I apologise for not being active for last, I guess, two weeks when it comes to drawings. Again I had problems with my mental health, but I've managed to "stabilize" it and I hope it won't bother me again too soon.

For now I added two umbrella ych auctions and tommorow I will start sketching commissions that I owe to my customers, so don't worry, I didn't forget about anyone. Well, it was bothering me all the time, but I was unable to motivate myself ;_; fck u anxiety and other shit... I still have long way to recover, but it is better than it was.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27458415/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27458415/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27458415/

Just few days ago I was thinking "I haven't been ill for so long, I'm lucky!" and tadaa, my sinuses hurt, have sore throat and feels like a shit... I guess I have to thank my flatmate for spreading germs and windy days. As fast as I could I ate tons of vitamin c, honey, garlic etc. but it doesn't work. So it means that I will be slower with finishing arts T.T And I just hope I won't have to take antibiotic...

1. Any gender - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27034779/

2. Female - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27035380/

After a quite long break and sitting in ych auctions comfort zone I've decided to reopen commissions. If anyone is interested, please read this journal with all the info and prices http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5059515/

Also usually I don't have many customers, so don't worry about getting slot.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26818004/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26818004/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26818004/

1. Female/femboy http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26671980/

2. Any gender http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26678337/

So after 2 years of struggling with low self-esteem, isolating from other people, constant stress for no reason and feeling lifeless for most of the time I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder. It was really hard for me to visit a specialist but I just realised everything that is happening to me won't go away like a simple illness or, just like I heard most of the time, "you don't have any problems, just be happy and start doing something". No, it didn't work. I feel happy rarely, usually I'm apathetic and even simple smiling is too hard for me. Like I said to the doctor "I just live, because I have to and I don't enjoy it anymore".
I've bought prescribed medicines and tommorow I will start taking them. The doctor mentioned that for first week or two I may feel worse (headache, nausea), so maybe I won't be able to draw for this time. I hope I won't have to change them (pills) and finally I will feel normal like two years ago.

Sorry for any grammar mistakes and hope you understand. I felt guilty really often when I hadn't motivation for finishing commissions, but I do it for a living and I don't want to make my boyfriend to pay for everything ;_; Also drawing is one of the last things that I still enjoy (at least a bit).

Nsfw female ych - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26510912/

Sfw female/femboy ych - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26527109/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26452542/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26452542/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26452542/

1. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26091042/

2. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26095863/

So I want to apologise for being slow since December with drawings. Again I have some problems with my self-esteem and lost motivation for almost everything... I force myself to do something productive, but I get tired really easly. This only makes me more stressed or even anxious. So again I'm trapped in this stupid triangle of tiredness, constant sadness and self-hate...

Sorry for rambling again, I guess you're already tired of another artist who have problems like these... But I'll try to move my ass and start working like always soon. I just need few more days to stand up (I hope so...)

Decided to do again small Ko-Fi drawings C: If anyone is interested you can get for one ko-fi a chibi https://twitter.com/NoctiTenebris/s.....06986566692864
Or headshot http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24564720/

Don't forget about link to the picture with your character in the message

https://ko-fi.com/sowiachivasana

Just a small reminder, because I'm out of good ideas for ych auctions and well, I'm broken...

Commission info http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5059515/

For last few days I've been busy helping my mom with cleaning up the garden before winter. But from today I'm going to work with all the pictures C: Also I'm thinking aboout doing a Halloween ych, but I'm totally out of ideas. Well, I have one, so maybe I will draw it soon.

Finally me and my boyfriend has moved to a rented flat, so I can start working on new drawings and I hope commissions too C: Well, for now this is going to be my only job for a while so I don't want to make my bf pay for almost everything.
If ther's anyone interested please read this commission info journal http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5059515/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24635620/

Due to some problems the person who autobought this picture has canceled it. So auction is still running til the countdown time. So if there's still anyone interested then feel free to bid c: