Trying to really think of a way to get funds lately since I'm haven't really been putting out stuff for commissions or doing art that much but I figure I should ask to see if there's interest:

Would people like, wanna buy/commission pixel art for custom balatro cards or such?
I've done em before.
It would most likely just be the basic Jimbo card for the most part unless there was a specific interest in other joker cards but I figure some people might want their sona or OC on a balatro card. Or maybe just little pixel art things in general since I seem to be okay at that x3

There's pixel art or I might consider doing some YCHs or such to ease my peace of mind a bit and give something consistent for people to get for a decent price.
I honestly might offer doing flat color commissions at some point if people want those, mostly cause I just really hate shading -w-

But yeah, sorry for not drawing much once again but I'm trying to kick my ass in gear and I wanna gauge interest from my audience on what people might be interested in buying.
I don't wanna put a bunch of effort into a product for now one to really want it lol, otherwise I'd just draw what I want.

Hope y'all are surviving this summer well enough <3

Been a bit since I talked to y'all on here, I kinda forget journals are a thing >.>

Just wanted to start off in saying thank you to all the newcomers who've joined recently! I've been getting a lot of growth recently and hitting some new milestones so I wanna draw something both for the new milestone here and on Twitter.

Not sure what it'll be yet, might be something small like the last milestone pic I did but I'll think of something.

I just wanna make sure y'all know I really appreciate it and hope y'all are enjoying the art as much as I enjoy making it!

I don't wanna ramble too long, but thank y'all so much and stay safe out there! 💖

I'm back ladies and jellyspoons!

Sorry for being gone for so long. This site and I have a love/hate relationship mostly cause of my god awful attention span and rampant laziness when it comes to posting art >.>"

I'm gonna try to be more active here as well as other sites like Twitter and Bluesky so if you prefer one of those be sure to check those out too, they'll be linked here as well.

That said, I'm gonna try and make more of an effort this year to post more stuff, doodles, sketches, full pieces, whatever. I wanna build up more of a gallery and reach out to people more. So if you felt like asking questions or just interacting with me and my art more, do so! I'm a fuckin idiot and half the time don't have the confidence to talk to people so while I'll try to make an effort to reach out to people I'm sometimes VERY VERY DUMB and don't do it out of nerves and worry that I'm bothering you, so please feel free to talk to me if you want to, I'll try my best to respond and please don't take it personally if I don't get back to you right away >.>"

All in all, here's the this year being much better art-wise for me than the last few years. I'm trying to dig in and really work on myself and my love of creating shit so hopefully plenty more stuff will be happening this year!

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Love y'all, stay safe out there, and rock on! <3

Time is flying and I'm getting back into the swing of things. Honestly been in and out of drawing stuff and just hanging out trying to enjoy life in the meantime, even with a lotta shit happening IRL all over the world, not just in my life.

Hope y'all are safe out there too! Wanna draw some more stuff and get more art out that's just fun and stuff I enjoy, basically whatever I feel like. As you can tell by me basically kinning the funny fornite latex wolf recently x3

Besides that, still need to get onto officially opening up for commissions and making that more accessible, both here and on Twitter, that and just a way to donate, since I keep telling myself I should but never do lmao
Suggestions for that would be appreciated as well tbh, since I'm still a little lost on that topic

But yeah, hopefully this month will be good for art, and if not, I'll simply put out whatever I can, might start putting sketches somewhere on here as well since I mainly post those on twitter or in Discords I'm in, so maybe I'll put a sketch category or something. That being said I wanna finish more pieces of art and not just shoot out sketches cause the dopamine from seeing a finished color piece is hella nice!!

Love y'all, stay safe, and hopefully I'll have more for ya soon, woof!!

First off, holy shit how is it still only January, it feels like we've gone through 3 months for the price of one, whewf.

Second, thanks to all of you that have followed me, idk how I suddenly got this many people but I appreciate y'all and hope I can put out more art soon. Been going through some emotional slumps here and there and it's kinda gotten me feeling meh about drawing but I wanna try and put out more art soon if I can ^w^ I have fun characters and ideas I wanna show y'all eventually and so I can't let all that potential go to waste!

