Hey folks! So recently I’ve gotten a free laptop that has a wider screen and it doesn’t have a broken screen. It was a Chromebook and when installing Steam, yeah I couldn’t because the Chromebook was a beta. Beta of what exactly, idk <_>

Now yes I can finally do stuff privately (drawing my usual stuff), but not having Steam is something I won’t accept. There is a website that I can download Steam games, but here’s the thing, some of them won’t work. Here’s three games that I know won’t work

1. Garry’s Mod: What is the most common place to download mods? In the Steam Workshop. Some if not all mods are only in the workshop, so that sucks

2. Epic Mickey Rebrushed: I played through the game and after activating the projector to Ostown, it crashes the game. So that sucks also

3. Halo Master Chief Collection: It’s just not in the website. Suicide Squad Kill the Justice League is in the site, but not Halo MCC. I have no words @w@;

So yeah I’m sticking with my old broken screen laptop that’s hooked up to the tv until the tax money comes and I can get the house

(Like seriously you expect me just to play old flash games and emulator games with that computer? Hell no) >w<;;

So yesterday might’ve been a great day. To make it short, 50% was Fnaf, Poppy Playtime, Minecraft combined with a Sonic Racing game

But besides that, I’m getting the motel room back. Yes after Fnaf Secret of the Mimic, Sonic Racing CrossWorlds (Cream is a racer), Kane Pixels made a new Backrooms video, and the Minecraft mod Fnaf Management Wanted is getting updated and the people behind it is gonna make a Poppy Playtime mod. Yeah let’s just say yesterday was the best ^_^

And yes I know this’ll probably happen again, but as long as the huge tax money returns on March, no more being homeless /w\

So that was the update and I’ll make something Foxy and Roxy related once I get the room back ;3

I want to kill myself. This is the eighth fucking time and it’s not funny. It’s sad and pathetic.

I’m just gonna have a link to have money sent. If you cared, send some money and maybe I don’t have to die from the freezing cold. Yeah moving out isn’t bad enough, now I gotta stay warm too. Because my life WASN'T FUCKED ENOUGH ALREADY.

Here’s the link to a PayPal. Send whatever and maybe I’ll get a home and- oh fuck it God is a bully, and not the lovable one.

Bkfdgoddess1977[at]gmail.com

Hello. How are you doing today? Had a nice breakfast? Playing that Poppy Playtime chapter 4? Or are you enjoying life with your family?

Well… there’s one family member that I would like to expose and sent to jail. You might’ve remembered that post about my mother along with the story The Rabbit and Wolf. They all have something in common, an abusive mother.

Once she pisses me off one more time, I’m showing her full name to expose her. When she talks to people, I yell out “She hit me when I was a child!” yet they’re as dumb as cavemen. Hitting a child on the face, a 4 year old, is the dumbest thing a parent would ever do. You know what happens when you hit a kid? They’ll have mental issues.

Which. I. Have.

My life was a nightmare from point A all the way to point B. 4 to 23. But no. I’m done playing nice. I’ve had just about enough of this abusive beer drinking lung smoker piece of shit. Justice needs to be served and if that can’t happen and the law can’t help, then fuck my life.

The image (two) I’ll be making will be digital and it’ll have the wolf you all love, Chason hurt. But with the second, it’ll be the same, but Fem SB and SB.EXE attacks the beer drinking cunt rag before she could lay a fucking finger.

This wouldn’t happen, but I didn’t asked to learn what “shut up” meant or have a “trustworthy” babysitter to drown me at a very young age.

