So, I understand I've been letting this account sit a bit, but I don't plan on doing that anymore.

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Admittedly; This year has sucked, for one. For a lot of reasons, but I'm sure they're reasons a lot of other people have heard-about, see, or unfortunately are-experiencing. Empathy brain is on overdrive. Thankfully, there's a few things, quite a few, that still give me a bit of hope that things turn around for the better.

Between this, I've been dealing with off-and-on (mostly on) pain radiating from the right side of my neck down and through the arm, to the hand /wrist / etc. For the longest time, I thought this had been the result of overwork / stress / etc in regards to art and animation. From some new physical-therapy exercises / stretches / constant working to improve my health -- I've found this instead to be a pinched-nerve along the affected area. When the nerve was freed, it felt like a large part of what was 'stuck' in my back and triceps had started to come back to life. Twitchiness, then dull burning, TV-Static, which finally dissipated and I could finally -feel- muscle-activity out of my right arm again.

I took the rest of this past month to try to recover and build a bit of muscle in the area to help support the nerves there, instead of rush back into art too quickly.

...In addition; I've been hopelessly glued to a game that I could safely play (with my left hand) without affecting the use of the right too much; Caves of Qud! Expect some possible fan-art of this one sometime. SFW. It's so good. Writing and game itself hooked me like they haven't since HBS Battletech 2016 / EVE Online.

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As a final note regarding commissions and all; Over 3/4s of the list from the 'Injury Queue' is finally done, and I've been taking in smaller comms here and there -- Just no big animation projects at the moment. The Responsible part of my brain is, of course, making sure I continue clearing out the last of the I.Q, but the other Responsible brain-side is also trying to push me to get new things in here and there to help keep up with bills.

With the way things have been lately, I do hope the split-attention between both is understandable.

Still want to get back to updating my website, but that's going to take some learning CSS and all at some point again.

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More to come! Wanted to post this and just ensure everyone I'm not dead -- Just a bit broke-down over the past few months and trying to work back into things once more! Please don't overload the drgn / skunk.

Be safe!

Old list is still being worked-at and shorter than before! Updates on animations and older comms are posted elsewhere or given privately : >

35USD / hr for Still Art

45-50USD / hr for Animated Art! ( Only taking small loops at this time , sorry! )

If interested, PLEASE poke me here either in Notes here on FA, or please fill out my new commission form here! : https://forms.gle/GGJCBBdnfZX7q9tF7

(This does not generate a queue, and are handled based on interest and genuine thought put into these!)

Trying to organize and get my art-things back under control.

Taking a few days to organize all my art, and gonna trickle-post it on here little-by-little.

I'm still drawing -- I just need to actually post the things I mean to post, and not forget gallery-sites exist.

With 2/3rds of my old, backed-up pre-injury commission list almost completed, I'm just posting this here to say that commissions are perpetually open!

35/hr for still art like everything here, or --

45-50/hr for my animated works -- Which I might be able to hopefully post here soon!

If interested, PLEASE poke me here either in Notes here on FA, or please fill out my new commission form here! : https://forms.gle/GGJCBBdnfZX7q9tF7

(This does not generate a queue, and are handled based on interest and genuine thought put into these!)

Sorry, FABUI had a screw-up and uploaded a few of the pages out of order (Likely due to filename..)

I've corrected the numbering in the gallery ;;

For the next week, doing another wave of openings to let more fresh faces into the Discord server.

I keep this place pretty drama-free, so no BS please :P

Enjoy~

https://discord.gg/9pXsgRFK

YES --

After finally making it through half of the old commission list, I'm finally back to work on some of my 'longer' work -- The first of which is an animation I've been waiting to work on again for a WHILE --

Inescapable Incursion --

It's -technically- a rework of an older CV comicpage in my gallery -- But also going to (in the future) contain a particularly lengthy absorption process -- Followed by.. well, the OTHER CV-related thing I know people clamor for a lot. :3c

It's good to be back on top of things. Now to have some real fun again!


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To access the WIP animations and storyboarding so far (as well as old art collections of mine!) -- Please sub to my Patreon!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/inescapable-and-95566048?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link

Future updates to big animations like this one will be posted there as they're completed :)

I'm back to using this and BlueSky / Itaku with a bit more regularity again -- Right down to updating the profile page here!

Changes include pricing, and a more consistent / viewable means to see what art I'm up to just now!

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Still working on both backlogged work, but also trying to take a few more commissions in the form of my new hourly-rate comms! As the page details, still-imagery is 35USD/hr while animated works are 45/hr!