Also I'm gonna try and get a proper commission sheet put up on FA since I have one on Itaku but I should revamp one for FA as well in case any of y'all wanna commission me uwu
Still getting the hang of this site and all that, so bear with me.

Anyways, love y'all and hope you have a great rest of the month, hopefully next month will look better than this one!

<3

I don't know how to write eloquently or anything, and I have a lot on my mind so I'm writing this here. So here we go.

Most of you know me as Aria in some way shape or form, or by my moniker, Squishbold.
And most of you recognize me as the big shark that draws squishy things and is edgy and shit.

For a while I've kinda been stuck with just being a shark or something of the sort to people, because that's what I've shown myself as for so long... but I wanna talk about myself and my identity as whole because I've had a lot of time to reflect on myself and hopefully this will relate with people. And if this bores you then you can just click off now I guess, idk.


I've come to terms for a while now that I hate the idea of being... "human." Humanity as a concept is... tricky, because you get into a lot of philosophical quandaries and blah blah blah, whatever. The thing I've always hated about my humanity is it just feels... bland. I'm a big nerd that loves DnD and Warhammer and all sorts of fantasy stuff, horror stuff, lots of media with big scary monsters and creatures and alien races.
So, with that comes the idea of nonhuman races, such as elves, dwarves, orcs, so on and so forth. The idea that you can be something other than the normal human intrigued me and I thought the designs of them were really cool at a young age. Or I should say, the more outlandish nonhuman races intrigued me. Because even elves and dwarves were still usually just human-ish features but tall or short or different exotic skin colors (like green for orcs.)

Fast-forward to my teen years, where I got really into werewolves and dragons and things like that, big beastly monstrous creatures that were fantastical and not as close to the typical humanoid race. This eventually lead me to furries, and the whole wormhole that is, and slowly I started to take an interest in characters and nonhuman races that were entirely different from humans. Sure, I like the humanoid stance and feel of some furry and monster types, such as dragonborn and lizardfolk and stuff like that. But the more the years went by, and my perspectives on humanity as a whole shifted (because I started to break away from my family views and Christian beliefs and such), I found myself loathing that I was born human.

And for the past few years, especially after meeting my lovely partners that have opened my eyes and heart to many things, I've come to terms with the idea that I don't have to... follow the norm and pretend to be a normal human that's interested in nonhuman things. Finally the idea that I could embody the idea of being nonhuman as a whole... started to open up to me, and it made me so happy to think about.

Now what do I mean by "being nonhuman?" Some people categorize themselves by labels other than human, such as therian, otherkin, plural, etc. I basically see myself as someone who would rather being some monstrous being than human. And you might say, "oh well yeah, furries make fursonas and they feel connected to them and all that." And I mean... sorta? For me it's a little of both? I've pretty much, at this point, created my sonas as projections of what I wish I could be myself. For a while I wanted to be a shark girl, or just a furry girl in general, I bounced around with a lot of ideas through the years, and finally landed back on shark recently, and really stuck with it. But the more I stuck with it, I realized I wasn't satisfied with just being a furry girl or shark girl or whatever. I wanted to, as a famous anime character you might've heard of said, reject my humanity... and become something that I felt fit my personality or mindset better.

This is where it gets hard to explain, because you have a lot of nuance here, I don't see myself as a therian or otherkin necessarily, not that I have a problem with the people that do identify as that. But I just feel like... being a monster, or a demon, or just simply... a creature. Does that mean I literally wanna be an animal that goes around with less-than-human intelligence or blah blah blah like some shitheads think furries wanna do? No, not really. I value my intelligence (even if I'm a dumbass) and rather I'd like to simply be a monster, undefinable as human or animal even, like something out of a fairy tale or fantasy story. Something that's big and scary perhaps on the outside, but isn't inherently just a big dumb evil beast either.