Before you ask how I made this. I’m literally in front of the door that has good connection. So yes I’m in front of the door with my phone with Wifi connected. You can blame the owner of this motel for this random logic -w-;

Anyway yeah recently my charger just stopped working now. Yeah the only saving grace is now fucked. Like a stubborn child, it shows that it’s plugged in but it’s not. What is this a computer or Sonic Free Riders? (for a little context, when you say something like “next”, it knows what you’re saying and shows it, but it refuses. Yeah it’s basically that >w<;;)

(Update on the computer)

Charger works. But the computer is basically useless because of a motherboard or RAM issue. Black screen with caps lock blinking lights. 5/3

Will I draw and post them? Yes. Will I do commissions still? 10 dollar ones yes because my hand will fall off if I try to color. And will I ever get an actual new life once I get out of this motel? Pray for Angel Gabby yes

Okay good news, I'm getting a new laptop so I'm able to go back and actually draw stuff on the computer. And maybe make a little project with it ;3

Also. I'm getting it for free so I don't need to spend money on buying a new one ore fix the screen. Which is good because I'm saving money to watch the third Sonic movie <w> (expect a picture of it along with a certain other movie that released X3)

After I post this, I'm gonna make a post that talks about Valve and the garbage series, Skibidi Toilet. You'll see why >w<;

Lastly tomorrow I'm reposting The Rabbit and Wolf Chapter 5. It was originally going to be posted on the 22nd and the cover of it has 22 in the darkness. So I'm going to give it a little update and repost it ;3

(update on the computer thing)

Yeah nvm the computer I was gonna get a old computer. No USB or whatever -w-;

So... I fix the whole computer issue. But here's the problem. Multiple problems

1. I'm using a tv. That's not the issue, the issue is that it's above the desk and my neck can't stick up like that forever

2. My eyes suck so I can only see tiny words unless I use my phone's camera to zoom

3. My mother (the one who fucked my life and mental health) is in the room with me. You really want her to see what I do? Fuck no

So yeah no commissions, no chatting to friends, nothing. I don't know what's worst, no computer or someone in the room seeing your stuff while having a broken neck along with bad eye sight

This. Is. What. Happens. When. People. Trust. The. God. Damn. Mother. Fucking. Wifi. Too. Much.

No. More. FUCKING WIFI!!!

Seriously this is what happens when you rely on this piece of shit! It's a useless piece of code only useful is to go onto the internet and NOTHING ELSE

Yes. I have anger issues, but is that really my fault if my bitch of a mother slapped me in the face permanently fucked my brain when I was 4? No!

So this will be my last message until I get the screen fixed or get a new laptop. Honestly I would kill myself because I would rather be fucking dead than living in a world where the people rely on wifi.

I don't care if it's vore or whatever, just please pay me. I can't do anything online and I'm struggling further than beyond with this wifi I'm still using. Contact someone you know who's interested a commission or two from me, just get me off my feet so I can live happily

25 fucking dollars for a whole colored digital image. 20 is okay

Alright gotten a new PayPal account and commissions are open again ^_^

Still can't do $10 or $15 sketches because the wifi is Action 52. Broken and never fixed @w@

Remember that Taingle image how someone took my drawing and made it better and put it up on YouTube? Well it happened again apparently @w@

I was informed that the Kait in the Scream Extractor picture was uploaded to YouTube. Ya know they could've used my Starved Afton or Paralysis Demon Klonoa pics for Fnf concepts, but nope. <_>

Now I would go and tell them to at least credit me, but ya know. I want to be normal on YouTube and not have my kinks up. I have posted my normal pics on YouTube, but that was because some kid stuck his nose in where they shouldn't. After I linked them to the post of my normal pics, they didn't reply (So I win), but besides that I want NON of my fetish stuff on YouTube besides the archived pictures by other artists

And what was the point of saying that? Simple. People search for evidence like bugs in your house or your annoying sibling to expose you

Heya! So I got bad news, good news, and bad news about commissions

Since the wifi barely connects to my phone, I can't do sketches so no 10 or 15 dollar comms. Bad news ):

The PayPal I'm using will be replace with my own, so I won't be using my sister's. Good news :3

But that means I can't do commissions at all because somethings up when money is being sent. Bad news ):

Yeah it sucks that the only thing to earn money from my talent is pulled to a stop, but hey sooner or later things will be up and ready before you know it ^_^

(also unrelated I'm making another TRaW chapter. It's related to the spanking commissions) ;3

