Getting that art drive again, after a very long time away from making much of anything, so I've been trying to be more lively on this account.

The internet as a whole has been less and less appealing to me in recent months, and I fond myself digging through old "nostalgia" sites to avoid all the social media hell in the world atm.

I've recently done some spring cleaning of my account, mostly just moving a bunch of works to the scraps section because they're not really what I want seen on my main gallery. Some things that I really just wasn't vibing with anymore got straight up deleted but I don't think they were works that will be sorely missed.

Going through my old works, especially from when I was younger (underaged and stupid) really make me wonder how the fuck someone hasn't made a callout post on how problematic my content was. Some of the people who I had frequent contact with in the past *really* should not have been interacting with me like they were, and I honestly feel like if I were to go through all the people I was watching and watched me back then I'll probably find some really questionable individuals that I just don't wanna think about.

I'm also not happy with how open I was online back then. Lot of cringe roleplaying as Spook specifically, especially in my earliest posts. I kind of want to abandon and delete this account, my last account, and that dusty old nsfw one. To be fair I barely interact with this website anymore unless I'm looking for old lost media I made.

A fresh start may be better for me, but idk if I even have the drive to reset all my accounts on social media again.

My life has started to reach a level of lasting stability for the first time, I'm no longer living with a chronic hoarder, I'm no longer homeless, I've found a family that accepts and loves me, my job's not the best but they at least treat me like a human being, I have birds in my life who are also doing well, and I wanna keep improving in both art and life. I want to shed my skin of the hell I went through and projected growing up.

Am I back? Maybe.

It's been a long while furries of FA. 3 years, give or take. but I've found my password for this place again. Life's been a mess but is, kind of, settling down some now.

anyways, may upload some new stuff in the upcoming weeks, I've got a bunch of things that I've only posted tot twitter (and maybe furry Amibo) so far that need to be moved here.

nothing new going on lately, I live an uneventful life, I just needed to put a new journal up because the last one is really outdated.

Uhmmm, aside from getting a tattoo and Dragon Age for the Xbox one, there is nothing new to report on me.

I don't know if i've ever mentioned this before, but I've grown up with a fair amount of verbal abuse from my mother.
As a child it was ok, yelling was actually rare until we moved and everything kinda went to shit for my mom, it was a bad time financially and with her hoarding tendencies starting back up and me being a weird kid with A.D.D. going threw the awkward transition between child and teenager it was just a bad scene all around, and there are still some walls between us because of it (I'm not sure she's fully aware of it, if she is I think she tries not to be).
Anyways, i'm out now, and my mom and I have a far better relationship now than we ever did since we moved out here.

But even today yelling can be a pretty fucked up thing for me to deal with when sober. But tonight I did a stupid thing and got drunk with a co-worker and his friends who I hardly know and don't altogether have good opinions of (well really much of any opinions of), long story short his friend ends up driving us all home after I got stupid drunk (off of a shot and a bottle because i'm a lightweight) and my co-worker and I got in a heated argument over a movie I liked and he didn't. Now me being a stupid jackass normally, now X10 when im drunk ended up saying "Well then I guess we can't be friends anymore, I'm leaving" and took off my seatbelt and went for the door handle while the car was still moving.

I'll stop here for a moment to mention that I live a little out in the sticks where half the population of our town is old people who go to bed at 8:00pm, so there are no other cars to be seen or heard from at the hour we were all going back home, also Idk this is a joke my friends and I pull on each other all the time just to be jackasses, hell my mother (and my roommate's mother) have even made us open the door and slam it shut real quick while the cars moving whenever it's not shut tight enough (hell i've even done it on a highway (NOT RECOMMENDED, I was lucky)).

So the reaction I expected was maybe nervous laughs at worst, maybe some "you're a crazy motherfucker" looks, but full out rage yelling was not expected, like first his friend driving us got super angry at me and the rest of them joined in, telling me how stupid I was. I quickly apologise, clicking my seatbelt in frantically as they all continue to rage at my drunken stupidity.

It took everything I had to not cry in front of them, I was so fucked up over it and my drunken mind was not handling it well, my roommate thought something way worse happened to me when I got back because I was apologizing to everyone and I had a messed up look on my face with a weary tone I guess...

Idk to me that seemed like a total overreaction on their part. Maybe I've just grown up irresponsibly, I don't fucking know.... I'm never drinking with pricks I don't know as good friends again.

Shit fucking night.

or much art in general for that matter...

Been too focused on work, and Netflix since me and my roommate recently got that.

That's all, i'm tired. I'll eventually make more for sure, just not so much right now.

Funfact: I did absolutely nothing 20 years ago and starting existing on this date back in 1995! So now people have to celebrate my existance today!

Happy birthday to me! I am going to waste all my money on Halloween shopping today! HAH!

oh man where has the year gone? It's only 7 days until my birthday and I am totally not prepared to be 20 hoo boy. I am gettin' old.

In other news, I've started rewatching AHS: Coven, I never got to finish it the first time round so I'm gonna watch it all this time fo' sho'. Uhh what else... they were doing a showing of Devil's Carnival 2 in Toronto which I was super hyped about but sadly could go see because I've been pretty low on cash since I had to replace my old phone that decided to crap out on me after only 4 months :/

On the plus side I did get payed today and this weekend my roommate and I are going out to do one of my favourite things of the year, HALLOWEEN SHOPPING! Ahh this is what I love the most about my month, all the Halloween shit starts gracing the store shelves with it's wondrous presence!

I want to start streaming my art and I was wondering what programs y'all use to stream your stuff and if there's anything you'd recommend?

Switching my divided attention to deviantart for a bit because a little project I have going with a few friends has started up there again. I have submitted a couple pieces of work related to it about my character "Greed".

