I have been thinking on this for a good few months now.. To just forget or get rid of all my Sonic Fan Characters I had made. I do not draw them anymore. Haven't used them in god who knows how long now. And... Well.. I just don't want them anymore.. What's the point of keeping them if I'm not gonna draw or RP with them? Hell I gave up writing the story I had for them.

So I hearby giving all rights to to have full ownership over Spike and Shaun. Since she originally made them..

As for the rest. Either she or can have my other characters. Whatever they don't take. I will give the rest for free.

Only thing I ask is use them change them if ya want. Name and whatever. This may be my depression talking. But I just don't want them anymore.

Thanks for reading and understanding...

Sorry for the lack of activeness here... Been down in the dumps lately. Things I really don't want to talk about. So to turn a Long Journal Short.


My depression has gotten worse. Apparently I've gotten use to my meds I had. Only thing that is keeping me from being fully depressed is my Girlfriend and my Dog. As those two seem to find a way to get me to smile somehow. So my doctors are prescribing me on new meds and suggested to get Lola to be an actual Service Dog.

Cause of my depression I believe is cause my uncle as been in the hospital most of the time. Been going in and out. He seems so out of it now. And it worries me alot. He needs hands on care now it seems. But with me working I can't do that. And the doctors suggested to put him in the Nursing home... Meaning away from his farm and very thing he loves. I mean he seems himself when he gets on one of horses and rides around. He brightens up.. Thankfully my girlfriend said she'll come over and take care of him while I am working. Since she's having issues finding a new job.

Also. We are talking about just letting Kaz move in with us. So it can be easier on her. Til she can get a new job. And so it can be easier to take care of my uncle til he gets back on his feet.

Also another reason for my depression is that I am losing friends it seems.. Only friends I seem to have now is just Crystal and Ashley... Everyone else had seem to have disappeared.. Or ignoring me.. I don't know... I know I haven't been active here. And there's has been some points that I should leave FA.. Or get rid of my Sonic characters I had made? I'm still debating on that..

Lastly. My computer is still crappy. Not worth to keep or to work on art I owe. And Hospital Bills Doctor Bills and all that shit has taken the money that I had saved up to get me and Kaz new computers. So we're gonna be anymore slower.


So yeah that's the low down.


Also thanks to an awesome friend with a Request I suggested. We got new Icons. F5 to see them.

Fuck man it's been FOREVER since I last been here. x.x

Sorry bout that everyone. My computer died. The screen on it with out and I had to get it replaced. Finally got it back a few weeks ago. But it seems to have gone even worse now... It loads and freezes and takes forever to pop up a page. And occasionally gives me the blue screen..

So other words. I am in need of a new Computer. As so does my Mate who's computer completely fried on her and was trashed. (Merely used as Shooting Target) But we're both fine. Just haven't been active here due to computers issues.

Also life as been.. Rough.. My uncle is back in the hospital again. Had an heart attack. We lost him twice. But he's in the emergency CPU for a month now.. He'll probably won't make it any longer as what the doctors tolds us.. And fuck man I've been stressed out probably worst if not for my Mate keeping on my toes and helping me out.

And little Lola has gotten bigger. The cast is off her arm and she's just been hyper fluff ball ever since and she has been helping out with my depression spells.

Not much to say.. So F5 Changed Icons. Also I got a Facebook. You can find me as Brendon Allen for those who might want to friend me. That is all.

Hope everyone has been well.

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Still gonna take the hiatus. It's only for a few weeks. Maybe shorter. Hell may not take it all.

But listen. Me and Brittani are still talking. We're still friends. And we patched up our friendship. I explained to her on my concerns and she understands. And she does want me to be happy.

But look it was a misunderstanding when I went to her account and saw it was disabled. I thought by doing that it's like deactivating your account. I was already stressed and tired from the lack of sleep so I didn't see what the message said and I reacted abit too quickly on it.

