Hey peeps! Lately, I've been very concerned about Internet data usage. FA absolutely EATS data (and drains some battery). Skype, not the other hand, consumes MINIMAL battery AND MINIMAL data usage as well as being an IM and all that good stuff. Skype is easy and simple and everything I love. It will be my primary way of contact. Sadly, FA is only secondary. I do however, have some peeps who are FA only peeps, which is why I still use FA today.

So I encourage you all to contact me through Skype if you can! ^^
I appreciate it if you would help me out here! ^^

This is the Mew (I'm still a Mightyena though) signing out! Belly rubs?

GUESS WHAT EVERYONE?!?! I FINALLY GOT ME AN IPHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After 4 1/2 years of working with Apple's shitty iPods and crappy Macs, I finally have the ONE thing they are good at making! iPhones!!! This one is a 5S, so it is only temporary, but I'll use it in place of my iPod Touch 4th gen. 32 GB. This phone was (I believe) free, since my dad's work provides the phones. I cannot transfer my photos, since I have 8.1 GB worth of those, and the iPhone is only 16 GB. I'll transfer photos after I get an iPhone SE. Sure I'll have to pay 20 bucks for iCloud storage, but it'll be more than worth it!

Wait...why did I ask you to guess? IT'S IN THE FLIPPIN TITLE!!!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!! A STABLE MOBILE DEVICE I CAN CALL WORTHY!!!!!! SO HIT ME UP WITH SOME SKYPE MESSAGES!! ...............CUZ I CAN ACTUALLY GET TO THEM FOR ONCE!!!!!!! *shot*

NOPE! STILL HYPER-ACTIVE LIKE A CERTAIN HUSKY NAMED SNOWY!!! (Lordofthesword321/lordofthesword123/...whatever his FA username is, I'm referring to you) oh! And I'm acting like my OC, Scarlet, too! She's got enough energy to power a whole city for Lupus knows how long?! AND STILL BE FULL OF ENERGY!!!!! *pants and transforms into a Mightyena*

WISH THIS MIGHTYENA- I mean...MEW SOME HAPPINESS!!! (Though technically, I can be any Pokémon or any creature I want to be, being a mew and all...hehe! So many forms! So...belly rubs?)

This is the male anthro mew- err...male feral Mightyena (I guess) signing out with some paws full of fun stuff to do! See/chat with you very soon! ^^^^^^^^^^^

GIMME DONUTS AND MORE SUGAR!!!!!! SUGAR RUSH!!!! I mean...gimme some meat and bones to gnaw on! Woof!

Last one in is a rotten exeggcute! *leaps in a lake and doggy paddles, panting happily*

GOD FUCKING DAMN SHITTY ASS-BITCHY LIFE HAS HIT HARDER THAN ANY SUMMER EVER!!!!!!!!!!

no grades are an A- or better, one is a D, some are Cs, others are Bs. WHY?!?!? To make things worst, my dad wants me to read this summer....WHY?!?!? "IF I WANTED TO READ AND MAKE SCIENCE PROTECTS, I WOULD'VE GONE TO DUMB SUMMER SCHOOL!!" THIS IS SUMMER!!! MY SUMMER!!! I NEED A BREAK!!! My brain needs this summer! Ugh....WHY ME?!?!?!? WHY?! WHYWHYWHYWHWYHWYHWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHWYWHYWHWYHWHWHYHYWHYWHYHYWWHYHYWHYWHYWHYW!? WHHHYYYYYYYYYYY!??!?!!?!?!???!!?!?!?!!?!??!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?!
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I'll spill more beans to you guys one YESTERDAY later when I have the time...gotta do my F*ing chores.....please excuse my language today...I feel as is the internet is to blame..........

Hey everyone! It’s now been 2 years ever since I got banned from dA…I often seem to look at pics on my iPod touch from me dA era and get myself filled with nostalgia…wishing those days back…wishing and wondering when I’ll be unbanned from deviantART, or if I’ll ever get unbanned. I’ve made a promise never to violate the rules of the site EVER again and still…no. I have made a couple of personal songs/poems about being banned form dA. I have never really bothered to post or share them with anyone, including my family. I kinda keep them so I can just…I guess to sulk in my own suffering. Deep inside, I want to be back on dA, and enjoy the easy interface. I feel as if I may get unbanned, yet at the same time I feel as if I’ll never be unbanned…I really I don’t know if I could EVER handle that truth…back in those days, I would go through a hard day at school, with something to look forward to. That “something” was the ability to get on dA and chat and roleplay, as well as add submissions to my favorites, as well as submit my own stuff and receive feedback…comments…growing closer with my friends that I made on there…roleplaying with them…I would just sit there and reload the message center until I got a reply. If nothing, I would sometimes take that time to reply to a visitor message over on Serebii forums. Sometimes, a roleplay on dA would inspire an idea for a story…and someone on there I roleplayed with did just that. I told him this and he was interested. Now he says that he doesn’t even remember me…which is one of the things that not only makes me hurt a lot on the inside, but put a thought into my head. “What if no one remembers me? What if they don’t even care about me? What if they have changed too much? What if they aren’t even active anymore?” That’s what its made me think about a lot. Even then, I’d still post the stories that dA ISTSELF inspires me to write. Back when I was browsing vore stories and pasting them into my notes app on my iPod, it gave me some ideas for stories myself in my “half sleep” mode, which is before I fall asleep and think about things and how it goes along. I do this every night until I fall asleep, and when I DO fall asleep, I don’t even realize it! The fact that dA’s interface and looks of the site and stories posted on there makes me wanna submit some of my old stories that have been in my head ever since those days. Posting these stories on other sites just won’t feel the same at all to me…it HAS to be through dA AT LEAST. This is one of the reasons why I haven’t submitted ALL of my stories that has been on dA, mainly the stories that have sequels or more multiple parts, including “Yeno Meets Yena”, and “The Slave”, both of which I never submitted or even finished what needs to finished still on them. That is still true to this day, but one reason for this could be the fact that I would just rather focus on ONE particular story until I finish it, although it wasn’t always like that...I think. I seem to want to focus on 1 thing until it’s done, and since my latest work has consisted of nothing but just working on “In the Claws of Trust” for the past year and a half, I haven’t focused on much else. How exactly can I do that and STILL remember how my other ideas for all or most of my other stories go? I actually have no idea how I manage to do so, but I just…do. No matter HOW much I wanna type down a new idea for a story I get through some method, I bottle it in my mind until I get this story done, although I AM sorta lazy and fall asleep quite often, or something.
Anyways, no matter what, dA just seems to bring back those memories…the golden era of my online life, even when I was first suspended. The ONLY restriction I had was my lack of a PC of any sort, since the school Mac couldn’t do much, and I had no VPNs or chrome extensions to bypass the firewall. But now, since I have my very own laptop, and hopefully Microsoft Word soon, I’d be able to enjoy dA to its fullest…except for the money issues I have, and no premium either. If I am to ever get unbanned, I’d the buy me the 7 year premium membership. I know it as “Till hell freezes over. (7 years)”. I have 11 dA points to this very day, meaning they never got used. I was hoping to use them at some point but…I never got to. Just talking and thinking about dA points and the vast amounts of fanart and gifts and memories that could be made and adored by users makes me feel…so nostalgic! It just makes me regret what I did…but now with desktop access, I could use the notes system to do the adult stuff. To be able to experience the beautiful art people post, and comment on it and make artists smile…to be a part of that beautiful community again…would just be…I don’t know how to put it into words, but I DO know that it would make me feel like my life is good again, cuz even with the few good things that’s happened to me in the past 2 years, it doesn’t come anywhere close to all the pain and suffering I’ve had to deal with…and you’ve seen the journals that I’ve posted, here on FA…many of the are about life and suffering. Back on dA, journals were mostly used for seeking RPs. And when I was down, roleplaying would cheer me up. But now, the problems I seem to have leave a mark on me, since they don’t go away. And when I search Google images for just about anything, the majority of the images are from deviantART, which just adds to my suffering cuz I cannot comment or even fav a submission.
I know I've been rambling on about my own suffering today, but those who have read everything up to this point, I REALLY appreciate you taking the time to do so. It means a lot to me. But I don’t wanna hear ANYTHING about making another account, cuz that is against the rules and wouldn’t be the same as having my old account. Hugs are NOT gonna solve this problem. If anyone out there is willing to help me out with my whole dA dilemma, I would be forever in your debt, although I have nothing to offer whatsoever. If there is more than one person wanting to help out…well…then I guess I would say this…

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Now, a quick update on life right now: I'm going to have to work my lil psychic tail off if I want to even GET an iPhone. Grades:
As and Bs = NEW iPhone SE
Bs and Cs = USED iPhone 5S
Cs and Ds = Nothing. Zilch. Nada. Zippo. No phone whatsoever.
As for Microsoft Word on the personal laptop, I have absolutely NO idea.