Greed is part of an ongoing webcomic called "Go to Hell" the first couple of pages are up now and you can see them here: http://starheavenly.deviantart.com/art/GTH-page-1-534870824?q=gallery%3Astarheavenly&qo=2

Also here is my deviantart so that you can see what non-furry stuff I've been up to recently: http://duskshadowdemon.deviantart.com/

Let me know if this comic interests you and if you'd like to see my work for it, it would be a change from all my furry work.

I made one, not much there right now
 krunkatrice

*Crawls out of a KFC dumpster bin* ....Whadda ya want ya piker? Huh? oh yeah I'm back now.

Wont be posting anything for a bit because I'll be at my old place for a week to look after things while my mother's away with work.
Might get a few traditional sketches done.

So I was going threw my Deviantart gallery late last night and I noticed that there is a bunch of stuff I uploaded there that I should have uploaded here as well.

A great deal of it has to do with Crow God and his creations the Saurvines. There are a few old Spook drawings as well.

I'm going to start uploading those now.

I'm going to release a new character in a day or two. I think it's safe to say that they are closely related to Crow God and will definitely fit in with his story, should I ever get that all sorted out.

I'm considering taking some time to actually do that soon. If I'm successful you'll start seeing a bunch more characters around here, plus an entire new species related to Crow God.

Lemme know how you'd feel about seeing some written work on here. I think that if I had my stories written out I'd be more likely to make them into comics afterwards.

In fact let me know if there's any character I have that you'd like to hear more about, I can safely say all of them have a hidden tale behind them.

I now have full access to a laptop during the day.

GUYS. I CAN DO THE DIGITALS AGAIN GUYS!
*CROWS*

So would anyone be interested in me reposing some of the better work from my last profile? You would have better pictures of Dusk and Dextra to look at I think.

Stuff about my fursonas (the important ones anyways)



Spook Rickit
-Cockatrice/Basilisk
-Genderfluid (mainly male pronouns)
-Asexual
-Canadian/Australian
Mood: Grumpy
Settings: A garbage dump near a heavily wooded area (Somewhere around Souix Lookout)
Hidden lore: Has a stomach mouth given to him by aliens

Dusk Shadow
-Hellhound
-Female
-Pansexual
-Northern Demon (Canadian accent)
Mood: Lazy
Settings: Cave with a small cabin built in. A bit a ways in a forest in a national park
Hidden lore: lives with a hellcat named Para'Doxx who, due to a serious of stupid decisions, got both himself and Dusk trapped in the Overworld. (Canada

Dextra is her half sister.

Dextra Kard
-Hyena
-Female
-Bisexual (but more of a lesbian at the end of the day)
-African/Mexican
-Mood: Sassy/Kickass/ Independent
Settings: Big urban city dweller, lives in an apartment above a club (Toronto City?)
Hidden lore: Is secretly a half demon (on her father's side).

Is Dusk's Half sister.


Will maybe do more later...

So hey my computers isnt gonna be fixed until my friend gets me the program I need, and who knows how long that will take, so I'm just gonna start uplaoding some of my sketchbook drawings most of them might end up in my scraps, well see.

Sorry for inactivity but my computer got a nasty virus and it'll take me a couple days to get that sorted, plus I'm trying to focus most of my energy on job hunting before I get kicked out of the house for not having one.

So you might not hear much of me for a while, I may post some updates later if I can.

Ta Ta for now.

Feel free to disregard this as I'm really only writing so I can settle my thoughts a bit.

I may be considered a jackass for saying this but can I not be in a relationship anymore? I can't stand it, I don't know if its the person i'm with (yes probably) or something in my head but I am just so done with this whole "love" thing.

It's not my place, I don't mean to say this in a sad way, but I don't have the compassion for a romantic lifestyle anymore. I no longer desire any form of sex with another person, I only really enjoy pleasing myself, and to be honest I feel safer that way. I see other people getting all upset over not being in love and I just fail to understand the need to be that dependent on another's affection.

Maybe it's just that I've become cynical and un-trusting but I'd rather focus my energy on something more productive and practical.

I enjoy peoples company, and sometimes I find intimacy appealing but no further then basic friendly intimacy.

*sighs* I'm unsure about a lot of things in my life, I feel less educated then I should feel and it frustrates things, I ramble too much and hide behind the small bit of logic I have been able to retain...

Another thing, why must people cling so even after the obvious rejection has happened? The one I am with now is not as foolish as most take him for, I know he isnt, so why is it when I flat out mention that I hate being in a relationship he changes the subject like I said nothing at all? Why dose he feel like I'm such a good thing to him when in all honesty I bring nothing to this relationship, I cold, I never pay for anything and am quick to reject gifts of any kind... I've even gone out of my way to be cruel to him at times as much as I hate to admit, and yet he still clings to me?

I'm sorry if anyone who reads this is jealous of me for whatever reason, but I honestly feel uncomfortable in a practically one sided relationship at this point in time.

Art trades! Art trades! Art for art! who wants to do one of those? I wanna draw some characters. Sorry no nsfw or anything fancy this round, I just want to do some body or headshots.

So yeah feel free to message me with pic's of your character if you want to do a trade and lemme know if you want full body or headshot.

I cant believe this! I'm so pissed about that whole End of the Line bullshit!

They had so much going for it and the map gets cut because it's, and I quote, "Too complex for casual players" I played the beta it was amazingly done and a hell of a lot more easy to figure out then most of the traditional maps!

That was basically a completely community created map and valve just fucking scraped it like that!

Unbelievable.

Fixed my computer, pro tip, never install Norton anti-virus

Anybody who I skype or play tf2 with should be noted that my laptop that I use is having major internet issues so for now it's safe to say I cannot skype or play till further notice.....