Patreon is still up and running, though it's still more effectively a tip-jar at this point : https://www.patreon.com/SpazmanArt (Please support if you can! Anything helps <3) -- As always, I strive to keep most of my content 100% free -- Outside of collaborative work with friends!

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Hope everyone here is doing well so far! Leaving the comments open here for another interesting question:

I know a LOT of people have many different things they like about my work -- Including a lot of 'weird' inclusions in the work recently! If possible, PLEASE let me know what you enjoy the most -- And what-all you'd like to see more of in the future! Rule 34 content is BIG on the mind lately!

Take care! <3

So; Officially opening the Discord server for the development and progress of my 'big' game project, which I feel has made enough progress to finally warrant showing to the rest of this userbase.

https://discord.gg/M7wcSKvt

Enjoy!

Further details contained within!

(Yes, I'm still working on commissions. I'm just finally glad to make some headway on this.)

I need to stop drawing for a bit and actually heal before I hurt myself. Badly. Irreparably.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/i-cant-d.....if-i-dont-heal

Please see the link for details, and share around if possible.

If y'all wanna support me, please check out the details on the following link!

https://twitter.com/HungersSpaz/status/1540053493389660161?s=20&t=cHQL6m-DihRUSiZktIPdwA

Patreon links available there for interested parties : >

It's been about a month.

I've tried taking my break.

The moment I started drawing again, I lasted 10 minutes. Shoulder pain, located directly behind my back / right shoulder blade. Definitely feels like muscle tension / strain of some kind.

Went to the doctor. Got X-Rays. Haven't heard back. Called today, they said it'd be late this week that I hear anything.

Cool.

Running basically empty on funds due to rent, food, fixing things, car insurance, car tags, everything else in between.

I've been trying to stream games, some kind of entertainment, trying to do literally anything to rest so I could get back to work.

Nobody really comes to those.

I just want to fucking draw. But I can't. I have one niche, and I can't seem to fucking fill it.

I suppose it's my own fault anyway for working through 10+ years of constant moving / abuse / nonstop work to get anything fucking paid / supporting others before myself even at my own detriment.

I'm anxious, I'm frustrated, and I don't know what to do, if I'm honest.

I mean -- At least the arm feels like it's -somewhat- improving.

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If you'd like to support me while I'm still apparently healing, please poke and send donations to my paypal at Spazman's Den .

Thank you all for the support so far, for the record. I do really appreciate it -- I just wish I were back to normal sooner rather than later.

Please do check out this place. The features and the gearing towards artists and creators is fucking GREAT.

Tag system, folders, blacklist-system, and reasonable upload limits. There's a lot here to love.

https://itaku.ee/profile/spazman

On Health:

So; over the past few days, I've been taking a break from doing art of basically any kind. This was primarily due to my drawing arm giving me pain, that eventually started going up the arm... then finally to the shoulder, where it stayed.

I've been doing series of stretches given to me by commissioners and friends alike, and so far it seems that shoulder pain is now gone. Waiting a little longer for the hand and arm to go with, but this is progress.

Apparently I've also been using a shitty angle / stance for drawing, which -also- contributed to likely an RSI / Carpal Tunnel, but I've not had that one diagnosed.

Been thinking about water-training to help myself and that arm out, as it worked out well the last time I'd fucked myself up from too much long-winded drawing.

I'll keep y'all informed.

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On Art / etc.

A few things to mention here;

For one, I'm still planning completely to transition over to FurAffinity and other related art / furry sites as a whole -- Twitter is a cesspool and sucks for artist use. You might get engagement, but most of it would be by extreme chance as I've found.

Secondly; THANK you all for 7000+ watchers as of either yesterday, or the day before.

Seriously, it's been a fun ride for almost the past ~8 years now. It feels strangely satisfying to help.. 'guide' others into the kind of stuff I do here, even if it IS (most of the time) unintentional, haha. Perhaps it's the way I draw CV / Tailvore / etc?

I've thought seriously about extending things to Patreon / SubscribeStar / etc, but under the basis of a tip-jar until I get assets made for.. well, an eventual idea was a website of my own, with a section dedicated to a sort of 'Vorno Studio' idea with its own characters / 'actors' / etc.

So basically; Vera Wright / Spaz (Ka'Tamra) / Jacklyn Sparks (my Skunk gal!) / Ka'Din / a mess of others making kinky, smutty stuff in what I'd imagine is possibly a space-y / cyberpunk nightclub setting with unique 'filming' rooms and set-pieces.

