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Abusive Relationship and escaping it...finally
Posted 9 years agoSo for a very long time, I've only told a few select people that I am extremely close with about the goings on and how unhappy I've been in my relationship. Which hurts more because I have two kids with the person that has done the abuse.
Now...it has not been physical abuse, not by far. But what he has done is Mental and Emotional abuse. And That has been going on for a VERY long time, it started after our first child then just got steadily worse after the second. He refuses to let me get a job, that's right folks. HE will NOT let me get a JOB and KEEP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when I went out applying to places after my second child was born. BEHIND his back because I KNEW he'd BITCH if he knew I was putting applications ANYPLACE. He did find out, because Yeah I got hired at Mcdonalds that lasted a whole 3 months before I quit because I was so TIRED of hearing HIM every single time I'd get home
He'd bitch about my job being shitty, my job not paying enough to even START covering a fraction of the bills, it didn't pay enough this way, that way, He wanted me to have some 15-20 dollar job that a person with a college degree/working on a degree would have!
Okay then whenever I try to work on anything art related, he has to peek over my shoulder, look at what im doing, and make biting remarks about my drawing, or the things I am drawing. When I was pregnant with my second child, I was friends with a guy in London, he had a girlfriend. I would talk to him on skype, via cam and mic. My partner accused ME OF cybersexing this GUY WHILE I WAS 8 1/2 months pregnant. Well I ended up cutting off ties with my friend in london, because of my partner being such an asshole.
Whenever I have a LITTLE bit of MONEY he wants ME to spend it on everything, Milk, syrup etc etc. THEN when I ask for money, HE'll whip around and start going 'what do you need it for' 'why do you need it' 'How much do you need'
The shit he's done it just keeps piling up, and then yesterday after I had gotten home from doing stuff with my mother and grandmother. Today, I call him out on everything, unload with both barrels. Bringing up the whole it's a burden for him to be home with the kids by himself, what does he say? YES it is a BURDEN to HOME with them by himself.
He called me a bitch today, walked out. Came back later and DEMANDED that I APOLOGIZE FOR calling him abusive! or it was the end of the relationship. Well instead of apologizing for telling him the truth. I started reading off signs of an abusive person/relationship. HE just got madder, and madder and madder telling me to STOP it. So he stomps off again saying 'you better call a lawyer.'
So yes...I did it, I finally fucking did it. I got sick of the shit to the point I stepped up and TOLD him about it, I know my life is going to be pretty chaotic moving forward from this point but, I don't think I care..I just am going to be happy to be OUT of a shitty relationship/abusive relationship, and taking my kids away from it too.
So yeah that's my life right now, and I know other people have dealt with abuse, or are dealing with it currently. It's hard to escape it, it's hard to feel you are brave enough to take the steps TO get away, but trust me..you can do it, research, have a good support circle, and have a plan of action/escape.
-Spark
Now...it has not been physical abuse, not by far. But what he has done is Mental and Emotional abuse. And That has been going on for a VERY long time, it started after our first child then just got steadily worse after the second. He refuses to let me get a job, that's right folks. HE will NOT let me get a JOB and KEEP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when I went out applying to places after my second child was born. BEHIND his back because I KNEW he'd BITCH if he knew I was putting applications ANYPLACE. He did find out, because Yeah I got hired at Mcdonalds that lasted a whole 3 months before I quit because I was so TIRED of hearing HIM every single time I'd get home
He'd bitch about my job being shitty, my job not paying enough to even START covering a fraction of the bills, it didn't pay enough this way, that way, He wanted me to have some 15-20 dollar job that a person with a college degree/working on a degree would have!
Okay then whenever I try to work on anything art related, he has to peek over my shoulder, look at what im doing, and make biting remarks about my drawing, or the things I am drawing. When I was pregnant with my second child, I was friends with a guy in London, he had a girlfriend. I would talk to him on skype, via cam and mic. My partner accused ME OF cybersexing this GUY WHILE I WAS 8 1/2 months pregnant. Well I ended up cutting off ties with my friend in london, because of my partner being such an asshole.
