Will any of you be attending? [Daughter MoltenGold] and I are here for the weekend ^^ first convention haha. I thought about just hiding out, but changed my mind.

I will be at [GildedAshes/ViceKillX]'s table if you want to say hi! She is my bestie and one of the guests of honor (and also her work is fuckin rad, you should buy some). Also here with my buddy [BusinessWolf]

Just a little boost for this journal I made the other day! Wife and I are learning Arabic (Modern Standard) and it'd be cool to see if anyone watching me speaks the language ^^

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9957673/

Hi! This is maybe a strange journal, haha.

Wife and I started learning Modern Standard Arabic about 2 months ago, and I'm really enjoying the process! I grew up around a lot of Arabic so I'm already pretty familiar with it, this is just my first time trying to speak it properly. I feel like I'm past the beginner stage - I can read and write pretty okay, I just don't know a lot of vocabulary and I'm still learning grammar.

It has made me curious, though, do any of my watchers speak both Arabic and English? Any native speakers? I am not looking for a proper teacher or to pay for lessons, just someone to chat casually with (mostly in English, at least for now), to learn and practice ^^ You don't have to be super familiar with my work, but that would definitely help, since I think I'm a little boring otherwise LOL.

I don't have much to offer in return, except maybe help with English, if it's your second language. Or if you're an artist who speaks Arabic, maybe we could talk about art :)

شُكراً لَكُم

Edit: we're learning MSA haha. Forgot to say!

Just another reminder for this one! The coupon code is still up too ^^ Thank you so much to everyone who's gotten a copy so far, it really really makes a difference ♥

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9545857/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9545857/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9545857/

Hey guys ♥ First unique journal in a minute.

So, I finally started drawing teen/cub characters (after, what, 8 months? Jeeze), so I'll be posting that in the near future! But not here, since it's against FA's rules. It will be over on InkBunny.

You can expect both cute/fluffy and harder content, lots of dogs, lots of ferals; I like a bunch of different things and I already have a few very different stories I want to explore. From what I've seen, that site has a really nice tagging system, though, so I'll try and use that.

If you're interested in supporting me as I open this chapter in my work, as it were, you can send me an FA note and ask how to become a monthly supporter.
You'll get art updates as soon as they're available, WiPs, sketches, an archive of recent high-res files, and an invite to a private Discord server. Keep in mind, I draw plenty of things other than this, too! It's very important to me, but so are other subjects.

Otherwise, I plan to post as much as I can for free there, after a little while, just like everything else.

Thanks, everyone! Please stay safe!

Hey guys! After a few requests for bigger stuff on my Gumroad, I've spent the past couple weeks putting together a big pack of work from the past two years - stuff previously only available to monthly supporters. I'm pretty proud of it, and ready to start selling it ^^

It comes as one big pack, including all my single-image packs that were released earlier this year, for a much lower price than it would be to get them separately.

SpottyJaguar's 2018-2019 Big Pack on Gumroad

This year has been crazy, but thank you so much for your support on my shop so far. It really makes a difference for us <3

Stay safe!

It's 2020! I... pretty much dropped off the map with you guys, didn't I. Sorry haha.

In December 2019, I announced that I was leaving Patreon because the art I love to do isn't valued or protected by their guidelines, and although I was never reported, too many artists like me have been over the past year, so I knew I'd eventually get hit too. The stress of that waiting game killed my productivity and really hurt my relationship with my work, so I decided to leave before it got any worse.

I've been fairly quiet about my art the past year. I said in that journal I'd be exploring lots of different things throughout 2019, and I did post some of it, but I also didn't want to bring too much attention to myself, lest Patreon come down on me. Now that I don't have to worry about being "ad-friendly" for them, I want to properly embrace the kinky art I do.

- What happened

I have no idea what people know or have heard - I've had people tell me some interesting versions of events - since I took down the announcement itself a few days after I made it, so here are the two biggest things I announced.

- Fewer per-image content warnings

I'm going to move away from per-image warnings, and toward a single blanket warning on my userpage, website, etc. From now on, I will no longer warn for feral, incest, dubious-consent, and some non-consent, in the titles of my FA submissions. FA has no tag blocklist features, so if you don't want those in your inbox, you will need to unwatch me.

