У меня есть 3 варианта на который я могу сейчас сосредоточится; Первый это анимация Мастера Чифа которую я на половину доделал, вторая это сделать быстрый 3D рендер в блендере и третий это сделать рисунок в фотошопе. Чтобы вы хотели увидеть?

Вот ссылка на опрос: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

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I have 3 options that I can focus on now; First is the animation of Master Chief which I am halfway done, the second is to make a quick 3D render in blender and the third is to make a drawing in photoshop. What would you like to see?

Here is the poll: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

Я понял что вы ждете арты про фетиш, это ясно, но про кого тогда? Вам интересны большие парни которые беспощадно топчут города и крох или вы хотите видеть как великанши терроризируют всех своими ногами?

Ссылка на опрос: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

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I understand that you are waiting for fetish art, that's clear, but who then? Are you interested in big guys who mercilessly trample cities and micros or do you want to see giantesses terrorizing everyone with their feet?

Link to the poll: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

Я думаю что вы как донатеры и подписчики, люди которые просто интересуются моими работами имеет права высказаться на тему того, что мне позволит привлечь ваше внимание и продолжать меня поддерживать. По этой причине я провожу этот открытый опрос, чтобы понять чем мне лучше заняться. Я бы мог бы сам решить это, но я всё-таки хочу больше привлечь внимание к своим работам.

Вот ссылка на опрос: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

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I think that you, as donors and subscribers, people who are simply interested in my work, have the right to have a say, in what i need to create next to attract your attention and continued support of me. For this reason, I am conducting this open survey to understand what I should do next. I could actually decide it for myself, but I still want to attract more attention to my work.

Here is the poll: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=dialog

This document you read now, is offocial my last will, i wrote this document in myself full awareness and normal psychic state.
This document doesn't have any legal or binding obligations and only rests on the readers moral choose to comply with the request written here.

My name is Krist or as many people know me by my internet pseudonym "SovietFuturistic"

I'm an artist that have made the universe called "One Way Ticket" and all it's characters and story. I have spend my entire life on this project, hoping to one day to materialise my imaginary friends, who were there to help my mentally, in my most stressful and depressing times of my life. I had idea to give people reason to be interested in my characters, so they would continue to live on in the memories of these people, even after i long time be death and unable to draw these characters anymore. This is my main objective in life, to longer the life span of my imaginary friends, because i can't create a true family.

In face of latest events i'm no longer sure if i'll be alive by the end of this year or next decade, i might die for any misfortunate event, war, illness, suicide, anything, thus i' making this testament document to ensure at least a slight, miserable chance that work of my life is still may be complete. Like i mentioned in the beginning of this document, compliance to it demands only on personal wish to do so and doesn't bind you to anything.

Here is my last will:

If i'm Krist (SovietFuturistic) will not make in a span of time of ONE year any online post, artwork, journal, video any online activity on my two main social accounts, that is DeviantArt and Furaffinity (https://www.deviantart.com/sovietfuturistic and https://www.furaffinity.net/user/sovietfuturistic). I'm presumed dead, and no longer able to make anything. Thus You the person who read my last will, even if you aren't an artist, profession painter, 3D designer, or at all person of art, you must make ANY (context doesn't matter) art of my main character: Aizik Luner. The art can be of any context, style, type, text.

Links to the OC sheet:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51567910/
https://www.deviantart.com/sovietfu.....tion-955757790

You may not know me, or know my OC, but it's the least i can ask to do from you. Your work maybe be the last thing that will even slightly prolong life of my most beloved character i have created.
There is no need to mention me, my gallery or any account of mine, this is simply for Aizik.

If you did what is asked here, than i want to thank you for fulfilling my last will. May the fate be more merciful to you than it was for me.

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Этот документ, который вы сейчас читаете, является официальной моей последней волей, я написал этот документ в полном сознании и нормальном психическом состоянии.
Этот документ не имеет никаких юридических или обязательств и основывается только на моральном выборе читателей, чтобы выполнить просьбу, написанную здесь.

Меня зовут Крист или, как многие знают меня по моему интернет-псевдониму "SovietFuturistic"

Я художник, который создал вселенную под названием "Билет в один конец" и всех ее персонажей и историю. Я провел всю свою жизнь над этим проектом, надеясь когда-нибудь материализовать моих воображаемых друзей, которые были рядом, чтобы помочь мне морально, в самые стрессовые и депрессивные времена моей жизни. У меня была идея дать людям повод интересоваться моими персонажами, чтобы они продолжали жить в памяти этих людей, даже после того, как я давно умру и больше не смогу рисовать этих персонажей. Это моя главная цель в жизни, продлить жизнь моих воображаемых друзей, потому что я не могу создать настоящую семью.