Whenever I have a LITTLE bit of MONEY he wants ME to spend it on everything, Milk, syrup etc etc. THEN when I ask for money, HE'll whip around and start going 'what do you need it for' 'why do you need it' 'How much do you need'
The shit he's done it just keeps piling up, and then yesterday after I had gotten home from doing stuff with my mother and grandmother. Today, I call him out on everything, unload with both barrels. Bringing up the whole it's a burden for him to be home with the kids by himself, what does he say? YES it is a BURDEN to HOME with them by himself.
He called me a bitch today, walked out. Came back later and DEMANDED that I APOLOGIZE FOR calling him abusive! or it was the end of the relationship. Well instead of apologizing for telling him the truth. I started reading off signs of an abusive person/relationship. HE just got madder, and madder and madder telling me to STOP it. So he stomps off again saying 'you better call a lawyer.'
So yes...I did it, I finally fucking did it. I got sick of the shit to the point I stepped up and TOLD him about it, I know my life is going to be pretty chaotic moving forward from this point but, I don't think I care..I just am going to be happy to be OUT of a shitty relationship/abusive relationship, and taking my kids away from it too.
So yeah that's my life right now, and I know other people have dealt with abuse, or are dealing with it currently. It's hard to escape it, it's hard to feel you are brave enough to take the steps TO get away, but trust me..you can do it, research, have a good support circle, and have a plan of action/escape.
-Spark
Funeral was nice, did find out who took my sons birthday $
Posted 9 years agoThe funeral was today, it was very very very very nice. The place where he's resting is just breath taking and GORGEOUS. Driving in you see all the flags on the graves, flowers everyplace. A HUGE pond with a mini water fall, and benches all around it to just sit. Like every few feet, there's a bench with a plaque of who donated it/in memory of, but for people to sit.
The service was very nice, they covered my grandfather's urn with a very respectful velvet bag that was sealed at the top. They did the taps and the flag being folded and presented, everyone spoke up and Richard, the man who accused me, my grandmother and Mom. In the hospital, while my grandfather was dying, of being murders, because we took him off the life support measures. Stood up in front of everyone and apologized, saying he realized that what Me, my mom and grandma did was one hundred percent for the best and that we all had been there through the whole thing, and that he was sorry.
It was nice to hear him apologize but I'm not ready to forgive him for calling me and my family murders.
But also it was my aunts Eldest child..needless to say I told her very politely and very calmly that I cannot have either of the girls over again, for anything. All she could do was keep apologizing to me..
Anyways..thats really it right now..other then I am definitely emotionally and mentally exhausted, and my patience is non existent.
The service was very nice, they covered my grandfather's urn with a very respectful velvet bag that was sealed at the top. They did the taps and the flag being folded and presented, everyone spoke up and Richard, the man who accused me, my grandmother and Mom. In the hospital, while my grandfather was dying, of being murders, because we took him off the life support measures. Stood up in front of everyone and apologized, saying he realized that what Me, my mom and grandma did was one hundred percent for the best and that we all had been there through the whole thing, and that he was sorry.
It was nice to hear him apologize but I'm not ready to forgive him for calling me and my family murders.
But also it was my aunts Eldest child..needless to say I told her very politely and very calmly that I cannot have either of the girls over again, for anything. All she could do was keep apologizing to me..
Anyways..thats really it right now..other then I am definitely emotionally and mentally exhausted, and my patience is non existent.
Stealing my sons Birthday Money, REALLY?!
Posted 9 years agoYesterday we had my son's 2nd birthday, everything went off with out a hitch. It was a little hard not having my grandfather present, I kept looking over to my grandma thinking I'd see my pop-pop next to her..anyways lets move onto the point.
My son got 50$ in three different cards, from the neighbor across the street he got 10 dollars and some hotel trans 2 toys, His great, great great grandma, that lives in Denton MD gave him 20$ and his OTHER great, great grandma (Whom's husband passed) gave him 20$
So I always am careful about money cards and people, I opened the cards in the kitchen away from people. Put all the money in one card, tucked all the cards and the card with the money in the birthday bag. Went back into the living room to continue the party.
Afterwards I go to start cleaning up, go to get the money so it can be put into my son's saving account. The card..and the money...gone..I started ripping the counter apart, tearing drawers out, throwing things...IT is GONE.
NOW I KNOW everyone at the party REALLY well..accept for my aunt and uncles Grandkids. The eldest..she did keep disappearing outside, going to the car, vanishing for periods, while the middle child all she wanted to do was to show everyone and anyone that wanted to see and look her sketch book with her art in it.
