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Posted 4 years agoThank you my dudes!!!
Posted 4 years agoAlmost all troubles from my last journal are not so troubling anymore.
You've helped me hugely! I love you guys.
I have a tablet and as you can see I'm drawing quite a lot. Scared to read pm from old commissioners but I'll get to it.
Everything is gonna be alright!
You've helped me hugely! I love you guys.
I have a tablet and as you can see I'm drawing quite a lot. Scared to read pm from old commissioners but I'll get to it.
Everything is gonna be alright!
EMERGENCY COMMS: Mom's ill and Tablet's broken
Posted 4 years agoI really need some help now :(
My mom has problems with her knees and has troubles walking. It's been going on for some time but she didn't want to tell me. Due to this she can't walk the dog anymore so he lives with me now. He's not the youngest or healthiest so it might become a problem soon.
My trusty wacom Bamboo tablet is officially dead, it doesn't respond to the pen anymore and my gf's tablet refuses to work with my laptop. I need a new one asap, Its very bad timing, but if something can go wrong it will.
This spring is becoming more and more scary.
I'm very much in debt now, but I don't see another way. My Gf is a student and can't work, mom is a pretty old and now ill lady, and I'm kinda cornered with all this shit.
I NEED TO TAKE A FEW EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS. They'll be done in next few months. I would try to sell Ych but you know... The tablet problem.
80 eur for 1 character picture,
150 eur for 2 characters,
200 eur for 3.
Examples you can find in my gallery. Full colour, very pretty, blurry background with edits.
PM me to order. Please please please.
If you have other ideas for comms, pm as well!
My mom has problems with her knees and has troubles walking. It's been going on for some time but she didn't want to tell me. Due to this she can't walk the dog anymore so he lives with me now. He's not the youngest or healthiest so it might become a problem soon.
My trusty wacom Bamboo tablet is officially dead, it doesn't respond to the pen anymore and my gf's tablet refuses to work with my laptop. I need a new one asap, Its very bad timing, but if something can go wrong it will.
This spring is becoming more and more scary.
I'm very much in debt now, but I don't see another way. My Gf is a student and can't work, mom is a pretty old and now ill lady, and I'm kinda cornered with all this shit.
I NEED TO TAKE A FEW EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS. They'll be done in next few months. I would try to sell Ych but you know... The tablet problem.
80 eur for 1 character picture,
150 eur for 2 characters,
200 eur for 3.
Examples you can find in my gallery. Full colour, very pretty, blurry background with edits.
PM me to order. Please please please.
If you have other ideas for comms, pm as well!
It's my birthday my dudes
Posted 4 years agoI'm 28
Who is a "Good Friend"?
Posted 5 years agoYup, another talkie journal...
What does it mean to be a good friend to you personally? Because I have no idea.
There's no further questions below, just my sad life story :D If you want to comment and don't want to read sad stuff, don't read.
I've had lots of friends in my life, usually 1 friend at once, and it rarely lasted. Because I've always been shit in friendship.
My childhood best friend was often ridiculed and literally abused by me for so long, we eventually stopped talking at all. I thought it was ok to mock her for being not smart enough for me, liking things that she liked, criticizing her for being friendly with people I didn't like. I honestly had no idea I was such a little shit. We are quite good friends now, I am as supportive as I can. She often comes to me with her problems for some advice and I appreciate it insanely, I'm very greatfull that she forgave me for being the shit I used to be.
My school best friend tried to tell me that I was kinda abusive and took her for granted, eventually she just stopped talking to me and acted as I didn't exist. I was angry and thought I was a victim, how dare she dump me like that without explaining anything? And I wasn't a child, I was 17 and thought of myself as a pretty wise person :D Jesus fuck. After years we tried to start socializing together again and she told me that she thought we had nothing in common anymore and that's why she ended it all.
I always thought that my boyfriend was abusive towards me and was overall a jerk. Well, he was ;D But his lying and avoiding me and refusing to break up wasn't, well, uncalled for. I was super insecure and jealous of EVERYTHING, I didn't like him being around any girl at all. I was constantly calling him when he was with his friends, I didn't like them and talked shit about them, I didn't respect his interests and everything he liked I despised, and also I was super codependent and kinda suicidal. Of course he didn't want to dump me, he was afraid I'd mention him in my suicide note :D
My girlfriend and I have a history. She knew me before I knew her, and she kinda stalked me in the internet since 2008 :D I don't remember how it all started, but we talked a lot but again, I didn't really care for her and her emotions, never thought before saying rude things and so on. When we started to date I also was kinda a piece of shit, but not knowingly. But we're talking about friendship here.