Essentially, Casual sci-fi / furry vore setting where it DOES happen and exist, but under the 'safe' theme and environment of being alongside other like-minded actors to make something kinky and fun, haha -- For animations / static art / maybe 'Radio show' collabs with others in the setting!

Idunno! I think it would be fun! Definitely something to look into after all the commissions are done.

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LASTLY;

I'd like to give extra thanks to those who donated so far during my recovery period. Been trying to sit on things a little trying to assess what to do, but likely things would be going towards my rent as well as recovery of my arm.

You all have been seriously fucking great, and it's all appreciated.

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Give me your thoughts! It's fun seeing all the people come in after all this time, so interaction with them is something I'm looking to do more of -- Primarily because I've felt like I've been neglecting talking to people for a while.

This feels like a journal that's been coming for a bit, but likely due to my need and feel to always be working.

All that working seems to have caught up to me -- and I have pain running up from my drawing-hand up my arm, and around my shoulder.

It's likely some kind of Repetitive Strain Injury, which considering all the drawing I do would make sense. I've been taking better care of myself lately, but it feels like my body is overwhelmingly calling for a longer period of rest other than 'Okay, Spaz, take a day or two off'. -- Which is how I usually try to do things.

...Until that need to draw suddenly comes up again, and I find myself breaking routine.

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More or less -- A problematic cycle of "I need to work on these so I can clear my queue and also make money to eat and pay bills --- But if I rest, I'm not doing any of those things! I'm wasting time!" is resulting in my arm telling me that enough is enough.

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I've contemplated doing a GoFundMe, but figured a regular donation drive might be a bit better. Maybe the donation rewards can even go towards inking and coloring a pretty big (for the OTHER account) animation I'm working on! ... After my break, of course. ;;'

But no, seriously -- Spaz needs a break. A proper break, or else Spaz' arm will refuse to function outright before Age 30.

I would rather have people wait a few weeks for me to recover, than to not have them ever get a piece if I actually fuck myself up physically >.<''

It's a prospect I'd rather not think about. I enjoy drawing too much.

And to enjoy it further, I need to take a step back.

If you'd like to donate towards my recovery / bill-pay / foodstuffs relief, please consider using my Paypal.me, here --> Spazman's Den

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Thank you all, again, for being awesome. I'll do my best to stretch and rest and recover! ;;/

In between the continued driving-out of NSFW artists,

the constant vying for attention there,

and now a global-scale dickhead buying the site (effectively),

I think it's time I returned to some roots here.

I hope people appreciate the interaction here on FA more than Twitter still, because holy heck Twitter is a cesspool.


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I'll be updating my page here soon. Need to get some things back on track as far as organization, but..

Well; It'll be good to be back a bit more full-time.

Apologies if my thoughts and sentences here are confusing. I can't quite think straight this morning -- I feel physically and mentally off. I'll be better soon though.

So. 2021. ...This has been one Hell of a thing this year.

I will apologize immediately that I've not been posting a lot lately -- I've mainly been trying my best to deal with backlog stuff, and I finally am nearing the end of it after so, so long. Mainly bigger commissions that remain now.

As always, I'm free to be poked and asked about updates on Discord and Telegram and all, and my contact information is always freely available on my profile.

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That being said, I need to ask that some people not be quite so persistent... as in people poking me DAILY. That gets very tiresome.

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There have been a lot of things going on this year, but for me -- a lot of it passed like a blur. The main 'big' event this year was finally getting out of Kentucky and getting somewhere new, and I hope this coming year, with the stability I've come to know, is.. better.

Honestly; I hope it's better for a whole lot of people.

And honestly, I hope it's better for the world in general. There's a lot of stuff this year that has both pushed me further into apathy, and at the same time pulled me out of it all the same.

Take pleasure and comfort in the close friends that surround you. You never know when you, or your mind, might need them.

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I'm unsure how much output in terms of art I did this year, but I hope it was at least satisfactory -- at least on my account on Twitter (HungersSpaz / SpazmanNSFW) .

I'd love to do more personal work, including a person game project which, in-name and small details, I'd like to announce here as well:

Xenophage.

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A Cyberpunk-Horror Platformer / RPG, but with small logic-puzzling elements to break up the pace between fast and slow-paced interactions.

Using the characters I've been trying to hash out for some time (with the help of quite a few people, but most prevalently being the BF / Fiancee,  BlueSpark -- who ALSO have a species at the forefront of this game, too -- The Nuenys!) ; The Rigeli Xenogon.

The one I've been using for the longest as my personal avatar has been Spaz -- But the role the player assumes during this project is another Xenogon within the House Ci'Karan bloodline / name, Ka'Din.