I'm really hoping it wasn't the eldest that took my sons money but I mean it is seriously GONE like poof not even a sign of the card. And I was so upset about this, thinking MAYBE I threw it in the trash, I went outside and DUG through TWO bags of trash from this party. SO I went digging into cake, meatballs, ice cream and other party left overs, THEN the bag of trash with the wrapping paper in it.
No card.
So seriously though..who the fuck is going to go and steal from a 2 year old, on his birthday? It's pretty fucked up and some pretty shady fucking shit!
Either way I'll have to tell my aunt and Uncle, I don't want the kids over anymore.
My son got 50$ in three different cards, from the neighbor across the street he got 10 dollars and some hotel trans 2 toys, His great, great great grandma, that lives in Denton MD gave him 20$ and his OTHER great, great grandma (Whom's husband passed) gave him 20$
So I always am careful about money cards and people, I opened the cards in the kitchen away from people. Put all the money in one card, tucked all the cards and the card with the money in the birthday bag. Went back into the living room to continue the party.
Afterwards I go to start cleaning up, go to get the money so it can be put into my son's saving account. The card..and the money...gone..I started ripping the counter apart, tearing drawers out, throwing things...IT is GONE.
NOW I KNOW everyone at the party REALLY well..accept for my aunt and uncles Grandkids. The eldest..she did keep disappearing outside, going to the car, vanishing for periods, while the middle child all she wanted to do was to show everyone and anyone that wanted to see and look her sketch book with her art in it.
I'm really hoping it wasn't the eldest that took my sons money but I mean it is seriously GONE like poof not even a sign of the card. And I was so upset about this, thinking MAYBE I threw it in the trash, I went outside and DUG through TWO bags of trash from this party. SO I went digging into cake, meatballs, ice cream and other party left overs, THEN the bag of trash with the wrapping paper in it.
No card.
So seriously though..who the fuck is going to go and steal from a 2 year old, on his birthday? It's pretty fucked up and some pretty shady fucking shit!
Either way I'll have to tell my aunt and Uncle, I don't want the kids over anymore.
Been given the time frame for my grandfather...
Posted 9 years ago12-72 hours....he was taken off everything at 2pm.
Will not here or available while I help make funeral plans and arrangements.
Will not here or available while I help make funeral plans and arrangements.
Very Dire Life Update :(
Posted 9 years agoMy grandfather suffered a stroke a year ago, on top of dementia. Sadly he had to stop the medicine that slowed down the dementia's progress, in favor of the seizure stroke medicine to help actually keep him alive.
Well this past saturday, he was doing fine. My grandmother was able to get him down stairs, he walked with her, he was able to talk to her, well later in the afternoon she notices that he suddenly is slumping HARD to his left side and was completely unable to talk and even walk. The doctors said it was another stroke...
I went over saturday night and assisted my grandmother, I had to lift 165 pounds of absolute dead weight from a wheel chair. While were trying to move him, my grandfather has his eyes completely closed and won't open them. We did get him upstairs into his bed safely.
Today my mother comes and picks me up, and we go to my grandmothers. We then take apart the entire dining room, this consists of a huge leaf let table, a grandfather clock, a desk, a set of drawers in a oak dresser. We then unload a twin box spring, frame and mattress from the back of my moms pick up, and we put this bed together. After this, we go upstairs to the second floor and take apart my grandfathers hospital bed.
THIS bed has railings the lifts the motor the flipping works...we got it apart, and then we got BOTH parts downstairs, we then put it back together. Afterwards...I assist my grandmother in getting my grandfather in his bed, and getting him undressed.
He has reached the point in the dementia where he is suffering from his limbs locking up, and he is unable to feed himself. He has lost a great deal of weight..and he is sunken in on the stomach and ribs...me and my mom both know...that he's not long for this time...We are setting up hospice to come in and help..make things easier..unfortunately we don't know how long it will take for Hospice to come.
Until they are set up, I will be doing night assists on Monday nights and Wednesday nights. If my grandfather does take a turn for the worse...I will try to post a journal because I don't know what I'll do, I know me and my mom have already been talking and we are prepared to be the rocks for my grandmother. She has been married to my grandfather for over 50+ Years now.