There was also a very close friends with so much problems... I had same problems and was in the same deep shit mentally as her. But she had another problem that eventually killed her. I couldn't help because I didn't know how to deal with such things yet, and I really thought I was helping enabling her coping strategies like, erm, alcohol escapism. Ugh fun times.
I also had a very close friend who was kind of like a soulmate to me. I lost her because I was angry and sad and wanted her to help and was angry that she couldn't, took her for granted and angrily cut all communications with her when she said that i was kinda abusive. And again, thought I was the victim. We talk again now, but she has a different life and I'm not fitting there anymore.
Lots of people over time reached out for me, liked me a lot and supported me in ways, and I pushed everyone away by taking for granted, being rude, ignoring their feelings, disappearing for months and coming back like nothing happened... Often times my mental illnesses were to blame, but sometimes I chose to be like that. Well, a couple of times my so called friends became mysoginistic dumbass shitcakes and I just don't feel responsible for not giving them any closure, fuck them despicable shits. We respect women here. Weirdly, it happened more than 3 times... Not sure why I was friends with them to begin with.
So... I am dealing with consequences of my 25+ years of being an arrogant cunt. It's a miracle i still have people who care for me after all this. I am a different person now. I try to think before talking, I'm developing my empathy, I'm better with anger management, I've dealt with addictions, I take responsibility for my own health and I take my meds, I work harder than ever before, I apologize and acknowledge my mistakes. I'm literally a recovering sociopath :D
It's kinda sad that it took so long to become a half decent person, but better late than never.
What does it mean to be a good friend to you personally? Because I have no idea.
There's no further questions below, just my sad life story :D If you want to comment and don't want to read sad stuff, don't read.
I've had lots of friends in my life, usually 1 friend at once, and it rarely lasted. Because I've always been shit in friendship.
My childhood best friend was often ridiculed and literally abused by me for so long, we eventually stopped talking at all. I thought it was ok to mock her for being not smart enough for me, liking things that she liked, criticizing her for being friendly with people I didn't like. I honestly had no idea I was such a little shit. We are quite good friends now, I am as supportive as I can. She often comes to me with her problems for some advice and I appreciate it insanely, I'm very greatfull that she forgave me for being the shit I used to be.
My school best friend tried to tell me that I was kinda abusive and took her for granted, eventually she just stopped talking to me and acted as I didn't exist. I was angry and thought I was a victim, how dare she dump me like that without explaining anything? And I wasn't a child, I was 17 and thought of myself as a pretty wise person :D Jesus fuck. After years we tried to start socializing together again and she told me that she thought we had nothing in common anymore and that's why she ended it all.
I always thought that my boyfriend was abusive towards me and was overall a jerk. Well, he was ;D But his lying and avoiding me and refusing to break up wasn't, well, uncalled for. I was super insecure and jealous of EVERYTHING, I didn't like him being around any girl at all. I was constantly calling him when he was with his friends, I didn't like them and talked shit about them, I didn't respect his interests and everything he liked I despised, and also I was super codependent and kinda suicidal. Of course he didn't want to dump me, he was afraid I'd mention him in my suicide note :D
My girlfriend and I have a history. She knew me before I knew her, and she kinda stalked me in the internet since 2008 :D I don't remember how it all started, but we talked a lot but again, I didn't really care for her and her emotions, never thought before saying rude things and so on. When we started to date I also was kinda a piece of shit, but not knowingly. But we're talking about friendship here.
There was also a very close friends with so much problems... I had same problems and was in the same deep shit mentally as her. But she had another problem that eventually killed her. I couldn't help because I didn't know how to deal with such things yet, and I really thought I was helping enabling her coping strategies like, erm, alcohol escapism. Ugh fun times.
I also had a very close friend who was kind of like a soulmate to me. I lost her because I was angry and sad and wanted her to help and was angry that she couldn't, took her for granted and angrily cut all communications with her when she said that i was kinda abusive. And again, thought I was the victim. We talk again now, but she has a different life and I'm not fitting there anymore.
