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2025: The Worst Year of My Life
General | Posted 2 weeks agoWith the final month of this year coming to a close, I think it's time to reflect on what has happened to me this year. Based on the title I don't think you need any warnings about how serious this is...but believe me when I say to you that I'm not being hyperbolic about this, as probably the most traumatic thing in my life has happened thus far. It's just how it is...so much so that because of everything, I'm forced to stay calm and prevent myself from raging and screaming at how stressful this has been. With that said, here we go!
So it was late February that was when this all started. My mother seemed ill but it didn't seem like anything that much surprising. She has had instances of sudden concerns and previously a similar incident did NOT need the ER like I thought...well...that was not the case this time. My mother already told me how she was sick and didn't have the strength to get meds, but again I thought it was just something that would pass. She had me get some alcohol because she couldn't sleep for a long time...also probably to hydrate.
I was playing a game and all of a sudden heard a loud thump! She fell off the bed and was in a similar phase of delirium that I've seen before, but it was much, much worse! She could not stay conscious except that she needed me to grab a paper towel to clean something as she couldn't make the bathroom. Because of how much worse it seemed, I had to call 911 and sadly this was the last time she was in the house. She was really out of it and the people actually had to have her go to an ambulance.
Just to speed up what happened, over the course of 2-3 days the paramedics could not get her back to a conscious state again and her organs were failing. We had to make the decision to take off all life support...and mother passed away late in the night. It's hard to know exactly what was wrong, but she seemed to have flu symptoms. I'm not sure what else to say about that though...but reality is reality and sometimes a 71-year-old body just can't live anymore.
So I got to be with my one brother and sister-in-law during all this, then later to prepare for the funeral my sister came over out of state to assist us. Unfortunately my father and other brother were completely absent during all this...which entails how deep the enstrangement is with my mother. During mother's funeral, I gave a really good speech that goes through how I've been able to mentally survive through this traumatic experience, in a case where most other people would crash out completely.
For a brief moment I felt like the activeness of the grief process would help me recover and start a new life without my mother. Unfortunately, things went South from here. During the funeral preparation, I was already told by my new Power of Attorney the possibility of needing to sell the house and car. This gets to the part that...quite honestly makes mother's death infinitely harder than...my Biblical undestanding of knowing my mother is in heaven.
As you could see, my entire family is split up. Early in our lives, mother and father divorced, which led us to sell the house. My father had my brothers, my sister was already in another state for college, and my mother had me. Three to four apartments later over the course of years, my mother was able to afford the home that I'm in...well, for the time being. Unfortunately, my mother being single and only having me meant we more recently were barely able to make payments for maintaining the house. My mother worked full-time working with kids in a school, but even with that, Social Security, and healthcare...we needed an extra source of help from the church in order to complete payments. This also meant that my mother had to keep working past retirement age and using her retirement to help with maintenance as well. My mother also had money left over for emergencies, which would now be used as a "Trust Fund" to keep me afloat...but again, lets be realistic here...my mother still didn't have much...
So you can see how this all comes together. It feels like the damage that occurred with the divorce, the estrangement of my siblings, had a lot to do with why my mother had very little for me, except for the house and whatever is valuable underneath all the items packed in there. With very little money left and bills coming in rapid pace over the course of 9 months, my Power of Attorney has had to sell mother's car and now we're approaching the phase of me needing to move out of the house...
Yes, you heard that. I actually have to move out sooner than later. That is because during this time, we've also had run-ins with my home owner's insurance and this company could not insure the house in the state it's currently in. As a result, we're working to get a different place for insurance, but also I have to start cleaning out the house.
Sorry that I didn't already mention that last November I got fired for reasons I don't want to get into, but I've been unsure how to pursue employment after that...but again, with the way bills have been coming in, I'd barely get even by working full-time.
Anyway...yeah...want some good news in all of this? Because I think maybe there could be some glimmer of hope. This fella here...!
macardientertainment
He has really been helpful in figuring out alternatives to this. We've had to navigate the possibility of losing my six cats, should I move to an apartment to PA (hold on, I'm getting to the good part!). It just so happens that Spirit has worked with his family with a condo business and may find a condo/house in Ohio to offset me losing the house. I won't lose as much in the process, I won't lose the cats, and I'll live near Spirit, whom I've been talking to for...gosh, over 15 years?
Yeah, I'm trying to hold on to hope and Spirit has been talking with my Power of Attorney about this working out somehow. I think this will be a big break from losing my only supportive family member. Unfortunately...and not to continue being sour...this definitely would happen NEXT year in 2026...!
So sadly I can't even end this year on a high note, but something helpful did happen where Spirit got to come over to see me for the weekend. It was a short moment of relief as he also was able to work with my Power of Attorney to help move items, but it was a nice refresher after everything that has happened.
For a couple days I finally got to see my father and other brother this Thanksgiving. Thankfully (literally) I did not have any drama, but frustratingly nothing was talked about regarding my mother's passing. Literally nothing, which honestly tells me a lot about my family even at the end of things. It's almost like not even estrangement can be broken enough to fix the current pain that I'm in. Not enough sympathy, no financial support, none of that! Honestly stuff like this makes me wonder what I'd do if I had my own family...like wouldn't I just want to keep a hypothetical child from this sort of hell that I'm in?
I don't know...it's just hard to express to you all how hard this has been for me. I live in a broken world with a broken family, and I'm questioning the worth of a lot of things in life, because of how easily disposable it becomes if a family member's life is screwed over enough! I'm fatigued a lot because of this, I'm constantly under intense stress, and I feel like the only people able to help me are people that want to speed up the process in dumping personal belongings in the dumpster! Everyone else is either distant or unable to help and it's...it's just a lot to deal with. Either I have time to recover for a moment or I don't have any time left...
Sorry, I think I'll just end it on this. I really just wanted to tell people what happened and I think with 2025 ending in a month, this felt like the right time. Honestly I'm not even sure what I want at this point. I don't feel like 99% of what's out there is going to fix the loss of my own supportive family member, the house, and whatever else. It's just how life is and...man, I just hate it!
I'll still take condolences and support though. That's a lot of why I'm posting this, as I'm kind of desperate for help. I'm praying that 2026 is a much better year and that this December I won't crash out from all the stress built-up over the course of 9 months. I can use some prayer from you all as well. I'd grately appreciate it!
Thank you all for reading this and maybe...2026 will be the Best Year of My Life...we'll see...miracles do happen~
So it was late February that was when this all started. My mother seemed ill but it didn't seem like anything that much surprising. She has had instances of sudden concerns and previously a similar incident did NOT need the ER like I thought...well...that was not the case this time. My mother already told me how she was sick and didn't have the strength to get meds, but again I thought it was just something that would pass. She had me get some alcohol because she couldn't sleep for a long time...also probably to hydrate.
I was playing a game and all of a sudden heard a loud thump! She fell off the bed and was in a similar phase of delirium that I've seen before, but it was much, much worse! She could not stay conscious except that she needed me to grab a paper towel to clean something as she couldn't make the bathroom. Because of how much worse it seemed, I had to call 911 and sadly this was the last time she was in the house. She was really out of it and the people actually had to have her go to an ambulance.
Just to speed up what happened, over the course of 2-3 days the paramedics could not get her back to a conscious state again and her organs were failing. We had to make the decision to take off all life support...and mother passed away late in the night. It's hard to know exactly what was wrong, but she seemed to have flu symptoms. I'm not sure what else to say about that though...but reality is reality and sometimes a 71-year-old body just can't live anymore.
So I got to be with my one brother and sister-in-law during all this, then later to prepare for the funeral my sister came over out of state to assist us. Unfortunately my father and other brother were completely absent during all this...which entails how deep the enstrangement is with my mother. During mother's funeral, I gave a really good speech that goes through how I've been able to mentally survive through this traumatic experience, in a case where most other people would crash out completely.
For a brief moment I felt like the activeness of the grief process would help me recover and start a new life without my mother. Unfortunately, things went South from here. During the funeral preparation, I was already told by my new Power of Attorney the possibility of needing to sell the house and car. This gets to the part that...quite honestly makes mother's death infinitely harder than...my Biblical undestanding of knowing my mother is in heaven.
As you could see, my entire family is split up. Early in our lives, mother and father divorced, which led us to sell the house. My father had my brothers, my sister was already in another state for college, and my mother had me. Three to four apartments later over the course of years, my mother was able to afford the home that I'm in...well, for the time being. Unfortunately, my mother being single and only having me meant we more recently were barely able to make payments for maintaining the house. My mother worked full-time working with kids in a school, but even with that, Social Security, and healthcare...we needed an extra source of help from the church in order to complete payments. This also meant that my mother had to keep working past retirement age and using her retirement to help with maintenance as well. My mother also had money left over for emergencies, which would now be used as a "Trust Fund" to keep me afloat...but again, lets be realistic here...my mother still didn't have much...
So you can see how this all comes together. It feels like the damage that occurred with the divorce, the estrangement of my siblings, had a lot to do with why my mother had very little for me, except for the house and whatever is valuable underneath all the items packed in there. With very little money left and bills coming in rapid pace over the course of 9 months, my Power of Attorney has had to sell mother's car and now we're approaching the phase of me needing to move out of the house...
Yes, you heard that. I actually have to move out sooner than later. That is because during this time, we've also had run-ins with my home owner's insurance and this company could not insure the house in the state it's currently in. As a result, we're working to get a different place for insurance, but also I have to start cleaning out the house.
Sorry that I didn't already mention that last November I got fired for reasons I don't want to get into, but I've been unsure how to pursue employment after that...but again, with the way bills have been coming in, I'd barely get even by working full-time.
