I'm still alive
Posted a year agoFirst of all I want to apologize.
Second of all, life has been a bitch.
A LOT has happened, and right now me & my parents are barely scraping by thanks to.. ummm...
U H
The government? Nah??
US citizens, y'know what I'm saying? Haa
Facebook, Tiktok, ETC...
I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm just so wholly ready to implode at any second.
Second of all, life has been a bitch.
A LOT has happened, and right now me & my parents are barely scraping by thanks to.. ummm...
U H
The government? Nah??
US citizens, y'know what I'm saying? Haa
Facebook, Tiktok, ETC...
I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm just so wholly ready to implode at any second.
FF14 anyone?
Posted 3 years agoYes it's been a long time, Yes, and yes and yes.. been there.
People dying, etc. Tired of it.
Shit happens but man I am just trying to live.
WoW can suck my ass. Fuck it.
People dying, etc. Tired of it.
Shit happens but man I am just trying to live.
WoW can suck my ass. Fuck it.
Guess who's alive?
Posted 4 years agoIt's Britney, bitch.
But no really. A lot has happened. Hi. I'm here.
But no really. A lot has happened. Hi. I'm here.
Quick lil update for those waiting
Posted 6 years agoA quick apology for those waiting on those sketch comms I was asking about.
I have no idea if I even mentioned it before yet while I was "sick".. but my grandma died about 2 1/2 months ago, so it's been a grueling and emotional time going through her belongings with my mom in the entirety of her house.
What to keep, what to toss, etc.. life has been kicking me so hard in the balls this year, honestly. Tomorrow however, I will have more breathing room and should be able to go through my messages without much interruption hopefully.
I just ask to please bear with me. Although I'm mostly recovered, I'm still pretty scarred up emotionally. I have pretty bad days still.
I watched the entire time as my grandmother died. To her final breath. And it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life..
As an ex-nurse tech, I have seen wounds and scars and injuries anyone can imagine... watching my sweet mawmaw slowly pass, all that is nothing compared to it.
Us as a family have been pretty numb from it all. We're all very close. We've cried together a lot. Supported each other.
But life goes on. And the cycle continues. I appreciate your (hopefully given) understanding...
I have no idea if I even mentioned it before yet while I was "sick".. but my grandma died about 2 1/2 months ago, so it's been a grueling and emotional time going through her belongings with my mom in the entirety of her house.
What to keep, what to toss, etc.. life has been kicking me so hard in the balls this year, honestly. Tomorrow however, I will have more breathing room and should be able to go through my messages without much interruption hopefully.
I just ask to please bear with me. Although I'm mostly recovered, I'm still pretty scarred up emotionally. I have pretty bad days still.
I watched the entire time as my grandmother died. To her final breath. And it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life..
As an ex-nurse tech, I have seen wounds and scars and injuries anyone can imagine... watching my sweet mawmaw slowly pass, all that is nothing compared to it.
Us as a family have been pretty numb from it all. We're all very close. We've cried together a lot. Supported each other.
But life goes on. And the cycle continues. I appreciate your (hopefully given) understanding...
Sketch/flatcolor commissions open
Posted 6 years agoExtending from my last journal--> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9333221/
I am willing to do some rough sketch commissions with either none or flat colors.
I am trying to save up for some Christmas presents that are very much deserved, so anything is welcome.
Or if you don't need a drawing and just want to donate to help out, here is my ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/1685DJZ4BXRKL
I am willing to take headshots/busts/portraits, half bodies and depending on complexity of body and markings, full bodies.
Prices start for busts at $10USD PP and go up from there.
Please comment below if interested!
I am willing to do some rough sketch commissions with either none or flat colors.
I am trying to save up for some Christmas presents that are very much deserved, so anything is welcome.
Or if you don't need a drawing and just want to donate to help out, here is my ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/1685DJZ4BXRKL
I am willing to take headshots/busts/portraits, half bodies and depending on complexity of body and markings, full bodies.
Prices start for busts at $10USD PP and go up from there.
Please comment below if interested!
So anyone up for some sketch commissions?
Posted 6 years agoI need to do something, anything honestly, and build up some revenue and collect a few gifts for my amazing mom who has supported me through all my suffering and self-destruction.
I just can't not get her anything.. and although I haven't drawn much at all, anything would be lovely. No porn for now.
Half bodies at most preferably for now, thanks. If interested just comment or toss me a note.
Price will be $15PP+ (depending on complexity)
I just can't not get her anything.. and although I haven't drawn much at all, anything would be lovely. No porn for now.