Lots of people over time reached out for me, liked me a lot and supported me in ways, and I pushed everyone away by taking for granted, being rude, ignoring their feelings, disappearing for months and coming back like nothing happened... Often times my mental illnesses were to blame, but sometimes I chose to be like that. Well, a couple of times my so called friends became mysoginistic dumbass shitcakes and I just don't feel responsible for not giving them any closure, fuck them despicable shits. We respect women here. Weirdly, it happened more than 3 times... Not sure why I was friends with them to begin with.
So... I am dealing with consequences of my 25+ years of being an arrogant cunt. It's a miracle i still have people who care for me after all this. I am a different person now. I try to think before talking, I'm developing my empathy, I'm better with anger management, I've dealt with addictions, I take responsibility for my own health and I take my meds, I work harder than ever before, I apologize and acknowledge my mistakes. I'm literally a recovering sociopath :D
It's kinda sad that it took so long to become a half decent person, but better late than never.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN MY DUDES
Posted 5 years agoI'm having new problems life wise but still!!! It's HALLOWEEN! It's always a great day, my favourite musician let out a SONG and it's the first time in decades!!!! (not Andrew Eldritch tho) but What a great gift!!!
Hope you are having fun and safe Spoopy Day! Love you guys!
Hope you are having fun and safe Spoopy Day! Love you guys!
My to do list
Posted 5 years agoWell... It's not as scary as I imagined!
It will be constantly updated. It's from newest to oldest. It mostly includes YCH, other debts are added as I go.
Every person who is waiting for art from me longer than 1 month has a right to get a bonus from me:
-a fullbody black and white sketch
OR
-a coloured portrait
1 bonus per slot you bought. If you see this journal and know what bonus you'd like, leave a comment or a note and tell me.
Handcuffed YCH for
: not started
Hot tub YCH for
: lines and flats in progress
Commission for
: started
Gaming room YCH for
: not started
Lovemaking YCH for
: shading in progress
Girls' night (the ending) YCH for: shading in progress
Girls' night (the beginning) YCH for
and anon: lines in progress
Sweet dreams YCH for: redoing the lines, I don't like how they look anymore
Bonus list:
Benzark: 2, not chosen
Roxy.Skalski: 1, not chosen
pv1: 1, not chosen
anon wuff: 1, not chosen
Fernin: 4, not chosen
Artica: 1, not chosen
GamingHoot: 1, not chosen
Moltsi: 2 sketches
BrokenfangXD: 1, not chosen
Snowie_the_fox: 1, not chosen
alefur001: 1, not chosen
Lei_Long
The_Werewolf_King: 2 chars portrait
Kitana_Nighten: 1 sketch
It will be constantly updated. It's from newest to oldest. It mostly includes YCH, other debts are added as I go.
Every person who is waiting for art from me longer than 1 month has a right to get a bonus from me:
-a fullbody black and white sketch
OR
-a coloured portrait
1 bonus per slot you bought. If you see this journal and know what bonus you'd like, leave a comment or a note and tell me.
Handcuffed YCH for
: not startedHot tub YCH for
: lines and flats in progressCommission for
: started Gaming room YCH for
: not started Lovemaking YCH for
: shading in progressGirls' night (the ending) YCH for
: shading in progressGirls' night (the beginning) YCH for
and anon: lines in progressSweet dreams YCH for
: redoing the lines, I don't like how they look anymore Bonus list:
Benzark: 2, not chosen Roxy.Skalski: 1, not chosen pv1: 1, not chosenanon wuff: 1, not chosen
Fernin: 4, not chosen Artica: 1, not chosen GamingHoot: 1, not chosen
Moltsi: 2 sketches
BrokenfangXD: 1, not chosen 
Snowie_the_fox: 1, not chosen
alefur001: 1, not chosen
Lei_Long
The_Werewolf_King: 2 chars portrait
Kitana_Nighten: 1 sketchWill you be interested in a yiffy base for sale?
Posted 5 years agoI'm thinking of trying to start selling my "Bottom view" clone base (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34932377) for 10$.
It will contain complete line+shading for all the gender varieties (female+male, male+male, herm+male, human dicks, canine dicks, human pussies, canine pussies), the person who buys it will only have to do the colouring and add a tail.
(btw i'm still available for those clones! note me!)