Anyway...yeah...want some good news in all of this? Because I think maybe there could be some glimmer of hope. This fella here...!
macardientertainmentHe has really been helpful in figuring out alternatives to this. We've had to navigate the possibility of losing my six cats, should I move to an apartment to PA (hold on, I'm getting to the good part!). It just so happens that Spirit has worked with his family with a condo business and may find a condo/house in Ohio to offset me losing the house. I won't lose as much in the process, I won't lose the cats, and I'll live near Spirit, whom I've been talking to for...gosh, over 15 years?
Yeah, I'm trying to hold on to hope and Spirit has been talking with my Power of Attorney about this working out somehow. I think this will be a big break from losing my only supportive family member. Unfortunately...and not to continue being sour...this definitely would happen NEXT year in 2026...!
So sadly I can't even end this year on a high note, but something helpful did happen where Spirit got to come over to see me for the weekend. It was a short moment of relief as he also was able to work with my Power of Attorney to help move items, but it was a nice refresher after everything that has happened.
For a couple days I finally got to see my father and other brother this Thanksgiving. Thankfully (literally) I did not have any drama, but frustratingly nothing was talked about regarding my mother's passing. Literally nothing, which honestly tells me a lot about my family even at the end of things. It's almost like not even estrangement can be broken enough to fix the current pain that I'm in. Not enough sympathy, no financial support, none of that! Honestly stuff like this makes me wonder what I'd do if I had my own family...like wouldn't I just want to keep a hypothetical child from this sort of hell that I'm in?
I don't know...it's just hard to express to you all how hard this has been for me. I live in a broken world with a broken family, and I'm questioning the worth of a lot of things in life, because of how easily disposable it becomes if a family member's life is screwed over enough! I'm fatigued a lot because of this, I'm constantly under intense stress, and I feel like the only people able to help me are people that want to speed up the process in dumping personal belongings in the dumpster! Everyone else is either distant or unable to help and it's...it's just a lot to deal with. Either I have time to recover for a moment or I don't have any time left...
Sorry, I think I'll just end it on this. I really just wanted to tell people what happened and I think with 2025 ending in a month, this felt like the right time. Honestly I'm not even sure what I want at this point. I don't feel like 99% of what's out there is going to fix the loss of my own supportive family member, the house, and whatever else. It's just how life is and...man, I just hate it!
I'll still take condolences and support though. That's a lot of why I'm posting this, as I'm kind of desperate for help. I'm praying that 2026 is a much better year and that this December I won't crash out from all the stress built-up over the course of 9 months. I can use some prayer from you all as well. I'd grately appreciate it!
Thank you all for reading this and maybe...2026 will be the Best Year of My Life...we'll see...miracles do happen~
I'm (not) here, too!
General | Posted 4 years agoI guess considering the current direction this situation has taken, I'm only left to talk about it here.
So I'm sure plenty have heard the news regarding conversations that Fiddleafox has had on Discord. I first heard about it in a Discord server in reference to it on Twitter and my initial instinct remained the same as most anybody else that has been accused of transphobia, racism, etc.. I glanced at the information for a brief moment and then at some point stopped, concluding with the mindset of "waiting for more info to surface as time goes by."
I got a very valid response regarding ignoring obvious evidence and that Fiddle even admitted to what was done. Speaking of admittance...yeah, I can say that I still haven't looked much more on what was brought up, but I want to explain why I'm doing this. As I said before, I know of multiple cases where people have been cancelled, in which either such actions were taken out of context or it was simply made-up as a conspired attempt to destroy someone's reputation. Again, people tell me the evidence is there this time, but I struggle to believe it given how frequent this has happened and how for some reason NOBODY even blinks at the thought that they may have just ruined someone's life and ability to make money all because of words that have hurt someone.
Just recently I've found out cases where the damage of #CancelCulture dealt was fatal. One artist has reached a point where he went from being popular to making less than minimum wage drawing art, because of the hate crime of "transphobia". Another artist's brand was completely destroyed after accusations of not drawing a trans flag for a commission and not supporting Black Lives Matter. In the case with Fiddleafox, a tweet states in not using social media again, very likely alluding to Discord as well given that was where the drama started in the first place. I'm aware that there were a lot of accusations made that were very concerning, but I still have to wonder where this actually equates to "let's gang up and make sure this person never breathes without suffering at our hands for the pain that was dealt."
In regards to this equation, I am very well aware of times where that has more validity. Unjust trials in regards to blatantly obvious murder and rape, in which the key suspect goes home a free man...key examples being Casey Anthony, OJ Simpson, and the recent one being Bill Cosby; how do you think people end up responding following the riots over such heinous injustice? By remembering the face all too well in public streets, people come together to make sure that should-be criminal lives a hellish life from here on out. You can see that same tactic being used here and as I've said, there's a lot of sense to that.
Now with the scenario I just mentioned, you see how it's in regards to serious crimes, but it seems like the window of opportunities have broadened to where if a person says a number of offensive words, this is how they should be treated. But again I ask how such an offense EQUATES to this charge? Keep in mind I'm NOT trying to invalidate or undermine the damage done with the words that people like Fiddleafox use, but the amount of punishment just comes across as so harsh...that it's honestly no wonder WHY I'm more likely to lean to the defense of people like Fiddle.
As a person that values Christianity and conservatism, the topics in relation hit very closely because of the contention with the identity politics of today. I believe there are a LOT of issues that need to be addressed right here and now, but society just doesn't view our criticism as supportive for them as individuals. Yeah, it does oppose where we stand, but it doesn't mean we have some cryptic intent to oppress them. We just want people, regardless of their identity, to live the best life they can...but I'm getting a bit off-topic here.
I can tell that a lot of people like Fiddleafox have vastly different ways of communicating about these topics, but I feel like I really need to know them before writing them off as "yet another filthy racist" as one YouTube claims Fiddleafox to be. Furthermore, if I do suspect someone like Fiddle saying horrible things about someone, my first instinct shouldn't be to quietly hide from them and then post about what they said to the world.
Let me use this moment to talk about something big that I learned from the Bible. There is a portion of Scripture that alludes to how to handle church conflict. There's a process that is involved where if it is found of such conflict, the Church goes to the offender to address the issue in a remote place. If after many attempts when the offender definitively refuses to comply, the final call is to "treat them as you would a tax collector." Tax collectors were of the kind that were shunned by society for being crooked, in which it APPEARS that this passage of Scripture is supporting the mistreatment of such an offender. The REALITY is almost the opposite, because as you the reader that holds Christian values and recognizes how Jesus actually had conversations with a tax collector, what you realize is that your role is to, while the offender is taken out of the church, to still talk with them and lead them BACK to the right place morally.
"Does #CancelCulture REALLY even come close to mimicking such practices?" I guess I'm kind of asking rhetorically. Honestly it just doesn't seem as such considering how ongoing the assault gets even following the cancellation. Certainly the Scriptures seem to present the fact that people are still encouraged to socially engage with offenders, which doesn't involve throwing blow after blow of harsh criticism. One more thing I will add for the sake of people...kinda like me...is that it's still okay to disassociate with such an offender. Us humans are either equipped as fighters or flighters and sometimes people of the latter just need to distance from the offender instead of interacting with them, for mental stability-sake. Just be aware that staying in your chosen mindset is expected so that you don't get caught with the way our society is, and that's by using your fears to manipulate the way you treat the offender.
But yeah, I'm sorry if any of this causes any problems, but I just feel like something needs to be said that's not parroting what thousands already have said. I know that I likely can't fix anything from what just happened, but I think future incidents of a similar kind 1000% need to be approached differently. I can't with a clear conscience support the mass if what I see from the mass is them hurting one person from the inside-out. If we really represent as moral superiors, how can we then justify the current state of #CancelCulture as the replacement for true moral justice? No human is perfect in the first place, so realistically speaking #CancelCulture is apparently allowed to go after anyone, as those that are...imperfect. What sense does that really make?
I dunno, but that's about as much as I can say about all this. I think my issue that leads me to ignore evidence provided is that I don't want any of that to cloud my stance on social issues. Information tends to change rapidly while still remaining emotionally charged, so I try to avoid that in order to focus on what I know about how things should be addressed socially. I'll let other people handle the evidence while I handle how people approached things and how they should have improved. I think that's the best way to describe how I am on these controversial topics.
So yeah, a lot to read here, but I hope that this is helpful in some way. As usual, not sure if I'll respond, but I appreciate the feedback. Thanks for hearing me out!
So I'm sure plenty have heard the news regarding conversations that Fiddleafox has had on Discord. I first heard about it in a Discord server in reference to it on Twitter and my initial instinct remained the same as most anybody else that has been accused of transphobia, racism, etc.. I glanced at the information for a brief moment and then at some point stopped, concluding with the mindset of "waiting for more info to surface as time goes by."
I got a very valid response regarding ignoring obvious evidence and that Fiddle even admitted to what was done. Speaking of admittance...yeah, I can say that I still haven't looked much more on what was brought up, but I want to explain why I'm doing this. As I said before, I know of multiple cases where people have been cancelled, in which either such actions were taken out of context or it was simply made-up as a conspired attempt to destroy someone's reputation. Again, people tell me the evidence is there this time, but I struggle to believe it given how frequent this has happened and how for some reason NOBODY even blinks at the thought that they may have just ruined someone's life and ability to make money all because of words that have hurt someone.
Just recently I've found out cases where the damage of #CancelCulture dealt was fatal. One artist has reached a point where he went from being popular to making less than minimum wage drawing art, because of the hate crime of "transphobia". Another artist's brand was completely destroyed after accusations of not drawing a trans flag for a commission and not supporting Black Lives Matter. In the case with Fiddleafox, a tweet states in not using social media again, very likely alluding to Discord as well given that was where the drama started in the first place. I'm aware that there were a lot of accusations made that were very concerning, but I still have to wonder where this actually equates to "let's gang up and make sure this person never breathes without suffering at our hands for the pain that was dealt."
