Careful who you invest your time into. I spent five years trying to be the best I could be to a friend only to be cast aside one day because I said things they didn't want to hear. Albeit they're a narcissist, though I didn't exactly realize that back then. So when something bad happened to them and they lost friends, I tried to help them realize it's kinda their fault people left, but they could still try to keep in touch with some and repair things. My reward for giving up my time to help? Tossed aside and forgotten by them. The price of my time since then has increased drastically, could probably call me selfish and entitled now, but at least I'm not them.

This is based off things that happened over 8 months ago. Things I still struggle to come to terms with. Things that still leave me resentful, hateful, and spiteful. I wanted to help someone, and clearly I couldn't, but they hurt me deeply in return, and are now in a worse place than before they hurt me and cast me away. Their life is like a repeating, self fulfilling prophecy, always making and losing friends, and never learning, and when confronted about it, casting that person away so they don't have to hear what they don't want to hear, they just want their little echo chamber of yes-men which I used to be one of. Never again. People don't deserve to get the time of day from me now, not after that.

Spite and hate, that's what I feel. Spite and hate. Any concern for this person is drying up fast, almost gone. Why care about someone who doesn't care about me, what a waste of time.