Would you be interested in buying a base or I shouldn't waste time on polishing and preparing it (renaming layers, adding varieties)?
It will contain complete line+shading for all the gender varieties (female+male, male+male, herm+male, human dicks, canine dicks, human pussies, canine pussies), the person who buys it will only have to do the colouring and add a tail.
(btw i'm still available for those clones! note me!)
Would you be interested in buying a base or I shouldn't waste time on polishing and preparing it (renaming layers, adding varieties)?
Let's just CHAT!! I miss talking to you guys :(
Posted 5 years agoWhenever you happen to stumble upon this journal, don't be afraid and leave a comment if you wanna, somebody will listen and will eventually reply!
HOW ARE YOU DOING, MY FELLOW FURRIES AND OTHER FOLK?
I've never wanted to be that kind of artist who just uses their journals to promote commercial stuff and never actually talks to their watchers or even reply to comments. But apparently it's only possible when I have emotional resourses to even BE on furaffinity and when I have moneyz and no to little debts. Which hasn't been the case since middle summer. Duh.
I've had lots of unfinished business here, 15 unread messages from cutomers, a 200 eur refund case on paypal, haven't earned a cent since early september and also had a big ass depressive episode. But!
It took me months to do it, but I did get my shit together eventually. Went to my psychiatrist, got medication, collected all my courage and read the messages :D It might sound funny, a grown ass woman who's pushing her thirties can't READ A MESSAGE ON THE INTERNETS. But those who experienced depression and anxiety will understand. It seemed like the scariest thing! But I replied to everyone, and I thought of a system of bonuses for those who had to wait. I'm drawing every day now and it seems less and less hard and more and more fun! It's not my first time letting everything go to shit and then trying to ean my good name back. This time I only let it go this way for a few months, it's actually progress... Also, I was brave (and desperate lol) enough to put out there a new YCH (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38819430) and people actually bid!!! I'm so thrilled, I literally had a thought in the back of my head that it's all over and no one will ever believe in me again. Seems so stupid now.
Oh, and also I'm going to the gym now!!! I bought a membership in July and only went there first time in October............ I was scared and thought it's hard and horrible. But it actually is quite fun. Hopefully, by next summer I'll get really strong and will be a better fighter with patriarchy :D Also, less fat. Because it's really hard to find cheap and pretty clothes when you are fat(( I want to be moderately chubby and strong. That's my goal.
HOW ARE YOU DOING, MY FELLOW FURRIES AND OTHER FOLK?
I've never wanted to be that kind of artist who just uses their journals to promote commercial stuff and never actually talks to their watchers or even reply to comments. But apparently it's only possible when I have emotional resourses to even BE on furaffinity and when I have moneyz and no to little debts. Which hasn't been the case since middle summer. Duh.
I've had lots of unfinished business here, 15 unread messages from cutomers, a 200 eur refund case on paypal, haven't earned a cent since early september and also had a big ass depressive episode. But!
It took me months to do it, but I did get my shit together eventually. Went to my psychiatrist, got medication, collected all my courage and read the messages :D It might sound funny, a grown ass woman who's pushing her thirties can't READ A MESSAGE ON THE INTERNETS. But those who experienced depression and anxiety will understand. It seemed like the scariest thing! But I replied to everyone, and I thought of a system of bonuses for those who had to wait. I'm drawing every day now and it seems less and less hard and more and more fun! It's not my first time letting everything go to shit and then trying to ean my good name back. This time I only let it go this way for a few months, it's actually progress... Also, I was brave (and desperate lol) enough to put out there a new YCH (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38819430) and people actually bid!!! I'm so thrilled, I literally had a thought in the back of my head that it's all over and no one will ever believe in me again. Seems so stupid now.
Oh, and also I'm going to the gym now!!! I bought a membership in July and only went there first time in October............ I was scared and thought it's hard and horrible. But it actually is quite fun. Hopefully, by next summer I'll get really strong and will be a better fighter with patriarchy :D Also, less fat. Because it's really hard to find cheap and pretty clothes when you are fat(( I want to be moderately chubby and strong. That's my goal.
A MESSAGE TO WATCHERS AND CUSTOMERS
Posted 5 years agoHello there! I took a month off to work on my debts (which I did of course), but I'm not good at maths so I ran out of money sooner than expected. Also my partner lost her job so I'm kind of the breadwinner of the family now D: My anxiety refused to fuck off and took her best friend depression to my mind's party, so I'm my old medicated self again. Sometimes I think that losing a limb in exchange to being mentally healthy is a good option (not realistic tho).