Half bodies at most preferably for now, thanks. If interested just comment or toss me a note.
Price will be $15PP+ (depending on complexity)
updating your profile info and crying over it
Posted 6 years agoAlso thank you so so much for the support and comments, etc... I appreciate them truly from the bottom of my heart.
One thing I gotta say is.. if you suspect a friend or family member is struggling, help them. I wouldn't be here otherwise. LITERALLY.
I went through waves of depression. For many reasons. But mostly the biggest being that I have yet to be out of the closet to my family. And while I honestly don't give a good goddamn what most of my family thinks, me and my mom are best friends. And while I know it'd break her heart, etc... it's tough to deal with.
Gonna be real here... At some points, my alcoholism had gotten so bad, I was hallucinating.
I saw spiders under my skin. I saw a constant flashing of derogatory words in my vision.
If you or someone you know if suffering... HELP THEM! It could be their final straw, for all you know.
One thing I gotta say is.. if you suspect a friend or family member is struggling, help them. I wouldn't be here otherwise. LITERALLY.
I went through waves of depression. For many reasons. But mostly the biggest being that I have yet to be out of the closet to my family. And while I honestly don't give a good goddamn what most of my family thinks, me and my mom are best friends. And while I know it'd break her heart, etc... it's tough to deal with.
Gonna be real here... At some points, my alcoholism had gotten so bad, I was hallucinating.
I saw spiders under my skin. I saw a constant flashing of derogatory words in my vision.
If you or someone you know if suffering... HELP THEM! It could be their final straw, for all you know.
stillalive.jpg
Posted 6 years agoYep, that's me.. Living life by the day.
Much better than before of course, but still have my struggles..
Detatchment from a lot of online stuff has helped me mentally and emotionally.
So what have I missed?
Much better than before of course, but still have my struggles..
Detatchment from a lot of online stuff has helped me mentally and emotionally.
So what have I missed?
Struggles, part 2 I guess??
Posted 6 years agoBeen struggling still ever since my last submission.
It's so hard/rough you guys... Especially when you don't have anyone really backing you up.
Every single day I want to be numb but know it isn't practical, etc... it sucks, especially on a chemically addicted level.
But hey, I'm still alive. I guess that matters, if anything. I've been through a lot in between, of course... If you are that desperate to know, you can PM me.
Otherwise I can't give a shit about much of anything else... take care and love thyself.
It's so hard/rough you guys... Especially when you don't have anyone really backing you up.
Every single day I want to be numb but know it isn't practical, etc... it sucks, especially on a chemically addicted level.
But hey, I'm still alive. I guess that matters, if anything. I've been through a lot in between, of course... If you are that desperate to know, you can PM me.
Otherwise I can't give a shit about much of anything else... take care and love thyself.
yeah boi, how's your day going?
Posted 6 years agoso I have been gone a while... Yes.
Reasons?
Multiple.
You're free to guess.
Biggest one is (struggling) recovering alcoholism.
Y'all know I'm a pretty straight forward person.
I'm not dead yet. But living isn't even a consideration at the moment...
Pray for me. Not even kidding. I need everything you have.
Reasons?
Multiple.
You're free to guess.
Biggest one is (struggling) recovering alcoholism.
Y'all know I'm a pretty straight forward person.
I'm not dead yet. But living isn't even a consideration at the moment...
Pray for me. Not even kidding. I need everything you have.
Ugly commissions, read please!
Posted 7 years agoFirst of all, I want to apologize (as I usually do) for those that have been waiting longer than others. A lot of stuff has been happening lately (yes, still) and I have kinda lost my mojo because of it.
To help remedy the situation, I'll be refunding the remaining commissioners in my list because I honestly have no idea when I will want to draw again. I'm on a bit of a fence as far as my personal life is concerned.
I've been so focused on IRL things and the good/bad happening with it. So I hope you guys can at least consider me an honest person when it comes to this stuff.
I hate holding people up, especially when money and expectations are involved. OTL
I hope you all have a wonderful day despite this news, and thank you so so much for always being so understanding.
To help remedy the situation, I'll be refunding the remaining commissioners in my list because I honestly have no idea when I will want to draw again. I'm on a bit of a fence as far as my personal life is concerned.
I've been so focused on IRL things and the good/bad happening with it. So I hope you guys can at least consider me an honest person when it comes to this stuff.
I hate holding people up, especially when money and expectations are involved. OTL
I hope you all have a wonderful day despite this news, and thank you so so much for always being so understanding.