Gore and hard/brutal non-con are the exceptions. Not everyone wants to see giblets and suffering for breakfast, so they will still get warnings in the title haha.

- Exploring new themes

On top of everything I already draw, I'd like to explore two new things.

The first is the “trap” trope. I've had a trap character, Trish, for ages, so this is not actually new, I just stopped calling him that due to external pressures. In December, I said I wasn't sure if I would start using it in everyday speech, but after thinking about it, I've decided that I will. Trap characters are a specific gender-play fantasy; I like them, I like exploring my gender that way, but lots of people don't, and it's much harder for them to avoid it if I refuse to even say the word.

I've been told I should use "trans" or "intersex," instead, but those are not interchangeable with "trap." Trans and intersex people have worked hard to separate these words and concepts from trap fantasies, cross-dressing, herms, and so on - please stop encouraging me to not only undo their progress, but intentionally mislead people, by using them inappropriately.

If my characters are trans, rest assured, I'll call them trans. This character is not.

The second is young/cub characters and age-gap pairings. This is what most of the backlash was about. It's already present in some of my characters' backgrounds, but it's something I want to get further into; I like it. I think it's cute and fun and has a lot of potential for the stories I would enjoy telling. The chance that you'll see it if you don't actively look for it is very low. It won't be on FA, [since it's not allowed here anyhow].

- Backlash

When I opened up about all of this, I expected some backlash, absolutely - I'm very aware of the general consensus on themes like this - but what I actually got was a lot more than that. Here are some of the things that happened:

- Friends and colleagues of mine were harassed for following, knowing, or "defending" (in this case, not disowning) me
- Rumors were spread about me and my partners
- I received violent threats and death wishes
- At least two people bragged about reporting me to government agencies

And some other things I'm forgetting, I'm sure.

People also attacked my income by reporting one of the pages I was using to let people support my work, assumedly claiming that I have images of real minors (I don't), or that the work I want to do is illegal ([it isn't], [really], and [we shouldn't want it to be]), and I was locked down for about a month sorting that out, hence the disappearance here.

I've thought about what happened, and what I might do differently if I had the chance, but I also feel confident that this would have happened no matter what I did. The point of my announcement was so that people know about it, but, unfortunately, I've been so reserved about what I like and how I feel that many people projected their own values onto me. They had their own idea of who I was, and going against that made them feel personally attacked - a lot of people expressed feelings of betrayal, or said things like "I thought you were one of the goods ones," even though they didn't know me at all.

If you're one of those people, I get it. You don't need to justify how you feel, you don't have to like or forgive me, and I'm not going to try and convince you of anything (unless you ask me to, I suppose). You don't owe me anything.

I wanted to make this journal so people could know what happened, but beyond that, all I want is to move forward. I took a big financial hit, not to mention the time and energy spent, and it wasn't only stressful to me - the abusive tactics people used were traumatic for both my partners to witness. I feel like we've been through enough, that's all.

Thankfully, things are pretty much back to normal - making this journal was one of the last things I wanted to do regarding all this.

- Who I am

I draw, enjoy, and will stand up for taboo/gross/disturbing/"problematic" art and fiction. It has value, and I'm going to talk about it, both in a fun and smutty way, and in more somber and serious ways. The entire conversation is intertwined with my work.

I believe in empathy, patience, and compassion. I care about abuse prevention, and I think education and resources are what can make our community safer. Attacking art that makes us uncomfortable is not activism, to me. It does nothing to protect us or to stop people from inflicting or suffering pain. I've only seen it spread fear and shame, two incredibly damaging forces, and keep us ignorant and vulnerable to abuse. I don't know everything, and I don't claim to, I'm just doing the best I can with what I've learned so far in life.

I don't promise to be a safe space for you, or to do things the way you think they should be done. Only you can do that. I do promise not to dehumanize anyone, no matter who they are. That's just my line. Human rights aren't optional.

If you want to talk to me about any of this, then I would love to talk to you, too, even if you don't agree with me. AlI I ask is for patience and the benefit of the doubt - a bit of good faith. I'll give you the same.