I have 10 new PMs at the moment and my anxiety says that they are all from angry customers who want refunds and scold me for being goddamn irresponsible. I know it's probably not the case, but I'm not ready to answer nontheless.
In a few days I'll make a journal listing aaall of my debts, it'll help me and you, my dearest patient friendos, to understand the situation. I thought of a system to apologize for the inconvenience of waiting, so I'll offer an apology either in form of a free sketch or 10%-30% discount to all who bought from me. Also, I'll go back to "ready before deadline of 4 weeks or moneyback" policy for new commissions. Because it's only fair.
Meanwhile,
1. here's my another attempt to sell the last slot from september batch, it's cheaper now: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38561734
2. my chars are still for sale: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37522275
3. and my sexy bottom view clones are still available: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34932377
I have 10 new PMs at the moment and my anxiety says that they are all from angry customers who want refunds and scold me for being goddamn irresponsible. I know it's probably not the case, but I'm not ready to answer nontheless.
In a few days I'll make a journal listing aaall of my debts, it'll help me and you, my dearest patient friendos, to understand the situation. I thought of a system to apologize for the inconvenience of waiting, so I'll offer an apology either in form of a free sketch or 10%-30% discount to all who bought from me. Also, I'll go back to "ready before deadline of 4 weeks or moneyback" policy for new commissions. Because it's only fair.
Meanwhile,
1. here's my another attempt to sell the last slot from september batch, it's cheaper now: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38561734
2. my chars are still for sale: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37522275
3. and my sexy bottom view clones are still available: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34932377
Me on Twitter!!!
Posted 5 years agoI decided to make a twitter for little wips and stupid sketches and chatting casually with you guys! I'm not gonna lie, I saw today an artist I've known for ages and found out that she was insanely popular there. I guess being active there can be very very good for popularity, so yep!
https://twitter.com/spiggy_the_cat
If you can rt my first post there I'd be very grateful!
https://twitter.com/spiggy_the_cat
If you can rt my first post there I'd be very grateful!
My characters for sale!
Posted 5 years agoCat health news
Posted 5 years agoArya's blood tests are perfect, she is absolutely clinically healthy......... She might just lose weight because it's summer..........
I'm \halfway\ back!
Posted 5 years agoThree latest sold YCHs are in progress, one is in colouring stage, one is sent to my linework partner and one is being approved. These are not all my art debts, but the once that feel the heaviest. I'll try and sell a few new YCH soon, and after they are paid for I won't sell anything until at least all the running YCHs are done.
Our cat Arya decided to motivate me to work more by losing weight :D We took her to the vet, they told they should run some tests to find what's wrong with her. The results will be ready tomorrow evening. But we know that a least it's not diabetes. Which is good? Hope she'll soon become her old plump cat gal self again.
Our cat Arya decided to motivate me to work more by losing weight :D We took her to the vet, they told they should run some tests to find what's wrong with her. The results will be ready tomorrow evening. But we know that a least it's not diabetes. Which is good? Hope she'll soon become her old plump cat gal self again.
About refunds and no replies
Posted 5 years agoFirstly, I am still alive. Got off my meds because they made my brain very foggy and my memory and smarts practically nonexistent. It didn't help with depression at all...
Secondly, I haven't worked for 2 month and I am absolutely out of money. My gf has problems with work too, her salary is cut by 40% since april. Shit's so bad I had to ask mom for help (and I try not to do that, because she's done so much for me already and also I'm almost thirty).
I have a few people here and on telegram who are waiting for my replies. I haven't any strength for it still, I'm sorry((( I feel constantly guilty and ashamed because I promised and didn't deliver, and I can't even explain anything face to face. I will eventually, as soon as I get myself together(( I'm so afraid that I'm letting things spiral out of control AGAIN, I've worked so hard to work and function properly, and I've been doing so well!!!! I'm really, really scared that it's happening again. I so so hope I won't let too many customers down and at least half of them will forgive me for being like this.
I will refund moneys to people who had to wait for too long, the problem is I have to go back to work first. I'd rather draw my debts of course, but if some of you want refunds, there will be. I have no intention of scamming you guys.