In regards to this equation, I am very well aware of times where that has more validity. Unjust trials in regards to blatantly obvious murder and rape, in which the key suspect goes home a free man...key examples being Casey Anthony, OJ Simpson, and the recent one being Bill Cosby; how do you think people end up responding following the riots over such heinous injustice? By remembering the face all too well in public streets, people come together to make sure that should-be criminal lives a hellish life from here on out. You can see that same tactic being used here and as I've said, there's a lot of sense to that.
Now with the scenario I just mentioned, you see how it's in regards to serious crimes, but it seems like the window of opportunities have broadened to where if a person says a number of offensive words, this is how they should be treated. But again I ask how such an offense EQUATES to this charge? Keep in mind I'm NOT trying to invalidate or undermine the damage done with the words that people like Fiddleafox use, but the amount of punishment just comes across as so harsh...that it's honestly no wonder WHY I'm more likely to lean to the defense of people like Fiddle.
As a person that values Christianity and conservatism, the topics in relation hit very closely because of the contention with the identity politics of today. I believe there are a LOT of issues that need to be addressed right here and now, but society just doesn't view our criticism as supportive for them as individuals. Yeah, it does oppose where we stand, but it doesn't mean we have some cryptic intent to oppress them. We just want people, regardless of their identity, to live the best life they can...but I'm getting a bit off-topic here.
I can tell that a lot of people like Fiddleafox have vastly different ways of communicating about these topics, but I feel like I really need to know them before writing them off as "yet another filthy racist" as one YouTube claims Fiddleafox to be. Furthermore, if I do suspect someone like Fiddle saying horrible things about someone, my first instinct shouldn't be to quietly hide from them and then post about what they said to the world.
Let me use this moment to talk about something big that I learned from the Bible. There is a portion of Scripture that alludes to how to handle church conflict. There's a process that is involved where if it is found of such conflict, the Church goes to the offender to address the issue in a remote place. If after many attempts when the offender definitively refuses to comply, the final call is to "treat them as you would a tax collector." Tax collectors were of the kind that were shunned by society for being crooked, in which it APPEARS that this passage of Scripture is supporting the mistreatment of such an offender. The REALITY is almost the opposite, because as you the reader that holds Christian values and recognizes how Jesus actually had conversations with a tax collector, what you realize is that your role is to, while the offender is taken out of the church, to still talk with them and lead them BACK to the right place morally.
"Does #CancelCulture REALLY even come close to mimicking such practices?" I guess I'm kind of asking rhetorically. Honestly it just doesn't seem as such considering how ongoing the assault gets even following the cancellation. Certainly the Scriptures seem to present the fact that people are still encouraged to socially engage with offenders, which doesn't involve throwing blow after blow of harsh criticism. One more thing I will add for the sake of people...kinda like me...is that it's still okay to disassociate with such an offender. Us humans are either equipped as fighters or flighters and sometimes people of the latter just need to distance from the offender instead of interacting with them, for mental stability-sake. Just be aware that staying in your chosen mindset is expected so that you don't get caught with the way our society is, and that's by using your fears to manipulate the way you treat the offender.
But yeah, I'm sorry if any of this causes any problems, but I just feel like something needs to be said that's not parroting what thousands already have said. I know that I likely can't fix anything from what just happened, but I think future incidents of a similar kind 1000% need to be approached differently. I can't with a clear conscience support the mass if what I see from the mass is them hurting one person from the inside-out. If we really represent as moral superiors, how can we then justify the current state of #CancelCulture as the replacement for true moral justice? No human is perfect in the first place, so realistically speaking #CancelCulture is apparently allowed to go after anyone, as those that are...imperfect. What sense does that really make?
I dunno, but that's about as much as I can say about all this. I think my issue that leads me to ignore evidence provided is that I don't want any of that to cloud my stance on social issues. Information tends to change rapidly while still remaining emotionally charged, so I try to avoid that in order to focus on what I know about how things should be addressed socially. I'll let other people handle the evidence while I handle how people approached things and how they should have improved. I think that's the best way to describe how I am on these controversial topics.
So yeah, a lot to read here, but I hope that this is helpful in some way. As usual, not sure if I'll respond, but I appreciate the feedback. Thanks for hearing me out!
2021: The Year of Political Awakening
General | Posted 5 years agoMany of you are probably worried in what I'm about to say, so I just want to remind you all that as it stands, I do not have any drastic or completely controversial plans at the moment. I am very well aware that a lot of people are doing THAT right now, which is why I am posting this simply because I had to segregate myself from the outrage for the sake of my mental health.
Based on what has been going on however, some exceptions are beginning to be made on my behalf, such as the one that I will explain right now:
I will no longer be using Twitter as my social media platform anymore.
This will seem quite controversial as many people have a good idea as to WHY I will not be, and they are correct in their assumptions. Yes, it is because Donald Trump's Twitter account was permanently suspended yesterday. Before people go bombarding me with comments, just hear me out!
I don't know if I would have made this immediate decision in any other time than now in early 2021. I saw the writings on the walls at around 2020 from just about everything between harsh lockdown measures, violent protests from the left, impeachment trials (sounds like that's happening again), and shady election practices (also happening again). The thing was despite all that occurring in 2020, I don't think I was ready to say much online. I mean I get that it was out of fear, but I think while I was silent, everything was looking clearer and clearer to me.
As a result, what I got out of that year was at the very least, the hardcore left's perfect opportunity for complete control in government, in businesses, and in the sadly brainwashed everyday citizens. Right around the time 2021 rolled, something else popped up: The new stimulus bill. As most of you are aware, the bill contained 99% funding for everyone except the everyday citizen. Guess who voted for that bill, because it will actually shock you. 94% of congress from the left...AND THE RIGHT! Only 4 people opposed the bill along side Donald Trump, which I'll link here:
https://www.govtrack.us/congress/vo...../116-2020/s289
So that was a big turn of events for me...kinda the last straw, because if Republicans can't even be "for the people", who can? That left me with one of few options being Donald Trump. Lo and behold, look at the train wreck that occurred! Over the course of three days I learned how much my friends (of all people) hate Trump and now his Twitter went bye-bye! I'm sorry, but enough is enough for me!
Keep in mind that I'm not pushing anyone to be violent, to not wear masks, etc. All I want is my life back. My mental health has crumbled as I've continuously sat here in limbo behind a computer screen for almost a year. And now people I've been close to are telling me they hate the one person I trust in politics, the one person that I actually do believe can fix the problems that I'm struggling with. It blows my mind how polar opposite the sides are right now. Either people like me are pro-Trump and anti-establishment, or anti-Trump and pro-establishment. That's making it sound too simple, honestly because the level in which people show how much they hate Trump is so strong that I don't just disagree with them; I am repulsed by their beliefs!
And go the fuck figure which side Twitter chose to be with, the Trump haters. The animals that think that he should be impeached, thrown in jail, tortured (because death is too merciful). Yeah, those fuckers! Yeah, I'm just done with Twitter! I know that this sounds much more controversial than expected, but I'm just explaining my reasoning for choosing to socially isolate from platforms like this. As much as I loved being in the site for art and whatnot, the problem is that people have reached their limits. Twitter (as well as the users) made it clear to me in particular! My feelings don't matter! Even though I'm enslaved by WAY more than I should ever have to be, I'm supposed to specifically align my beliefs with the establishment. Um, no...that's not me, but before you assume that I'm going to disobey, that's also not me.
If things seem unjust and there's a non-confrontational means to respond, I much prefer that method. I'll still wear the masks (also personally so I don't get vandalized when I don't), I'll socially distance however possible, I like my hands clean anyway so that's not hard for me. I try to be as respectful as possible to the people around me. Just understand that me leaving Twitter is my way of helping me mentally break free from the anxiety around me.
I need to advocate for myself more, especially during these times. That is why I'm slowly but surely being more active politically. But while I do, I'm working on monitoring my mental health so that I can help myself, which will lead to helping others better. This is a good time to work on the "new me," and I want to make sure that I don't waste 2021 living in fear and anxiety. I hope that you all understand. Thanks for reading~
-- TimoKitsune
Based on what has been going on however, some exceptions are beginning to be made on my behalf, such as the one that I will explain right now:
I will no longer be using Twitter as my social media platform anymore.
This will seem quite controversial as many people have a good idea as to WHY I will not be, and they are correct in their assumptions. Yes, it is because Donald Trump's Twitter account was permanently suspended yesterday. Before people go bombarding me with comments, just hear me out!
I don't know if I would have made this immediate decision in any other time than now in early 2021. I saw the writings on the walls at around 2020 from just about everything between harsh lockdown measures, violent protests from the left, impeachment trials (sounds like that's happening again), and shady election practices (also happening again). The thing was despite all that occurring in 2020, I don't think I was ready to say much online. I mean I get that it was out of fear, but I think while I was silent, everything was looking clearer and clearer to me.
As a result, what I got out of that year was at the very least, the hardcore left's perfect opportunity for complete control in government, in businesses, and in the sadly brainwashed everyday citizens. Right around the time 2021 rolled, something else popped up: The new stimulus bill. As most of you are aware, the bill contained 99% funding for everyone except the everyday citizen. Guess who voted for that bill, because it will actually shock you. 94% of congress from the left...AND THE RIGHT! Only 4 people opposed the bill along side Donald Trump, which I'll link here:
https://www.govtrack.us/congress/vo...../116-2020/s289
So that was a big turn of events for me...kinda the last straw, because if Republicans can't even be "for the people", who can? That left me with one of few options being Donald Trump. Lo and behold, look at the train wreck that occurred! Over the course of three days I learned how much my friends (of all people) hate Trump and now his Twitter went bye-bye! I'm sorry, but enough is enough for me!
