I'd like to use Patreon as a baby step to making a living off of art solely.

http://www.patreon.com/padmabhujaga

I'd like to thank everyone who has gotten me this far with your kindness, patience, support, and encouragement. <3

So as with my last journal entry, I'm taking further steps in this process of renewal and want to extend an open invitation to my watchers and supporters here.

I have a blog dedicated to open writing about my life and self that will also be updated with some photos. I'm working on being more open and upfront about myself, so if you're interested the blog can be found here - http://thornmarred.tumblr.com/

To accompany that I've created a twitter that will be updated fairly frequently with photos from my day to day life, random quips, and other such things - https://twitter.com/thornmarred

Again, thank you for your continued support, patience, and encouragement. <3
-Nezmuth

”I think you have to know who you are. Get to know the monster that lives in your soul, dive deep into your soul and explore it.” - Tori Amos
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The past few months of my life have been utter and complete hell, but it is lessened and much more bearable by having the amazing people in my life that I do. Life has a way of showing you just who you need and who you are through fire and ice.

I've scars, both literal and metaphorical, and while the ones on the flesh have healed the deeper ones on the heart and soul will take time to heal. In time I hope to be able to be back to the me I'd worked so hard to be comfortable with, the me that strived for self and surround to be at peace. Right now I am but a fraction of that, relearning self-confidence, taking baby steps back to the beginning with a new perspective on life and the world around me.

The people that know me know me as the person they see within and not what someone tells them to believe or taking me for face value. I am more than the conjecture that is hanging about me, I am more than the armor and defenses I've built around myself – I am at my greatest behest only Me. Take me or leave me for what and who I am or take your leave, this I've learned. I thank my friends and family for being the ones to help me realize that this hell isn't forever.

Thank you, all of you.

While I am still on the mend, a lot has happened, much of which I won't get into, though the biggest is finally having a full time job working as a Book Seller. It is rewarding and wonderful, absolutely perfect for me, and couldn't have come at a better time. While the 40hr a week swing shift does slow down my ability to do art tremendously, I have been able to start really creating again. Art is soulful for me again, its returned to that place in my heart it never should have left. And with the changes to myself, it too, has taken on a change of its own.

In due time there will be something up to reflect all this change, but for the meantime, the most evident changes are just within sight. A fresh start, a fresh face – I am renewed.

-Nezmuth

So much has happened – good, bad, and ugly.

Life has a funny way of teaching lessons and testing limits. Its been a trial emotionally, mentally, physically, its been hard. Things have changed, things are still changing and I'm not sure what the future holds. It was hope at one point but it wasn't a guarantee, but its been something – a goal, I wanted.

Right now, what's best for me is to go on a leave, to take time for myself away to reevaluate my life, choices, and purpose. In the end of things I put myself in this situation and now I have to walk away for not only my health, but overall well-being. Saying goodbye has never been easy for me, I never want to, but what is right is never easy.

I admit my failings, my short comings, and need for something more than myself. I admit that I need help and I have put aside everything to ask for it at my lowest self.

I am at the lowest I've been in life and up is all that is left. I pray to the gods that I can manage that.

To all my friends, family, acquaintances, commissioners, watchers, commentators, lurkers, supporters, and the online community that has allowed me here – Thank you. Thank you for sticking around, thank you for all of your support both past and present.

Art will be slow, slower, while I get my life and affairs in order. For those with my personal contact information, you can contact me during this time I'll be gone. My commission email will be put into vacation mode for the next few weeks and notes will be turned off. I will still be checking and favoriting from time to time, but overall I will not be spending my days online until I am in a better state.

It takes a tremendous amount of what's left to say this, so goodbye for now, but not forever.

-Souls

So while I said I was going to open for IA, I'm still not quite up to the challenge yet in the midst of some personal life stuff... HOWEVER, if you're still interested in soulful and beautiful art, please visit  crypsis

They are offering GORGEOUS Iron Artist pieces and have been shockingly unfilled in the slots department! For more information please go here - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4715730/

If you cannot afford a slot, be so kind as to journal and spread the word! They need way more attention and I'm not saying that as a bias, but from an artistic peer standpoint.

Thank you loves! <33333

Hello darlings~

Well as of Sunday around 7ish I landed back in America and left behind my wonderful babus and Canada. ; n ; *le sigh* We'll hopefully be seeing each other again later this year, so here's hoping!

Now that I'm home, and charged up to work, I've actually been playing with the idea of trying to do Iron Artist commissions. I've got themes and styles in mind for each group/round, the only problem is is if anyone will be interested. So I'm asking!