I'm working on latest ychs I sold in june, but I'll have to try and sell something very soon. Hope I'll work everything out.
Thank you guys for staying with me <3 Love you so much!
Secondly, I haven't worked for 2 month and I am absolutely out of money. My gf has problems with work too, her salary is cut by 40% since april. Shit's so bad I had to ask mom for help (and I try not to do that, because she's done so much for me already and also I'm almost thirty).
I have a few people here and on telegram who are waiting for my replies. I haven't any strength for it still, I'm sorry((( I feel constantly guilty and ashamed because I promised and didn't deliver, and I can't even explain anything face to face. I will eventually, as soon as I get myself together(( I'm so afraid that I'm letting things spiral out of control AGAIN, I've worked so hard to work and function properly, and I've been doing so well!!!! I'm really, really scared that it's happening again. I so so hope I won't let too many customers down and at least half of them will forgive me for being like this.
I will refund moneys to people who had to wait for too long, the problem is I have to go back to work first. I'd rather draw my debts of course, but if some of you want refunds, there will be. I have no intention of scamming you guys.
I'm working on latest ychs I sold in june, but I'll have to try and sell something very soon. Hope I'll work everything out.
Thank you guys for staying with me <3 Love you so much!
New YCH are coming soon (+some personal news)
Posted 5 years agoThe beginning of my sad story is here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9529087
I still feel kinda unwell mentally. I take more meds now and the mood is getting better, but memory and attention are getting worse. Also, we sterilized our rabbit gal Hyzenthlay and it cost a lot... It wasn't good timing, we are very low on money rn, but she was shedding her fur heavily lately and was acting like she was expecting babies. So we had to do it now. On the good side: she is feeling great!
Some of our cats are having health problems now as well. We can't vaccinate half of them because they have to be clinically healthy. So... Yep.
I may or may not have problems with my thyroid gland. I'm afraid to go get it checked now because it will mean more moneyz to spend. Scary.
So, my dear friends, that's my news... I'm sorry you got to see me like this, i really really hoped that it will never interfere with my job again.
I know I already owe some ychs, i'm working on them as fast as i can, but i'm so bad at drawing now!! I have to spend unbelievable time and effort just to keep my quality up. I'm sorry I'm still not reading personal messages(
Today or tomorrow I'll post one or two new ychs... I feel very guilty because I haven't finished the previous batch, but I have like 35$ at the moment lol... If you want to support me with a buck, here's a link: https://www.paypal.me/spiggy I'm not totally comfortable asking for free money, but this time it almost feels appropriate.
I hope you guys are well, healthy and safe! These are crazy times.
I still feel kinda unwell mentally. I take more meds now and the mood is getting better, but memory and attention are getting worse. Also, we sterilized our rabbit gal Hyzenthlay and it cost a lot... It wasn't good timing, we are very low on money rn, but she was shedding her fur heavily lately and was acting like she was expecting babies. So we had to do it now. On the good side: she is feeling great!
Some of our cats are having health problems now as well. We can't vaccinate half of them because they have to be clinically healthy. So... Yep.
I may or may not have problems with my thyroid gland. I'm afraid to go get it checked now because it will mean more moneyz to spend. Scary.
So, my dear friends, that's my news... I'm sorry you got to see me like this, i really really hoped that it will never interfere with my job again.
I know I already owe some ychs, i'm working on them as fast as i can, but i'm so bad at drawing now!! I have to spend unbelievable time and effort just to keep my quality up. I'm sorry I'm still not reading personal messages(
Today or tomorrow I'll post one or two new ychs... I feel very guilty because I haven't finished the previous batch, but I have like 35$ at the moment lol... If you want to support me with a buck, here's a link: https://www.paypal.me/spiggy I'm not totally comfortable asking for free money, but this time it almost feels appropriate.
I hope you guys are well, healthy and safe! These are crazy times.
Why I'm not reading PMs and generally avoid you rn
Posted 5 years agoI didn't want to bring this up again after I've been fine for months, but I guess it would be wrong not to explain anything.