В свете последних событий я больше не уверен, буду ли я жив к концу этого года или следующего десятилетия, я могу умереть из-за любого несчастного случая, войны, болезни, самоубийства, чего угодно, поэтому я создаю этот завещательный документ, чтобы гарантировать хотя бы небольшой, жалкий шанс, что работа моей жизни все еще может быть завершена. Как я уже упоминал в начале этого документа, соблюдение его требует только личного желания сделать это и ни к чему вас не обязывает.

Вот моя последняя воля:

Если я Крист (SovietFuturistic) не сделаю в течение ОДНОГО года ни одного онлайн-поста, рисунка, журнала, видео или любой онлайн-активности на моих двух основных аккаунтах в социальных сетях, то есть DeviantArt и Furaffinity (https://www.deviantart.com/sovietfuturistic and https://www.furaffinity.net/user/sovietfuturistic). Я считаюсь мертвым и больше не могу ничего делать. Таким образом, вы, человек, который прочитает мою последнюю волю, даже если вы не художник, профессиональный живописец, 3D-дизайнер или вообще человек искусства, вы должны сделать ЛЮБОЕ (контекст не имеет значения) искусство моего главного героя: Айзика Лунера. Искусство может быть любого контекста, стиля, типа, текст.

Ссылки на персонажа:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51567910/
https://www.deviantart.com/sovietfu.....tion-955757790

Вы можете не знать меня или моего персонажа, но это меньшее, что я могу попросить вас сделать. Ваша работа может быть последней, которая хоть немного продлит жизнь моего самого любимого персонажа, которого я создал.
Нет необходимости упоминать меня, мою галерею или какой-либо мой аккаунт, это просто для Айзика.

Если вы сделали то, о чем здесь говорится, то я хочу поблагодарить вас за исполнение моей последней воли. Пусть судьба будет к вам более милостива, чем она была ко мне.

A lot of bad things happened in my life past 5 years.

My family relatives died, War started, i lost alot of friends, didn't had a loved one for a long time, got insomnia again, have paranoya issues, got several of my bank accounts blocked and I had a virus on my computer. All of that slowed down my artwork and animation progress.

It almost completely destroyed my dreams of becoming an gay macro artist, lately i even made a giantess art, something i feel ashamed of
Art that i myself view though idea of collaboration with people who destroyed my life, heterosexuals. I made art that litterely opossed my way of life, just so people will notice my work and help me out to continue working on my main project, about Aizik Luner and his life. It makes me feel like a WW2 collaborator.
Aftel realising that i undestood that unfortunatly i can't realise my dream of becoming full time artist and that i'm forced to cooperate with world that trying to kill me.

After having a deep thoughtful overview of everything that is happening around me and with myself i come to uneasy but very liberating conclusion:

Life - is meaningless

Life - is just a natural sequence that always ends one way, death.
It has been before me, it is with me, it will be after my corpse turn to dust. All that is happening will come to end, it's unavoidable trajectory.

People of great meaning to history, those who created atom bomb, those who used first nerve gases, these who first flew to space, first landed on moon, they are all dead now, they are not existing anymore.
And that's good, people are not deserving of endless life, we don't have mental copacity to realise so much time and our nature is of a plague, we consume this world like parasites, so death exist to stop us.
I must accept void of nothingness as unavoidable, so i did, I have accepted that and after that, nothing, i didn't feel sadness or happiness, i just realised it, it's like a train ride, there is always an end station.
Everything i do doesn't have any meaning, it's just me playing in life, trying to give it a meaning, to simply have a reason to exist and not commit suicide, and so i continue my playing....

why?

I just chose to do so.

Everything is so clear right now, i feel like i stopped fearing death for first time in my entire life.

I opening comments again, because i simply don't care to take away such a meaningless option from you anymore.

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За последние 3 года в моей жизни произошло много плохого.

Умерли мои родственники, началась война, я потерял много друзей, долгое время не было любимого человека, снова началась бессонница, паранойя, заблокировали несколько моих банковских счетов, а на моем компьютере был вирус. Все это замедлило мой прогресс в творчестве и анимации.

Это почти полностью разрушило мои мечты стать гей-макро художником, недавно я даже сделал арт великаншами, за что мне стыдно
Искусство, которое я сам рассматриваю через идею сотрудничества с людьми, которые разрушили мою жизнь, гетеросексуалами. Я создал искусство, которое буквально противоречило моему образу жизни, просто чтобы люди заметили мою работу и помогли мне продолжить работу над моим основным проектом, об Айзике Лунере и его жизни. Это заставляет меня чувствовать себя коллаборационистом второй мировой.
После того, как я понял, что к сожалению, я не могу осуществить свою мечту стать художником на полную ставку и что я вынужден сотрудничать с миром, который пытается меня убить.