Again, if you have read everything up to this point, I really appreciate it VERY much. There’s more I wanna say, but I think I've done enough now…unless I could clear something up with the dA staff…but I haven’t really the courage to do so… *curls up and sucks on a thumb and/or tail, holding a plushie in my arms as I cry myself to sleep*

Hey everyone! I’m feeling somewhat better than I was earlier, but I’m still pissed about my life. But I found out last night that if I can have a really good rest of the school year, my dad will buy me an iPhone SE! That’s right! The newest iPhone out there! Hoping to have it by my birthday, which is June 2nd. I will then be 18 years old, so YAY! We’re also gonna upgrade our internet from 6 GB to 18 GB. My mom will have access to the SAME data on her phone, and I think my brother will…but not me…unfortunately. But the iPhone has the newest processor, so it’ll handle every app I have lag-free! A dream come true! And I hope to be able to browse FA with ease when I’m on the go without Safari crashing! So it should up my internet activity when on the go dramatically! Skype will be reborn! I’ll be able to reply with ease so I’ll open up my Skype and become very active on there again! No need for unlocking the device again and loading Skype just for on reply! I’M SO EXCITED!!!!

As another bonus, my dad will also get me Microsoft Office on my Lenovo Laptop…so I can write my short stories with ease and typo-free throughout the summer! ^^^^^

But, with awesome rewards comes responsibility. Meaning, like last year, I shall try to keep FA activity low. My mornings should be the only time I’m online, as well as my lunch period. I should really minimize online activity if I wanna focus on my work. Like last year, this movement will affect my online activity everywhere, having the biggest effects on FA, G+, and Serebii, as those are the sites I'm on the most. I’m not getting Straight Talk Wireless, and I won’t have free 24 hour access to the wifi, but at least I’ll have more options at home! Limited data still means this: No YouTube. Here’s how I watch my YouTube: Firefox browser. Media downloader. Download YouTube video(s). Watch offline! ^^

As a heads up, I’ll have to monitor my activity, and where I visit online, and my parents may have a look at where I’ve been…so for starters, I’ll just find me some Minecraft Mods and search and stuff. So a little help with that please? I love using mods and can never get enough! Emailing files is preferred. MC Version 1.8 is what I use for mods.

Wish me luck everyone! I hope to chat as soon as possible! ^^

I cussed in a journal title on purpose, so what? I made a hashtag with a cuss word in it...so what? I don't even care anymore! This is the worst day I've had in a long time! And it started RIGHT when I woke up...FUCKING LITERALLY!!

I can't take a shitty life full of stress, unintentional harassment, fucking Macs that can't do any shit, no wifi at home, many letdowns, obsessions, slow days, slow replies, fucked up schedules and time zone issues, horrible website interfaces, internet lies, lies, addictions, chores, not having enough time for anything, surviving in this cruel world without dA and internet at home, shitty iPods, traumas, nostalgia, injuries, bad timings, tech errors, bugs, spiders, fears, wishing to have contact old online friends, shitty random assumptions, homework, Mondays, lack of sleep, having no money at home, no money online, parents putting purchases on a credit card, sneaking wifi and feeding off of the school internet and using VPNs, iOS incompatibility, only person that DOESN'T have a phone, not being trusted, having no Youtube access, worries........... I NEED FUCKING HELP!!!!!!!! Please!!! I can't take this anymore!!!!! I'M SERIOUS!!! Hugs are NOT gonna make this go away...normally I'd RP to calm down but...it's not gonna help me out anymore...plus, I think this fucking Mac is too slow...

Support plz? Before I do something REALLY stupid...like slamming doors at my school...I've already skipped my lunch typing this out...I don't want more stress!

Hey peeps! I'm still here, alive and kicking...well...surviving anyways.

Over the past several months, I've been looking through FA submissions, commenting and stuff...so many sexy ladies and so many vorish preds out there...and yet, not everyone is active or anything. Not everyone wants to reply to stuff like I do. Not everyone Roleplays, and some that do don't state it in their bio...or something.

I REALLY need some help from you guys. the more people the better.

Ways you can help me? well...I know this isn't RPing, but ref sheets are needed quite badly...I'll make a list of OCs that need ref sheets on a separate journal, and it'll keep growing as I add more...lol?

as for RPing...those of you that are prey only like me, need not to worry. I've opened myself to playing pred role, but only with some OCs, not my little sona. As of now, I'm giving Avari the attention, by that I mean giving her some morsels to snack on. She's a winged wolf, but she's been my most used pred in recent roleplays...scratch that. She's been the ONLY pred I've used. I plan on getting more, but I just love Avari! She's a pretty wolf with attitude! Anyways, I now play the pred role in RPs.

I want more sexy ladies!!! SHOW ME SOME PICS OF SOME SEXY (and vorish) LADIES!!!!!!!!

And I shall now try and upload pics of characters I make using character creators (like Wyndbain's Wolf Maker Unleashed) onto my own little forum I made a couple years back. It's in my journal footer, but here's the link for laziness and koopa rewards.

http://gamzforums.freeforums.net/

you can navigate the site some more, sign up even! I hope for this to become an active forum or something some day! Though I may have to migrate it all over to some other place or something...something that's better or whatever...


Now, as for my personal work, meaning fanfiction and vore stories, I'm still working on that "big project" I've mentioned before one or two times. I have MANY other stories I've started, but none of which are finished. Some were intended to be "dA Exclusives", which means only on dA, but now that I'm banned...well...let's just say, I CAN'T let them go to waste. I just want my dA account back...cuz I'm missing out on SO many things! If anyone could help convince dA that I've been punished more than enough and that I'll never break the rules ever again...then...PLEASE DO SO!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN BARELY EVEN SURVIVE WITHOUT DEVIANTART AND IT REALLY BREAKS MY HEART TO NOT BE ABLE TO COMMENT ON THE ARTWORK AND MEET NEW PEOPLE ON THERE TRULY EXPERIENCE THE WEBSITE ON A LAPTOP!!!!! Oh...I remember my those days on dA...so...much...nostalgia...

And.......I'm signing- NOPE! Got more!

So my parents are actually looking into straight talk wireless and think it'll be an option! So yeah, I hope to get an iPhone soon and get straight talk on there!

That brings me to my next thing...when I DO get it, I'll be able to some online gaming, including Call of Duty: MW3, and Minecraft!! So yay! Which brings up a Q or two...anyone know any good mods out there? I use Minecraft Version 1.8.8.

List of what I need to be truly happy (for tech/internet related...things):

Unlimited internet data/Straight Talk Wireless
iPhone 4S (or better...)
Microsoft Office on my personal Laptop (Microsoft Word specifically, so I can write stories more easily)
My laptop to be in my room and charging next to my bed for 24 hour access to it.

And...I want my dA account back!!!

So this is the male anthro mew signing out for reals! (though I will still try and get to replies)

I know this is late, but last week, I was listening to music on my (crappy) iPod on my bus ride home, and then it stopped playing music. I looked and saw it crashed the music app. I went back to it, and tapped the play button. It "played", but the screen was frozen, and no sound came either. Later, on Wednesday night, I tried to play Solbon Solitaire on my way to church, and after hitting "new deal", it crashed. I tried getting back on, but the darn iPod wouldn't load it! I was "able" to connect to my church wifi, but when it pulls up the confirmation box (that's what I'll call it) it crashed. and my iPod's battery is getting quite bad. even Solbon was eating up the battery a bit more than usual...and if that's the case, then I have no choice but to preserve what I have on my iPod's battery life. I'm forced to stay off of it more than ever. I'll use it only for rare occasions...so I'm not available when "on the go". I'm doing this so I can backup my iCloud storage and transfer to an iPhone. But it doesn't end there. That iPod will still have pics and music on it that I'll have to transfer to another device somehow...

So...I KNOW I says on my Skype to be more active (as a new years resolution), but I can't get on it by choice...this will effect my recent random online activity visits on FA greatly...

To make things interesting...20th of January is our last day with our Verizon contract...so hopefully we choose to get Straight Talk then...I hope...

This is the list for species and links to pics stated in this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7286581/

This journal should hopefully be updated frequently, though I may be late or too lazy or busy. This is the list that WILL be updated as peeps give me links!