Traverse, dodge, hack, blast your way through the hollow decks of a drifting, dead-in-space Supercarrier, along the way piecing together events of the past few months -- of which you have been otherwise incapacitated.

...That.. is possibly about the roughest summary I can provide without providing anything I'd regard a spoiler. Perhaps I could post some pixel-art sometime, but I'd rather not generate hype until I can confirm I have the help for such a project.

It's a personal goal of mine, and a few others. We hope it will be enjoyable, once in a playable / viewable state.

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I also have to thank a vast number of my other commissioners this year as well for -appreciated- generosity, in-between the fuck-ups with the Tablet, the moving situation and all it entailed.. The car trouble, anything leading up to where I've finally settled for the past couple months.

Thank you all. I've said before that there is no such thing as 'self-made' as a person. And I've tried to pass that same generosity along to a few others this year in need.

I need to say -- Just in general, this community has really changed me as a person. For the better. And I appreciate the people I've met and friends proper I've gained from it.

I hope this next year goes a lot better for us all in 2022. Hope you all are safe, sound, and in good health.

Take care. <3

I've been trying to help another artist-site gain a little more traction since a lot of the kinks (security, layout, among other things) have been getting worked-out.

Pillowfort is now in PUBLIC beta, and has a lot of things going for it that far surpass the likes of Twitter / Tumblr -- Mainly in the realm of being artist / exposure-friendly.

No clout-based / mathematics-based posting system, you get the newest content there, up-front.

Working tag / blacklist system as well.

It's basically the lovechild of the two above sites -- and the result doesn't suck.

Anyone who wishes to see my newest / latest work is strongly urged to check out Pillowfort as a whole. I'll still post here, but on a delayed basis.

https://www.pillowfort.social/Spazman

As of this morning, after the first night in this great place, I've been approached by my lovely boyfriend  Bluespark , with a question.

...THE question.

And from the past 8-9 years of having known each other, having been through a lot of rough stuff together, and ultimately having improved each others' lives in the realm of physical, mental, and emotional health -- and just being an overall positive impact on each others' lives,

It was only logical, and you had better believe I've said Yes.


I love you, Leon. <3

...And into quite possibly the best place I've ever been so far, surrounded by friends and acquaintances alike.

Just out of personal safety and all, I don't plan on publicly stating WHERE I've moved to (unless I've said it before here like some derp..)

Computer is set up, tablet is set up, and hopefully I can settle down and begin working on my queue, and other WIPs on my desktop, here soon. Starting tomorrow.

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This place needed a little fixing up, but thanks to some absolutely wonderful friends (  Razz /  Lunarfox / Among others! ), we've been able to put some time (lots of money..) and effort into making this place livable.

Not just for me.. but hopefully for my boyfriend and hopeful eventual life-partner  Bluespark , and anyone who wishes to come over here and interact with all of us.

I've not really had any homesickness, on account of.. well.. the place I was living being a bit shit. In terms of area, and just too many terrible memories that continued to enter my mind that just.. made me feel ultimately unwelcome.

I won't be returning to Kentucky. Ever. Maybe it's a pretty place to visit, but living there is a whole other can of worms.

By comparison, I FEEL welcome here. I feel like this is my place.

This is home.


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I hope everyone else is doing a bit better, and / or hope that others' lives take an upturn soon. I do worry a lot for a lot of you, especially those particularly close to me.

More to come soon. Until then, please keep safe. <3

Facebook / Whatsapp / Instagram can stay down, though. Fuck'em.

For those wishing to listen to a sound-version of the latest animation, PLEASE direct your attention to the following links:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/HungersSpaz/sta.....429328905?s=20
E621 (For downloadin' ) : https://e621.net/posts/2924525?q=spazman

Sound-work is handled by BellySnuggles , from Twitter. They're JUST starting with their sound-design stuff, but it seems like they're coming along fairly well! :D

I appreciate how many people so far have taken an interest in getting their own Xenogon form as well.

I probably should upload more 'in universe' content, but the fact people are taking so well to my little wingless space-dragons is <3

I'm actually down to one page of notes.

Most of my commissions are now relegated to my Discord and its queue, which is a whole load of stress off my mind.

It feels good to know that the end is far closer than I'd thought.

It only took several years and having enough stability to finally get to everything.

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Stay tuned, by the way. I've finally managed a way out of Kentucky, and I move on / around September 1st.

I'm hoping this is the only move I'll need to make for a very long time.

Sorry, guys. Once you go Wacom, you can't go back.

Holy moly that tablet had a lot of problems.