После глубокого вдумчивого обзора всего, что происходит вокруг меня и с самим собой, я пришел к непростому, но очень освобождающему выводу:

Жизнь - бессмысленна

Жизнь - это просто естественная последовательность, которая всегда заканчивается одним способом, смертью.
Это было до меня, это со мной, это будет после того, как мой труп превратится в пыль. Все, что происходит, закончится, это неизбежная траектория.

Люди, имеющие большое значение для истории, те, кто создал атомную бомбу, те, кто использовал первые нервно-паралитические газы, те, кто первыми полетели в космос, первыми высадились на Луне, они все теперь мертвы, их больше нет.
И это хорошо, люди не заслуживают бесконечной жизни, у нас нет умственной способности осознавать так много времени, и наша природа — чума, мы поглощаем этот мир, как паразиты, поэтому смерть существует, чтобы остановить нас.
Я должен принять пустоту небытия как неизбежность, так я и сделал, я принял это и после этого ничего, я не чувствовал грусти или счастья, я просто осознал это, это как поездка на поезде, всегда есть конечная станция.
Все, что я делаю, не имеет никакого смысла, это просто я играю в жизнь, пытаюсь придать ей смысл, просто иметь причину существовать и не совершать самоубийство, и поэтому я продолжаю свою игру...

зачем?

Я просто решил так поступить.

Сейчас все настолько ясно, я чувствую, что впервые за всю свою жизнь перестал бояться смерти.

Я снова открываю комментарии, потому что мне просто больше не хочется отнимать у вас такой бессмысленный выбор.

Отныне раздел комментариев будет закрыт для всех моих будущих работ и проектов.

После некоторых размышлений о реакции людей на мою работу или ее отсутствие я пришел к выводу, что я делаю искусство не для людей, а для себя.
Я пытался получить эмоциональную поддержку от людей и привлечь внимание к тому что я создал, пытаясь повысить свое эго и перестать ненавидеть себя,
но было довольно глупо с моей стороны думать, что моя жизнь имеет значение для кого-то.
На самом деле, я не думаю, что мне кто-то важен, все что я делаю, это живу в своем воображаемом мире, я убегаю от суровой реальности в которой я живу.
Эскапизм не означает, что мне нужно чтобы другие люди любили меня, я могу просто представить себе персонажей, которые примут меня таким, какой я есть,
и скажут правильные слова и поддержат меня, несмотря ни на что, так зачем тратить нервы на ожидание того когда люди похвалят мою работу?

Я люблю свое искусство, я дорожу им, я очень горжусь тем, что я делаю, поэтому мне не нужно мнение людей о моей работе.
И поэтому раздел комментариев будет закрыт.

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From now on all my future artwork and projects will have comment sections closed and unavailable.

After some thought on people reacting to my work or lack of it, i come to conclusion that i'm not making art for people but rather for myself.
I have been trying to get emotional support from people and get attention to what i created,
trying to boost my ego and stop hating myself, but that was kinda foolish on my side to think that my life matters to anyone.
In fact i don't think i care for anyone anymore, all i do is living in my imaginary world, my escape from harsh reality that i live in.
Escapism doesn't imply that i need other people to love me, i can just imagine characters that would accept me as who i am,
and say right words and support me no matter what, so why waste my nervs on waiting for people to praise my work?

I love my art, i cherish it, i take great pride in what i do, so i'm in no need for people's opinion on my work.
And thus the comment section will be closed.

Paypal officially banned all Russians from using it serves because of the Swift sanctions, i can no longer receive payment from my fellow furries or gay guys, i can't use Patreon that i have worked over a year to make, i don't have a reason to keep working on my Ko-fi profile as it also uses paypal, i'm practically was cut off from the rest of gay community who like my art and want to commission me or just support my struggles in a authoritarian homophobic state that i life in.

I'm not Putin, i'm not his friend oligarch, i didn't push him to power in 1999, i didn't order to attack Georgia or Ukraine, i'm just a poor gay artist but the West thinks i must suffer more and it doesn't make sense to me, as i like Western culture. I guess the West wants to make us poor like in Czarist Russia, so we would revolt and overthrow the government and then beg West for peace. I can't agree with that, as it is just cruel to throw us ordinary citizens of Russia against this Putin War machine, there are plenty of other ways to hit Oligarchs and Dictators that big countries like France, Germany, England and America can do, but i guess the West doesn't care.

I can't sell gay art in Russia to my fellow gay country men as by the state law it may be considered as gay propaganda and i'll be put to jail, so the only thing i can do is now to think to what work i'll go to obtain some money to keep making my art and feed myself and my cat. I'll have to put all of my commissions on pause, i don't know for how long it will be, i only can give you promises that i'll reopen it as soon as Paypal will work again for me, the ordinary russian gay artist.