Species:

Pokémon:
Electrike

http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/143.....ke_wip_wmd.jpg
http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/143....._final_wmd.jpg

Manectric
Poochyena
Mightyena - http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/143.....htyena_wmd.jpg

Absol
Vulpix
Ninetales
Growlithe
Arcanine
Luxray - http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/139.....uxray_babe.jpg

Houndoom
Suicune
Ponyta
Rapidash
Mew
Mewtwo






Other Pokémon:
Salamence
Aerodactyl
Charizard
Dragonite
Houndour
Weavile
Scyther
Zorua
Zoroark
Lugia
Raikou
Entie

Eevee
Jolteon
Flareon
Vaporeon
Espeon
Umbreon
Leafeon
Glaceon
Sylveon

Lucario
Latias
Liepard
Persian
Lopunny
Shinx
Luxio
Virizion
Shaymin
Dialga
Palkia
Giratina
Arceus
Nidoran (female)
Nidorina
Nidoqueen
Kangaskhan
Pikachu
Raichu

Bulbasaur
Ivysaur
Venusaur
Chikorita
Bayleef
Megunium
Typhlosion
Feraligatr
Blaziken
Snivy
Servine
Serperior
Sammorott
Fenniken
Braixen
Delphox

Noivern
Reshiram
Zekrom
Flygon
Mawile
Ampharos
Blitzle
Zebstrika
Lapras
Tropius
Sandshrew
Sandslash
Skiddo
Gogoat
Pidgy
Pidgeotto
Pidgeot
Staravia
Staraptor
Xerneas
Yveltal
Zygarde
Deerling
Sawsbuck
Braviary
Marowak
Buizel
Floatzel
Gabite
Garchomp
Goodra
Pyroar
Mienshao
Delcatty


Non-fantasy:
Wolf
Fox
Huskies
German Shepherd - http://d.facdn.net/art/renaayama/14.....small-2014.jpg
Dalmatian
Hyena
Coyote
Horse
Shark
"Others"


Fantasy/Mythical:
Griffin/Gryphon
Kitsune
Sergal
Dragons
Night Fury


Prehistoric:
Velociraptor


Hybrids/Crosses/Mixes:
(Will add these as we go along)



Okami Amaterasu:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12979751/ (This pic has, and always will be, the sexiest female EVER! Mother of all sexiness! Queen of them all! Goddess of everything!!!!!!) (Okami Amaterasu. The super sexy wolf sun goddess)

Hey guys! The situation with wifi is still unknown, so I can't answer Q's related to any sites I'll use more or anything like that. So instead, like the title says, SEXY LADIES!!!!

I've been getting SO obsessed with pics of sexy ladies and stuff, that I have been unable to help myself! So many pics and so little time and little resources! I'm starting to feel overwhelmed at times!

To (maybe) try and help this crazy obsession, I'd like to create a (personal) list with links to images of sexy female anthros of many different species! No, this is not really a contest of any sort, but if you can and wanna help contribute, you can draw a pic yourself! Keep in mind though, that I don't always find everything super sexy...or do I?! I can never seem to pick just one pic for anything really...ESPECIALLY when it comes to pics of sexy ladies that I've seen and saved to my iPod.

I also may seem to have...certain levels of sexiness...can't really explain how my mind works but...ugh?

For now, I kinda wanna challenge peeps to find sexy female anthros of some species. I'll try my best to get a list of pics I've already seen, but that'll prove to be difficult, as I don't seem to have the time nor resources to do so...

For now, I'll list the "starting" species I'd like/have in mind or whatever. By this, I mean the species I seem to "currently" seek or whatever...I'll add other species later on or periodically or something...

Anywho...they are species I'd like help with first. Remember, female anthros only! No ferals, no males, and NO NSFW! (With maybe a few exceptions)

Multiples of a single species are appreciated! So don't think that you can't link me a pic to a sexy Lugia when someone else has. The more pics the better!!!!!

When retrieving links, try to get the link to JUST the pic itself. Not the webpage or whatever. The only exception to this, are large images. I'll learn how big that would be later on...

The Pokémon species include mega-forms, so mega forms CAN be suggested/linked to

Species:

Pokémon:
Electrike

http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/143.....ke_wip_wmd.jpg

Manectric
Poochyena
Mightyena - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16482445/ (temporary link)

Absol
Vulpix
Ninetales
Growlithe
Arcanine
Luxray - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12704437/ (temporary link)

Houndoom
Suicune
Ponyta
Rapidash
Mew
Mewtwo






Other Pokémon:
Salamence
Aerodactyl
Charizard
Dragonite
Houndour
Weavile
Scyther
Zorua
Zoroark
Lugia
Raikou
Entie

Eevee
Jolteon
Flareon
Vaporeon
Espeon
Umbreon
Leafeon
Glaceon
Sylveon

Lucario
Latias
Liepard
Persian
Lopunny
Shinx
Luxio
Virizion
Shaymin
Dialga
Palkia
Giratina
Arceus
Nidoran (female)
Nidorina
Nidoqueen
Kangaskhan
Pikachu
Raichu

Bulbasaur
Ivysaur
Venusaur
Chikorita
Bayleef
Megunium
Typhlosion
Feraligatr
Blaziken
Snivy
Servine
Serperior
Sammorott
Fenniken
Braixen
Delphox

Noivern
Reshiram
Zekrom
Flygon
Mawile
Ampharos
Blitzle
Zebstrika
Lapras
Tropius
Sandshrew
Sandslash
Skiddo
Gogoat
Pidgy
Pidgeotto
Pidgeot
Staravia
Staraptor
Xerneas
Yveltal
Zygarde
Deerling
Sawsbuck
Braviary
Marowak
Buizel
Floatzel
Gabite
Garchomp
Goodra
Pyroar
Mienshao
Delcatty


Non-fantasy:
Wolf
Fox
Huskies
German Shepherd - http://d.facdn.net/art/renaayama/14.....small-2014.jpg
Dalmatian
Hyena
Coyote
Horse
Shark
"Others"


Fantasy/Mythical:
Griffin/Gryphon
Kitsune
Sergal
Dragons
Night Fury


Prehistoric:
Velociraptor


Hybrids/Crosses/Mixes:
(Will add these as we go along)



Okay...I'm sorry about the Pokémon list being so long. I guess it's almost every single one I want...lol? If it isn't already organized, the first some are the ones I want the most I think... okay.

I did reorganize a bit I guess. From Electrike to Mewtwo, those are the Pokémon I wanting some of first. Some Pokémon I have some or many pics of, but I have no links. I only have a few links to some species...but anything not Pokémon, you can feel free to go crazy on links! And Electrike through Mewtwo as well! Go as crazy as you like I guess!

I only ask not to use Tumblr UNLESS it is just the pic itself. Not a link to the post or anything.

This kind of link!

http://d.facdn.net/art/vexstacy/143.....ke_wip_wmd.jpg <-- see the .jpg at the end? That's what I want. It doesn't have to be a .jpg file.

I call these "generic links"...

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16788421/

So yeah. Hehe! I shall try to update the list and links when I can, but the list will be on a separate journal. The list on here is just an example thin I guess...?

I may wanna do (vore) RPs with the pics being used as refs or whatever. Sort of a... "Random" RP or something... Random Ref Pic RP or something...basically, it's an RP where the pred, which would be the female, and looks of her would be based off one of these pics. Hehe? We aren't actually gonna turn it into an OC, as that would be stealing I guess...but I may wanna bring the pred up in another RP so yeah...just something between you and me for RPs. Lol? (I did NOT come with this idea for just RP purposes. I really DO have an obsession!)

So...I stated earlier that there are some exceptions to NSFW content, and no ferals and no males. I'll go a little more into detail with the NSFW content, but not the other two. (This journal is already getting long).

NSFW to me, is the showing of body parts, including cocks and vagina, which I do NOT tolerate under any circumstances! Nipples on breasts are included, but it's weird for me I guess...I don't like HUGE nipples and stuff...too disturbing. I CAN, however, tolerate nipples on feral animals, such as a wolf that has cubs or something. But since this is for anthros, that does not matter.

And as you may have noticed, the link to the German Shepherd is RenaAyama's. In her gallery, you may notice it is marked as, "mature content". I do NOT know why it is, as I see nothing out of the ordinary about it...just the everyday art I see in her gallery. But meh. Still pretty damn sexy!

From the art I have seen from  renaayama , nothing seems to look too disturbing. Nothing at all in fact! So you have no need to worry about her art...she DOES draw the sexiest stuff, which brings me to my last thing (I think).