I'm bad at math - UGLY COMMS LOOK
Posted 7 years agoSketches still coming, I'm in a good mood tonight so that helps.
I have more than what I previously mentioned because I'm stupid. >_>;
ANYWAYS YEAH, to those waiting, don't worry, they're coming!
I'm gonna list those that are left and if I missed you, please let me know!
So many payments in a row can get confusing so I wanna make sure nobody is left out. Thank you!! <3
Kojote_Latrans
-Mint-
Kamooi
I have more than what I previously mentioned because I'm stupid. >_>;
ANYWAYS YEAH, to those waiting, don't worry, they're coming!
I'm gonna list those that are left and if I missed you, please let me know!
So many payments in a row can get confusing so I wanna make sure nobody is left out. Thank you!! <3



Just a quick update
Posted 7 years agoLetting yall know I ain't dead, just been busy and tired. I have 3 more sketch commissions left to do and they should be out soon.
Thank you guys for being patient with me, a lot has been happening (good and bad) and I'm just trying to keep up. x-x
Oh and HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to whoever of you might be a parent lolol
Thank you guys for being patient with me, a lot has been happening (good and bad) and I'm just trying to keep up. x-x
Oh and HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to whoever of you might be a parent lolol
Furcadia digos still up for sale
Posted 7 years agoHaven't had any luck with them yet. I've quit Furc and I need the money, so they are up for grabs.
Please message me if any of these interest you. Also include what character you'd like it on.
Paypal only. Payment required first, and then I'll gift it over.
(I may take best offers if you don't lowball me.. price is already half of their store worth IIRC)
$40 RANGE
Mythical Ferian Unicon
Anthro Unicorn
Noble Feline
Kirin
$35 RANGE
Kitsukin
Drakkin
$25 RANGE
Catten
Life happened again
Posted 7 years agoSo a family member (not someone I am personally close to, but still) died, my grandmother's husband to whom she married after a divorce. Umm... grandfather-in-law? I guess??
Anyways yeah, funeral is tomorrow.. er, today. So the news had put me off for a few days of artwork in prep of such. As always, I try to update people as best I can when interruptions like this come up.
Things should be smooth again within the next few days. Thank you for your understanding. <3
Anyways yeah, funeral is tomorrow.. er, today. So the news had put me off for a few days of artwork in prep of such. As always, I try to update people as best I can when interruptions like this come up.
Things should be smooth again within the next few days. Thank you for your understanding. <3
$5 Ugly commissions - READ, ESPECIALLY IF YOU PAID ALREADY
Posted 7 years agoOkay so I am getting a TON of love for these (which is amazing and awesome) but I kinda forgot to mention something.
If you could please comment (or note, if you'd like to keep it private) your paypal e-mail if it isn't obvious on the payment statement (such as your username/business name related to your FA/DA name)
I'm getting a lot of inquiries, like I said, and I want to make sure I know who is who when I receive a payment!
Just a quick "My paypal is 'name@paypal.com'" if you have paid/when you pay, will suffice. Thank you so much for your support!!! <333
If you could please comment (or note, if you'd like to keep it private) your paypal e-mail if it isn't obvious on the payment statement (such as your username/business name related to your FA/DA name)
I'm getting a lot of inquiries, like I said, and I want to make sure I know who is who when I receive a payment!
Just a quick "My paypal is 'name@paypal.com'" if you have paid/when you pay, will suffice. Thank you so much for your support!!! <333
draw me like one of your ugly girls
Posted 7 years agoOk so I commissioned someone a few months ago and was all "draw me as ugly as you can" and I am pretty much in love with my new icon.
I figured this kinda idea might help me in the current emotional slump I'm in. I've had to put off larger projects because the stress (both IRL and online) had me on edge so bad. OTL
So who would be interested? Let me draw your OC for a few bucks and make them derpy or ugly. idek. Anything to lighten my mood and be mostly hassle free. <:'D
Either a suggested theme or full artistic liberty. Not first come first serve. Just hit me up and I will let you know if I'm down. ^^; <3
$5 max too!!
I figured this kinda idea might help me in the current emotional slump I'm in. I've had to put off larger projects because the stress (both IRL and online) had me on edge so bad. OTL
So who would be interested? Let me draw your OC for a few bucks and make them derpy or ugly. idek. Anything to lighten my mood and be mostly hassle free. <:'D
Either a suggested theme or full artistic liberty. Not first come first serve. Just hit me up and I will let you know if I'm down. ^^; <3
$5 max too!!