- Supporting my work in 2020

I still plan to post a lot of my art publicly! However, I'm not going to be using Patreon - instead, I'm allowing people to support me directly in a few different ways.

If you like my work, you can always tip me with a with ko-fi, or buy something from my Gumroad shop. If you want to do even more, you can [send me a note] and ask how to become a monthly supporter. You'll get access to all the things I used to offer on Patreon - art updates as soon as they're available, WiPs, sketches, an archive of recent high-res files, and an invite to a private Discord server.

Even if you have no cash to spare (I can relate, haha), I would still love the chance to hear from you and thank you, if you think what I do is important, or has benefited you in some way. Just [note me], or get ahold of me some other way.

Despite all the bad in December, I met a lot of wonderful and kind people, and you are who I want to focus on, because you're the reason I have the opportunities I do. I love being an artist and I love this fandom, and I want to spread that positivity to others.

♥

Hey guys ♥ Bit of a different post.

This year has been incredibly rough for me, but I've quiet about it, so I wanted to write a public post to fill you in. If you're super new to my work, this might not mean much, but if you've followed me for a while, it may give some insight.

You can find it here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/29441430

I'm nervous to post this, but I want to be more open, especially to you, the people who follow and support me. The post is pretty long, so if you can't read it right now, know that we're okay. There's good news at the end, just lots to cover first.

No matter what you do, thank you, just for being here and for letting me share my art with you ♥ I'd be nowhere without you.

Hi FA! ^^

I've been really wanting to find some local friends this year... So I thought I'd try putting out some feelers.

Are any of you in the Midwest US? Specifically Northern Indiana, where we are. If you don't mind some driving (I don't have a car), then Indianapolis, the Chicago area, southern Michigan, or west Ohio might also work!

I dunno how lucky I'll be with this, but won't know if I don't try!

If you read this and you're nowhere near me, then I just hope you have a nice day ♥

Wooh!

This one is a bit different - no mic, and no cam. Instead, I'm listening to some episodes of the Radiolab podcast. I've never listened to them before, so it may be real/adult/upsetting without warning. Listen at your own risk, or keep the stream on mute, play your own tunes, and just watch me draw!

Doing a little picture for patreon, then working on the daki in the preview.

https://picarto.tv/SpottyJaguar

Hi FA!

I'm in the market for a new graphics card, and considering getting one used hand as opposed to new. I already have a GTX 970, but since I plan to get a display tablet later this year, and already have 2 monitors, I want to make sure I've got the power to drive all of that! I was originally after a 1070, but I think the 1080 is a better value.

Anyone have a GPU they don't need laying around?

On Amazon I'm seeing them for $575 or more, but second-hand I'm seeing them for more like $400, so I'd like to value one around there. Of course in good, working condition.

In return, I would happily do some art for you! Something like the sketches I opened for in this post. If you can take 100% art, I might do two sketches ($500 value), OR add simple color to a single sketch. Otherwise, I can probably do one sketch + the difference in cash. I'm trying to avoid 100% cash.

This is very different haha, and maybe a long shot, but I thought I would give it a try! I've bartered before, but not specifically for a GPU.

I might take this down in a week or two if I can find a good cash deal. Edit: I think I have an offer, actually! Thank you everyone for looking :)

Either way, thank you for reading! Hope you're having a good Sunday ^^

First stream in a million years! Goin SOLO, and I've even go the cam on ♥ Come hang out while I work on miscellaneous stuff~

https://picarto.tv/SpottyJaguar

❗ This journal contains mentions/descriptions of sex, violence, abuse, and other potentially disturbing things ❗

So 2018 was pretty transformative for me! I started medication, improved my work ethic, [Namiin] and I added a new partner to our lives (hi [Skott]!) and had him visit us, I hit some roadblocks, I started socializing on Twitter and FA more... so many things! I learned a lot about myself.

One of the biggest changes was to my desires as a creator. I want to add much more variety to my art, especially my porn art. New kinks, darker themes, some weird and uncomfortable things... I've limited myself for a long time to what I thought others wanted to see, but instead, I would like 2019 to be the year for I want to see. By 2020, I hope to be a very different artist.