-Spark
Well this past saturday, he was doing fine. My grandmother was able to get him down stairs, he walked with her, he was able to talk to her, well later in the afternoon she notices that he suddenly is slumping HARD to his left side and was completely unable to talk and even walk. The doctors said it was another stroke...
I went over saturday night and assisted my grandmother, I had to lift 165 pounds of absolute dead weight from a wheel chair. While were trying to move him, my grandfather has his eyes completely closed and won't open them. We did get him upstairs into his bed safely.
Today my mother comes and picks me up, and we go to my grandmothers. We then take apart the entire dining room, this consists of a huge leaf let table, a grandfather clock, a desk, a set of drawers in a oak dresser. We then unload a twin box spring, frame and mattress from the back of my moms pick up, and we put this bed together. After this, we go upstairs to the second floor and take apart my grandfathers hospital bed.
THIS bed has railings the lifts the motor the flipping works...we got it apart, and then we got BOTH parts downstairs, we then put it back together. Afterwards...I assist my grandmother in getting my grandfather in his bed, and getting him undressed.
He has reached the point in the dementia where he is suffering from his limbs locking up, and he is unable to feed himself. He has lost a great deal of weight..and he is sunken in on the stomach and ribs...me and my mom both know...that he's not long for this time...We are setting up hospice to come in and help..make things easier..unfortunately we don't know how long it will take for Hospice to come.
Until they are set up, I will be doing night assists on Monday nights and Wednesday nights. If my grandfather does take a turn for the worse...I will try to post a journal because I don't know what I'll do, I know me and my mom have already been talking and we are prepared to be the rocks for my grandmother. She has been married to my grandfather for over 50+ Years now.
-Spark
I've started it...
Posted 10 years agoPushing people away from me, lashing out, getting nasty and angry..It's something I always have done when I start slipping into that lovely 'dark and depressed place'
The place in my mind where I'm thinking stupidity, stupid things, hurtful things, escape, escape, escape, escape.
I start shoving people away so when I go down that slope, no one's coming with me, and no one's around to get the shit that comes up, splattered on them.
to me, pushing people out of my life and away -saves them from whatever I do that is destructive.
So if I don't speak with you, or I do and it's nasty and snarly, it's to get whoever it is away from me, out of the picture.
Also something else, If you ask me how I'm doing and or feeling, and then I unload the whole thing, if you cannot take it, or don't want to hear it, then don't ASK HOW IM DOING.
The place in my mind where I'm thinking stupidity, stupid things, hurtful things, escape, escape, escape, escape.
I start shoving people away so when I go down that slope, no one's coming with me, and no one's around to get the shit that comes up, splattered on them.
to me, pushing people out of my life and away -saves them from whatever I do that is destructive.
So if I don't speak with you, or I do and it's nasty and snarly, it's to get whoever it is away from me, out of the picture.
Also something else, If you ask me how I'm doing and or feeling, and then I unload the whole thing, if you cannot take it, or don't want to hear it, then don't ASK HOW IM DOING.
Been rough
Posted 10 years agoThis week's been pretty damn rough on me. Friday I got a hysterical call from my grandmother, involving my grandfather...so I rushed over. Glad I did...because I told her, she needed to call the doctor..she hadn't...so he ended up getting taken to the hospital in an ambulance.
The doctors were seriously afraid it had been a mini stroke, but after MRI's they said it's dementia. It was painful to be in the hospital and ask my grandfather who I was, and him look at me and just go 'Yeah, yeah'
Even more so when me and my grandmother had to keep calming him down, keeping him from getting up and out of the bed, pulling his IVs out, oxygen out...
Even worse when he had to be restrained over night.
But I kept my shit together through the whole ordeal and was walking my grandmother through everything, telling her what she needed to ask, what she needed to know, what was going to happen when my grandfather got out of the hospital. She was in denial, she said to me on the phone 'When he gets better' and I had to tell her 'No, he isn't going to ever be 100% better. He will have moments when he is pretty much a man child.'
He cannot be alone by himself, ever again. The chances of him having a dementia moment, and wandering off is to high. He's going to have to wear adult diapers now, and he'll be having some sort of nurse at the house, not sure if it's going to be 24 hour nurse, or just over the night. These were things I had to really drill into my grandmothers head, specially when she said 'I'll put a baby gate up at the head of the stairs' and I nearly melted down. I said No, you cannot do that. What happens if he wakes up in the middle of the night, doesn't know where he's at..and steps over that gate. It makes it a lot worse and harder, that they are in a two story house, and the bedrooms are upstairs.