Keep in mind that I'm not pushing anyone to be violent, to not wear masks, etc. All I want is my life back. My mental health has crumbled as I've continuously sat here in limbo behind a computer screen for almost a year. And now people I've been close to are telling me they hate the one person I trust in politics, the one person that I actually do believe can fix the problems that I'm struggling with. It blows my mind how polar opposite the sides are right now. Either people like me are pro-Trump and anti-establishment, or anti-Trump and pro-establishment. That's making it sound too simple, honestly because the level in which people show how much they hate Trump is so strong that I don't just disagree with them; I am repulsed by their beliefs!
And go the fuck figure which side Twitter chose to be with, the Trump haters. The animals that think that he should be impeached, thrown in jail, tortured (because death is too merciful). Yeah, those fuckers! Yeah, I'm just done with Twitter! I know that this sounds much more controversial than expected, but I'm just explaining my reasoning for choosing to socially isolate from platforms like this. As much as I loved being in the site for art and whatnot, the problem is that people have reached their limits. Twitter (as well as the users) made it clear to me in particular! My feelings don't matter! Even though I'm enslaved by WAY more than I should ever have to be, I'm supposed to specifically align my beliefs with the establishment. Um, no...that's not me, but before you assume that I'm going to disobey, that's also not me.
If things seem unjust and there's a non-confrontational means to respond, I much prefer that method. I'll still wear the masks (also personally so I don't get vandalized when I don't), I'll socially distance however possible, I like my hands clean anyway so that's not hard for me. I try to be as respectful as possible to the people around me. Just understand that me leaving Twitter is my way of helping me mentally break free from the anxiety around me.
I need to advocate for myself more, especially during these times. That is why I'm slowly but surely being more active politically. But while I do, I'm working on monitoring my mental health so that I can help myself, which will lead to helping others better. This is a good time to work on the "new me," and I want to make sure that I don't waste 2021 living in fear and anxiety. I hope that you all understand. Thanks for reading~
-- TimoKitsune
I'll Stay in FA...for as long as they let me...
General | Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I know that people have been wondering if I would stay in FurAffinity, and this post is kind of my response to this. In addition, this is a very fitting time for me to post this, given the news that someone I watch on Twitter just got banned. So...now I'm in a conundrum...because I now have one more social media platform that is on my radar for placing favoritism with the degenerate left and deplatforming anyone deemed to be associated with the right.
I do want to point out that for some reason, nobody has gotten on to me for posting, but I know it's because most of my rambling is contained and not confrontational...at least as much as it perhaps should be. I'll admit that I probably don't do a good job condemning the hardcore left like I should, but I don't think I'm silent about it either. I can only hope that I'll become more outspoken while remaining calm and collected, but I'd be lying if I would tell you I'm doing that right now.
As sure as I was ready to talk about #PrideMonth for July, I began to notice the drastic polarization going on in the world around us. The urge to fume up and say that we need a Civil War right now has been pretty bad for me, and I don't feel I should condone that. I want us as a nation...and Earth-dwellers...to freely discuss issues that need legitimate improvement...dare I say without promoting any acts of violence. The problem doesn't even seem to be that the companies disagree with that. The problem is that the companies are issuing BAD definitions of what constitutes "promoting any acts of violence."
I don't know why I got on that tangent, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that there are other people that are saying the exact same things. My problem is that I know, as an individual that STRUGGLES with anger problems, anxiety issues, and depression, the damage and hurt associated with using anger as a tool of destruction. There's probably a 2% chance of justification in doing so and it seems that I have yet to reach that even once. One, because I'm not in a position of power. Two, because I'm never in a situation where it's the definitive last resort. That 98% is what you see a lot in the news. I'm referring to massive riots in rallies, shootings in headquarters/schools/while driving, stabbings in broad daylight, and more. It's clear there's a lot of anger in the world around us, but we seriously need to revert back to the Codes of Conduct and policies that addressed these issues the way it ought to be. Otherwise, we're just going to have years of years of incessant violence followed by policies that make the people around us EVEN angrier!
Welp, I did it again with the tangent! But I think you can see where I'm going with this. The title of my journal states what I'm planning and I guess that's one plan I'll stick with for as long as I can. If things continue to get ugly and...well, I'll say it...RoareyRaccoon gets deplatformed here as well, I think it's one step closer to me considering hauling my content elsewhere. Still don't know if I'll go that far even still...I mean I still like FurAffinity like how I enjoy Twitter. At the end of the day, it's just a social media platform that I can connect with people around me. It's the relationship that counts to when I post; not the bullshit policies that aim to take me down...that is unless they come after me. Well in that case, I'll move somewhere else. I've left Discord servers before, but I joined new ones and made friends that I'll probably be talking to for another 10-20 years. xP;
So yeah, that's enough rambling for me. I feel better letting my feelings out, just as long as I actually sounded respectable. You can leave comments as usual, but I don't know how talkative I'll be after that. I'll just be checking here every now and then, but you can catch me in other sites if you want. So yeah, don't let the sun go down on your anger and stay cool in the Summer heat~
I do want to point out that for some reason, nobody has gotten on to me for posting, but I know it's because most of my rambling is contained and not confrontational...at least as much as it perhaps should be. I'll admit that I probably don't do a good job condemning the hardcore left like I should, but I don't think I'm silent about it either. I can only hope that I'll become more outspoken while remaining calm and collected, but I'd be lying if I would tell you I'm doing that right now.
As sure as I was ready to talk about #PrideMonth for July, I began to notice the drastic polarization going on in the world around us. The urge to fume up and say that we need a Civil War right now has been pretty bad for me, and I don't feel I should condone that. I want us as a nation...and Earth-dwellers...to freely discuss issues that need legitimate improvement...dare I say without promoting any acts of violence. The problem doesn't even seem to be that the companies disagree with that. The problem is that the companies are issuing BAD definitions of what constitutes "promoting any acts of violence."
I don't know why I got on that tangent, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that there are other people that are saying the exact same things. My problem is that I know, as an individual that STRUGGLES with anger problems, anxiety issues, and depression, the damage and hurt associated with using anger as a tool of destruction. There's probably a 2% chance of justification in doing so and it seems that I have yet to reach that even once. One, because I'm not in a position of power. Two, because I'm never in a situation where it's the definitive last resort. That 98% is what you see a lot in the news. I'm referring to massive riots in rallies, shootings in headquarters/schools/while driving, stabbings in broad daylight, and more. It's clear there's a lot of anger in the world around us, but we seriously need to revert back to the Codes of Conduct and policies that addressed these issues the way it ought to be. Otherwise, we're just going to have years of years of incessant violence followed by policies that make the people around us EVEN angrier!
Welp, I did it again with the tangent! But I think you can see where I'm going with this. The title of my journal states what I'm planning and I guess that's one plan I'll stick with for as long as I can. If things continue to get ugly and...well, I'll say it...RoareyRaccoon gets deplatformed here as well, I think it's one step closer to me considering hauling my content elsewhere. Still don't know if I'll go that far even still...I mean I still like FurAffinity like how I enjoy Twitter. At the end of the day, it's just a social media platform that I can connect with people around me. It's the relationship that counts to when I post; not the bullshit policies that aim to take me down...that is unless they come after me. Well in that case, I'll move somewhere else. I've left Discord servers before, but I joined new ones and made friends that I'll probably be talking to for another 10-20 years. xP;
So yeah, that's enough rambling for me. I feel better letting my feelings out, just as long as I actually sounded respectable. You can leave comments as usual, but I don't know how talkative I'll be after that. I'll just be checking here every now and then, but you can catch me in other sites if you want. So yeah, don't let the sun go down on your anger and stay cool in the Summer heat~
I Don't Want to Leave FA, But I Think I Have To...
General | Posted 7 years agoSo I just found that Furaffinity just updated their Code of Conduct (COC) publicly declaring war on Alt-Right and completely dismissing Antifa Furs. Bear in mind that I'm not exactly someone that aligns with the Alt-Right, but I haven't had the level of issues that leftists claim to be having.
The biggest load the bullshit hypocrisy is the fact that Furaffinity flat-out REFUSES to acknowledge Antifa as a threat to this community. I'm sorry, but if you even so much as watch this video for even as much as a few minutes, you would find that they are not only cancerous in mindset, but actual full-blown terrorists.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmNz2jGzsDA
With that said, it's hard to utter all the words I feel, but I think this is a good time for conservatives like me to go on an exodus. Hell, if I have to go to Inkbunny...which I've had bad experiences with personally...that might even be better than this shithole of a safe space for liberal segregationists.
But I'm not 100% sure yet. If anything, I'll give it some time. I mean I don't want to leave for the sake of how I know quite a few people here. But if Furaffinity doesn't welcome people like me with certain opinionated thoughts, then why stay? Really it just comes to show that the furry community is no longer accepting. If that incident with the little girl getting bullied by adults in a furry convention is any indicator of how intolerant they've become, I don't know what is. And yet, you have furries shower the girl with fanart and free badges, which is seriously a big win for undoing any wrong in this community.
That's just it! I want justice to prevail like it did for that convention. True these adults might not get charged anytime soon, but at least people come together to make right that which is wrong. My proposal is that you let the Furaffinity staff know that this is insufferable. Be civil about it, but be friggin' blunt as well. If that doesn't work...well...let's come together to find our own place to commute. Certainly I'm not the only one that is considering leaving right now.