Yes I was hurt. But things have been talked out. Forgiven and forgotten. We're moving on from this. Me and Beautiful_Harmony are talking. She just wish to let things settle down first before moving on, on our next move.

So yeah. I was able to take a nap. I feel lighter now and less stress. I don't feel very much depressed anymore. And besides. My depression isn't all from what happened yesterday. Part of it is due to what this month is. Breast Cancer Awareness Month and as some of you may know. I lost my mom to this cancer when I was 11. Not only that my meds for Bi-Polar Disorder may not be taking effect anymore. So I got hit with a double edge sword of depression.

And my therapist had told me that the point of cause for my depression spells may be from being on the internet. I say it's a lot of bull. But still don't hurt to take that little break. Ok?

And besides. I am as much in the wrong as anyone else. She's hurting too. Along with me. But like I said. We've talked. We fixed these problems. And I love her as a sister. So please stop harassing her about the recent events.

She wants me to be happy. She wants me and Kaz to be happy together. And me and Kaz are most likely gonna date still. Just for now. We're gonna let things cool down. Clear our heads and move on. That is all.

And in all honesty I feel alot better now. So please don't worry about me? Ok. I'll be back in no time. Be sure of that. :3

I can't stand looking at FA at the moment.. Yeah I still feel like shit. But right now.. Everytime I look at this place I feel depressed..

I couldn't sleep lastnight cause I was so worried and concerned. And came on to check on things and well she left FA... I know she needs time to heal and all.. But I don't know.. So I am gonna take a leave.. Maybe that'll help me too.. I'll be back every once in awhile to check in.. But other then that. I am gone..

Hopefully by then I can feel alot better.. If not? Then I don't know what else to do... So yeah.. If you need me you can e-mail me here: SpikeFox85[at]gmail.com

So... See you all later..

Deleted my last Journal.. I still feel like shit. But I am feeling slightly better.

Thanks to and for helping me out.

Right now me and Kaz are just talking gonna let things settle down before deciding our next move.

But for now. Brittani thank you too. Glad we can fix things and still be friends. *hugs*

She is in serious need. She's being falsely reported for scam for failing to refund people. They don't seem to believe she is broke. I hate to say. But she is telling the truth. :/ How do I know this? Cause she gave me access to her PayPal since she's allowing me to use it for the time being. The money in there is my own. And I gave her that money to refund people. But it's still not enough.

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Ok so is in need of a computer repairs. (And or a new computer) so she can do commissions. She's also doing collab commissions with

So why don't you go and lend a hand? Help KontonAkuma fix up her laptop. Donate to her or spread word. Anything helps.

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Sorry for the extended leave. Got rained out on camping so we went up north more to a beach instead for 2 weeks. It was fun and sunny. Lola had fun too. She got to play in the water. And I wind up buying her a boggy board for her. She seems to love it. lol

But I am home now. Tired as fuck though. So gonna take a few days to rest up. My job is being demanding at the moment and I have a meeting with someone who may wants to move into the house Mrs. Jones had lived in. Even though the son is setting this up. I have been working on that house fixing it up and whatnot so I am needed there too. lol

So busy busy week. But I am back now again. Well start on commissions again soon. As said above. Need to rest up cause I was the one driving x.x And job and life is calling me. So once I get things settle down I'll start.

But I know in August instead of us going out traveling. We're having family members over. So I won't be active during that time either. So I may not be able to get back to work on commissions til September. We'll just have to see.

So with that said I am going to bed. Need a cat nap.

Gone Camping.

Bye!


Literately.. A firework malfunctioned in the tube it just popped out onto the ground and blew up and went everywhere. Everyone was dunking into the house behind cars and behind other people. While I the one sitting these things off get the full on blast. :/ My shirt. My fucking favorite shirt caught on fire on my chest. (It was small but still) and I now got 1st degree burns on my face arms and chest..

But we're still blasting off Fireworks! Having a Bonfire and everything til a moron of a teenager kid threw a firework in the fire. :/ Yeah no time to react with that one. At least it was a small fire cracker and not the big one.