FRICK
Posted 7 years agoSo the whole "when it rains, it pours" type of deal has been going on. I thought I caught a break but then I fucked up and hit someone's mailbox, and then fucked my car door. Then some of my pet chickens died.
WHY DOES BAD STUFF HAPPEN ALL AT ONCE CONSECUTIVELY
UGH
Anyways yeah, between fixing what I fucked up and generally being sad, I THINK I'm back to a somewhat functioning state.. kinda. Almost done with a commission and then moving on to the sketches I owe.
If reality could stop kicking me in the balls for just one sec that'd be great THANKS
OTL
WHY DOES BAD STUFF HAPPEN ALL AT ONCE CONSECUTIVELY
UGH
Anyways yeah, between fixing what I fucked up and generally being sad, I THINK I'm back to a somewhat functioning state.. kinda. Almost done with a commission and then moving on to the sketches I owe.
If reality could stop kicking me in the balls for just one sec that'd be great THANKS
OTL
YCHaffinity.net
Posted 7 years agoIt's gotten to that point. I understand the convenience for an artist to use pre-rendered poses but man. It's all I ever see now. x_x
Adopts prices lowered! Check 'em!
Posted 7 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/26654172/
Reduced for quick sale, 2/4 left! Both on top.
I might also take offers of artwork, but I tend to be picky. Don't be offended though please!!!
Reduced for quick sale, 2/4 left! Both on top.
I might also take offers of artwork, but I tend to be picky. Don't be offended though please!!!
FURCADIA DIGOS FOR SALE
Posted 7 years agoI've quit furcadia and figured I should probably sell my shit. I've got some good ones, y'all.
Just comment/note me to claim. Payment is by Paypal only.
These are all FOR LIFE digos.
I will gift the digo to you ingame once payment is sent/confirmed.
Be sure to mention which character you want it on when claiming.
Thanks!
$40 RANGE
Mythical Ferian Unicon
Anthro Unicorn
Noble Feline
Kirin
$35 RANGE
Kitsukin
Drakkin
$25 RANGE
Catten
Just comment/note me to claim. Payment is by Paypal only.
These are all FOR LIFE digos.
I will gift the digo to you ingame once payment is sent/confirmed.
Be sure to mention which character you want it on when claiming.
Thanks!
$40 RANGE
Mythical Ferian Unicon
Anthro Unicorn
Noble Feline
Kirin
$35 RANGE
Kitsukin
Drakkin
$25 RANGE
Catten
Update for my watchers!
Posted 7 years agoHi all! <3
Just a quick little update about what's gonna be going on in the near future!
My current commissions are well on their way to being completed, and I have more from a few people as rain checks.
Once those are complete, I will likely open my streams for live commissions every other day to help give me some time to work on more personal art that I've been wanting to do forever.
Of course, I will probably still take the occasional larger pieces, but that will be when I am comfortable doing so.
If you're a part of Picarto and want to follow me, or just to have it bookmarked, here is my streaming link!
--->> http://picarto.tv/sphynx
If you enjoy my work and want to help support me and increase my efforts, please consider buying me a coffee -- Every bit helps, as my artwork is currently my main source of income at the moment. I always need to afford pet food and necessities... like deodorant. 8'D
Thank you so much for your time!!!
Just a quick little update about what's gonna be going on in the near future!
My current commissions are well on their way to being completed, and I have more from a few people as rain checks.
Once those are complete, I will likely open my streams for live commissions every other day to help give me some time to work on more personal art that I've been wanting to do forever.
Of course, I will probably still take the occasional larger pieces, but that will be when I am comfortable doing so.
If you're a part of Picarto and want to follow me, or just to have it bookmarked, here is my streaming link!
--->> http://picarto.tv/sphynx
If you enjoy my work and want to help support me and increase my efforts, please consider buying me a coffee -- Every bit helps, as my artwork is currently my main source of income at the moment. I always need to afford pet food and necessities... like deodorant. 8'D
Thank you so much for your time!!!
CLOSED -- Will draw for Core
Posted 7 years agoSlot was filled by an anonymous user/commissioner - Thank you everyone for your input and time!!! <3
My discord
Posted 7 years agoI have a discord channel, feel free to shitpost at me
https://discord.gg/DjJqefZ
https://discord.gg/DjJqefZ
Have you ever been so tired
Posted 7 years ago... that you go to make coffee and 5 minutes later you come back to a nice refreshing pot of hot water?