So yeah, again I'm not sure if I'm leaving immediately but this is a fair warning that I'm planning on it. I know I'm not Alt-Right, but I don't feel safe here anymore. If any of you have a response to this, feel free to let me know. Thanks for sticking with me and I'll see you later!
The biggest load the bullshit hypocrisy is the fact that Furaffinity flat-out REFUSES to acknowledge Antifa as a threat to this community. I'm sorry, but if you even so much as watch this video for even as much as a few minutes, you would find that they are not only cancerous in mindset, but actual full-blown terrorists.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmNz2jGzsDA
With that said, it's hard to utter all the words I feel, but I think this is a good time for conservatives like me to go on an exodus. Hell, if I have to go to Inkbunny...which I've had bad experiences with personally...that might even be better than this shithole of a safe space for liberal segregationists.
But I'm not 100% sure yet. If anything, I'll give it some time. I mean I don't want to leave for the sake of how I know quite a few people here. But if Furaffinity doesn't welcome people like me with certain opinionated thoughts, then why stay? Really it just comes to show that the furry community is no longer accepting. If that incident with the little girl getting bullied by adults in a furry convention is any indicator of how intolerant they've become, I don't know what is. And yet, you have furries shower the girl with fanart and free badges, which is seriously a big win for undoing any wrong in this community.
That's just it! I want justice to prevail like it did for that convention. True these adults might not get charged anytime soon, but at least people come together to make right that which is wrong. My proposal is that you let the Furaffinity staff know that this is insufferable. Be civil about it, but be friggin' blunt as well. If that doesn't work...well...let's come together to find our own place to commute. Certainly I'm not the only one that is considering leaving right now.
So yeah, again I'm not sure if I'm leaving immediately but this is a fair warning that I'm planning on it. I know I'm not Alt-Right, but I don't feel safe here anymore. If any of you have a response to this, feel free to let me know. Thanks for sticking with me and I'll see you later!
Signal Boost for My Mate (Financial Support through Patreon)
General | Posted 10 years agoI have no clue why I have not done this sooner, but better now than later.
My mate, macardientertainment is currently in a pretty rough financial bind due to confidential reasons. Every now and again, I have to hear my mate struggle mentally and financially through what little he gets. Honestly, I don't want to have to amount to what people might call a "sob story" to ask for support, though I do feel some responsibility to assist my mate in any way possible, especially under rough circumstances.
With that said, Spirit has recently started a Patreon account in an effort to make a self-employed living out of 3D modelling, more specifically for his fan-made Klonoa sequel, "Klonoa 3". I'm not going to try to say much more (I honestly think I suck at being persuasive in writing...), so I figure that I will let Spirit's Patreon page do the rest of the talking.
Please take the time to review what my mate has to present. You can support him through your usual online transactions and even send critique along the way. I'll appreciate anything that comes along the way. Thank you! ;w;
https://www.patreon.com/MacardiEntertainment
My mate,
macardientertainment is currently in a pretty rough financial bind due to confidential reasons. Every now and again, I have to hear my mate struggle mentally and financially through what little he gets. Honestly, I don't want to have to amount to what people might call a "sob story" to ask for support, though I do feel some responsibility to assist my mate in any way possible, especially under rough circumstances.With that said, Spirit has recently started a Patreon account in an effort to make a self-employed living out of 3D modelling, more specifically for his fan-made Klonoa sequel, "Klonoa 3". I'm not going to try to say much more (I honestly think I suck at being persuasive in writing...), so I figure that I will let Spirit's Patreon page do the rest of the talking.
Please take the time to review what my mate has to present. You can support him through your usual online transactions and even send critique along the way. I'll appreciate anything that comes along the way. Thank you! ;w;
https://www.patreon.com/MacardiEntertainment
Something along the lines of despair...
General | Posted 11 years agoThis is a rant of the shit that I feel that all seemed to have started over the short radius of a single week...
Never have I felt such a level of depression that has lasted as long as this and all over a simple chatroom discussion on Skype. I'm not going to get into specifics of the people involved. All I can say is that a simple case of extremely callous and harsh words from a specific someone destroyed both my mate's trust in the chatroom and ultimately my trust in what I felt was my friend. You can be one to say that it's just one person, but to me, I felt like it was that including a part of my soul...
What people fail to understand is where I come from socially as a result of me mentally. I'm terrible at finding ways to make friends in both real-life and online. I find many ways to usually question opening up to people online unless I may want to meet them online, though I reach an exception among certain people and certain levels of structure, such as on the chatroom. In other words, this was a very rare treat for me. Finally, a group of people that I can talk to and pour out my life to! At a certain point, it didn't matter if we didn't meet in real-life unless it might be possible later on in life. Naturally, I just felt a sense of confidence with these people that I never felt before...only for it all be gone the moment me and my mate got treated like total shit and my mate left immediately following that!
Ever since that and that alone, I was and still am shattered mentally! All my confidence was stripped away from me and suddenly at this point, the only words I can even utter are words of sorrow...loneliness...despair. Suddenly, feelings of insecurity started creeping in once more only for me to realize that this time, it continues to linger. I think reality seems to be coming to me how impossible it really is to find true joy in friendship. That feeling I refer to as spending time together in real-life, smiling and hugging each other at each passing moment, looking at scenery and pouring ourselves out to each other (maybe shedding some tears of compassion)...that feeling! The fact that I went from talking to my mate exclusively to potentially 10-15 people to literally back to my mate alone is hard. You notice that I forget that there were other people that didn't approve of the guy that treated me like shit...well, they aren't really there for me to talk through this either, so I don't even know if they care that much how I feel...
I just don't even know. At this point, I've been looking 50 different directions hoping that some other people can fill the void the guy in the chat threw at me. My mate also needs his own space to deal with this, so I'm respecting that and letting him choose freely. I just feel like this was one of those certain points where eventually my stifled emotions were going to get unveiled. Should anyone even care to read all this, I would be too grateful for a response. Otherwise, I'm just going to live with the fact that these feelings were just a stupid-ass pipe dream of mine that thought that pouring out my emotions would help revitalize any hope I had in making friends...
Never have I felt such a level of depression that has lasted as long as this and all over a simple chatroom discussion on Skype. I'm not going to get into specifics of the people involved. All I can say is that a simple case of extremely callous and harsh words from a specific someone destroyed both my mate's trust in the chatroom and ultimately my trust in what I felt was my friend. You can be one to say that it's just one person, but to me, I felt like it was that including a part of my soul...
What people fail to understand is where I come from socially as a result of me mentally. I'm terrible at finding ways to make friends in both real-life and online. I find many ways to usually question opening up to people online unless I may want to meet them online, though I reach an exception among certain people and certain levels of structure, such as on the chatroom. In other words, this was a very rare treat for me. Finally, a group of people that I can talk to and pour out my life to! At a certain point, it didn't matter if we didn't meet in real-life unless it might be possible later on in life. Naturally, I just felt a sense of confidence with these people that I never felt before...only for it all be gone the moment me and my mate got treated like total shit and my mate left immediately following that!
Ever since that and that alone, I was and still am shattered mentally! All my confidence was stripped away from me and suddenly at this point, the only words I can even utter are words of sorrow...loneliness...despair. Suddenly, feelings of insecurity started creeping in once more only for me to realize that this time, it continues to linger. I think reality seems to be coming to me how impossible it really is to find true joy in friendship. That feeling I refer to as spending time together in real-life, smiling and hugging each other at each passing moment, looking at scenery and pouring ourselves out to each other (maybe shedding some tears of compassion)...that feeling! The fact that I went from talking to my mate exclusively to potentially 10-15 people to literally back to my mate alone is hard. You notice that I forget that there were other people that didn't approve of the guy that treated me like shit...well, they aren't really there for me to talk through this either, so I don't even know if they care that much how I feel...
I just don't even know. At this point, I've been looking 50 different directions hoping that some other people can fill the void the guy in the chat threw at me. My mate also needs his own space to deal with this, so I'm respecting that and letting him choose freely. I just feel like this was one of those certain points where eventually my stifled emotions were going to get unveiled. Should anyone even care to read all this, I would be too grateful for a response. Otherwise, I'm just going to live with the fact that these feelings were just a stupid-ass pipe dream of mine that thought that pouring out my emotions would help revitalize any hope I had in making friends...
My Customized Monthly Ban List for Yu-Gi-Oh! (January 2015)
General | Posted 11 years agoThe changes listed are in relation to the previous list (October 1st, 2014), not the official list at the same time as this one.
Forbidden:
Wind-Up Hunter
Raigeki
Soul Charge
Blaze Fenix, the Burning Bombardment Bird
Limited:
Qliphort Scout
Brotherhood of the Fire Fist - Rooster
Elemental HERO Stratos
Sinister Serpent (Pre-Errata)
A Hero Lives
Dragon Ravine
Super Polymerization
Fire Lake of the Burning Abyss
Sinister Shadow Games
Vanity's Emptiness
El Shaddoll Construct
El Shaddoll Winda
Dante, Traveler of the Burning Abyss
Wind-Up Carrier Zenmaity
Semi-Limited:
Artifact Moralltach
Debris Dragon
Inzektor Hornet
Neo-Spacian Grand Mole
Rescue Rabbit
Satellarknight Altair
Thunder King Rai-Oh
Wind-Up Magician
Book of Moon
Divine Wind of Mist Valley
Monster Gate
One for One
Royal Tribute
Geargiagear
Skill Drain
Torrential Tribute
Legendary Six Samurai - Shi En
Unlimited:
Blackwing - Gale the Whirlwind
Brotherhood of the Fire Fist - Spirit
Card Trooper
Gladiator Beast Bestiari
Glow-Up Bulb
Morphing Jar #2
Advanced Ritual Art
Metamorphosis
Sacred Sword of Seven Stars
Infernity Barrier
Ojama Trio
The Transmigration Prophecy
Time Seal
Thousand-Eyes Restrict
Dark Strike Fighter
Okay, so now time for me to explain myself for my reason for this. I am working on a custom Yu-Gi-Oh! ban list as a constructive effort to reach to the community, especially in response to Konami's own banlist for January 2015. I have a sense that if the results are VERY well received (even constructive in critique if the changes listed do need to be changed), then this can potentially be carried over to bigger things like online tournament events under this ban list. This can obviously get even bigger, but we must not get too hasty about it.