With costs ranging between $10 to $15 for the work done, would anyone be interested? If I get enough feedback I'll open up for IA sometime in the next week~

The greatest birthday wish that came true is making it not only to age 26 without too much incident, but spending it with my  firenze and  crypsis~

Only bummer is that my health insurance is nil as of today so here's hoping that I don't need another surgery or anything any time soon. @ x @

*eats birthday pizza for breakfast*

Hey darlings~

Well its been a little over a week since surgery and I'm getting to feeling better. Still sore at the incision sites but they're closed up nicely and the after surgery bruising is starting to clear up! Still on soft foods only until this Friday and then I can go back to solids, of course, the first week was nothing but liquids. @ n @ I have to say pain aside and itchy "stitches", I'm feeling 3 times better than I have physically in the past year and half, which is definitely a plus. Its a relief from being in constant pain, let me tell you.

That said, I'm getting back into art steadily. I did a few adopts to pick myself up and dust off and I'm getting back to commissions today. Thank you everyone for your patience, its greatly appreciated! <333

-Souls

Hello lovelies~

Yes, you read right, medical hiatus again. I'm having surgery this Friday (nothing terribly major, but important still) and will be down for a little bit during recovery. I currently have one commission in queue and they've been contacted as well, so my bases are covered currently. Art in general has been slow from me just because I haven't been well and have been horribly busy. I can't make promises but I will hopefully be back up to snuff soon!

Take care!
-Souls

Hey darlings!

Just checking in between work, art, and general busy that is my life. o u o I'm happy to announce that my work is part of a show called Women, Queens, & Goddesses that opened this past Saturday here in Columbus. I am one of six featured artists that is part of this exhibition and spotlighted on the Facebook event! :D

If you're in the Columbus, Ohio area this Saturday stop by and say hello! The Artists' Reception is from 7pm to 9pm with live music, food, and drink! I'll be there mingling/dying of social anxiety and stuffing food in my face! :D

For more information on the exhibition please visit the event page - https://www.facebook.com/events/227.....675557/?ref=22

-Souls

Hello loves!

My long time friend,  okorihori, who is absolutely amazing, is open for commissions! Take a gander at their page and also check out the fresh commission info here - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:32180507

I've always loved Okori's art and over the years its just gotten better and more detailed and wonderful! Definitely hit them up for commission work if you have the money! :D I HIGHLY recommend it!

thejeweledhorn is doing a sign up call out for both artists and models for a wonderful project meant to show the beauty in every body. Pun intended. If you're interested please pay a visit to her journal and possibly sign up! Spread the link around guys!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4327146/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4327146/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4327146/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4327146/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4327146/

For beauty and love!
-Souls

Well, it was sort of a bust as my brain is still tired but my body seems to have rebooted and restored. x n x You can't win everything I suppose, but with that said I'm getting back to work so there will be commissions coming soon.

Speaking of commissions I am going to be revising and redoing my prices for 2013 to better help work with my personal schedule and health. All changes that are being made with NOT EFFECT current paid commission work or work that is in queue and approved.

Well off with me, there's work to be done.
-Souls

Hey guys, finally reporting in after the big move and Ohayocon.

Unfortunately its not with the best of news currently. Went to a doctor today and was told I'm on the tail end of a nasty bug (Wednesday was spent barfing and hugging a toilet) as well as suffering exhaustion. I'm out of work for the weekend and will be laid up for the next week just trying to rest and let my body recoup.

For all those waiting on work for me, I'm so so sorry! I've pretty much run myself down and this is what happens. But I can promise you as soon as I can get up I'll do my best to start cranking out quality work for you~

Right now I'm just going to lay here and attempt to shut off my brain so I can actually relax enough to rest.

-Souls

For all those hitting up Ohayocon this weekend look for me in Artist's Alley! :D
I'm not sure as of yet where my table is but I'll be there selling buttons, stickers, framed originals, prints, and commissions! :D Stop on by to say hello and on Saturday (as fair warning for in-character behavior) a certain Avenger will be there manning my table. As well as AlwaysAleila and Lindsay (I can't remember your dA name ajfskfjsklfs) hanging out with me! Hopefully this weekend will be a blast like it has been in past years~

In other news, I'm moving tomorrow HA! It figures that'd I'd herpderpaly schedule a move two days before one of my biggest cons. x n x Luckily for me all I need to do is print a few more prints and cut them down to size. With that said, I most likely won't have internet until sometime next week. T n T

Until then, take care loves!
-Souls

We're happy to announce (and late on my part) that javacatsstudio is proud to release its latest portfolio, Winter Wonderland (link below)!