This pic has, and always will be, the sexiest female EVER!:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12979751/

Okami Amaterasu. The super sexy wolf sun goddess. THIS is the reason I wouldn't allow Ayama in a "sexiest art" contest. It simply wouldn't be a fair competition!

So reasons why I am doing this (summed up)...

To help with my obsession! Pics to use as a reference for RPs...but I still prefer to take the prey role for these so yeah. (Potential babysitters as well!). Well...maybe other reasons but meh. GO!!!!!

Link to ACTUAL list:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7286617/

Hey everyone! I'm back with another update on wifi issues!

Unfortunately...I'm afraid I won't be getting Straight Talk...or anything like that. And even if we do, I may be monitored at what I'm doing more often...

So, as the journal is titled, I shall be forced to move to some other unknown site...so I don't know where to go yet. FA is great and all, but it's high data usage is just too great for me. I'm gonna ask that you guys help me out on this one, cuz I lack resources and know-how of finding another art site that'll allow me to do much more. dA was the ideal site for me...but I've tried other sites to see if they would work. I immediately turned to FA for a place to stay a while...and though I knew it wouldn't last, it's been there for me for almost 2 years...

I won't leave FA entirely, since there are a few artists I still wanna try and keep up with, those including  pippuri ,  renaayama , and  sparkythechu , the 3 artists that (maybe unknowingly) got me into me whole vore fetish, or at least...boosted it with the art I had seen, since my mind had thought about stomachs/insides of some Pokémon (I won't say any of them though...yet).

So in order to keep things clear, I'm going to list the following ART sites that I have tried, and a brief reason why it didn't/doesn't work out for me. And remember, I'm only 17, so sites that require me to be 18 or older, don't work out. Although I admit I have signed up for Eka's Portal, and Inkbunny, despite that I had to lie about my age. EP is okay, but it kinda seemed...no fun for some reason. The very few RPs I did were actually great, and I wish to continue them more. But alas, I wanna stay off the site until I am truly 18...was hard for me to lie and I feel guilty about it too!

Anyways...

Here they are...

FA: now using excessive amounts of data
SoFurry: it seems a little...too NSFW-ish to me...I'm not a fan of mature stuff, (like cocks, and stuff like that)

Furrific: SUPER AWESOME INTERACE! Submitting from mobile devices! Journals! Comments! Simple, fast! So much potential! What happened? What's wrong? This is...

Messages, once old enough, get removed from the "message center" automatically. As soon as that happened...I guess I abandoned it immediately. I think it lacks dA's "reply within message center" feature as well...dunno.

Tumblr: the notification center has...NOT BEEN BORN!! Some users have music streaming on their page, which caused us to use 8.1 GB in Februrary, 2014. I thought I had it stop playing though...the site itself it just total chaos. No journals, notes/PMs...how the hell am I to
Reply to something from a week ago?!?! My whole fucking page is backed up to posts only up to 10 minutes ago!

Whisper (or was it Wysper? Or something?): simple, and mobile support! But it lacks the journals feature I so love.

I think that's all. And I HAVE tried Weasyl, but I haven't used it enough to know it well...I do feel it won't work out either though...but meh. It's like FA's alter-ego if you ask me. It DOES however, support mobile devices with a mobile interface, and I think it includes journals and stuff. But submitting is still for those with computers or laptops of some sort.

Now...I'm looking for a site that has an easy-to-use interface, mobile support, journals, Private Messaging system, and something that won't use large of amounts of Internet data. (For those of you who have this... I say this and I mean it's like YOUR OWN MOBILE DATA ON YOUR PHONES! NOT RAM OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT! I have the most power laptop with the most powerful operating system in existence, a Windows laptop.)

Mobile support is NOT REQUIRED, but I WOULD like the site to be easy to use on an iPod, iPhone, etc.

Journal feature is a MUST for my needs. I need to give out updates on life over here in the (snowless?) Midwest. That's right. We've only had one snowfall that actually stayed around for a few days. Haven't had snow since then...

Easy and simple interface...I don't wanna go to many things to get to one settings thing.

You no longer need to worry about the site requiring the upload of word documents for stories though, since my laptop could handle it. But DO keep in mind that I haven't purchased Microsoft Office yet. It's only on the school laptop. And whether it's blocked at my school or not will be a mystery for some time maybe.

If you can find a site that is SO much like dA, that it could be, or has been, a dA replacement for other users...damn I'll do something to repay you. But that would mean passing every test there is, and some aren't mentioned in this journal. (Wait...potential website contest?!)

Anywho...please...help spread the word. I need all the help I can get! If possible, I'd say bringing a dA friend or 2 of mine over would help.

Other things I currently use:

Serebii: somewhat lonely. It's been holding on to me for such a long time...
Google Plus: great and all, but to get to RPs/RP replies that are even 20 minutes old, it would require a laptop unless I wanna do some scrolling. I'm fine with using it, since Gmail helps to kick in for the RPs. Emails retain the google plus post format, allowing me to +1 every comment (though I have NO idea why I do that) and mention/tag people. Lacks journals.

Skype: Need to be more active, but it's there! iPod packs the ability to reply within the lock screen, so I can't seem to reply much...and sometimes I miss replies. It's such a shame though, since I actually LOVE Skype to heck! Very simple to use! Some compatibility and version difference issues, but that'd be fixed with an upgrade to iPhone!

Kik: same as Skype, but kind slow. I hate that I keep geting added to group chats when part of my username says "NO GROUP CHATS" or something like that. Group chats slows it down so much and chased me off I think. Let those people who added me feel guilty for hurting me and other friends cuz I couldn't use Kik!

Google Hangouts: I use it on my laptop, but only cuz it gets in the way of my inbox and G+ replies and stuff. It also seems to lag/kill the laptop. (School one).

That's pretty much it! Twitter and Facebook are minors, with Twitter being better than FB cuz of some stuff. It may lack "posts" I think, but I could at LEAST use my username! Facebook? I can't have a fucking numeral in my username! THAT FUCK FB?! YOU'RE FUCKBOOK TO ME NOW! I ONLY use Facebook to play Dragon City, which I need to start playing again. It's the whole reason I made the account! So you can send me a gift or something if ya play it or something! ^^ it's the only FB game I play, so yeah.

Instagram was a scam. I'll use it, but it'll only be for contacting a good cousin of mine...I haven't yet signed up for it and I told her I would do so in the summer...I told her this in the summer...of fucking 2014! I'm LOOOOOOONG overdue to make the account. Dunno why I haven't yet. Lol?

Clash of Clans? I play it. But not much anymore. Eats my battery so I don't use it much...but since I'm in the same clan as my dad and brother (as well as the other 3 iPhone accounts...wait... 5 iPhones, minus 1 for my mom's, plus my brother's iPod...that still equals 5!), I don't want any merging with my online friends, and my family. I only tell them I what I want to tell them about online friends.

Minecraft!!!!!! YUS! I LOVE PLAYING MINECRAFT!!!

I THINK that pretty much sums it all up!

And this is the male anthro mew signing out! And I have one more thing to say! (Brought over from Serebii last year and the year before!)

MEWY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! AND I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A HAPPY MEW YEAR!!!! (I'll just be sitting here at home enjoying my X-mas gifts! Like the new Skylanders, and Pokémon Super Mystery Dungeon! I'M SO PUMPED FOR PSMD!!!! I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT! And I'll play some more Minecraft on my laptop too!)

Hey everyone! I never thought I’d have to give an update like this…I had some other journals planned, and even started, but never really finish them.

Anyways…I have recently found out about Straight Talk Wireless, or whatever it’s called. It’s cheaper than what we currently pay for our home Internet, AND unlimited! AND a hotspot too! I want to put it on my new iPhone when I get one, cuz at my dad’s work, when an employee upgrades their work iPhone, my dad takes the old one and we keep it. Permanently. Only 16 GB, but I’ll live. My iPod’s battery is starting to lose more power these days, and so an iPhone will need to replace it. Once that happens, I want Straight Talk on it. It seems to work out well, with our 2-year contract with Verizon ending January 20th, 2016. But there’s been one problem…my parents are saying the Internet is dangerous and think I’ve been doing “inappropriate” things online. While this is only partially true, I think, I am now concerned with my privileges. With my parents being strict and interrogative, it’ll be hard to hide my online activity. They don’t seem to take my devices and look at what I’ve been doing, but they may start to do so soon. Lately, I’ve had many close calls, and those are times when my mom comes in to put something away in my closet or something. What have I done in the past? Well I usually minimize the current window or something, and switch it out with a flash game I may have up. Sometimes, if they wanna see what I was doing, I just pull up a different window, though there’s not much else I have. They don’t try to see my screen much anymore, but they might start asking what I do online, and that’s where I’m gonna struggle…I can’t really change a site’s purpose, or content of it, and FA has things they may not approve of…mainly the sexy ladies/anthros I like to fav. I really love FA, really, I do. It’s my only alternative to dA. But it just takes a LOT of Internet data…I’ve already said I use Furaffinity these days, so I can’t use another site and say it’s Furaffinity, as they’ll look at the site, I’m sure. I really wanna stay on FA for the time that I’m banned from dA, if I ever get unbanned from there at all.