My old watchers might remember that I have bipolar disorder, I used to talk about it so much... Last few years I try to be quiet about it, I just take my antidepressants and try not to let the disease spoil my life (once more) :D
But a depressive episode managed to sneak up on me... I could've noticed it a few months ago, but didn't wanna. I was forgetting things more than usual, couldn't focus more than usual, didn't wanna work, didn't wanna take care of myself, didn't wanna clean the place (tho I tried! but flats tend to re-dirty themselves, and it's demotivating). Sooo now I can't deal with stuff! Good fucking job... I shouldn't blame myself, but I kinda could prevent things getting so far. I'm not severely bad now, but still. Drawing is so hard now.
It'll pass, and I'll deal with everything, and nothing really bad happens, it's just my malfunctioning brain making me feel bad, but yay, at least I found strength to write this!
P.S. I'm not going anywhere! I love you guys, dunno what I would be doing without.
My old watchers might remember that I have bipolar disorder, I used to talk about it so much... Last few years I try to be quiet about it, I just take my antidepressants and try not to let the disease spoil my life (once more) :D
But a depressive episode managed to sneak up on me... I could've noticed it a few months ago, but didn't wanna. I was forgetting things more than usual, couldn't focus more than usual, didn't wanna work, didn't wanna take care of myself, didn't wanna clean the place (tho I tried! but flats tend to re-dirty themselves, and it's demotivating). Sooo now I can't deal with stuff! Good fucking job... I shouldn't blame myself, but I kinda could prevent things getting so far. I'm not severely bad now, but still. Drawing is so hard now.
It'll pass, and I'll deal with everything, and nothing really bad happens, it's just my malfunctioning brain making me feel bad, but yay, at least I found strength to write this!
P.S. I'm not going anywhere! I love you guys, dunno what I would be doing without.
Have you done stupid shit as an adult?
Posted 5 years agoYesterday I drew a cat on my hand with a permanent marker (and I know what "permanent" means) and then couldn't get it off me, so I decided I'd rub it with a melamine sponge (and I know that it has evil chemicals that will damage everything on their way). Well, I got the marker off))00 Also got a nice chemical burn.
I'm 27...........
I'm 27...........
Raffle results
Posted 5 years agoSo, my lovelies, my raffle is over! It gave me some watchers, but wasn't very effective, so I probably won't host any in the future. But it was worth a try! Someone will get lucky :3
And the randomizer has spoken... It's number 27!
Yukon_Silvermoon, congrats! :3 Within a month you'll receive a nice ghost handy prize from me.
Thanks to everyone who participated in my raffle, all 42 of you (what a number!). Have a nice day!
And the randomizer has spoken... It's number 27!
Yukon_Silvermoon, congrats! :3 Within a month you'll receive a nice ghost handy prize from me. Thanks to everyone who participated in my raffle, all 42 of you (what a number!). Have a nice day!
Any YCH suggestions, guys and gals?
Posted 5 years agoI'm mostly drawing stuff I know will sell from me, straight vaginals and solo female ghost hand stuff. But I don't have anything against other themes like m/m, f/f, light bdsm (heavy stuff is hard to draw), threesomes, gang bangs, butt stuff, you name it. It's just... I'm not sure it's worth it, I don't like risks :D Like threesomes and gang bangs are fun to draw, but so risky! It's easier to sell 2 slots than 3 or more. What if I have to wait for weeks for people to buy it? D:
So, if you have some things you like and would like to see from me or possibly even buy it, comment please :3 I understand that price can be an issue, but if there'll be something that lots of you want, I can do cheaper things like clones or base art.
Also, next ych will be a threesome :3
So, if you have some things you like and would like to see from me or possibly even buy it, comment please :3 I understand that price can be an issue, but if there'll be something that lots of you want, I can do cheaper things like clones or base art.
Also, next ych will be a threesome :3
Do you use twitter for art? (as artist or watcher)
Posted 5 years agoI'm thinking about creating a twitter account for art, but I don't know if it's worth it. I heard that artists frequently are banned there for unexplained reasons. But at the same time I know quite a lot of artists who are very successful there... I dunnnnnoooo help me decide D:
RAFFLE EXTENDED because i'm an idiot
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/35887405/ i can't believe myself
Give me 6 chars to make fan art of!
Posted 5 years agoYou may offer human(oid) characters, but I probably won't draw them :D
Obviously, no OCs.
The more the better!!!
Obviously, no OCs.
The more the better!!!
TIS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!111
Posted 5 years agoFave my gift for myself it'll make me happy :3
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35511402/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35511402/
