Hey everyone!

So you may have remembered my potential moving going on and whatnot. It fell through, and my friends are having a really hard time and are not sure how they will afford their bills, food, and other things...


If you have any ability to help....
My friend could really use it!

She has very cute artwork, and is very sweet!!!

I hope everything works out. :(

So I've recently become aware of being Pansexual (yeah, my nickname. Haha, funny.)

This seems to have confused a few people, and I've gotten quite a few questions......

-No, I don't love EVERYONE.

Some people seem to think that because I'm pansexual, I love every single person. I mean, you dont think a straight person loves every single person that is the opposite gender, right? Lesbians don't love every single girl, and gay guys don't love every single guy, right?
I just view things differently, is all, and it's not based on what is in your pants. I still have my preferred things here and there....

-No, I don't think you're ugly if you have traits i dont enjoy.

I do think some things to do with looks can be ugly. I don't like people who have bad hygiene, or dont take care of themselves. As far as personality traits that I dont like? I mean, yeah, i can get uncomfortable, but mostly it just makes me feel incompatable romantically. It doesn't mean i think you're ugly.

-How do I know I'm pansexual?

I've dated a trans person before. It didn't bother me at all. I've dated females and males. Didn't bother me. Honestly, I thought I was asexual for a little bit because I had lost all interest in anything sexual for a time, but pansexual makes more sense since i do actually get sexually attracted to people, but it's not really based on a gender thing. It's more like your actions towards me, and sometimes even others. If I see that you're generous, funny, and you actually show an interest in what i have to say, I'm more likely to find you as someone i would want to be with romantically. I like different personality traits, and i like it when people show that they care just like anyone else.

-Does you being sexual towards me bother me?

It does make me uncomfortable. Me getting attracted to others sexually is a bit more complicated (if you couldn't already tell.) If you just randomly want to RP doing it all the time, or want me to draw lewd pictures left and right (especially for free. I mean, I'm uncomfortable as it is drawing the stuff...), I mean...that's not even really much to do with my orientation. I just am a shy person in general, and I really dont like to just be randomly expected to RP sex out of nowhere like that. It feels similar to being catcalled or hit on to me, and I really am not comfortable in person with that, either.

-What do you want out of a relationship?

Depends on the relationship, for one. I want someone to spend my time with that i can feel safe and comfortable around. I want to feel like i belong and whoever it is cares about what i have to say. I've consistently listened to others, given advice, been walked all over, but I've always fallen short of being as nice to myself as I am to others. Generally, I've been used, emotionally battered, and ignored throughout much of my life. I want what most people want out of a relationship. Someone who cares as much as I do, and to go on adventures and have fun together. The rest? Well, it's up to me and whoever it is I end up with, but personally, is really like to travel and see/experience as much as I can before my time runs out.

I'm not sure if I've covered them all, but many of these are kind of in the direction of what I've been asked. I dont like arrogance, ignorance, selfishness, or things of that sort, but many people don't.

If I'm chatting with you, and you constantly try to one up me, prove me wrong, or not even show concern for my opinions or feelings, of course I'll be irritated. Wouldn't you be?
If i just waltzed up and made you feel like nothing you say mattered....none of your hopes, fears, anything matter at all, but you consider me a 'friend' wouldn't you be upset?

I'm a perfectly normal person. Just because I like something different or my opinions are different does not mean you have the right to treat me like dirt, to act like nothing I do matters, to be so entitled that you feel your opinions overwrite mine.

I know many other people feel this way, too, toward some people. It's not fair for anyone to feel like they are below someone just because they want to sit on their butt and be arrogant or ignorant and pretend like nothing you say or do can make a difference.

Alright! So I do still have some commissions to work with, but I am also in the works of figuring out all of my stuff for Tales of Heart Gold!!!!!

Sorry it's been so long! I've switched to my own CPU (FINALLY), so I'm still in the process of getting all of my files from the other one at a different apartment.

Things I'm still trying to figure out?
-The font used inside the bubbles
-The opacity that I used on shadows
-ANY files that I can open and separate just the title and pokeball symbol from!! >:T

Jeebus. It's like I'm moving a house! Hah!