So…I am afraid that I’ll have to go DEEP undercover. And by that, I mean try to disguise the sites I use to make them seem like they are not bad places to be on. That means both FA, and Google + are the prime targets. If I cannot do this, then I may try something else. I doubt I could fool my parents by making another FA account and faving fanart only stuff and showing them its what I do on FA…they know my username I use for sites, as I stuck with my username ever since I chose it. They not check the account though, but they may still look at the site itself…

To sum it all up…I REALLY want Straight Talk, but my parents are starting to get nosy with my online activity, and may think it might be best if I had little to no Wi-Fi at all…and I really want to use the Internet and have access to it…but…I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! *sniff*

Anyone! Please! Help me! This is something that hugs WON’T help fix! I need ideas please!! I may submit more journals relating to this whole issue, so…PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!

So…this is my first, and may possibly be my last journal to be typed up on a laptop and submitted on a laptop…

YEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAWWWWW!!!!!! I FINALLY GOT MY FA ACCOUNT FIXED GUYS!!!!!!!!!

You don't know just HOW happy it made me... I ran out of the school building shouting, "FA ACCOUNT FIXED!" Whooping out the doors! You just don't know HOW much it made my day month! Yeah I said it! I haven't been happier before! Know I can, finally, finally, FINALLY start uploading my stories to FA the way it was MEANT to be...uploading word documents with a laptop! ^^

^^ ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

SO GET READY GUYS!!!!!! HERE I COME WITH SOME VORE STORIES AND STUFF!!!! When I have access to FA with my school laptop...lol! Lol! LOL! LOLOLOL!!!!!!

I've been so limited with this iPod, but now with a laptop of my own, and my whole account problem being fixed, it looks like my life on FA is starting a new chapter!

Now I just need the following for TRUE comfortability online and stuff:

Unlimited Internet data (no seriously, I am sick of having to be refrain from YouTube and stuff. FA also uses some data...and I wanna do Minecraft Servers.)

100% TRUE ownership of my laptop, as well as 24 hour access to it.

Microsoft Office - I know. I need Word SO badly. It's my friend! ^^ PowerPoint is also fun to putz with.

Fingerless Gloves - yeah...fingers get cold a lot...

Some more money - I have a Paypal, so yeah...I just need money for commissioning and stuff.

My friends! YES! MY FRIENDS ARE WHY I ENJOY BEING ONLINE!!!!!

And one last thing...

My dA account back! I know it's been so long! But...I still need dA. It's been a big part of my life for a long time. I still wanna upload pics of non-furry related stuff...so yeah.

Anyways...I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!

Yeah. Just wanting to put this out there...again. I mean...I absolutely LOVE the pic of Avari drawn by  Flossywolf , but I still need pics of other OCs.

The one needing one the most being Yeno the Mightyena, and I need to send a pic I saw a while back to refer to Yeno's robo leg. That's right! He has robo leg in place of his right foreleg I do believe.

Next up, I think would be Vivi the Vulpix. She constantly wears pink ribbons in her ears. (The set they were in was $300! If you were to read 15 of my "Master Fanfic", you'd know that. Hehe. Although I REALLY need to finish up the current version and then spruce it up and convert it from first person to third person.) so yeah. Vivi values her ribbons over everything else, other Zach of course! ^^

Next would be...umm...ya know...I dunno to be honest...that may wrap up Pokémon OCs that need reference sheets...for now. Lol? I KNOW there's more, but Yeno is pretty much the big one I need drawn.

Now for non-Pokémon OCs, mainly my wolf OCs.

Rubystorm&Pawstorm need refs. They are actually quite interesting OCs. Their abilities far exceed that of Fang and Fuchsia...I think that's how I'll put it...but, of course, no one has a nose better than Yeno's. No one, and I mean NO ONE, can sniff and track scents better than Yeno.

Fang&Fuchsia, wolf mates. They need refs too! ^^ I wouldn't really be asking this if I didn't even have a physiology/physical appearance/description of them. Lol!

Silver Fang the Wolf. He's one of Fang and Fuchsia's cubs. His actual appearance was NOT my idea though. It was  ishmaaal 's idea I DO believe...he can control ice and snow quite freely, with ice being his most offensive power.

Scarlet the Wolf. Another cub of Fang and Fuchsia. I have description of her yet, but I've been trying to picture it in my head for quite some time...

I haven't yet been able to describe it...sometimes I just wish I could hook my brain up to a machine that would create the picture in my head onto a screen and save that picture to my iPod and SD card and stuff...this would SO solve all my picture related problems...DOES ANYTHING LIKE THIS EXSIST?!?!?!?! PLEASE! COME ON! I REALLY NEED SOMETHING LIKE THIS!!!!! I'VE HAD THIS CONCEPT IN MY HEAD FOR AGES!!!! WAY BEFORE I WAS BANNED FROM DEVIANTART EVEN!!! THIS KIND OF TECHNOLOGY WOULD BE SO FREAKING COOL AND HELPFUL!!!!!!! I'D PAY WHATEVER THE HECK OF PRICE WAS ON THE PRICE TAG!!! $1 MILLION DOLLARS EVEN!!!!! (This thing could also get my ideas for stories down on paper...it would SO become a time saver...cuz unfortunately, lets face it. I've become SO DAMN lazy and uninspired to write, it's just RIDICULOUS!)

So yeah. Lol?! Anyone think they could help?

P.S. If you're looking to draw Yeno the Mightyena, then please, PLEASE...we gotta talk it over through Skype or something...I got a pic of a Flareon with some cool leg that I wanna REFER to a bit. I change the design of course, but having a pic to go by for helping me to describe in reference to, and for you to understand will be both our lives easier...I don't really remember where I got the picture... Revamped-Nod Flareon...

Turning Over a New Leaf

That's right! I think it's finally time that I start to be more flexible with stuff. I've been having so many problems because of my stubbornness and not wanting to leave my comfort zone.

It's time I start trying new stuff, and retrying old stuff I hated through one bad experience. But, this does NOT mean I will do sexual Roleplay of any sort. I still do time skips and that's that. I don't wanna cause any trouble. So NO EXPLICIT SEXUAL ROLEPLAY!!!


So...I still wanna keep an RP going for as long as I can. I will not have vore at every second of it, but I enjoy crossovers.

Playing prey. I will no longer search for preds with no success. Instead...I will take the role of an OC of mine to be the pred. (If it'll get some damn RPs going...)

Now I'm not saying that I WON'T be prey anymore, but I haven't been able to get any fucking Roleplays started where I ask to be prey...it's like everyone wants to be prey now all of a sudden...but I kinda wanna re-expand my horizon...I was okay with taking pred roles on dA, but after I got banned, I kinda curled up and stuck to being prey again for quite a bit. (Anyone get the pun? lol) I rarely did vore RPs freely where I would control the pred. The way I see it, I'm not gonna get any damn vore RPs started unless I take control of a pred.

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That's pretty much my main point. Others include...

Original Comfort Zone:

Same size vore, or basically a pred that's...fat but not much of a bulge? I dunno...
Female Preds, male prey. (Is that F/M vore?)
Sometimes, under the right conditions, I'll even do male pred and male prey. (M/M?)

I think that's all I can really think of right now...

This may hopefully be added on in the future...please me with this!

Changes/Challenges (things I'm gonna try):

Bigger preds. Macro preds...I dunno much...but I'm kinda restricted to being prey on this one...I think...

Things I can NOT tolerate:

Male pred, and female prey. (ESPECIALLY when there's digestion...) the only exception to this is if the female prey is a rat, or mouse, or Pikachu, or Rattata, or something like. Birds, Pidgy, etc. that's the ONLY exception. But NO "cute" Pokémon...ones I find cute are strictly off limits unless they are not harmed in any way. (Male or female cuties.)
Navel - THIS IS JUST GROSS TO ME!