So I'm on 24/7 call at the moment. If he falls or my grandmother cannot lift him, I'll be going right over to help...thank god they only live 5 blocks away.
But it was the most hardest and painful thing, watching a family member be taken out on a stretcher and seeing the helpless, look on my grandmothers face.
The Only good thing about the week, was yesterday. My Son's 1st birthday :D It was a how to train your dragon 2 themed party. It was quite awesome.
-Spark
The doctors were seriously afraid it had been a mini stroke, but after MRI's they said it's dementia. It was painful to be in the hospital and ask my grandfather who I was, and him look at me and just go 'Yeah, yeah'
Even more so when me and my grandmother had to keep calming him down, keeping him from getting up and out of the bed, pulling his IVs out, oxygen out...
Even worse when he had to be restrained over night.
But I kept my shit together through the whole ordeal and was walking my grandmother through everything, telling her what she needed to ask, what she needed to know, what was going to happen when my grandfather got out of the hospital. She was in denial, she said to me on the phone 'When he gets better' and I had to tell her 'No, he isn't going to ever be 100% better. He will have moments when he is pretty much a man child.'
He cannot be alone by himself, ever again. The chances of him having a dementia moment, and wandering off is to high. He's going to have to wear adult diapers now, and he'll be having some sort of nurse at the house, not sure if it's going to be 24 hour nurse, or just over the night. These were things I had to really drill into my grandmothers head, specially when she said 'I'll put a baby gate up at the head of the stairs' and I nearly melted down. I said No, you cannot do that. What happens if he wakes up in the middle of the night, doesn't know where he's at..and steps over that gate. It makes it a lot worse and harder, that they are in a two story house, and the bedrooms are upstairs.
So I'm on 24/7 call at the moment. If he falls or my grandmother cannot lift him, I'll be going right over to help...thank god they only live 5 blocks away.
But it was the most hardest and painful thing, watching a family member be taken out on a stretcher and seeing the helpless, look on my grandmothers face.
The Only good thing about the week, was yesterday. My Son's 1st birthday :D It was a how to train your dragon 2 themed party. It was quite awesome.
-Spark
Pulled a FOIL Polluted delta (MtG related)
Posted 10 years agoSo last night my fiance comes home and he bought one of those 2 shirt pack, 2 card pack bundles from Toys R Us.
I was like OO I get to crack the packs right? He said yeah, since I love doing it.
Well I hope the first pack, nothing to good.
So I open the Khans pack, going through the cards very slowly and I slide the third before the last two to the side and I see Polluted. I say 'We've got polluted delta!' Then I move the card fully and I was like 'HOLY SHIT WE'VE GOT A FOIL!!!!!'
So the foil went right into the special book! I'll take a picture later and post it :D
Bitching though!
-Spark
I was like OO I get to crack the packs right? He said yeah, since I love doing it.
Well I hope the first pack, nothing to good.
So I open the Khans pack, going through the cards very slowly and I slide the third before the last two to the side and I see Polluted. I say 'We've got polluted delta!' Then I move the card fully and I was like 'HOLY SHIT WE'VE GOT A FOIL!!!!!'
So the foil went right into the special book! I'll take a picture later and post it :D
Bitching though!
-Spark
MtG players that watch me. Check out some of moi babies.
Posted 10 years agoA Friend in need doing full color pin ups for 30$
Posted 10 years agoI be broke so I cannot com her, but she asked for a signal boost! You can find info here ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:43957218
She's the artist that did this piece of Spark http://t.facdn.net/14837205@400-1414153910.jpg
So here's that boost and I hope it'll get her some work!
Spark
She's the artist that did this piece of Spark http://t.facdn.net/14837205@400-1414153910.jpg
So here's that boost and I hope it'll get her some work!
Spark
Sick two days before xmas...
Posted 11 years agoSo sunday night I'm sitting and I can feel my nose getting stuffy and sinus pressure building..well that sucked...went to bed. When I woke up I was totally stuffed up, my throat felt like someone took sandpaper across it, and everything hurt. Last night soon as my fiance got home I went straight to bed, around 8ish I think..and I didn't crawl out of bed till 8 this morning..
