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Posted 4 months agoHope everyone has a great con :D
State of the Yeen(Life update)
Posted 6 months agoHowdy,
I'm not usually one to talk about myself in journals but I feel it's time to say something. Forgive me for this scattered rant.
For people who've met me in discord or vrchat you might've noticed I stopped showing up. The main reason for that is from my anxiety. For whatever reason I get a feeling of inadequacy and that I'm not valuable enough to be around others. At first it's small but it reaches a boiling point. So I start showing up less and less until I'm just gone. It's happened far too many times than I'd like to admit. People I've flown across country to visit I would likely not talk to again online.
Even in DMs, I would love to chat with people. Over time the same negative feeling hit and my anxiety worsened to the point where I would feel like a burden and recluse again and again.
To some this might seem strange of me. I've been called an extrovert before because I can talk with people. My goofy behavior both online and in person made it seem like I was alright, but I very much wasn't. My closest friends and coworkers knew me to the point where they could tell it was my off days. Even at my old job I was given a longer break because of how troubled I looked haha.
Now that it's 2025, I've been at this new job for almost 2 years and I can most certainly say that I am worse off mentally. The feeling of losing a lot of friends has me in anguish and I can only watch as there's little I can do. My shift doesn't align with the average workday so I can't talk to others in a meaningful way. Vrchat has its challenges because you can meet great people and then become estranged weeks later. That's the main reason I haven't been around the last month. Feeling neglected. And what did I do to pass the time? Work ... A terrible idea in the end. So much overtime has made me drained and as I'm nearing the end of my hiatus I'm kinda nervous to return.
To conclude, my life has unfortunately become work and sleep. Womp womp. But I'll still be the same fat ass/goofy gnoll that everyone sees. Cause at the end of the day, being depressed and alone doesn't help so I'll try to improve myself.
Peace
I'm not usually one to talk about myself in journals but I feel it's time to say something. Forgive me for this scattered rant.
For people who've met me in discord or vrchat you might've noticed I stopped showing up. The main reason for that is from my anxiety. For whatever reason I get a feeling of inadequacy and that I'm not valuable enough to be around others. At first it's small but it reaches a boiling point. So I start showing up less and less until I'm just gone. It's happened far too many times than I'd like to admit. People I've flown across country to visit I would likely not talk to again online.
Even in DMs, I would love to chat with people. Over time the same negative feeling hit and my anxiety worsened to the point where I would feel like a burden and recluse again and again.
To some this might seem strange of me. I've been called an extrovert before because I can talk with people. My goofy behavior both online and in person made it seem like I was alright, but I very much wasn't. My closest friends and coworkers knew me to the point where they could tell it was my off days. Even at my old job I was given a longer break because of how troubled I looked haha.
Now that it's 2025, I've been at this new job for almost 2 years and I can most certainly say that I am worse off mentally. The feeling of losing a lot of friends has me in anguish and I can only watch as there's little I can do. My shift doesn't align with the average workday so I can't talk to others in a meaningful way. Vrchat has its challenges because you can meet great people and then become estranged weeks later. That's the main reason I haven't been around the last month. Feeling neglected. And what did I do to pass the time? Work ... A terrible idea in the end. So much overtime has made me drained and as I'm nearing the end of my hiatus I'm kinda nervous to return.
To conclude, my life has unfortunately become work and sleep. Womp womp. But I'll still be the same fat ass/goofy gnoll that everyone sees. Cause at the end of the day, being depressed and alone doesn't help so I'll try to improve myself.
Peace
Going to FC!
Posted 7 months agoIf you see a brown poodle, feel free to say high 😁
Merry Christmas to all
Posted a year agoSince I'm a terrible uploader I'm planning on doing a mass upload later today. Seeing that I'm a lewd guy I hope everyone enjoys the stuff I commissioned.
I'm on Bluesky!
Posted 2 years agoNew Art Dump!
Posted 2 years agoIn like 5 mins idk
Anyone Looking for a Roommate at FWA?
Posted 2 years agoI wanna go and need a roommate ;-;
Art dump inbound
Posted 2 years agoOn both FA accounts. Sorry for the barrage
I'm back!
Posted 3 years agoMore or less. I never missed internet more in my life :P
Gonna be gone for a month
Posted 3 years agoDue to military stuff, gonna be gone with very little internet in the middle of the ocean. Sorry for the inconvenience.
Hello, new update/ Comm's with people
Posted 3 years agoAnother spam upload coming maybe? It's tedious so I might push it back lol.
Also, how is everyone? If yall want to split a comm with me I might be down! :P
Also, how is everyone? If yall want to split a comm with me I might be down! :P
Might be an art spam today
Posted 4 years agoGot a backlog of art I was lazy to upload. Prepare :3
Journal for Sleepyras' Raffle
Posted 4 years agoHeads up
Posted 5 years agoI might not be as active on this site. I've always used twitter more despite it being trash for art. Oh well.
New Account
Posted 6 years agoMy previous account was spideyzack, but I forgot the password and email to recover my password. Now I;m just gonna start again, and may be more active.