It's hard to label what I want to be, because I think to label it is to try and define it as something else, like "oh it's just an exotic fursona, or you're just a werewolf or something" and sure, it could be? But I think the idea at it's core is that I don't wanna be tied down by any single label or definition either. I am genderfluid, and pansexual, because I don't want to be confined by one single set of rules or definitions of what my gender should be, or who I'm sexually attracted to or romantically attracted to.

I think what makes me this beast, this monster, this creature, is a desire to be myself, the truest form of myself. And that is a shapeshifting, genderfluid, polyamorous, pansexual... creature.
I am a creature, and a thing, and it makes me happy to be that way.

I could ramble on more about how I maybe reached this conclusion, but I've already talked your damn ear off enough about this, about a topic that maybe you had no interest in and you're just scrolling through this bored. But this means a lot to me, and it's hard for me to express just how much it means to me and how I wish to be perceived as, at least to myself. I struggle with attention from other people in many ways, so if anything, this is a testament to myself about who I am... and a reminder to stay true to myself, no matter what happens.

If this helped you in any way, than I'm glad, and if you want to share any similar feelings with me I'd love to hear about the monsters and beasts lurking on the internet, so maybe we can go stomp through a city or something together, lol.

Stay safe out there, and don't let the world drag you down, meat.
'Till next time, have a wonderful hoilday and a kickass new year! <3

Trying out doing actual commissions for once, so get em while they're hot!

I'll be doing 3 slots for now, might update that in future.

For more info please go check out my Itaku post here!
https://itaku.ee/posts/51491

Love y'all ❤️

Hey all! I've slowly been getting back into the groove of art again so I hope to put out more stuff. I doodle here and there but putting sketches up here is not that great, I usually post that on my twitter, which you can find here --> https://twitter.com/squishbold

However, I am going to try and post more colored/finished pieces here as much as I can ^w^ So look forward to more hopefully in the future.

On another note, I have some plans I wanna do with art and stuff, such as consistenly draw my ocs and not try to switch them up all the time. 3:<
But also I wanna try and do more stuff about commissions and such. I dunno if I'm ready to consistently do full on commissions yet but I do want to offer something like sketch commissions in the future, stuff that I know I can do pretty well and also is a good price for others, you know?

So I'll might try and set up something like that in the future if y'all want, lemme know!

In the meantime, I'll keep trying to draw what I enjoy and share it with you all. <3

Love y'all and stay safe!

Been a busy few months, with a lot of IRL stuff here and there taking up more of my time and motivation for anything. Really drains my want to do anything other than relax and play games to take my mind off of everything else.

Speaking of games, I've been binging the hell out of FF14, so that takes up a bit of my free time, though it also gives me plenty of inspiration too. If only I could take that inspiration and do something with it, heh.

But yeah, I've just been in a funk recently and felt like everything I was drawing or doodling was sub-par and didn't matter so I just shoved it aside half the time. Hopefully I'll be back on my feet and drawing more stuff soon, but for now it'll probably just be sketches and doodles here and there.

Sorry again for the radio-silence, sometimes I just have no energy and I just kinda retract into a safety bubble.
I hope to get back to making art again soon, so hopefully y'all will get more stuff sometime in the future uwu

Love y'all <3

Hey all! Hope you've been enjoying the posts so far!

My work production has slowed down a bit so as not to burn out, but I do have a handful of sketches I hope to post sometime in color. But I'm debating whether to post the sketches themselves in like scraps or what just so y'all aren't left with nothing for a bit if I get busy with life or something.

Also, I hope to open a Kofi or something soon once I've shared enough stuff with y'all so that if anyone wants to donate they can! I do wanna do this stuff for a living if I can 💖
So if anyone has advice for that, I would love to hear it.

Otherwise, I'm gonna try and do my best to get stuff out when I can, without rushing or burning myself out of course.

Hope y'all have a good pride month, and thanks for the support! Love you all 🏳️‍🌈

Squishbold 💞