Cum, Private parts, and anything considered as a "sexual" term. I NEVER wanna see graphic/VERY descriptive stuff/terms. Scientific terms will not be understood and will be taken in a highly rejective manner. My two big reasons why I don't want this:
1: if my parents were to see it, then you can kiss me good-bye for Arceus knows how long...I may not ever have Internet privileges ever again. And if that were to happen...I don't wanna say it. It would just hurt other people cuz not only would my offline activity affect you, it would affect everyone I talk to. I do NOT want that to happen.
2: I just find it plain GROSS! It is VERY disturbing and I don't like the terms...it makes me feel SO uneasy... *shudder*

For crossovers...here are my main things:

Pokémon. This is a MUST for me. Literally, well over half, if not 3/4, of my OCs are Pokémon.
I'm okay with regular and fantasy creatures, including wolves, foxes, griffins/gryphons, Sergals, Kitsunes, and taurs. (Please note, that Taur are still somewhat new to me, as well as Sergals. Taurs, I really wanna be nommed by...Sergals? That too. I know so little about them...) Please be aware that if you wanna use a dragon, I need some reference pic, as dragons can look SO different in design and looks and structure and all of that.

Next up, I include Spyro characters, but Spyro and Flame will NOT be involved with vore. I'm sorry, but that's what my mind truly say about it. Cynder and Ember, I MIGHT involve with vore, but I'm still thinking hugely on it. Characters I control are the following:

Spyro
Flame
Cynder
Ember
Flashwing
Sonic Boom
Whirlwind

That's all I do for now. The last 3 are skylanders, and so if you wanna know, now you know that much.

DBZ. Dragon Ball Z. I only "borrow" ideas from the series, NOT ANY DAMN CHARACTERS!!!! Ideas I steal are the Scouter, as well as the Kamehameha Wave, Dragon Fist, Spirit Bomb, Super Saiyan, Power Levels, Dragon Balls, and I think more. I also make my own moves like Kamehameha Fist, a combination between the Kamehameha Wave, and Dragon Fist. It compacts an entire Kamehameha Wave into a punch/fist, hence the name. I enjoy the air to air combat thing. So yeah. Hehe

That's my mains. I simply cannot do Spyro without DBZ, and vice versa!

Other series I enjoy adding would be...

MLP (I won't control any ponies.)
WotB (Wolves of the Beyond, a book series I read 2-3 years ago...only series I truly loved...and the only one I've read to the end...again, I won't control any characters. So you will have to have read the book series yourself...or at least first 3-5 books...I'd not all.)
Okami. Only Ammaterasu (Ammy for short). No one else. I may control her, but only if you aren't comfortable with doing so.

That's pretty much it. I have maybe a few others, but it's not all that big. Most other series, from books, movies, or T.V. Shows, you could most likely assume that I haven't watched it, or that I would NOT be interested into bringing it into a Roleplay.

That's pretty much it I THINK...I may have more that I just can't think of right now...

For now, that's really it...my mind is kinda blank when I added to this...yeah. Top section is when I first wrote it. Bottom sections was more recent...I've probably forgotten some stuff. Lol?

Last side note:

You can REFERENCE to other stuff, like LoZ or Mario or something like that, but again, if it's something I don't like, I won't get it. I encourage a LITTLE bit of Zelda References, with those NOT being the newer LoZ games that AREN'T remakes. I only own the following:

Wind Waker
Twilight Princess (on GameCube. NOT Wii)
Ocarina of Time 3D
Majora's Mask 3D

That's all ill pretty much understand...I wasn't a big fan of Spirit Tracks...my file is damn fucked...final battle with all hearts and two potions. I use both potions and die. I come back with 3 hearts and no potions. THE FUCK NINTENDO?!?!?!?! I CAN'T EVEN GO BACK!!!!!! So I kicked the game out for another, as my case can only hold 30 games, plus 1 with the 3DS system itself.

So...I apologize...this journal is longer than what I originally planned... ^^'

Hey guys! I think I finally found a dA alternative website. This one looks like it's not only what I call having "deviantART potential", but also better! THATS RIGHT FOLKS! I SAID IT ALL! I CAN EVEN ACCESS THIS SITE ON MY SCHOOL LAPTOP!! MEANING ACCESS AT SCHOOL!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! AND I THINK IT CAN SUPPORT MOBILE STORY UPLOAD SUPPORT!!! COPY&PASTE FEATURE!!!!!

THIS LITERALLY IS FURIFFIC!!!

https://www.furiffic.com/spyrois2cool

Obviously the same username that I use everywhere!

So folks, I'm not leaving FA. But Furiffic seems to show a LOT of potential! So much in fact...I dunno how to put it into words but-

Anyways...I need someone to message me on there so I can test the message feature. ^^ I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!

List of most of the people I remember that have...something...

This is a list of the people I can remember. They have had some form of impact on my life, or given me some or quite a few notable and/or memorable times in my life...m recent online life...well...here's the list:

Spyro and Sonic - good friend from on www.darkspyro.net
ThroneOfMalefor - another DS (DarkSpyro) friend
Thumper - a friend on DS who had quotes and nice things to say...
CrystalHero37 - funny user...she made me laugh a lot. Likes quite a few things...
JaggedStar - good friend... *sigh*
I'm sure there's more DS friends, but I can't remember any more at the moment...

Zephraxe - awesome friend I met on Serebii...
Heroic Rein (now Silver Chiko) - another awesome friend on Serebii...
Trickster Zorua - A friend on Serebii who likes Minecraft and some other things...
Dr. Ciel (changed username but I can't remember what it was) - awesome friend on Serebii. Quick replies and online quite a bit...
Steelrush - Serebii friend who was friendly...
I guess that's all I can remember for my Serebii friends for now...

dA friends? Too many really...

Cassafrass - super awesome friend! Replies are spread apart but we still try to chat&RP.

And I'm sure there's a lot more, but I don't wanna go overboard...

Now...a lot of people have done only one thing, but it's still been big to me and I remember them for it. Sometimes they don't even know what they've done for me...

Zephraxe - Inspired me to try and develop some human OCs and stuff...
Silver Chiko - gave me hope that I could have some ideas for some...stuff...
Palastatic (on dA) - gave me the idea to start writing a Pokémon Mystery Dungeon fanfic. (It's still being worked on though)
Shorty - a user on Darkspyro...he's the one that made me my avatar. Yes. The very same avatar that I've always been using and love so very very much.
Nightwolf2886 (on dA) - made me the pic of Melissa and Jason.
And I'm sure there's more, but that's kinda all I can think of right now...

Now...of the people I love to chat with so much...so much has happened...

Dr. Ciel - she was banned from Serebii a while back...
Steelrush - He was banned too!
That left only Zephraxe, Silver Chiko, and Trickster Zorua on Serebii basically...and a few others...but... *sigh*

Silver Chiko - Grew inactive near September/October of 2014, and worried me. That left Zeph and Trickster for the a time. Zephraxe was the main one I loved to chat with at that time. Notably December (2014), January (2015), and I think some, if not all of, February (2015). Just when I was struggling with Zeph or something, I saw Silver Chiko online, and that gave me some hope. He stated he was going to be Semi-Active from that point on. I eventually tried to chat with him, but it was a little difficult at the time. But...eventually...he was inactive...and his last activity...the last time he was "online", was sometime in May...and it's still like that today. *sniff*...so that left only Zeph and Trickster again...

Trickster...well...for some reason...I wasn't too motivated about talking with him and stuff...less and less replies I guess...but who knows...anyways...it basically left me with Zephraxe... *SNIFF*

That's mainly that stuff for now...

And now...well... Things have just...happened...a lot and so much and...I dunno...but there's been a number of people who have blocked me...and it's just become so overwhelming...Losing friends and then some not talkin to me and such...

List of people who have blocked me in the at some point before:

Gay-anthro-cat (dA)
Magnus Vulpes (G+)
Crystal Jenkins (G+/Google hangouts)
Google+ user (I'm sorry! My memory is bad!)
<insert name here> (G+)
vorishcynder (dA/FA/Skype)
Swampurtz (Serebii. Not "blocked", but they won't talk to me and I can't comment on their profile...they have the private settings or something of some sort...)
Berlin (or something like that. FA)
Cassafrass (Skype)
<insert username here> (FA/Skype)
<insert another username here> (met on dA, found me on FA and/or google hangouts, and we moved on to Skype. Skype contact...)
Nine-Taled-Ninetales (Met on dA. Moved to Skype...eventually blocked me...cuz my next reply...I didn't say "hi" or "hello"...)