Now many people are quick to judge this from the route of previous alternate ban list attempts, most of all to do with the Pojo forums for Yu-Gi-Oh!. Quite the contrary, I actually have no vendetta against Pojo as much as I personally feel that the Yu-Gi-Oh! community there is just so excessively large, that little to nothing made for and by the community is ever definitive. The only thing that I feel is necessary for my idea to work is a nice-sized group of people giving and receiving critique.
It's natural for me to say that a large sum of people probably disagree with this notion so strongly to the point of discouragement. It's fine. I do NOT expect myself to fill every single person's void by applying their perspective to my ban list. I can certainly do the best that I can and negotiate, but only if you can provide some points that I can possibly work with.
Anyway, I'm blabbing on right now, so I just wanted to put this up exactly one week before the New Year...right on Christmas day as my gift to you. Please feel free to leave feedback below and I'll see where this idea goes.
Thanks for reading and have a very Merry Christmas! :3
Forbidden:
Wind-Up Hunter
Raigeki
Soul Charge
Blaze Fenix, the Burning Bombardment Bird
Limited:
Qliphort Scout
Brotherhood of the Fire Fist - Rooster
Elemental HERO Stratos
Sinister Serpent (Pre-Errata)
A Hero Lives
Dragon Ravine
Super Polymerization
Fire Lake of the Burning Abyss
Sinister Shadow Games
Vanity's Emptiness
El Shaddoll Construct
El Shaddoll Winda
Dante, Traveler of the Burning Abyss
Wind-Up Carrier Zenmaity
Semi-Limited:
Artifact Moralltach
Debris Dragon
Inzektor Hornet
Neo-Spacian Grand Mole
Rescue Rabbit
Satellarknight Altair
Thunder King Rai-Oh
Wind-Up Magician
Book of Moon
Divine Wind of Mist Valley
Monster Gate
One for One
Royal Tribute
Geargiagear
Skill Drain
Torrential Tribute
Legendary Six Samurai - Shi En
Unlimited:
Blackwing - Gale the Whirlwind
Brotherhood of the Fire Fist - Spirit
Card Trooper
Gladiator Beast Bestiari
Glow-Up Bulb
Morphing Jar #2
Advanced Ritual Art
Metamorphosis
Sacred Sword of Seven Stars
Infernity Barrier
Ojama Trio
The Transmigration Prophecy
Time Seal
Thousand-Eyes Restrict
Dark Strike Fighter
Okay, so now time for me to explain myself for my reason for this. I am working on a custom Yu-Gi-Oh! ban list as a constructive effort to reach to the community, especially in response to Konami's own banlist for January 2015. I have a sense that if the results are VERY well received (even constructive in critique if the changes listed do need to be changed), then this can potentially be carried over to bigger things like online tournament events under this ban list. This can obviously get even bigger, but we must not get too hasty about it.
Now many people are quick to judge this from the route of previous alternate ban list attempts, most of all to do with the Pojo forums for Yu-Gi-Oh!. Quite the contrary, I actually have no vendetta against Pojo as much as I personally feel that the Yu-Gi-Oh! community there is just so excessively large, that little to nothing made for and by the community is ever definitive. The only thing that I feel is necessary for my idea to work is a nice-sized group of people giving and receiving critique.
It's natural for me to say that a large sum of people probably disagree with this notion so strongly to the point of discouragement. It's fine. I do NOT expect myself to fill every single person's void by applying their perspective to my ban list. I can certainly do the best that I can and negotiate, but only if you can provide some points that I can possibly work with.
Anyway, I'm blabbing on right now, so I just wanted to put this up exactly one week before the New Year...right on Christmas day as my gift to you. Please feel free to leave feedback below and I'll see where this idea goes.
Thanks for reading and have a very Merry Christmas! :3
What Made You? (Fursona Meme)
General | Posted 12 years agoCourtesy to 
dracolicoi for making this little survey. I had a lot of fun with it~
Also, I thank
foxyharris for somehow enlightening this survey's existence~
Now then, here's the Q&A for my fursona, Tim Daermott:
What made you choose the species of your main fursona?
This decision of my choice of species came quite a few years ago, so the reason was seemingly simple. The fox was my species of choice primarily because I saw my personality as sweet and calm like a cat and a tad bit aggressive like a dog. Given that foxes seemed to me like a nice blend of the two, added with the fact that foxes have a rather generally shy demeanor, I felt like the species was and still is a good choice.
Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
Tim is pretty much a combination of both. Simple as that.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Technically, Tim is everything I am in real-life.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
I believe so. Given that Tim is meant to mentally be just like me, I would imagine that what he likes and dislikes in his world would be explained in similar ways to my own likes and dislikes.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Tim doesn't look at all like me, unless you count the fact that my weight is fairly similar compared to my fursona counterpart. But heck, Tim doesn't even wear glasses. That settles that!
Is your fursona the same sex as you, if not why?
Yes, Tim is the same.
Do you have more then one main fursona?
No, I have never thought of altering my character's species, let alone make more than one fursona. The closest thing I have considered was a Pokemon persona as an Eevee. I never took that one seriously, so that seems to be an easy scrap...
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
At the moment, I have not completed a back story for Tim, however I do intend on doing so. Though I choose to not make it relevant to my life other than through potential undertones related to my faith.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
Yes and yes! Tim is happily mated to Spirit, who just so happens to be happily mated to macardientertainment. Did I mention how much I love him? :3
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
He's definitely not looking, though at most, Tim might just be very kind-hearted to characters other than just Spirit.
Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
Well if this counts, I consider Tim unique to other fursonas simply for having various mental flaws. The concept of such is both entertaining for the non-linear aspect of character development, and very relatable to the consumers that are mentally deficient themselves, that which we all as humans are.
Do you have much art of your main fursona(s)?
Perhaps compared to other artists with fursona I may not have a whole lot of art. Though I consider myself content with any that I receive. I've also drawn some here and there, though I admit that I need to draw Tim more~
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
A little deep in thought here, but while I don't consider myself parting from my fursona, I would probably have to be open to admit that I can't take my concept with me in heaven. Yeah, very odd thing to say, but hey! Some time in my life, I may have to pass and, therefore, come to that realization.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
I do not have a fursuit, I do not wear a fursuit, and I will highly unlikely entertain the concept of having or wearing one, unfortunately.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
Yes, I have roleplayed as Tim. Before anyone considers asking, I don't know roleplay with random people on a whim...just a note.
Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
I consider Tim to be a characterized representation of myself in a role-playing, anime-like world with anthropomorphism possible. In simple terms, yes I do, but I choose to keep that in moderation.
dracolicoi for making this little survey. I had a lot of fun with it~Also, I thank
foxyharris for somehow enlightening this survey's existence~Now then, here's the Q&A for my fursona, Tim Daermott:
What made you choose the species of your main fursona?
This decision of my choice of species came quite a few years ago, so the reason was seemingly simple. The fox was my species of choice primarily because I saw my personality as sweet and calm like a cat and a tad bit aggressive like a dog. Given that foxes seemed to me like a nice blend of the two, added with the fact that foxes have a rather generally shy demeanor, I felt like the species was and still is a good choice.
Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
Tim is pretty much a combination of both. Simple as that.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Technically, Tim is everything I am in real-life.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
I believe so. Given that Tim is meant to mentally be just like me, I would imagine that what he likes and dislikes in his world would be explained in similar ways to my own likes and dislikes.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Tim doesn't look at all like me, unless you count the fact that my weight is fairly similar compared to my fursona counterpart. But heck, Tim doesn't even wear glasses. That settles that!
Is your fursona the same sex as you, if not why?
Yes, Tim is the same.
Do you have more then one main fursona?
No, I have never thought of altering my character's species, let alone make more than one fursona. The closest thing I have considered was a Pokemon persona as an Eevee. I never took that one seriously, so that seems to be an easy scrap...
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
At the moment, I have not completed a back story for Tim, however I do intend on doing so. Though I choose to not make it relevant to my life other than through potential undertones related to my faith.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
Yes and yes! Tim is happily mated to Spirit, who just so happens to be happily mated to
macardientertainment. Did I mention how much I love him? :3If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
He's definitely not looking, though at most, Tim might just be very kind-hearted to characters other than just Spirit.
Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
Well if this counts, I consider Tim unique to other fursonas simply for having various mental flaws. The concept of such is both entertaining for the non-linear aspect of character development, and very relatable to the consumers that are mentally deficient themselves, that which we all as humans are.
Do you have much art of your main fursona(s)?
Perhaps compared to other artists with fursona I may not have a whole lot of art. Though I consider myself content with any that I receive. I've also drawn some here and there, though I admit that I need to draw Tim more~
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
A little deep in thought here, but while I don't consider myself parting from my fursona, I would probably have to be open to admit that I can't take my concept with me in heaven. Yeah, very odd thing to say, but hey! Some time in my life, I may have to pass and, therefore, come to that realization.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
I do not have a fursuit, I do not wear a fursuit, and I will highly unlikely entertain the concept of having or wearing one, unfortunately.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
Yes, I have roleplayed as Tim. Before anyone considers asking, I don't know roleplay with random people on a whim...just a note.
Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
I consider Tim to be a characterized representation of myself in a role-playing, anime-like world with anthropomorphism possible. In simple terms, yes I do, but I choose to keep that in moderation.
Sharing Faith in Times of Historical Hardship
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I made this blog two days ago, so you can see it in the original link in where I posted it.
http://timblr-fox.tumblr.com/post/6.....rical-hardship
Also to correct myself, it seems that the decision on Syria will actually be unveiled in 9PM EST tonight.
With that all said, feel free to put your comments on here. Same rules apply here, so be sure to read the whole blog before making any drastic comments. Thank you~
--Foxytail (Tim)
http://timblr-fox.tumblr.com/post/6.....rical-hardship
Also to correct myself, it seems that the decision on Syria will actually be unveiled in 9PM EST tonight.
With that all said, feel free to put your comments on here. Same rules apply here, so be sure to read the whole blog before making any drastic comments. Thank you~
--Foxytail (Tim)
Life Redirection & First Attempts at Sketch Requests! :D
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I'll be quite honest here, I have been neglecting to draw art to post online. Furthermore, I have gotten so lost socially, that I have closed my mind to just getting people's attention directly...and not by artistic means.
Well I have decided to take a different route now. I have decided that the way that I want to start build relationships with people AND grow artistically is to start doing sketch requests. Unlike various artists out there that prefer to be solitary and draw their own characters, I seem to be very much into connecting with other people artistically. Now I don't want to say that I am shutting down my artistic merit on my own characters and/or ideas. I just feel that it's high time that I would become more active for what I enjoy.
With that all said, I am willing to take simple sketch requests. Most preferably, I will want to do this with people I already know, as I am not yet comfortable to broaden my spectrums. I just want to give this idea a whirl and see how I feel about it.
As far as the standards go, I'll just restrict it to single characters and clean artwork. There is no cost to the requests as this pretty much in beta phase right now. Once again, this is mainly for friends or people I know online, but I will see about taking it further later on.
Please do request away and have a good day! :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
Well I have decided to take a different route now. I have decided that the way that I want to start build relationships with people AND grow artistically is to start doing sketch requests. Unlike various artists out there that prefer to be solitary and draw their own characters, I seem to be very much into connecting with other people artistically. Now I don't want to say that I am shutting down my artistic merit on my own characters and/or ideas. I just feel that it's high time that I would become more active for what I enjoy.
With that all said, I am willing to take simple sketch requests. Most preferably, I will want to do this with people I already know, as I am not yet comfortable to broaden my spectrums. I just want to give this idea a whirl and see how I feel about it.
As far as the standards go, I'll just restrict it to single characters and clean artwork. There is no cost to the requests as this pretty much in beta phase right now. Once again, this is mainly for friends or people I know online, but I will see about taking it further later on.
Please do request away and have a good day! :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
Feeling scared and worried around now...(Continuous Update)
General | Posted 12 years agoFirst off, getting up at 6 AM on my own accord is unheard and you will find out why right now...
My Mom just admitted herself to the hospital due to a severe problem going on with her body...
Long story short, she has been dealing with severe, agonizing pain for days. So bad is the pain that she can't sleep one minute in the night. Mom went to the doctor's, only to hear from a substitute doctor that she has "shingles," thus was given medicine to help numb the pain, supposedly.
This has been an all week problem that I've had to see her go through, and I have been forced to look for people for prayer support. It's painful for me to see her go through so much pain inside of her and not even know how to stop it. This is apparently one of THE most painful experiences Mom has dealt with in her life, to boot...
So about a half-hour ago, Mom woke up in my room saying she's going to the hospital, going through another night of constant pain and sleeplessness. As much as I'm told to just pray, I just couldn't when I heard that. My mind is in sudden panic as to what this could be and I can't even sleep to wait one minute to not talk about it...
There's no way the "shingles" is the problem with her. Mom doesn't even have a rash that would go with that, which might even be related to something like that, but actually life-long. Plus, I can't credit a substitute doctor who actually chose to take someone with a meesly "cold" before my Mom...
As far as I'm concerned, we don't fully know the diagnosis right now, but I'm just desperate for prayer at this time. I don't want to see her in any more pain like this, let alone lose her completely...
Please pray for my Mom...seriously!
Thank you for reading...
--Foxytail (Tim)
EDIT (12:53pm EST): It seems that my Mom went to get a CAT scan and it sounds like the doctor's couldn't figure it out. She is being admitted to the hospital, simply because she can't go back home with that much pain. Please continue praying...if you are...
(7/6--11:51am EST): Well, I got an early phone call from my Mom that she’s okay and is apparently STILL waiting for her test results. I’m relieved to get any response about now, let alone a good one, even though I have not heard from her until about 24 hours from now, so I was very stressed out… Nevertheless, if you are praying, continue to…
(7/6--4:17pm EST): Small update, but Mom won’t be coming home for a day or so, due to having surgery done on what seems to be around the gall bladder. Still fairly good news, though~
(7/8--9:20pm EST):
Good news! My Mom is finally home!
Apparently, my Mom chose to leave the hospital with assistance from a friend of hers. Sad to say this, but the hospital was doing little to nothing in accomplishing healing from pain, even though they refused to discharge her for having so much pain…They chose to drug my Mom up in doing so, but rather caused her to obtain side-effects such as hallucinations and feeling “looney."
So while she is finally home, there’s no real improvement on her results…though it is confirmed that she does have “shingles."
Still, I feel like things could have been handled better in the health department, but I can’t change that. At least I can say happily that I’ve learned a thing or two in being independent while she was gone~
Well, I will still update on my Mom later. I appreciate some additional prayer in healing, though.
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers so far and have a good day~
My Mom just admitted herself to the hospital due to a severe problem going on with her body...
Long story short, she has been dealing with severe, agonizing pain for days. So bad is the pain that she can't sleep one minute in the night. Mom went to the doctor's, only to hear from a substitute doctor that she has "shingles," thus was given medicine to help numb the pain, supposedly.
This has been an all week problem that I've had to see her go through, and I have been forced to look for people for prayer support. It's painful for me to see her go through so much pain inside of her and not even know how to stop it. This is apparently one of THE most painful experiences Mom has dealt with in her life, to boot...
So about a half-hour ago, Mom woke up in my room saying she's going to the hospital, going through another night of constant pain and sleeplessness. As much as I'm told to just pray, I just couldn't when I heard that. My mind is in sudden panic as to what this could be and I can't even sleep to wait one minute to not talk about it...
There's no way the "shingles" is the problem with her. Mom doesn't even have a rash that would go with that, which might even be related to something like that, but actually life-long. Plus, I can't credit a substitute doctor who actually chose to take someone with a meesly "cold" before my Mom...
As far as I'm concerned, we don't fully know the diagnosis right now, but I'm just desperate for prayer at this time. I don't want to see her in any more pain like this, let alone lose her completely...
Please pray for my Mom...seriously!
Thank you for reading...
--Foxytail (Tim)
EDIT (12:53pm EST): It seems that my Mom went to get a CAT scan and it sounds like the doctor's couldn't figure it out. She is being admitted to the hospital, simply because she can't go back home with that much pain. Please continue praying...if you are...
(7/6--11:51am EST): Well, I got an early phone call from my Mom that she’s okay and is apparently STILL waiting for her test results. I’m relieved to get any response about now, let alone a good one, even though I have not heard from her until about 24 hours from now, so I was very stressed out… Nevertheless, if you are praying, continue to…
(7/6--4:17pm EST): Small update, but Mom won’t be coming home for a day or so, due to having surgery done on what seems to be around the gall bladder. Still fairly good news, though~
(7/8--9:20pm EST):
Good news! My Mom is finally home!
Apparently, my Mom chose to leave the hospital with assistance from a friend of hers. Sad to say this, but the hospital was doing little to nothing in accomplishing healing from pain, even though they refused to discharge her for having so much pain…They chose to drug my Mom up in doing so, but rather caused her to obtain side-effects such as hallucinations and feeling “looney."
So while she is finally home, there’s no real improvement on her results…though it is confirmed that she does have “shingles."
Still, I feel like things could have been handled better in the health department, but I can’t change that. At least I can say happily that I’ve learned a thing or two in being independent while she was gone~
Well, I will still update on my Mom later. I appreciate some additional prayer in healing, though.
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers so far and have a good day~
Desperate for Direction...(Good Read for Local Furs)
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, I was honestly debating whether or not I wanted to make a journal in this phase of life that I'm in. Needless to say, I consider this a perfect time.
As I was dealing with the marriage of a brother of mine, the weight of what I thought would be public humiliation of him and everyone in my family (except my mother) was actually lifted off of me during the celebration. Consider it a miracle or not, as much as I hoped that I'd let it go, something else seemed to bother me.
Because of my brother's new success in the case of relationship, a weight was added on to me that is causing this journal for which you are seeing.
You see, unlike most of my family, I am very much inept in two particular fields; in relationships and in career.
Now I know you know I do have friends online, but let's be honest. If I would see them face-to-face, how long would it be before I finally get to see them? Shouldn't I also be trying to seek close bondage for somebody that I can in fact see face-to-face?
"Certainly so," I say, but that seems to feel like a pipe dream to me. Not to mention the fact that I am very critical in knowing who I feel would understand me the most. Please don't take that offensively, though. I just want the best social chemistry possible.
