gave it to myself, if it’s early enough it is treatable.

I’m still processing, i knew i was going down a bad path but i ignored it. i mirrored my mother; same actions, same consequences. waiting on an opening to an endoscopy center to see what needs to be done. I can’t afford it but i don’t want to die. Seeing what i Can do about insurance but likely looking at a couple thousand.

im also in (quasi)recovery from anorexia, i hate it. Hate how my body looks and feels. The discomfort. The hunger.
I dropped to 92 pounds during the first stage of my recovery due to hyper metabolism but it seems like it’s settling down, now is just the uncomfortable bloating, severe edema to the point where I can’t bend my fingers or legs sometimes, the fatigue and insomnia. I fall asleep when I get home and then I’m awake up until an hour before I need to get to work. Definitely makes work harder trying to scramble getting the case filled than icing cakes. I’ve given myself nerve damage, so when I get cold all the blood and feeling leaves my fingers. Sometimes three, sometimes all but one. It’s very similar to Reynaud’s syndrome.

My body image is wrecked and body dysmorphia is awful. I still see me at 309 pounds. It doesn’t help that the only warm clothes I have are my partner’s hand me downs since I can’t afford anything new and he wears a size Large in men’s, im a size xs. LOL

I’m just cold all the time. Really hoping my family comes through with my only Christmas request being a warm hoodie so I don’t die in the freezer at work.

thank you all for your support, I’ll be back to drawing once I’m a little calmer and not slammed with working 10-11 hour shifts, I’ve had two days off in the past 2 months and I’m just tired.

So tired.

im so sorry friends and commissioners for my lack of communication. Things are not going well. I am struggling.
I’ve been having seizures. I work 11 hour shifts, 6/7 days a week and my eating disorder is causing heart problems.
I love you all.

im still here, one day at a time.

Im actively looking for an art manager, or to have the second to sit down and message everyone I owe art to. If it’s a trade or unpaid commission and you’d like it cancelled, I understand entirely.

If I owe you money, please feel free to comment here with your PayPal and the amount so that I may issue an immediate refund if you’d prefer not to wait.

Im drowning in medical debt, I cannot afford my groceries or bills. Im praying I can catch a break soon.

I’ve been so alone in all of this, i haven’t been able to reach out to anyone like i should. I’ve been a terribly distant friend and i sincerely apologize.

My moms house burned to the ground, Im stuck with 5 puppies and the mom until I can find them a home

started therapy and medication
Got hired for a second job, all while fostering 2 kitties I’m allergic to

if you’d like to donate towards getting the pups to the vet or lending a hand with food it would be so much appreciated im beat

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share

http://paypal.me/amberino

https://ko-fi.com/softpuppi

I’m going to try my best to come up with some adopts or ychs to gather funds, they all seem okay but definitely need vaccines and a check up

*edit I’m not housing my mom, my sister said she would take her in as she remains incredibly hostile toward me and although I’ve forgiven her abuse she will not change her ways, I’m still struggling with the c-ptsd, anxiety, and depression from the years I spent beneath her. I will not put myself in that situation again and I’m thankful my sister understands it’s in both of our best interest

If you have any characters you’d trade for art from me link ‘em here aaaa

Or if you’re down to do a custom in exchange for art!

Post examples !

What would you be interested in seeing as a ych from me ?

after 16 years of being by my side I’ve been faced with the difficult decisions of putting down my little guy Lucky. I owe the vet $300 more than what I had, and another $75 on top of that for the euthanasia. I can’t let him suffer, this is the most difficult thing I’ve had to face. I knew it would come eventually. I remember the day my dad got him for me, all the years he’s been my best friend.
He’s lived a long, comfortable life. He’s been with me through my hardest times. The least I can do for him is let him rest. I’ve done all I can.

If you’d like to help me out, even a dollar it would paypal.me/amberino
In the meantime I’ll try to come up with a ych or something I can do to cover the expense

I am still here
bear with me, I just need some time
slow

traumatic events going on and I’m barely able to keep my head straight

thank you for your patience ♥️

The surgery was a success, I’m in recovery and will be discharged later today. I had a full abdominoplasty, muscle plasty, as well as surgery on my chest.

I can walk a little, in horrible pain but I’m so relieved it’s over with.