So we are at 12 blocks now...BUT, some people have actually forgiven/unblocked me...

The "Google+ User". Sorry...can't remember the username...
Berlin
Cassafrass (thanks so much bud. Hehe)
Nine-Taled-Ninetales (we don't chat much, but at least I can say hello and stuff. ^^')
And that's pretty much all of the ones who unblocked me to this very day (last I checked anyways). So...that's 4, so that makes 8 blocks. But...there's ONE more person...and I only just found this out today...

Zephraxe (Serebii friend...he has the private settings too...but... *SOB*)

And well...that...I guess...ends...the reign...of my...addiction...to...not only...Serebii...but...possibly...-

Without Zeph now...my Serebii activity has basically come to an end...now...I almost don't even WANT to think of the good days of Fall of 2013...and if that is the case...then... *SOB*...I guess I could care less about what pain I feel now...physically...I can't take this anymore...I woke up today feeling happy and jolly, still dwelling on my dA problem and stuff, but still happy somehow...and at lunch time...in just only one moment...I went from happy and full of hope and plans...to another broken heart...what basically just happened there? An "Idea Gun"...(you could add "shot" or "machine" In front of the word "gun".) An Idea Shotgun just killed...many...ideas. Ideas in my head that I was hoping to get out of my head by doing them through an RP (or RPs)...but now...those ideas will haunt me...possibly forever...and now I don't wanna do much...

Roleplaying and/or the Internet is like a drug. It makes you happy and then you start to rely on it so much. You look forward to it every day and you can't stop. You get so addicted...that its all that you start to think about...and you feel as if you cannot live without it...until suddenly...something happens that makes you lose all sense and causes problems...depression, grief, regret, and...sometimes it may cause suicide and death and shootings...

That's is what I say...I planned on playing Minecraft for my extra 2 hours today, since it was a 1:00 dismissal. But instead...I'm upset more than anything...more than I've ever been before...I don't even really wanna talk at all right now...

Sometimes I feel like I'm just a silhouette...and I'm just a nobody...no one seems to care or notice my pain...no one recognizes that I'm depressed...normally I'd sing my Owl City songs out loud on the bus, while playing Super Smash Bros. for the 3DS, but today...I didn't sing out loud... Nor played the 3DS...I only listened to my music and listened to a couple of different songs than normal...I laid down on my seat...slightly getting in the way of people...what's worse...I didn't even sing the last song I ALWAYS sing along to on my walk home... Dreams and Disasters...

I've never been more depressed in my life...I've lost my online home/website of deviantART, lost many online friends, been blocked by around 10 different people, lost some privileges a home, been yelled at by my dad a lot more than usual...what's next? I'm assuming something will happen with FA or something...or google+...I'm running out of websites/places and stuff...I can't keep doing this forever. I'm gonna be cornered and homeless sometimes soon...and when that happens...I'll have no choice but to revert to Flash Player games and The many websites out there...making an account on the main ones I like and living/spending my life like that...and playing some Minecraft on the laptop too...maybe I'll have a server for all of you guys to still be able to chat with me and stuff...if we ever get unlimited Internet data...

I dunno but...I just CAN'T keep going on like this...I'm gonna go down sooner or later...

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That was all written last week on September 2nd. I'm over the big prob now but...it still hurts...so yeah.

Ever since I started using FA excessively, I've been using up a TON of Internet data...but it wasn't like that before...only in the past few months...so...very sadly...I've decided to move...

So...well...it's true! ...I'm moving over to Wysp...I hope the data it uses is less than what has been used lately...(it better!)

Don't worry though guys, I'll still use FA quite a bit, but I'm gonna try and focus on Wysp. I hope I can upload all my stuff on there like I could with dA.

Here's the link to my Wysp account folks! In case you wanna know and follow me there. I hope so! Cuz it would be lonely without any familiar friends.
http://www.wysp.ws/spyrois2cool/

There's not much more to say other than that...

Okay...so I'm hoping to reach out to someone...I need to chat these days...or RP...but...I need help too! Please people...my last two journals... No one commented on them. I need people who...care about me a lot. I need my OCs drawn please...please people!

Avari and Melissa are to two I'm wanting the most...I need refs of them badly. Avari is the one that needs it more. Please people...spread the word...no one sees my journals anymore...

I'm so broke...I still have no money to pay for this kind of stuff...

Also, I might move on to Weasyl and try to use it and SoFurry more. I need to try them out. But after that... If nothing just works out quite right...I may call it quits for finding the perfect site...the perfect dA replacement...and I know for a fact the SoFurry fails to meet "non-fetish related terms". But what about Weasyl? Ehh...it's still a site for "Furries" and that kind of thing. I'm looking for a place with an interface like dA's and it's for general audience. Not targeted at furries and stuff. I wanna be able to upload pics of stuff like a hotwheels car I have and stuff. Stories like my "master fanfic"...please help me out people...can you guys please help me out with this? I need people to help me out on the sites so I can test and try them out...anyone willing to help out?

Last but not least...never mind...I can't think of much else right now...

Alright peeps! I got links to pics of three of my wolf OCs! They are Wyndbain's Wolf maker unleashed, so I am unable to upload them to FA, so, I am looking for artists to draw them for me so I can upload them. NOTE: they are FERAL, not anthro. I am looking for FERAL refs for them right now. Not anthro. I will ask for anthro refs for Pawstorm and Rubystorm later. Avari, however, I would like an anthro ref, but NOT UNTIL AFTER I HAVE A FERAL REF OF HER FIRST!

Links:

Avari the Wolf:
http://gamzforums.freeforums.net/at.....ent/download/4

Rubystorm the Wolf:
http://gamzforums.freeforums.net/at.....ent/download/6

Pawstorm the Wolf:
http://gamzforums.freeforums.net/at.....ent/download/5


And I'm also wanting an anthro ref for Melissa the Seawolf. But there's some extra detail I'll add if you want to do her. But I'm only looking for exceptional quality pics. Ask me before drawing her!

Melissa the Seawolf and Jayson the Earthwolf:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13513474/

And remember, I have no money, so you'll be doing this for free! Please help spread the word people...I need refs of OCs badly!

Well...I'm sorry for a bad title but I'm out of ideas...

So...I cannot access FA with the laptop...something is wrong with my account...and so I am unable to submit still... *sigh* well...I guess journals will have to do for now...but I may have to migrate and make another account...but I don't want to do that...

So yeah...I hope I can find someone willing to draw OCs for me...my highest priority right now would be Yeno the Mightyena. I need a ref for him. But I still have no money so yeah...Anyone willing to help me out or something? Please? Anyone? Please help in any way that you can. Spread the word, that kind of thing.

Now...I'm sorry I never get to my notes but...I just don't feel in the mood to reply sometimes...I'm getting pickier these days...I kinda just want to chat and/or with my old friends... *sigh* even my RPs through comments...

So...I know I'm not online as often as I used to be...but I hope to be online for a while...by that I mean for the next some days...

So...uhmm...anyone wanna help me in some way with something?

For OCs I want drawn...I'll give a list of that later...

Please help me!

THATS RIGHT!!!! I FINALLY GOT MY LAPTOP!!! It came on Saturday, near the end of FedEx hours cuz the schedule was switched around. Heh...still...I stared out my bedroom window from around 11:30 AM, to 2:15 PM. I moved into the living room cuz my neck was sore. Around 2:50, the truck finally came. So yay!

It's a Lenovo laptop with a 16 GB RAM, and an SSD of 256 GB. Unfortunately...my family shares one account (mine), so I might not be able to experience the fetish stuff that require a Windows operating system. And it may take some effort to get on FA with it too. So I guess I'll still have to rely on my school laptop for flash files (.swf), as I can't let my parents see what I am doing or what I'm into online.

I hope to at least use and/or access FA with it at least a little bit, but it may only be for uploading word documents. (Aka, mainly my vore stories.) but I'll have to lock them or something somehow to prevent my family from seeing them...

But first, we still need to get Microsoft Office installed. Lol! But for now, I payed for Minecraft, yay! I think I can now officially call myself an actual Minecraft fan/fur. PE (pocket edition), Xbox, AND the PC version?! I never even originally planned that! At least...I don't think so anyways...

I've also got some flash player games downloaded today, since we don't wanna have to use Internet just to load them. I ended using 600 MB...so now we are already at 1 GB...ouch. Oh well. Now we know that I gotta download the stuff (incase unexpected ads and stuff pop up) at the library or something. The flash files themselves never take up that much. Max size would be 20 MB. Hehe...