But hey! HAPPY 4th JULY!

When I fiinally finished playing Last of Us and started working on Commissions before the 5th.

The new Walking Dead comes out.

Sorry guys. I'm a gamer at heart and shit man I want to play this :D

But gotta do commissions... But I want to play this game. And tomorrow I am being put to work gotta clean out Mrs. Jones' house so it can go up for rent. o3o;

Busy Busy Busy...

Didn't realized I be busy x.x I was hoping to get some commissions done before this week. But I have been so involved in the game Last of Us and... FUCK Man the feels in that game seriously tugs at the strings and makes you cry >> And then all the constant Birthday Parties we been going to attend too for my Uncle and his Sister and Brother. Who knew they are all a year two apart and yet born in June and July. O.o

And I was hoping to earn up some money to get a gift for my sis for her birthday in August. But I had no takers so and I be leaving in a few weeks.. So it looks like I won't be getting that gift for her after all. :/ So another lame art gift to her it seems. XP

See I was hoping to get her a custom made shirt for her birthday. Of her two OCs she has and loves. :3 I figured it be cool to get that for her. But I need at least $25 do so. And I am offering up Traditional Art for it as I can work on that while I am camping.

So if I get any takers before I leave I be happy. :3

But for now. I am leaving on the 5th this week to camp. When I return I'll TRY and finish up some commissions. x.x

That is all. Off to work on them now.

Ok so... Right as this moment I am gonna work hard to do Commissions. Get them finished before July 5th. As I will be gone for a full week going camping with my uncle. Then in August we gone for a few weeks in multiple states. As far I understand. My uncle wants to go see some known landmarks of where our family members may be at. Great Aunts Uncles Cousins etc. Basicly my uncle figured out how to work the computer and went on Ancestors.com and found out we have relatives that we didn't even known we had.

So far we know there is one in Georgia. Florida. Delaware. Colorado. And hell even over the seas which we won't be doing sadly. But I think we're only getting the ones nears us to meet them. :3 Sounds exiting. So I be traveling through out August. And I am leaving my computer behind so I can enjoy this time off.

So! With that I am gonna do what I can to get these commissions done asap so I won't have to worry about them on the way home. BUT! There is a small minor bump in this plan I want to do...

See birthday is in August. I have originally planned to help her get a fursuit head. But she decided to make one herself. So that flew out the window. See.. I known Crystal since 7th grade. She's one of my best friends. And we've grown to be like siblings. :3 She's like my little sister and I treat and love her as one.

Few years ago on my birthday she and few others had got me an awesome gift. A Motorcycle. She designed the ribbon and what not to be painted on their. Which I have to go back to South Carolina anyhow to get the paint fixed up >> May go this Friday. But anywho! For her to do that I was unable to get something in return..

Well I found something. Small as it is. But it's something she can have. :3 But all I need is $25 to get it for her. So I may do a Donation pool or do Sketches as I can get those done fast and all since I don't want to take in to many commissions before I leave. And I want to get this gift to her before she goes to see her mate for her birthday.

I already have something worked out for this that will be uploaded tomorrow. :3 That is all.

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• × • A B O U T Y O U R S E L F • × •
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- Name: Brendon Allen (Won't say my last name.. I hate it and am trying to get it changed to my mom's maiden last name. :3)
- Single or Taken: Single..
- Sex: Male.
- Birthday: Feburary 24th
- Sign: Pisces
- Hair Color: Reddish brown
- Eye Color: Hazel grey eyes
- Height: 6'0
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight

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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Axe Shampoo B3
- What are you listening to right now?: It's My Life by Bon Jovi
- Who is the last person that called you?: Mrs. Jone's son.
- How many buddies are online right now?: Not sure. It's a Sunday. Usually boring. But maybe 2 that I know of.