To share a little more with you, my mom loaned me the money to get it done as soon as possible. As many of my friends and old followers know; she’s abusive. She’s using this as a way to control me and as a form of ‘ownership’ because I couldn’t handle the gaslighting and psychological abuse anymore, I was looking for somewhere else to live. The surgery was my key to freedom, but i am still a prisoner to her. I’m begging, please share By no means is anyone obligated to donate, however with a rt it might reach someone who can help me. I’ve been trapped my entire life, I’m ready to start living as me, for me. By no means is anyone obligated to donate, however with a rt it might reach someone who can help me. I’ve been trapped my entire life, I’m ready to start living as me, for me. She was incredibly upset to see Dillon had made a gofundme, she insisted I didn’t need anyone else but her; she asked me to take it down. Called me a limosnera, pathetic and shameless for accepting help. She’s using me as a pity party to all of her friends and family, how Expensive it is and how taxing it is. How exhausted she is. She slept soundly, snored loudly and kept trying to wake me when she would wake up. It’s been like this since she got here, I’m so sleep deprived I’m delusional. She wasn’t supposed to come, she showed up the day before I was lectured about how I’m not doing enough, not eating enough, not trying hard enough. She kept pressing until I cried, then told me she was only saying it because she loves me “a lot more than I love her”. She’s lying to people about how I’m nauseated and dizzy, can’t stand How much she’s suffering to see me this way, how she doesn’t care how much it costs her as long as I’m okay. She isn’t paying a cent, she’s even written down the cost of the jello I asked her for because I wasn’t able to eat.

My gofund me is over halfway there and I’m incredibly moved and forever grateful for the love and support I’ve received from the community ; my friends, my followers. I isolate myself because of my depression, ptsd, and anxiety - I feel that I don’t deserve to be close to the people I love, that care about me, so I tuck myself away and ultimately find myself alone. Yet each and every time i come back around, my friends are still here. Grizzy, old man, limo, cake, kolae, shard, hamstern, dark, pines, and so many more - I can’t thank them enough for everything they’ve done for me.

It would mean the world to me if you’d share the link, if you make a journal entry or post you’re entered in the raffle - if you make even a $1 donation you get an extra entry. ♥️



https://gofund.me/f5c8a4b1

raffle : https://twitter.com/softpuppi/statu.....998033925?s=21



Hello ! I’m offering art for stuff on my Amazon wishlist, I recently lost my job and have been having an extremely hard time with my mental health, eating disorder, and taking care of my mom so I’d like to treat myself to something - but since I can’t spend money atm I 👏 make 👏 do 👏

For the computer chair I’m willing to do a fully shaded piece - mine broke a few months ago and I’ve been using one of those metal folding chairs that is not nice to my back or butt at all lmao

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share

quality examples here : https://twitter.com/softpuppi/statu.....79107727450115

https://toyhou.se/softpuppi/charact.....older:unsorted

entertaining offfers on my toyhouse, i have too many characters and not enough time to draw them all nor can i afford art atm

hoping to do a quick icon trade ! drop examples if interested

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

This has been weighing on me for too long. I need to make things right.

I owe my commissioners the sincerest of apologies in my lack of professionalism , response and inexcusable delays in completing commissions. I am ashamed, I feel guilty all the time. It keeps me awake at night knowing that so many people have trusted me to deliver a product and I have not followed through with my end.

At first it was a few, I got a little behind, figured i would catch up in no time since my art drive was so high and I had the luxury of a stable schedule, somewhat stable health, as well as the ability to churn out commissions rapidly. However as my financial needs grew strained, health deteriorated, being homeless at one point and my wellbeing threatened by an abusive relationship, I just kept digging deeper and deeper. Now I'm well past my senses in this hole I've dug for myself and I refuse to let it bury me.

I've found someone to help me organize a queue and I will begin to undermine the task of getting through every art piece I owe.

IMPORTANT PSA PART:

!!OWED COMMISSIONERS!!

I know I have asked you to do this before but I need this one final time and I will try my best to make it as simple as possible. If I owe you multiple pieces, please fill one out for each commission / character and send it to puppiatto via twitter or puppiatto[at]gmail.com
OR REPLY TO MY COMMENT BELOW

Contact Email :
Reference Sheet :
Commission or Trade? :
Commission Type :


I have switched to my PC and my YCH files are no longer accessible, I am offering an artistic liberty piece instead if you are okay with this.


PUBLIC QUEUE : T R E L L O

looking for comfort characters ,, soft characters, soft bodies - I like pups, foxes, buns. Muted browns, greys, creams


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