( This discuss my struggles with depression. Read with caution.)


I was sent a few messages of concern about my sudden disappearance on some social media sites. I'm writing this Journal to let everyone know that I am fine and I'm currently battling depression. I basically had depression my whole life due to bad experiences and the combination of having bipolar. I usually can handle it just fine, but depression hit me hard at the beginning of this year. My motivation was gone and I barely had any energy to get out of bed. My mind either felt foggy or my thoughts were constantly racing. There were also panic attacks and thoughts of suicide. Its amazing how time flies when you're depresses. It hasn't been this severe for years.

I am seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. Ive been seeing them for awhile and I'm finally on antidepressants that helps me. When you have bipolar it can be difficult to prescribe the right antidepressants without it backfiring and making you feel worse. I'm thinking clearly now and slowly gaining my motivation back.

If you go check my twitter you'll discover that a few weeks ago I saved a kitten from drowning and nursed him back to health. Kittens that young are high maintenance, especially if you're raising just one without any siblings. We named him Flick, but I keep calling him Bubba. He's ready to find a forever home!
https://twitter.com/SpicyxLemons/st.....22086672429056

Over the course of months I have been working and finishing commissions, mainly icons. I just haven't been uploading them because I've been a mess. I don't like sharing this much to the public about my life, but I do feel its important to talk about your struggles and not be ashamed of doing so. Thank you everyone for sending your concerns! I'm confident enough to say I'm recovering and slowly getting back into things I use enjoy.

I'm glad to announce that commissions for eye pattern icons are open once more!

Please click on this link for important information to fill when commissioning for one
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22027947/

💫My Artist New Year Revolution💫

⭐️Be more loose with my sketches⭐️
I feel like I focus too much on anatomy and proportions. It can lead to a stiff drawing which I absolutely hate to see in my artwork.

⭐️Not every piece has to be a masterpiece⭐️
I need to tell myself that it’s okay to post sketches and loose paintings. Not everything has to be fully rendered art. It can lead to great stress! Plus, your brain will burn out much too often!

⭐️Be consistent⭐️
This goes along with what I typed above. I should just post and draw a lot more sketches.

⭐️Keep an inspiration folder⭐️
I want to save pictures of what helps inspires me from artist I look up to. So whenever I’m feeling down or lacking I can just look into my inspiration folder to help lift my mood and be reminded of what I want to improve in my art.

⭐️ORGANIZE MY ART FILES & DOCUMENTS⭐️
My files are a mess on my tablet PC. I need to put SO MUCH MORE EFFORT INTO ORGANIZING TO SAVE MY FUTURE SELF FROM A MASSIVE MESS TO CLEAN!!💀

⭐️Be more interactive with the art community and friends⭐️
I will admit that I’m a bit of a workaholic. When I’m not working on commissions, work on my art studies. I fail to realize how much time has passed and it'll be like 2 to 3 weeks since I’ve last had a good chat with a friend. I need to tell myself that it’s okay to sit back and take a short break from art from time to time.

Happy New Year everyone! If you're drinking please find a safe way to return home or stay the night at your buddy's house! 🎉❤️🎉

I've reached up to 200 watchers these past few days! This is another big step for me! Plus, I saw quite an improvement on my art here and there over the months of being active here! Thank you sooooo much everyone! Have a Happy Holiday and a joyous new year! Cheers for more art to come!

I'm opening experimental bust commissions for $15 each! I usually would charge $20 per bust, but it's the season and I need to save up money to buy holiday gifts. I also want to work on my values and play around with different painting tools.

Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21963251/

Slots
1.)  Paparmane
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Queue
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My Playpal and E-mail
spicyxlemons@gmail.com

✨✨🌟 Trello 🌟✨✨
https://trello.com/b/2NYcrQNd/spicy.....ns-commissions

*blows on world's tiniest party horn*

Here we go, round 2!

Bust will be done in the order I listed.

Bust
1.)  Nocteumbra
2.)  X-Dream
3.)  Cameron7954
4.)  Dinoburb (pending)
5.)  Hirokou
6.)  Cynderfan35 (pending)
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Queue

Hiya everyone! I decided to post a journal to show my list of commissioners just so you can see whose up next. Plus, I opened a queue for when I open Bust slots again. If you want to be added to the queue please e-mail me at (spicyxlemons@gmail.com) or send me a note.

Bust will be done in the order I listed.

Bust
shyfoxshywolf
RiotSSX (x3)
Camo.V

Queue
Dinoburb
Cameron7954
X-Dream
Nocteumbra