I don't really need to add as much about my job-seeking, other than that I know I'm seeking schooling, but I really want to know what to go for. I'd like help for that, but I'm not in dire straights about it~ xD;
But yeah, I really want people to understand where I'm coming from, and why I want local friends so badly. As sad as it may seem, every member in my family, except my mother, has been extremely rude and ignorant of my existance. Like someone who lacks the close bondage of family members, I feel this huge void in me that I firmly believe needs filled.
I'm not saying that I expect everyone to sympathize with me. In fact, I will respect you if you aren't able to somehow do so. I just want to leave this journal here and see how people react to it. I figure that this might help people understand more about me, but like I say, I won't pressure you on that.
Well, that is all I have to say. I just needed to vent about certain events. That and I really want to pull my motivation back up. Thank you for reading and I look forward to some helpful responses to this journal! :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
Tumblrs gonna tumble~ </badpun>
General | Posted 13 years agoJust thought I'd let you all know that I currently have a tumblr account.
I'm just getting to know faces around there, so be sure to give a holler and check my site out as I dump whatever and whenever~ :P
Check my link to my page on my main site in FA via "Website," if you'd like. Thank you! :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
I'm just getting to know faces around there, so be sure to give a holler and check my site out as I dump whatever and whenever~ :P
Check my link to my page on my main site in FA via "Website," if you'd like. Thank you! :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
Tim's Personal Yu-Gi-Oh! Deck Lists
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, I couldn't fit a Tournament Report for any of you people to see for yourself, however I will show my Deck Lists that I've made since March, so you can see how I've progressed as of lately.
March 2012 Format (Advanced)
Gladiator Beasts v0.1
Gladiator Beasts v0.2 (Side Deck)
Gravekeepers v0.1 (Side Deck)
Gladiator Beasts v0.3 (Side Deck)
March 2012 Format (Traditional)
Frog OTK v0.1
Macro STUN v0.1 and Side Deck
Macro STUN v0.2 and Side Deck (Extra Deck)
September 2012 Format (Traditional)
Chaos Control NEO v0.1 (Side Deck)
Chaos Control NEO v0.2 (Side Deck)
Be patient as I provide the photos to my decks. Thank you~ :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
March 2012 Format (Advanced)
Gladiator Beasts v0.1
Gladiator Beasts v0.2 (Side Deck)
Gravekeepers v0.1 (Side Deck)
Gladiator Beasts v0.3 (Side Deck)
March 2012 Format (Traditional)
Frog OTK v0.1
Macro STUN v0.1 and Side Deck
Macro STUN v0.2 and Side Deck (Extra Deck)
September 2012 Format (Traditional)
Chaos Control NEO v0.1 (Side Deck)
Chaos Control NEO v0.2 (Side Deck)
Be patient as I provide the photos to my decks. Thank you~ :3
-- Foxytail (Tim)
Current mood: inevitably lonely
General | Posted 13 years agoYeah...I wish you could customize your own "Current moods" here, because this is probably the one for me, at the moment...
Quite honestly, I really feel it's high time that I express this ongoing problem that I've been dealing with and dealing with rather constantly.
And the thing about this is, I try...I try to do what I should do to fill that huge void in my heart when it comes to making friends, whether it be locally or on the internet. Unforunately, it's almost always the people I'm around that end up digging my void even deeper, to which I've had enough of letting happen one...more...time!
Call me intolerant, call me selfish, call me anything else of that like, but I know "bad chemistry" from the word "go," and I just sit there and can't let it fuse into something majorly explosive. I just can't...
Well...I keep hoping...hoping that eventually, my searching will lead me to somebody that truly enjoys being with me for who I am AND that I truly enjoy being around. I still have my loving mate, macardientertainment, but you all know he can't be the only person in my social life.
Honestly, I need help. I need help in some social direction. In the social world, where I'm barely even a name that stands out, there are just too many social directions for me to even begin to make any sense out of them. There has to be easier paths to take than what I'm doing now, but I know I just can't do it on my own!
Please help me! Certainly somebody can take a few minutes out of their time to read this and actually respond. But I can't keep harping on this forever. I need to stop and see if anyone actually will help me...
...eventually...
Quite honestly, I really feel it's high time that I express this ongoing problem that I've been dealing with and dealing with rather constantly.
And the thing about this is, I try...I try to do what I should do to fill that huge void in my heart when it comes to making friends, whether it be locally or on the internet. Unforunately, it's almost always the people I'm around that end up digging my void even deeper, to which I've had enough of letting happen one...more...time!
Call me intolerant, call me selfish, call me anything else of that like, but I know "bad chemistry" from the word "go," and I just sit there and can't let it fuse into something majorly explosive. I just can't...
Well...I keep hoping...hoping that eventually, my searching will lead me to somebody that truly enjoys being with me for who I am AND that I truly enjoy being around. I still have my loving mate,
macardientertainment, but you all know he can't be the only person in my social life.Honestly, I need help. I need help in some social direction. In the social world, where I'm barely even a name that stands out, there are just too many social directions for me to even begin to make any sense out of them. There has to be easier paths to take than what I'm doing now, but I know I just can't do it on my own!
Please help me! Certainly somebody can take a few minutes out of their time to read this and actually respond. But I can't keep harping on this forever. I need to stop and see if anyone actually will help me...
...eventually...
Condolences & Support for MacardiEntertainment...
General | Posted 13 years ago<Typing this on my 3DS>
Please...pray and give support to macardientertainment immediately...
His cat just suddenly had to be put to sleep because of severe health problems...
His heart his aching as we speak and I want Spirit to feel as much love from us as possible.
Please go over there and share your compassion for him at this time.
Spirit, I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there!
-- Sparkitsune (Tim)
Please...pray and give support to
macardientertainment immediately...His cat just suddenly had to be put to sleep because of severe health problems...
His heart his aching as we speak and I want Spirit to feel as much love from us as possible.
Please go over there and share your compassion for him at this time.
Spirit, I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there!
-- Sparkitsune (Tim)
FA's back!! ...AND THE MORAL OF THIS STORY IS...
General | Posted 13 years ago"Laws are changing in the world sphere, and that does create a certain long term risk when it comes to underage fictional pornography of characters. That said that is not why we do not allow for underage porn. In order for Fur Affinity to continue running we cannot host any porn involving underage characters and characters that look like underage. It's as simple that. Again if you all want Fur Affinity to exist you will have to deal with the fact that to the best our ability under-age porn is going to be filtered out/removed."
-- Trpdwarf
With that in mind, if you still seriously have a problem with this, I will just calmly ask you to take your beef with Furaffinity and shove it in your ventbox elsewhere...like Inkbunny or something...!
NOW that I got this all squared away, I don't think I need to say anymore...other than enjoy the site now~ :3
-- Trpdwarf
With that in mind, if you still seriously have a problem with this, I will just calmly ask you to take your beef with Furaffinity and shove it in your ventbox elsewhere...like Inkbunny or something...!
NOW that I got this all squared away, I don't think I need to say anymore...other than enjoy the site now~ :3
I wish I told you all about a personal goal of mine, but...
General | Posted 13 years ago...now would probably be a good time to mention about it. *takes a deep breath*
...I just read through the whole NIV Bible!! :D
Yes! Cover to cover, Genesis to Revelation, Old Testament and New! I finally did it! (...in a way) XD;;
I know I took way too long, starting from January 1st of 2010, so I didn't read it in one year, but that's still quite an amazing accomplishment to me! X3;;
Not sure what else to say, though. If there's anything else I need to say, it'll be later, because I just need to embrace the fact that I finally did it.
Oh, and by the way, I have to also add that the end of Revelation is so, so mind-blowing, even moreso for how long it took to get there~ :3
That's all I have to say for now. Thanks for reading!
--Sparkitsune (Tim)
...I just read through the whole NIV Bible!! :D
Yes! Cover to cover, Genesis to Revelation, Old Testament and New! I finally did it! (...in a way) XD;;
I know I took way too long, starting from January 1st of 2010, so I didn't read it in one year, but that's still quite an amazing accomplishment to me! X3;;
Not sure what else to say, though. If there's anything else I need to say, it'll be later, because I just need to embrace the fact that I finally did it.
Oh, and by the way, I have to also add that the end of Revelation is so, so mind-blowing, even moreso for how long it took to get there~ :3
That's all I have to say for now. Thanks for reading!
--Sparkitsune (Tim)
Joining the F-list bandwagon...Join me! :3
General | Posted 13 years agoHaving just found out about F-list and the possibilities behind it, by Spirit of course, I decided to go out of my way and make one, too. :D
Now, for those who can't stomach any of the fetish-related lingo, I wouldn't recommend it. BUT, if your not a fetish person, yet can work around and see the non-sexual preferences I have, go ahead and look~
http://www.f-list.net/c/tim%20daermott
I'm still new to the site, so expect to feel awkward about my site if your confused about my presentation. Trust me, sexual terminology and such are not what I'm used to, being the socially reserved person I am and the respectful person I try to be. XD;;
Nevertheless, have a look if you so desire and tolerate. You can even join in and befriend me and such, if you'd like. Anyway, just wanted to see what people thought of this. :3
--Sparkitsune (Tim)
Now, for those who can't stomach any of the fetish-related lingo, I wouldn't recommend it. BUT, if your not a fetish person, yet can work around and see the non-sexual preferences I have, go ahead and look~
http://www.f-list.net/c/tim%20daermott
I'm still new to the site, so expect to feel awkward about my site if your confused about my presentation. Trust me, sexual terminology and such are not what I'm used to, being the socially reserved person I am and the respectful person I try to be. XD;;
Nevertheless, have a look if you so desire and tolerate. You can even join in and befriend me and such, if you'd like. Anyway, just wanted to see what people thought of this. :3
--Sparkitsune (Tim)