If you remember my top 10 worst Fnf songs, I mentioned NotMK. A game that I kid you not, was made on Scratch. The one I played was a unofficial Fnf mod <w> (which I forgot that the Triple Trouble song doesn't have those stupid poison mushrooms) -w-;

Now why am I talking about this game again? Well just look at this

https://www.deviantart.com/jmcchann.....AST-1118320129

Yeah that's a huge ass character roster, hell it might be as big as Smash Bros Ultimate with the DLC fighters 030

This is coming very soon and I can't wait to play as many Sonic.exe characters. Idk about Needlemouse because in the unofficial game, she along with Hotel Mario (yes) were replaced. I hope she wasn't scrapped in the actual game. That would suck (tho we might get a retake design by JMC, but who knows :T)

Oh yeah and one of theses Mario exes is based off of the Grin Gill enemy from Super Mario Galaxy. The most terrifying thing that scares the hell out of me (even to this day) @w@;;;

I'm porting a Prince Fluff MMD model (to see if using ragdoll bones could work) and I swear Crowbar is giving me a dumbass excuse almost all of the time.

I followed this (which is how I ported the jet hat) and I matched it with the name of the model which is just called Collection in Blender

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5UK.....cXc&t=307s

The issue is the name of the smd file itself, Collection.smd. There's three of theses smd named that and there's two issues with this problem. 1: Which fucking one and 2: What problem? I swear there's a spirit preventing me to give Gmod players models that are in SFM, MMD, and whatever. I'm trying to do a good deed here and Crowbar and Blender (plus the tutorials) are kicking me in the balls to stop whatever I'm doing

Use this video and try copying it

https://youtu.be/KUmIKWVrHZU?si=A0eGsPHqqOyM31Gf

And here's the model. Be sure to set Blender at version 3.6 or the model won't show

https://www.deviantart.com/sab64/ar.....load-760556289

I've gotten half way through the video and somehow I fucked up. This would be easier if this was Gmod where you add blocks, make a figure, use the joint tool, boom ragdoll. Simple and easy -w-

Honestly If I took the ragdoll physics from a MewTwo model, would that fix it? God I hope

You probably didn't noticed, but there's now a seventh rule on my home page in the description. The rule is that the characters like Sophie, Chason (young and adult), Teen Cream, my egos, BlueBerry Bee, Julius the bunny witch, and such can get fan art with credit :3

You can simply ask and what you want to do with them. Just don't put the young Chason in gross stuff. T_T

The reason why I'm doing this is because I kinda miss of having someone using one of my designs for their work. Teen Cream was used in a wedgie story (which funnily enough is the same story that made me create her XD). So I kinda want the characters I made to expand for people to enjoy ^_^

Due to fucking Discord not functioning properly. Basically the window where you login is just a grey screen and that’s it. I had to restart my computer because of it and I realized that I didn’t save my redesign of my Sonic.exe.

I don’t know if this is a bug, but if it is, Discord needs to fix it and pay for my medical bill. Let’s just say I won’t be using my hand for awhile from all the wall punching I did -w-

I’m addressing awareness of a big brain lover who is a racist incel. A friend of mine gave me info about a user but I’m keeping private. If he or she or whoever is reading this.

Racist people will be permanently banned. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY likes racism in this world, including myself.

Heya folks! So I got two things that I want to talk about. Firstly to Oct 1st to 31st, I'm making randomly picked Sonic.exes being controlled by my exe (If you want to know, here's a link to my Sark image and just go to the bottom of the description) ;3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58049166/

And secondly, the massive elephant in the internet room. Nintendo -w-;

Yeah Nintendo was hitting pretty hard everyone recently and I think it's about time I bring my "Nintendo may have saved video games but are heartless to their fans" thing >w<;

This'll be similar to my Theft King discussion, but with a big company. I grew up with Super Mario All-Stars when I was young, but honestly Sonic Unleashed showed me a new path that I've been taking to this very day

Fan games, emulators, I guess the Gmod thing (still think it's Aaron), and the stuff Nintendo has done that was pretty fucked up. Oh and the joycon issue that they refuse to fix -w-;

So yeah that's all I need to say and get ready to see some Sonic.exe take over other exes, you'll be getting three because it's almost the next day <w>;

