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Posted 8 years agoSo I may sound like a whiney baby in this journal
And I may be shouting into the void (hence why this rant isnt on FB or Twitter)
But right now that's what I need to do
Since my last post both alot and very little has happened.
Due to living in the country with very few people to hang out with I have resorted to lying in bed all day on my phone talking to pexpletives I've never met in person.
This story has 2 legs
The first is the Irish Furs Group (hey guys if any of ye see this)
So in short I am relievedelighted ive met so many nice and interesting people in this group in such a short time.
Tomorrow I will not only be going to a meet in Dublin but I will also be relying on public transport not to screw me over and my crippling social anxiety acting up and turning the meet into a living nightmare.
I honestly don't know how tomorrow is going to go and it's driving my angst through the wall! What is important to me is that tomorrow goes well for me, though I'm scared of what will happen. I'm scared people will form clicks and I'll be tailing one group so thathat I'm not alone for the day (it's a festival so we'll be spread out)
This is something that is rearly niggling me :/
The second part is more sinister, I shan't go into details but I feel like I may be being exploited
One of my (kinky) friends introduced me to a man in the states he is friends with and since first talking hes developed an attraction to mensure and my good looks. I feel that while his feeling may be genuine (though you can never be sure on the internet) that he is overstepping boundaries, and due to my personal belief to never hurt anyone (dumb belief but it's tattooed into my skull and I cant get it out) I haven't told him enoughs enough and went along with these conversations judged excesptible not by my brain but by my dick.
I honestly don't know how to let him down gently, and what's worse in that the angst and fear caused by this interaction is making me question everyone's motives, everyone judged guilty till proven innocent, and yes, it is driving me cookoo
If you've reached this far in my journal then congratulations, youre either a drama scout, a decent person, or you just skipped the cry baby crap above, of which the last two I am greatful for...
If you need me I'm on Telegram: Aubydook
And I may be shouting into the void (hence why this rant isnt on FB or Twitter)
But right now that's what I need to do
Since my last post both alot and very little has happened.
Due to living in the country with very few people to hang out with I have resorted to lying in bed all day on my phone talking to pexpletives I've never met in person.
This story has 2 legs
The first is the Irish Furs Group (hey guys if any of ye see this)
So in short I am relievedelighted ive met so many nice and interesting people in this group in such a short time.
Tomorrow I will not only be going to a meet in Dublin but I will also be relying on public transport not to screw me over and my crippling social anxiety acting up and turning the meet into a living nightmare.
I honestly don't know how tomorrow is going to go and it's driving my angst through the wall! What is important to me is that tomorrow goes well for me, though I'm scared of what will happen. I'm scared people will form clicks and I'll be tailing one group so thathat I'm not alone for the day (it's a festival so we'll be spread out)
This is something that is rearly niggling me :/
The second part is more sinister, I shan't go into details but I feel like I may be being exploited
One of my (kinky) friends introduced me to a man in the states he is friends with and since first talking hes developed an attraction to mensure and my good looks. I feel that while his feeling may be genuine (though you can never be sure on the internet) that he is overstepping boundaries, and due to my personal belief to never hurt anyone (dumb belief but it's tattooed into my skull and I cant get it out) I haven't told him enoughs enough and went along with these conversations judged excesptible not by my brain but by my dick.
I honestly don't know how to let him down gently, and what's worse in that the angst and fear caused by this interaction is making me question everyone's motives, everyone judged guilty till proven innocent, and yes, it is driving me cookoo
If you've reached this far in my journal then congratulations, youre either a drama scout, a decent person, or you just skipped the cry baby crap above, of which the last two I am greatful for...
If you need me I'm on Telegram: Aubydook
Ugh... exams are exhausting
Posted 8 years agoIm one exam away from freedom
Then its Uni... Wo!
I was planning on going out for a drink but instead I raided my sisters room and ate half a jar of jelly beans
Maybe im a little immature to be going to uni...
Ah well!
Then its Uni... Wo!