This journal should give you an idea of what this change means, the things I want to do, how I want to do them, and if you can avoid things you don’t like. I also talk about why, and link to some sources.

By the end, if you stay to watch me develop some of these things, then that’s really cool! If you’d rather unwatch, also cool. Whether you’re a recent watcher, or you’ve been here for years, it’s your choice - all I’m doing is giving you the means with which to make it.

What I'm doing

To be clear, everything I already do in my art, I’m going to continue to do! I'll never get rid [Paige], for instance, and he’s always going to be a good boy with a fluffy story. I have some other cute characters I'm working on, too. I’m just expanding my horizons.

Here are the new things I'll be exploring, listed in no particular order.

• Ferals/animals - Pokemon, [dragons], and eventually regular animals like dogs and horses. Both on their own, and with anthros and humans.

• Incest - [Brooke] and the [Hux twins] are both exclusively into siblings; I might do other flavors later.

• Different bodies/genders - Interchangeable, multiple, or fantasy genitals. Some of these characters are transgender, some aren’t. Some of these will feature terms like cuntboy and dickgirl, some won’t; I’m trans, and I like them, but I decide based on the individual character's personality.

• Dubious consent and non-consent - Characters in sticky situations. From love potions and hypnosis, to role-play/consensual-non-consent scenes, to predators and serial rapists who use manipulation, threats, and force.

• Violence and gore - Some consensual, some not. Fighting, biting, knife...ing. Blood, but probably not guts. Oh, did I mention that [Blaine] is a cannibal...? I might also draw snuff, I’m not sure.

• Trauma, mental illness, and abuse - Characters either having a bad day, making sure others do, or both. Some are working on it, some aren’t. Some of this is very sexual, some isn't. Blaine has a stalking/psychological terror arch later in his story; the Hux twins have a complicated past, etc.

I originally had my character [Trish] in this list, since I was referring to him as a "trap." After [doing] some [research], I won't be, and so I’ve removed him. I'm using [otokonoko] and [honeypot] instead.

❗ While I’m here, remember that some of these things may be fun in fantasy, but they can be damaging in real life. It’s porn, not a manual! ❗

Tagging, blacklisting, and thumbnails

I’ll go back through my gallery and tag stuff as I can. Going forward, I'll use the following systems

On FA

Until FA adds tag-filtering, I’ll have broad warnings in the submission titles. Keep an eye out, or use the Filter Affinity addon ([Chrome]/[url=https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/an.....ty/][Firefox][/url]) to hide things automatically. It even works in the beta layout.

I’ll tag feral, incest, non-con, gore, and snuff this way. Example: [Non-con] Rough Night

Filter Affinity also scans the beginning of descriptions, where I will sometimesbe more specific. Try blocking things like “father/son” or “anthro on feral,” and it looks like it should catch most things, including variations like “father and son” and “anthro x feral.” However, I CAN’T guarantee this part. I might forget, or the filter could miss it for some reason or another. Mind the titles first, test the rest yourself, and use your judgment.

For most (not all) gore and snuff, and for some (not all) non-con, I'll also upload a cropped version of the image, and link to the full one in the description.

On Patreon

Only non-con, gore, and snuff will get explicit warnings. Ferals, incest, and everything else will not.

June 2019 edit: I probably won't post this stuff directly to Patreon, actually. You'll find it in the new discord.

On Twitter

Similar to Patreon. For non-con, gore, and snuff, I might switch between two methods. I'm leaning toward uploading two versions of an image - one blurred, with the warning written on it, and one that's totally unblurred. I may also upload only a blurred version, with a link to the full piece on FA or somewhere else. Still figuring it out.

Why this change?

I find these things interesting! That's really the core of it all.

I enjoy that fiction allows the freedom to be anything or anyone, to learn, to heal, to challenge ourselves, and the endless possibilities of “what if.” I mix sex in with these subjects because, for me, they’ve often gone hand in hand.