~Java Cats Studio presents Winter Wonderland Portfolio - Click Here~

This is a Digital portfolio available for purchase at the link above! By purchasing this folio you are stating that you are 18 years old or older. After payment please allow up to 24 hours for email delivery of the portfolio!

This portfolio has 21 colored images with a Winter/Holiday theme featuring both male and female pinups with an additional 6 female/male pieces and 1 male/male piece. Please visit the studio's FA page for teaser images - http://www.furaffinity.net/user/javacatsstudio/


There are 6 different artist who have worked on this portfolio, their usernames are:



Happy Winter Season~!

As fate would have it I am returning to the "Time of Great Sorrow" aka Indiana for the holiday~

I'll be internet-less until Monday afternoon when I get back to Columbus. While I'm there I am going to spend the entire six day span loving all over my dog who can't live with me because my apartment is ass and doesn't allow dogs. :I

Anyway, have a great holiday, see you guys later!
-Souls

Since my commissions have all dried up, I figured I'd offer something new to try out!

I am offering two and only TWO (for now) Art Nuevo Style Pinup Commissions!
This particular type of commission is inspired by the works of Alphonse Mucha with some added flair. Each piece has a wide range of color, texture, and overall design which makes each one unique and dynamic, no two are the same! The pricing for these is $60 USD for a single character. Check out the examples below~

Examples
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8823047/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8904603/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9207952/

I can do human and any sort of animal (mythical or real life) or character you might have, so its no problem at all.

In order to get one of these slots EMAIL ME if you send me a note via FA I WILL NOT read it. The note system here is not easy to keep track of and email is much faster and more efficient. Again, EMAIL ME if you are interested. My email address is soulspoison[at]gmail[dot]com, this is also my paypal email.

In the email please fill out this short form so I have all the information I need so your commission can be completed quickly!

Pinup Commission Order Form
Username: Your username and a link to your account on which ever site you are from. i.e. Furaffinity, Deviantart, Y-gallery, etc.
Email address: This is the address you want your commission sent to
Desired Theme: Please specify the type or theme of clothing you'd like your character in. And if there is a specific culture or cultural dress you'd like your character in include it here as well. I also allow the option of "Surprise Me" so if you would like to be surprised, then type in only that.
Description (Character, Theme, Mood, Pose, etc.): Please be as detailed as possible about what you would like your commission of or to be. Please include sufficient references be it color or black and white.

Once you've filled out this form, email it to me and I will get back with you asap. :D I will accept payment before I begin work and do commissions in the order accepted.

The usual turnaround time for these is about a week so please be patient and do not comment on my page or email me asking where your commission is. If you badger me about where your commission is I will refund you your money and you will get nothing. Its common courtesy.


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Typically when it comes to my art I'm fairly open about the pieces in their descriptions and in the responses if a question is asked, I honestly don't mind it and its always appreciated that people want to know the deeper workings behind what I do.

However, there have been pieces that I've been doing as of late (some posted, some not) that have taken such a drastic turn from what I usually do. The past 6+ months have been... harrowing to say the least. A lot of change, both good and bad, stagnation, depression, hopelessness, etc. Everything that I've been unable to express during this time, I internalized.

The resulting pieces, namely the series called "Inkwell", are my release. My externalizing everything I can't say and don't want to vocalize. I feel that as an artist I should have a few of these posted with my main work as they're definitely a part of me and what I do. My only hang up is that FA does not have a "comment disable" option, which makes this difficult.

I do not post the Inkwells as a "cry for attention" or to worry anyone, I post them above all for myself - to let the world see that when I can't speak my art will for me. I do not look for comments, sympathy, or prayers; this is just my way of letting it out.

While I appreciate every favorite and comment I've gotten on these personal pieces, please understand that I do not intend or mean to be rude by not commenting back. I feel that my saying "thank you" on a piece that has a lot of emotional turmoil feels.... awkward. I'm not sure how to really explain that, but please, PLEASE understand that your words aren't falling on deaf ears.

I want every watcher, lurker, commenter, viewer - all of you- to know that I appreciate your support and your love. I am just really bad at words right now.

In a few short hours I'll be catching a plane up to Canadaland to see my darling  firenze and  crypsis~

I'll be traversing through the woods and eating them out of house and home for the next two weeks before returning to Amurika. :D I won't be online much at all except to check emails, so if you need anything please contact me via EMAIL ONLY!