Commissions

I'm here!

Thanks to Changewing for coming here for my b-day and being an awesome and getting this computer up and running finally!!!!

:D
Still having a bit of a lag here and there, but I'm back to working!
WOOOOO!
Deli life has been stressful for those of you I haven't managed to talk to! D:
My apologies that I've been gone so long!

Lemme know how you all are doing!!!
HOW IS YOU?





I am selling $5 HEADSHOTS of whatever character you would like HERE
The monies? It'll more than likely be going to Ashby, the bunny! She would like lots more toys to play with. And food. Food is good.

SERIOUSLY.

I'M TRYING TO GET A NEW CPU. I WANT TO UPDATE TOHG AND WORK ON STUFF SO BAD....

How are all of you?! All okay, I hope?!

Everyone enjoying Sun and Moon?
What starters did all of ya pick, and what are some of your favs?!

As an update:
I'm okay. I have a surgery coming up, have a new bunny companion named Ashby, and am working on gathering parts for a new computer. (I'll be getting quite a few of said cpu parts for Xmas)

Oh! What are all your Xmas plans, everyone?! Happy Holidays!
:D


I'm going to be selling TRADITIONAL headshot sketches here soon, I think. I hate leaving this place dead! ;_;

I MISS YOU GUYS.

I'm still here, Promise!


Life's been running me around in circles and therapy has been a godsend!

Please make sure to check notes and such! I am slowly working on pieces that have been commissioned and such! I'm also doing a kind of Summer Cleaning of all of my work, so if there is a piece that you know I have and would like to get from me before it's off my computer, please let me know! I think all of them are also uploaded to a Photobucket account, so that should be helpful as well!


-Pan <3

Hey guys!



I know I haven't been as active and such, but I've been frustrated with quite a few bits here and there. Work at mah storeeee has been incredibly crazy as I'm training multiple newbs and such to help out. (NEWBS WHY)

I also have started forming a group for an ANIMATED VERSION OF UNDERTALE and the opening sequence that I'm working on has been a big challenge to figure out. ( I want to include juuuuuuust enough background story so that you know what's going in the beginning of the series, yet not too much to spoil everything!!!)

I also have quite a few commissions to work on! My apologies to those of you waiting so patiently!! I'm just giving myself a teensy break while I get together all this work stuff! (I do have an accurate list going as well, so no worries! <3)

I'll be back soon! Promise!!!

-Spastic

I'm working on a list to help me keep organized with all of my art commissions!

I have 2 very big self-started projects and a convenient store 'management' type position on the side as well, so as you can imagine, things can get pretty difficult to stay on top of!

Dat's right! :D

Come hurr for some art stuffz! I'll be working on the next page of the TOHG series and a few commissions! <3


https://picarto.tv/Pandactyle



Thanks everyone for stopping by! :P

Foreshortening is a B1t$hhhh!!


That is all. xD

I don't intend to stop posting on FA, but I've always had more than one site to go to.

Please feel free to talk to me on any of these:

Twitter: https://mobile.twitter.com/pandadestined
Telegram: Pandactyle
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~pandactyle
Nabyn: http://pandactyle.nabyn.net/
Nuzlocke zetaboards: http://s7.zetaboards.com/Nuzlocke_F.....ofile/3297939/

**Nabyn is a bit behind on some stuff, just a heads up!**

I may get a Facebook and Deviantart again someday, but currently, I've quit them due to some aggravation towards people I used to admire greatly. :P Sometimes people aren't all that they seem to be, y'know?

Enjoy!
-Spastic

Please wish my amazing friend well.

He had to put down his cat today, and I wish him nothing but better days. :(
RIP, kitty. I'm sure Ermie gave you an amazing life, and I wish you nothing but happiness with your cat toys somewhere in the afterlife.


Feel better soon,
<3

I will be attempting to work on a small gift for you in the very near future. <3

-Pan



Commissions:

 Ermine
 colafan2
DogPort: Tristin
MiscPort: Knights path

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HiJac Poke'banner

SO. I AM STILL TUMMY ACHING. BUT THIS NEEDS TO HAPPEN.

https://picarto.tv/Pandactyle

Hey everyone!!!