So yeah. I hope to get more downloaded soon. Lol!

So...problems with anything? Yes...unfortunately. Minecraft seems to lag or something. The frame isn't smooth like it is on Xbox (which, btw, I now have an Xbox live account. Spyrois2cool is my username.). I don't know how to fix this but please, if anyone knows how to, let me know!

We're also having problems with rollercoaster tycoon 2. We can't get it to play. We want it so we don't need the disk but...I think my dad said something about screen resolution or something...I dunno.

Overall, it's really nice, so I hope I can get more privacy on it too! But until then...I still gotta stick to being restricted...and I was really looking forward to trying some of those vore games on ekas portal too!

But yay! Laptop get! My wait is finally over!! ^^^^^^^^^!!!

I really do. None of my friends seem to be online anymore these days...and I know my online activity isn't that great as of now...but...oh my timing is just the worst again like it used to be...two years ago...when I was first introduced into serebii...by  cassafrasspie ...my motivation for RPing has...I dunno. I wanna be nommed a lot and stuff but...it's so hard to find preds these days. I'm beginning to think that everyone that I have watched or has artwork I've admired, has changed. I dunno...I need a journal on dA. One that'll tag my friends on there...but even then...will anyone remember me? I highly doubt it...very few still seem to chat with me. And even those peeps are inactive sometimes...that or it's because they don't wanna use Skype...Kik? Ugh...no more group chats people. PLEASE! WHO IN THE NAME OF ARCEUS IS ADDING ME TO THAT STUFF?!?! IT SLOWS DOWN THE APP LOADING TIME!!!

*sigh* the people I've rejected in the past because of one minor thin I insisted on wanting to do...I regret...I really do...just about all those things...but that was after I was banned from dA...is THIS how I wanna live my life? Doing extremely stupid actions because I'm so desperate yet still picky on what I want for an RP? I don't think anyone I know could TRUELY satisfy my needs for RPing...the ideas in my head are like haunting me...it's like a scar I have for life now. To be misunderstood by so many people online...it really hurts me when people constantly call me "Spyro", when I've said MULTIPLE times that my name is Cory, and I'm a male anthro mew. I've stated it NUMEROUS times and people STILL DON'T GET IT! The true friends who actually knew me for the Mew I am...we're on dA. Those that still remember or chat with me...hardly active nowadays. *sob* All my friends...all my online life...and yet when I get attention...people mistake me for a pred. I'm prey these days. This mew isn't a pred. Other OCs I have are preds yes, but I rarely use them to nom others in RPs these days. That's mainly because I enjoy being eaten myself. To be in bellies and possibly be digested...that's why I've loved vore. To...ugh.

Anyways...I'm just hoping to reach out to people who could help me out in any sort of way. Because I'm sick and freaking tired of being lonely, misunderstood, ignored, and unmotivated. If I WERE to get back on dA...the main thing I'd be doing is uploading submissions like crazy! And a journal to celebrate. But FA...the site doesn't allow everything. I need somewhere that allows generators and stuff. And a place that allows me to upload stories with copying and pasting...a textfield. Not a dang Word Document uploader. dA gave my all that. EVERYTHING I ever needed. And they just took it all away...they took it away from me...and it's really starting to scar me...mentally...emotionally...this scar is bad enough. I can hardly withstand more pain these day. The actions I've regretted. Events I wish I could've changed.

PLEASE TELL ME HOW I CAN-

Oh forget it...my life is scarred so far I don't think there's a way to solve or help or relieve the pain...

Anyone who wants to do the dA journal, let me know through comments and I'll PM you EXACTLY what to copy and paste. Got it?

The only good news I have is that my laptop FINALLY comes in this Monday. So I'll get Minecraft on it and Skype and Microsoft Word. And I'll play PC games. Rollercoaster Tycoon 2 and 3. *sigh* the old days from our old PC that broke 7 years ago...and recent days from the past few years of my Internet life. And my Minecraft life...which isn't too big till I play PC. Then I'll experience the full fun...until then though...I gotta entertain myself through other means...Ive no idea how though. TV? Cartoon Network has no more good shows anymore. Boomerang? *sob* Nick? Well...maybe. *sigh* what's wrong with me?

This is...the male anthro mew signing out of this journal. But I'm still like broke. And not done with my fanfic. But even with uploading stuff to FA. I'm afraid that the content of my stories and my popularity on FA is not...exactly what FA is for. Hardly anyone will read my stuff...OH DEVIANTART! PLEASE LET ME BACK ON! I REGRET WHAT I DID AND I PROMISE I'LL NEVER DO IT AGAIN! THIS IS PUNISHMENT ENOUGH! I WANNA UPLOAD MY PHOTOS OF STUFF TO YOUR WEBSITE! I MISS THE INTERFACE! I MISS MY FRIENDS! I MISS IT ALL!!!! I'LL DO ANYTHING! CAN'T ANYONE TELL YOU THIS! SOMEONE TELL DA STAFF THAT AM HOPELESS WITHOUT THE SITE!!!!!!! I DON'T EVEN HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MY WRITING ANYMORE CUZ FA LACKS A TON OF STUFF! FA'S CONTENT ISN'T REALLY FOR MY NO. VORE STORIES!!!!!!!! I READ STORIES FROM DA AND THAT IS WHAT INSPIRED ME TO WRITE! ESPECIALLY THE NON VORE STORIES!!!!!!!!!!! WE NEED A PETITION! MY LIFE HAS BEEN FUCKING GODAMN SHITTY EVER SINCE I WAS BANNED! MY MIND IS ALL MESSED UP NOW! I'VE BEEN EXPOSED TO STUFF I REALLY SHOULDN'T SEE AND STUFF!!!!!! I CAN HARDLY SMILE ANYMORE! I'VE BEEN TIRED FOR THE PAST WEEK! I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!

Why and HOW am I still alive? That I do not know...maybe because I still have things I still wish to accomplish in my life. Like finish my master fanfic, "Cory and Spyro", but...IT'S NOT A STORY FOR FA'S FETISHES AND STUFF!!!!!! DA IS FOR A MORE GENERAL AUDIENCE AND IT'S WIDELY POPULAR!!! THATS ALSO WHY I CHOSE OT OVER A Y OTHER SITE I SAW!!!!!!!

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...that's how I really feel right now...I may not have mentioned other sites and stuff, but I don't need to...well wouldn't if it was dA cuz my dA friends already know more about me and my sites- never mind. I dunno if they do. I don't know anymore...well I need help here...anyone nice enough to give even a hug.......I'd definitely will hug them back...hope to get better soon...

Well everyone, today at 12:05 PM, I turn 17. I'm so excited! I get French silk Pie this year instead of cake. I'm having an awesome summer vacation so far. I have no Internet really but I have some today so yay! I also fixed my ipod problem. Just had to restart it and close all the apps. I may still have problems but, it's not often anymore. So yay! I can browse and use safari again! ^^^^^

So...now what? Uhh.....I dunno right now to be honest. Lol. Uhhhhhhhh.......

Well...the one fanfic I've been working on is still in development, but I've been making great progress lately. I hope to be done with it soon! ^^ so I got plenty o do even without wifi. Hehe! ^^

So I'm rambling more...sorry. Hehe. I think I should be done now. ^^' hehe... (Like anyone is gonna see this).

ALRIGHT FA! THE FUCKING BLOODY HELL HAVE YOU DONE TO THE SITE?!?! MY IPOD IS CRASHING LIKE EVERY MINUTE! IF EVEN THAT! I am NOT gonna use my notes app for every fucking reply I get to. It's becoming unbearably. I need a Better rendering or whatever. Like what it was...I think back in...I dunno. I don't remember. I think my ipod was more durable on the site during march when I downloaded many swf files. But I don't think I'll be able to do even THAT. I can't comment/reply on a submission without my ipod crashing. It crashes once, possibly multiple times, before I can get the reply in. SOMEONE SOLVE MY PROBLEM HERE! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!! I NEED BETTER INTERFACES! I might need another site...or I'll just migrate to Skype or something completely.

I'm truly sorry FA, but I don't think I can take this. What good is it if I can't even reply or browse, or even USE the site. I can barely even use the notes system on here! Why is that?! I don't wanna find another site. Why? Cuz there are like not more sites. Sofurry is pretty similar, and Weasyl...ehh...I am okay with it. But there isn't m h out there for me. I need some help...

I'll bet it's gonna take at least a couple tries to get this journal out.