I was torn about doing this for a long time. If I could; how I should; freaking out when I finally decided that I would, haha. I think many people are nervous that this “problematic” content, especially when sexual, will encourage abusers, or trivialize victims, or that only dangerous people like it. However, after over three years of reading, researching, and talking at great length with my psychologist (20+ years experience), this seems not to be true in the majority of cases. People who do harm to others probably do have fantasies about it, but having fantasies is not what causes us to do harm, and while some may never feel like there’s value in dark fiction, there is at least evidence that it’s not as harmful as others claim.

In contrast, pretending that dark fantasies aren’t a natural part of being human can lead to harm. Only allowing “good” fantasies, and condemning “bad” ones, can breed guilt and shame, and conflating fantasy and reality can make us blind to issues we need to address.

Here are some sources on these topics: [1] - [2] - [3] -  [4] - [5] - [6] - [7]

At the end of the day, I don’t want to be only a horror artist, nor only a porn artist, but a mix of both. Things that are frightening or uncomfortable can often be arousing and irresistible as well.

Also, let’s just call a spade a spade. Villains are hot.

Will you do it on commission?

Yep! Commissions are closed currently, other than occasional sketch slots. If you nab one, you can ask for stuff from this list - if it's a really hardcore idea, just run it past me first I guess.

Support

If you not only want to watch me, but feel particularly jazzed about this stuff, then you can check out my [Patreon], and get a front-row seat. Almost all my art ends up on FA and Twitter anyway, but $1 Patrons get some extras, exclusives, and early access. You can give me art suggestions, vote, and help me develop my characters.

Thank you!

In the beginning of last year, one of my goals was to create characters and tell stories. Looking back, I can see that I was searching for what that meant for a long time... I guess it only clicked a few months ago. Only very recently does it actually feel achievable. I'm very thankful for everyone who was supportive and encouraged me while I figured it out.

That said, I still don't know everything, so I’m open to input. I've already stumbled a little, and 'm sure I will again. When I do, I just want to use it as an opportunity to learn, so I hope people will bear with me while I, uh work out the kinks.

Sorry, had to.

Comments are disabled, but if you want to talk to me, you can note me on FA with [this link], or [DM me on Twitter], or [e-mail me] I would love to hear from you.

♥

Long time no see!

2018 is coming to an end! And it hasn't gone the way I wanted it to, haha.

I have done some soul-searching and found many things I want to change, but actually changing them has gone a bit slowly; my friends and I have been calling this the year of infrastructure, because we're not making the big and glamorous changes we imagine so much as we're setting ourselves up for that with lots of smaller ones, and man is it a grind sometimes. The biggest change I made this year was around August, when I got on some medications for ADHD, and I'm simultaneously so thrilled I finally did that, and kind of mad I didn't do it sooner, haha.

Very recently I made another breakthrough, finding ways I can do better in my work and personal life, and get where I want to be, and having started that earlier this month, I'm already really happy about how things are going. Sleeping better, interacting better, working better, all that good stuff. I feel so much more capable now, and I'm making plans again, and I think 2019 is gonna be a good year for me and mine!

But I'm making this journal because I realized that... my social life has been kind of non-existent! I hang out in streams, and I've gone back and forth with a couple people who like my work, and that's all amazing, but beyond that I've been so off the map, it's unreal. I feel like the next step in making my life better is pushing myself to make some real connections with you guys, the fandom in general and also my audience. My Patreon has been a big step this year in doing that, but I just want to go further with it, and to start putting myself out there again.

I'm pretty out of practice, so... How do you think I could do that? How do you like to interact with artists? What social stuff do you like to see from them?

I've been making some characters, and a world/setting for them, and building that up has been a lot of fun. People seem to like Paige, my dalmatian, and now I have a whole cast of dogs haha. Do you like learning about the characters and worlds artists make, beyond the art itself? Should I share more of that?

Group chats seem popular, but they're a little intimidating for me, so I'm saving that til next year. But I'm really enjoying twitter! I've been sharing some character stuff there, like my newest dog Brooke.

I'm also still streaming, on Mondy and Friday, and I love meeting you guys and talking there, especially the past few weeks. That's exactly what I want to build on.

... Sorry for so many questions haha! I guess I missed you guys. I've been meaning to make this journal for a long time.

If you don't feel like entertaining the questionnaire, then I'd love it if you just tell me something about you! What's something cool that happened to you this year? :D

Thanks ♥