Hello my name is Krist

I have a dream, dream of making art and to make animation series called "One way ticket" an autobiographical story about me and my characters, a story that goes hand to hand with my real life, the only accomplished that i will leave in this world after i gone.

I'm doing it all alone, i don't have a team of people who can help me out making all of that, neither i work for a big company, neither i have advertising of such companies, so all i have is your support, views, watchers, faves, comments and sometimes financial support.
I'm not planning to switch to closed format, where you'll have to donate to see my art but i want to give some bonuses to those who are truly willing to assist me in my projects.

If you wish to donate me and help me make more art and help Aizik to become more popular, join my boosty page.

Boosty: https://boosty.to/onewayticket96

I can't really give much in return, but i can mention your name in credit for each artwork or video i will make, as an reward for your support of me and Aizik. I will be publishing my art works firstly on Boosty so that my subs could be the first to see it, before i make it openly published.

I will also try to lower my subscription prices if i get lots of sub, i not looking for easy money, im a simple man and want it to fair for both of us.

So i lost another family member, this time it was my mother, it's a third family member i have lost in half a year.

I and my mother had a very bad relationships as she had a drinking problems, hell i wished her death many times for that but now when she is gone i feel guilt, i knew i couldn't help her as alcoholism isn't a very easy problem to deal with but i still feel that stupid guilt. Maybe i should have just chain her to a radiator at house and not let her out to drink that poison, but that sound way too illegal. This was also the first time i saw death corpses, as when she died the police officer told me to identify her, that was so awful that i later on had nightmares about this.

I also had to do all the funeral preparations all alone, as many remaining family members had their own problems to deal with. It was two weeks of pure hell for me, i had to run around the town to collect needed documents and i even had to rage at the goverment official to get papers i desperetly needed. I think it was the first time in my live my split of personality have united, my evil Krist part was like a fury beast trying to get all the needed paper work done no metter what and my good Aizik part was trying to make sure that the funeral would look as good and nice as much as it could be, and even tho i was the only person at the funeral i still felt a bit nice that i did all that i could to make it look nice and bury here with some respect.

Now when it's all done i'm trying to get back to my drawings, but it's hard to do, I and mom lived in one room and now it's empty, i actually really wanted my whole life to get my own room when i could do all i want without being looked by anyone... now i have a room i wanted... but it's doesn't feel that good as i hoped, it's quiet... too quiet, I guess it's very true that we learn the truth value of thing only when we lost them.

I was thinking about it and you know what? I'm very happy none of my imaginary friends are real, if they were real that would mean i could loose them and if i would loose Aizik i think it would be the end of my life, so it's good he isn't real, he will die with me at the sametime, same day, same year, like in a fairy tale.

Anyway thats all i wanted to say... i just needed to write it to make myself feel a bit better, we all going to die so there no reasson to cry too much, i will try just not to think about it, thats a good way to deal with problems, just don't think and everything will be fine.

I've been absent because a lot of bad things happened this year for me, covid ruined summer, my dear brother died and my cat died soon after his passing, and i felt myself like a zombie, sitting at home and not knowing what i must to now. I and my brother had many plans, he wanted to help me find a good job, buy a house far away from my drunken mother whore, maybe even take me on a big trip through india and show me their traditions, he knew i was gay and he was okay with it. He was such a great person, who believed that making good will return back only in good, but now he is lying 4 meters underground, cold and alone, i thought that everything was lost for me.

Then i remember the words he have told me many time, about how i must not lose control over yourself even in dire situations. He would surely wanted me to go onward, wanted me to life as long as i could, not getting drown into melonholia and depression over his death. I will go onwards like a soviet tank crashing through enemy lines, killing everything on its way, like an unstoppable train heading to its destination, like a flaming 3,000 degrees star riding through the dark void of space.

Why do you need to know all of this, yeah sure, you don't need to care over what i must go through or in what hell i'm living in, it's not your problem, and it's absolutely okay. You don't know me, you never saw my real face or shake my hand, i'm just an another human being in ocean of humans on internet, and that's natural, there are just too much suffering in this world, for me to ask you to feel sorry for my lost, or say a good word.

I'm telling you this so that you could understand why i'm lifting an iron curtain over my life's bubble, there will be no more request, no more friendly me who can just for good sake make art for you, i'm done, there is no karma! There is a good and very nice quote in Portal 2 "When life gives you lemons? Don't make lemonade. Make life take the lemons back! Get mad! I don't want your damn lemons!" And that how i will live from now on, i will make only those thing, that i want, not anyone's else dream, but my dreams and only mine!

That said, i wish you all the good luck, i'm going to go and make Xenosapiens a second most know original furry race in this god forgotten world, maybe became a well known artist and a video game creator. I'm not saying bye to my SFM stuff and FA, i'm just saying goodbye to my past self. It's time for new Iron curtain to envelope my poor heart.