Still feeling super crappy and all I want to do is crawl back into bed and go back to sleep..bleh....and tomorrow it's a big family visit...going out of state, to see three different families. My fiance's and mine...then xmas MORE going out...
To my fiance's fathers, then to my grandmothers...
Time to rest in between these visits, I see none...chances of me getting over this cold sooner, slim to none with all this go go going.....
Spark
Still feeling super crappy and all I want to do is crawl back into bed and go back to sleep..bleh....and tomorrow it's a big family visit...going out of state, to see three different families. My fiance's and mine...then xmas MORE going out...
To my fiance's fathers, then to my grandmothers...
Time to rest in between these visits, I see none...chances of me getting over this cold sooner, slim to none with all this go go going.....
Spark
No more chances, period.
Posted 11 years agoSo after tonight I've come to the conclusion that giving anyone any sort of extra chance, it's not worth it. It's just like opening the door again to be hurt and shoved aside for something better.
So that means I'm done just forgiving people, why I mean seriously? Just forgive someone for it to happen again later down the road.
Guess the saying is true, you cannot teach an old dog new tricks.
Spark
So that means I'm done just forgiving people, why I mean seriously? Just forgive someone for it to happen again later down the road.
Guess the saying is true, you cannot teach an old dog new tricks.
Spark
People and the lack of appreciation
Posted 11 years agoSo i've reached a level of like really getting to the 'screw people' and everything about them. When you go out of your way to do something nice for them, or have something nice done of one's character with them and then all you get is a 'oh thanks' or they don't even acknowledge it, not to mention when you offer to do a person a piece of art.
Ref sheet, bust, butt anything like that and you hear
'Oh I want it to be special, not something cookie cutter'
It really puts things into a point of perspective....
-Spark
Ref sheet, bust, butt anything like that and you hear
'Oh I want it to be special, not something cookie cutter'
It really puts things into a point of perspective....
-Spark
Birthday, birthday, birthday!
Posted 11 years agowoooo today is moi birthday! happy birthday to mee
30 years old today.
Spark
30 years old today.
Spark
My Mom is back in the hospital...it's a lot worse
Posted 11 years agoI got the phone call around 5:45 pm..my mother went back in last night when her toes started turning purple. Her levels were all out of wack especially her magnisum levels for the liver..
she was informed today that she is right on the verge of her liver failing her. I told my grandmother she needs to get power of attorney so she is not left out of anything and knows everything that is going on.
I said if it goes critical I need to know if I am a positive match to donate part of my liver to my mother..and by that I mean if she is on the list and her liver goes into failure...
I've been crying since I found out...I'm still crying right now.I just am trying to wrap my mind around it..and i cannot..I want to scream at her for being so stupid because i've been on her about her drinking.....
for so many years..she never listened and now she's paying the price...my emotions are a roller coaster right now.
-Spark
she was informed today that she is right on the verge of her liver failing her. I told my grandmother she needs to get power of attorney so she is not left out of anything and knows everything that is going on.
I said if it goes critical I need to know if I am a positive match to donate part of my liver to my mother..and by that I mean if she is on the list and her liver goes into failure...
I've been crying since I found out...I'm still crying right now.I just am trying to wrap my mind around it..and i cannot..I want to scream at her for being so stupid because i've been on her about her drinking.....
for so many years..she never listened and now she's paying the price...my emotions are a roller coaster right now.
-Spark
Hello Watchers!
Posted 11 years agoSo I have a new Fa 
Sparkart
I'll be putting art stuff that I've done for people or working on on that account. So feel free to watch me on that one and if you'd like something done just ask.
SparkartI'll be putting art stuff that I've done for people or working on on that account. So feel free to watch me on that one and if you'd like something done just ask.
Hospital
Posted 11 years agoI'm sitting in the hospital waiting for my mom to get out of surgery...I hate hospitals..they creep me out so bad..and they always smell, no matter how hard they try to clean and sanitize the places..I swear to fuck I can smell the underlying stink of death.
It's been almost 2 hours since they took her back...hopefully it's nothing serious...and they can get the problem taken care of.