Take care loves!
-Souls

So it came to my attention this morning that my soulspoison.com domain name has been sniped! Very displeased and uber ragey about it, but not all hope is lost. I've been toying with the idea of using my professional studio name as my domain instead of my dA handle, and now's as good a time as ever to move ahead with that change! It'll be a couple of days before my site is back online and running since it needs to transfer over, so I'll make an update once the move is complete~ :D

I'm just super cheesed that this happened RIGHT after a big con and people have my card with the old domain on it. :| At least my email is on the cards too so they can contact me that way, I hope. It also sucks because I have a ton of business cards left with that url uuuuuuuugh *sobsobsobsob*

In better news, all of the jewelry and mystery grab bags I didn't sell at AWA is being put up on my etsy! So keep an eye out on that if you're interested in grabbing up some clearance priced merch!

That's all for now, I'm off to do laundry and work on commissions~
-Souls

AWA this year was amazing because of the wonderful people I was surrounded by and all of you lovelies that stopped by! ; ; This was seriously one of the best cons of the year for me and I thank each and every one of you for that. Sales were waaaay better than last year, and the crowd was unbelievable on Friday AND Saturday, heck even Sunday was super busy! Honestly I couldn't be happier with how the weekend went~

And of course, shout out time~

nut-case - Case is the best tablemate in the history of tablemates, and I could not ask for a better person to con with. I absolutely love her beyond reason of word, and Caseyface, I want you to know that my life would be less awesome if you weren't in it. Thank you for everything! PARTY ALPACA.

nekomancerbob - *rubs your head and smooshes Claire against your face* AH LAVE YEW. ; ; You are one of the sweetest human beings I know and I'm about 95% sure you're made completely out of sugar.

Cara & Shivana - The amount of words I do not have to express how honored and thrilled I am to have met and been table neighbors with you fskfjsdl Cara, you are just an amazing person, like, super amazing like a bag of kittens with super powers and magic wands. And Shivana omg, I love you and your amazing art and ajkfsjls LSP FOREVER ; u ; You are both just wonderful and I hope to see you again next year!

Claire - Thank you so much for the wonderful trades and just generally being adorable and sweet! It was so nice tabling next to you too and I hope I see you again! I NEED TO FIND YOUR FACEBOOK.

dmillustration - BABY. BABY DON'T HURT ME. DON'T HURT ME. NO MORE~ *shot* The fact that I finally got to torment your face in person is like Christmas with a box full of puppies and kittens and little baby squid. I hope you know now that I will never leave you alone. Ever. /creep

Don - YOU. ME. HANGOUT. ART PARTY. MANDATORY. >:| But seriously, its hella good to see you again, you were missed!

Ohmonah - It was SO nice meeting you and thanks a billion for the buttons and print! ; u ; I still totally owe you freebies~

And to all the artists and good folks that did trades, visited, talked, etc. with me fjslfjls I love you! It means the world and you helped make this con a massive success for me in so many ways~ ; u ;

Additional shout outs to Shy, Coey, Jing, Angela, Zach, Jenn, Goma Studios, Rei & Odin, 021, Jezebel Blue, Cogs and Creatures, Tamarik, Tea at 2am, MyNameIsMad, Vestien and Policeghost, iceheartt and alchemypuppy, Mythos Graphics, Tea Gypsy, Sonnie, Yad, the wonderful staff of AWA (security especially!), and some of you whose names evade my scattered brain! <33333

Thank you all so much for making this a good time!

-Souls

Its that time of year again!

Time to load in the car with the gang and make the trek down to Atlanta for Anime Weekend Atlanta! :D I'll be tabling with my amigo ladyface, redpandacase at table D02 in Artists Alley! Stop by and say hello if you're going! And for those of you that can't make it, have a wonderful weekend~!

P.S. And just a preemptive strike announcement I will be going on vacation for two weeks starting October 8th to see my crypsis and firenze~ <333333

-Souls

Well, not a single bid on the Stilted Sphinx auction, so I'm just gonna offer it up as an adoptable for $20.

Can't say that I'm not disappointed, was really hoping this one would find a home. :T Oh well..

Hey guys, here's another auction and not a single bid yet, so you've still got a chance to snag this cutie~!

Stilted Sphinx (Wye) - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8858066/

Rules and Info for Bidding
The winner of the auction gets rights to the character in its shifted and quad forms. The winner has the right to add accessories (i.e. jewelry, tattoos, scars, etc.) as well as determining the gender. The winner MUST keep the design the same in regards to markings, color, etc., again, they are free to add to the design the above mentioned "accessories". If you win the auction and fail to pay within two days after its end, the character will go to the second highest bidder. Paypal is the only accepted payment for this auction! Serious bidders only please!

Comment on the submission to place your bid!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8858066/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8858066/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8858066/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8858066/


Bidding Start: $15
The minimum amount to bid is $1, if you are outbid, I will let you know.

!!!Bidding Ends Friday, September 21th, 2012 at Midnight US Eastern Time!!!


Good luck! And thanks for your interest! 8D