Sorry that for the passed few days I haven't been as active as normal!!!
My job at the convenient store has been giving me many more hours than usual and is going through so many changes that involve me training people and moving things around as well as helping everyone figure out what to order...

Since there's only 5 of us and one other coworker, aaannndddd I'm one of the ones that has been there the longest, they're relying on me quite a bit more than I would have originally thought! In fact, I'm starting to catch some sort of bug from my boss. (She has been sick, but refusing to go home since there's so much work getting done...)

Nevertheless, I'm trying to get my butt back on here more!!!!! X.x (-keeps getting called in on days off and asked where other workers are-)

Wahhh!

-Spastic

 LonePikachu is making an UNDERTALE themed story where I'm one of the main characters! :D

You can read it HURR: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19702354/



I'm a TEM!!! :D

So here's the new song puttin' me to sleep: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64lJZZEhSIo

Yeaaahh, I know it's got Undertale art to it, but it's seriously because I've had undertale stuff logged into google for so long that that's what it automatically goes to. Hahh


Anyway..........

I have ANOTHER story idea......that....includes.....All of the people's characters that I've met on here.....but....I'm so jammed up with work right now....I'm not sure that I could do it. ^^;;;

Not in a timely manner, anyway..


-spastic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zg-COFmLlQo&ebc=ANyPxKpIfqWpf1JFsF481ZiL352VKeoJvIbBy4zyVn7SLRXQdXuTVEsvFWA-nGNpU-d1Z7M18kmLNnQu3R7uaZ1HeWhVLX8fwg


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l0wle26U858&ebc=ANyPxKqNLGMc6VexX_Ttj25sSPUc484O7KbPHT-z1DcFd-NEdxqvl5_m1k_ZmgvvT_mZvVjW4noQ1juNTQtWRv4He0Vkd7cLhQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GtPW4nB3Ro

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXaiQXaX4YU&ebc=ANyPxKqRRVJVCMPmpGiiFqQkiLz2qt17oe-yWSozYRJmTRSlbiMc1hFHIsvccxVGnLEOJIgqa96n-JAU3V_B42uL05bZ3tk2ww

https://picarto.tv/Pandactyle


lmao

.....-finally gets out of bed-


........

-goes to do laundry-


.......Everything...is covered in....pen? Ink?

...OH GOD WHY.


-face palms-

STREAMING NAO! :D


https://picarto.tv/Pandactyle

I'm exhausted. How's all you guys?

IM GOING TO STREAM. THE LAST BIT OF UNDERTALE.


...for reaction purposes.


DONT LOOK IF YOU DONT WANT SPOILERS.




.....


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It's not a bad day.
It's just one where I remember quite a few things that boggle my mind or used to send me into panic attacks. I can't even believe I used to have panic attacks after starting anxiety meds. Everything's been so calm in comparison.

I'm not special.
That's the major message that's been floating around. I mean, childhood was no easy task when I was relied on to take care of my sibling and protect from bullies. I never really got rewarded for much, and at one point, that caused quite a few emotional issues. Sometimes, it still does.

BUT the one thing that's just impossible to believe for me right now is the teacher I used to deal with that just pushed that message on everyone. Memories of a class being told they would never achieve anything close to their dreams, being told to "get over" any mental issues being dealt with, and even being expected to pass up other teachers assignments in favor of theirs just still continue to make me wonder how this lady was capable of showing so little compassion to others.

I mean, she caused a suicide attempt in my life, and I can still remember being picked up by 4 friends and thrown in a backseat of a car before being rushed away to safety after they found me immobile on a street late at night.

What possesses someone to feel that little remorse? That little care towards people in general?

It's incredible.

For anyone dealing with said "LOVEly" teacher, I'm sorry. ....you're gonna have a bad time, probably.




Otherwise, I've gotten so many nice comments, so much attention for my work recently, and I'm so grateful to say I've met such awesome people. Thanks guys! You're all amazing.

-Spastic


Tl;Dr: Emotional shit about teacher and stuff. Thanks for being friends. You're so awesome.

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I dunno. I'm wondering what to do today outside of finding food and talking to this person. .A.

-flails and dances out of nowhere-