She's got internal bleeding and these fools aren't sure if it's her pancreas or an ulcer. Now I'm just sitting here..waiting...and waiting...when I heard I was just like 'okay' didn't think much of it. BUT then 'oh it's going to be a surgery' it really can make a person stop and go...'oh shit..this is a little worse then I first thought.'
-Angel
It's been almost 2 hours since they took her back...hopefully it's nothing serious...and they can get the problem taken care of.
She's got internal bleeding and these fools aren't sure if it's her pancreas or an ulcer. Now I'm just sitting here..waiting...and waiting...when I heard I was just like 'okay' didn't think much of it. BUT then 'oh it's going to be a surgery' it really can make a person stop and go...'oh shit..this is a little worse then I first thought.'
-Angel
My son is here!
Posted 11 years agoCalvin Mark Abraham Crouch!
Born March 14th 2014 at 3:27 am. 7 pounds 8 ounces 20 inches long with a set of lungs on him that would put an opera singer to shame!
My son is a pi Baby! :D hahaha
Were home from the hospital the day after he was born. Since I'm an experienced mother and he was good and I was good we got to leave early.
Happiest day ever coming home to my fiance and my eldest 19th month old
-Spark39 Weeks 1 day 6 minutes till 39 weeks 2 days
Posted 11 years agoMy water broke at 5pm this afternoon. I am now in the hospital on the stuff to further the contractions and the dilation process to speed the baby along. It appears I'll be having another 14th baby!
My son was Aug 14th 2012 and now...I'll be having the second March 14th 2014 hahaha. Sweetness...cannot wait to meet my second child!
-Spark
My son was Aug 14th 2012 and now...I'll be having the second March 14th 2014 hahaha. Sweetness...cannot wait to meet my second child!
-Spark
39 WEEKS tomorrow!!!
Posted 11 years agoHoly gods I'm in the last leg of this pregnancy. 39 weeks tomorrow another doctor appt and I'm sraight up counting down days till my due date.
As of right now i've got 8 more days to go. I'm just hoping I don't go PAST my due date! I am so ready to pop this baby out! I know I'm going to lose sleep again and it's going to be a mad house dealing with a newborn and my soon to be 19 month old son...but I wouldn't trade being a mother for the damn world!
Being a mother is the best thing ever...and the whole pain and stuff of going through pregnancy? If anyone asks it is really worth it even if it's taxing on one's emotions, body and energy.
Spark37 weeks and 3 days along in my pregnancy
Posted 11 years agoI am getting very VERY VERY close to popping my second child! I am having another boy lol...this weekend would not be a good time for the baby to be born however..because where I live it's suppose to possibly get up to 12 inches of a mixture of snow, sleet and ice.
FUCK that mess! Not to mention my fiance is sick and my other son is sick too! Mommy is the only one in the house that hasn't caught the dreaded sickness that is going around..ugh ugh ugh.
Having braxton hicks contractions every day...and I already went through a nesting mode phase....scrubbed, mopped vacuumed everything, then I went over everything with bleach spray and lysol for the cold and flu.
So close..cannot wait but at the same time I can...I don't want to expose a newborn to sickness!
SparkOOoo Free christmas watch raffle!
Posted 12 years agoBirthday in 11 days and counting!
Posted 12 years agoWOO I'm excited! I'm going to be 29 on the 29th! hahah :D HURRAH not only that BUT I get to find out if I'm having a girl or boy for my second child.
I honestly am Hoping for a girl this time LoL balance out already having a boy. BUT either way I'll be happy as long as the baby is healthy!
I honestly am Hoping for a girl this time LoL balance out already having a boy. BUT either way I'll be happy as long as the baby is healthy!
Check out this Iron Artist!
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4913286/
I saw this from a friends page and I'm throwing it up in my journal!
I saw this from a friends page and I'm throwing it up in my journal!
Helping a friend!
Posted 12 years agoSo my friend 
theartymadcow Needs to get together some $ for rent and she is running cheap commissions at the moment! She did two of my pictures http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9926291/ Here and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10581555/ Anyways I figured I'd post this journal and hope it'll help her out a little!
-Spark
theartymadcow Needs to get together some $ for rent and she is running cheap commissions at the moment! She did two of my pictures http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9926291/ Here and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10581555/ Anyways I figured I'd post this journal and hope it'll help her out a little!-Spark