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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Animals: Foxes :3
- Color: Green and Black
- Drink: Pepsi
- Element: Flight. Would love to fly in the clouds.
- Food: COOKIES! :D
- Game: Last of Us at the moment XD Been playing it since I got it. And LOVE IT!
- Movie: Anything Horror
- Song: Clouds by Montgomery Gentry or Every Rose Has It's Thorn by Poison
- Subjects In School: Science, Art Class, Gym
- T.V. Series: Duck Dynasty
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given Anyone A Bath?: Does a Dog Cat and Rabbit count?
- Smoked?: Once. And hated it.
- Bungee Jumped?: Eh... No and not planning too.
- Made Yourself Throw Up?: When I was depressed I couldn't hold food down. So I guess?
- Skinny Dipped?: All the time!...No :(
- Ever Been In Love?: Yes...
- Made Yourself Cry To Get Out Of Trouble?: Nope. I was good kid. :3 Just troublesome and get into everything XD
- Pictured Your Crush Naked?: .... Eh.. I rather not say.
- Actually Seen Your Crush Naked?: No...
- Cried When Someone Died?: Yes.. I cried over my mom. And Cried over Mrs. Jones. Even though She wasn't blood related. But she became family to me.
- Lied: Yes.
- Fallen For Your Best Friend?: Yes...
- Used Someone?: Try not too. Hate the thought or feeling of doing that.
- Done Something You Regret?: Many times..
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: Black AC/DC shirt. And Faded out holely jeans.
- Desktop Picture: http://images5.fanpop.com/image/pho.....-1280-1024.jpg
- CD In Player: I don't remember. This computer ate the CD and I can't get it out and it no longer plays. ^^;
- DVD In Player: Too busy with Xbox...
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: Try to be.
- Open-minded?: Yes.
- Arrogant?: Try not to be..
- Insecure?: Kinda..
- Random?: Yes. ;3
- Hungry?: GIVE ME ALL YO COOKIES!
- Smart?: Meh.
- Moody?: Blame Bi-Polar..
- Organized?: Hmm.. *looks around messy room* Yep!
- Shy?: Can be at times.
- Difficult?: Some say I am.
- Bored Easily?: Yeah..
- Entertained Easily?: Yep.
- Obsessed?: MY COOKIES D:<
- Lazy?: Kinda XD
- Angry?: Easily to be pissed off. Yes.
- Happy?: I have a hyperactive pup that is so... AH! Cute! *cuddles with Lola*
- Hyper?: When I get drunk. >>;
- Trusting?: Yes.
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In The Morning I: Sleep til 3PM
- Love Is: Past...
- I Dream About: Cookies and Foxes... Honestly. I don't know. I don't remember them all.. And ones I do I wish not to speak of them...
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• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes You Laugh The Most: and
- Makes You Smile: Lola my 2 month old Border Collie~
- Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Him/Her: No one..
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit On The Internet All Night Waiting For That Someone Special To IM You?: Yes..
- Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex?: Nope
- Wish You Were Younger?: 21 would be good a age to stay at. lmao
- Cry Because Someone Said Something To You?: Nope.
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of Times I Have Had My Heart Broken?: Once...
- Of Guys I've Kissed: 0
- Of Girls I've Kissed: 1.. Was on the cheek. >>
- Of Scars On My Body: Honestly I don't know. But most are on my wrists..

With my shoulder healing. Taking care and house breaking a 2 month old puppy and the power outage. It's been quite time assuming. x.x

BUT! I am home now once again. Have Power. Shoulder is healing great! Gotta do some physical exercises to keep my shoulder up to strength to do work and what not. Since. Hey on a farm XD

Lola is doing great herself. We gotta go to the vets for a check up on her arm to see how it's healing. She's doing good so far. :3 Just being a hyper teething puppy. But She already knows how to sit and lay down. Still trying to train her to go outside to her buisness and to stay.

But her herding instincts is well intact as she likes to herd the chickens. Guess ya gotta start small somewhere XD

But things has calmed down alot. Lola is... Having fun with the kong we got her XD She's loving that peanut butter and stuffed treats. lmao So I am getting back to work on commissions and such. :3