Yup you heard that right. The same people who fucks up Fnf mods, Pibby, Poppy Playtime (mainly Smiling Critters), Fnaf, Inside Out, and other stuff I don’t care are back and it hasn’t been that long -w-;

After making a Pou video (I swear humanity was a mistake), they made content slop of their own game on Roblox. Do not ask because it’s best not to question it <_>

So after going through Twitter, I saw two posts showing Player (the BF fraud) and MaxDesignPro. Yes two content farm channels united in one video @w@

Basically it’s another Fnf video but with Twittlefinger involved. They didn’t touch Mario’s Madness or Silly Billy, but thank god they’re staying away from them because imagine the amount of hate they would’ve gotten >w<

So tomorrow (or later since it’s 1AM right now), I’m making yet another Everything Wrong With post <w>

But! Since it’s Twittlefinger related, I’m actually changing things up since I don’t care about the mod or the fandom surrounding it (or the porn lovers who made MaxDesignPro art and yes there’s MaxDesignPro porn what the fu-), so expect a picture with Ultra M and Silly Billy (Lookalike) laughing evilly at Twittlefinger getting GameToon’d X3

(If I jinx myself by mentioning two great mods getting GameToons videos, I’ll punish myself with whatever image I’ll draw. No take backs)

Yay more bad news.

Due to not having enough space on my computer (and my computer being a massive asshole after deleting a few things), no more art. Ya think by now we have a infinite storage for phones and computers, but no we all can't have nice things

It's probably why I'm doing Patreon because I can't afford anything, let alone a new storage/USB drive

Life is like a bully. Every time you tell them to fuck off, tell someone, or going somewhere else, the bully still follows you where ever you go. It's bullshit and NOBODY should be treated like this

In better words. Fuck my life.

Yeah remember how I complained about Wifi being a pain in the ass? Yeah it’s worst and it’s preventing me to send pictures to my friends
-w-

If you were one of my commissioners who use Discord for private commissions, I’m sorry. But don’t blame me, blame the manager who can’t buy a new fucking router as a replacement 7_7

Okay I think I figured it out. The texture for the Jet ability IS with the model. As in the material was bundled with the model :3

But there was another issue I'm trying to fix. The material is invisible <_>

So after I get the texture properly fixed, then every other Kirby ability, Kirby's warp star, Giygas (from Beginning), Nightmare Klonoa, Lolo, and others will be ported for everyone to enjoy ^_^

And about that qc command thing. Screw it and pretend it wasn't mentioned (until I port other models with textures)

I'm still trying to figure out the texture thing for the Jet hat for Kirby and I found a solution. But it doesn't explain on what I need to do like "Rename "Something_1" to whatever texture you want the model to have." Nothing says it like that -_-

Look I'm not very smart on this and if anyone is a model maker on this site, please help me in notes. I want to port MMD stuff because they're greedy asses hogging the good models and maps from Gmod users like us

Here's a link to the QC commands and I'm doing textures

https://developer.valvesoftware.com.....ry:QC_commands

(Seriously I want this explained very simply as possible. It's why you haven't seen that King of Sorrow model posted in the workshop yet)

Welp the day is almost here. 10 years of Fnaf. God I was 12 years old when Fnaf 1 came out. I wasn’t technically a teenager yet 030

We’ve gotten a lot of stuff from the 1st to the 7th. MyPopgoes, The Joy of Creation demo, the V.I.P visual novel, the Scott interview 2.0, the collab, the Steel Wool announcement, and not only Five Laps at Freddy’s (needs patches >w<;) and Into The Pit game. Japan got the game early, that’s why <w>

But to replace something on the 8th, Scott will make something special ;3

Now what does this have to do with the title of the journal? Well simple. I’m posting my 6 Fnaf pictures! Tho I’ll only post them one at a time for you folks to see ;3

First thing at 12AM, the first image will be posted and it’s the one you already saw. The teaser and the original ;3

Get ready for Freddy and his gang, along with new characters you haven’t seen yet ^w^