I was planning on going out for a drink but instead I raided my sisters room and ate half a jar of jelly beans
Maybe im a little immature to be going to uni...
Ah well!
So this weekend was... interesting?
Posted 8 years agoJust back from my 2nd maths exam, it went ok but now I'm exhausted >-<
Over the weekend I did grinds with Da but those only ~slightly~ worked
Stood on my Glasses so now I've this massive line in 'em, its not too distracting,
but sooner or later the glass is gonna pop out in two pieces.
And of course I spent my most of my money on 2 albums just before so I dont think I've the money to get tested and buy a new pair.
But hey, at least I can tell everyone I got attacked by a crazed lunatic ;P
(Also the the musics pretty good too)
Cheers!
Over the weekend I did grinds with Da but those only ~slightly~ worked
Stood on my Glasses so now I've this massive line in 'em, its not too distracting,
but sooner or later the glass is gonna pop out in two pieces.
And of course I spent my most of my money on 2 albums just before so I dont think I've the money to get tested and buy a new pair.
But hey, at least I can tell everyone I got attacked by a crazed lunatic ;P
(Also the the musics pretty good too)
Cheers!
Janey Mackers its the weekend
Posted 8 years agoHow on earth did I just make it through the week?
no... seriously?
The past 2 years of complete and utter agony (aka. Secondary School) and in three short (not really) days Ive completed half of my Leaving Cert Exams.
My English Exams went well I feel, best paper in 10 flipping years mind you
Geography, the exam I thought I could pull off well turned out to be something pulled out of Satans Asshole
(excuse my french)
And Maths, the paper I was afraid of last year turned out to be the first maths paper I have ever completed in my life, and I think Im gonna go up on what I predicted (mind its only pass maths so no miracles yet)
Next week I have 3 more exams before my music papers on the 22nd, and then my school years will be over.
Lets just pray to the furry fucking gods (not Those ones) that I get the points for my course, because I aint going back even if I got a €3000 suit (fur or otherwise) out of it
(Also, this may sound whiny but Im tired and have been having wet dreams over uni for the last 14 years of my 18 year life so this is big for me :P
no... seriously?
The past 2 years of complete and utter agony (aka. Secondary School) and in three short (not really) days Ive completed half of my Leaving Cert Exams.
My English Exams went well I feel, best paper in 10 flipping years mind you
Geography, the exam I thought I could pull off well turned out to be something pulled out of Satans Asshole
(excuse my french)
And Maths, the paper I was afraid of last year turned out to be the first maths paper I have ever completed in my life, and I think Im gonna go up on what I predicted (mind its only pass maths so no miracles yet)
Next week I have 3 more exams before my music papers on the 22nd, and then my school years will be over.
Lets just pray to the furry fucking gods (not Those ones) that I get the points for my course, because I aint going back even if I got a €3000 suit (fur or otherwise) out of it
(Also, this may sound whiny but Im tired and have been having wet dreams over uni for the last 14 years of my 18 year life so this is big for me :P
The storm before an even Bigger storm
Posted 8 years agoIts Currently Raining here, summing up the emotions of myself and every other Leaving Cert student across the Emerald Isle.
So yeah, I think I'll do OK, with my Language exemptions thrown into the mix I have just about Six subjects
5 Higher
1 Ordinary
...and with this new marking system I should, should pass all of them (Unless the exams decide to f*ck me over)
Of course what I want to do in Uni isnt asking for much (350 points) I really dont know how Im going to fair in that regard (at least I have the DARE (Disabled Access Route to Education for yall non Irish Furs) yay?)
Im wishing any fellow Irish Furs doing their exams the very best,
Im estimating (optimistically) the results as follows...
English: 60% - H4
Maths: 60% - O4
Art: 60% - H4
Music: 75% - H3
Geography: 55% - H5
History: 40% - H6
(New system = anything over 30% at Higher Level is a pass)
The Rains Stopped now, I think I'm going to go and Study my English
Cheers!
So yeah, I think I'll do OK, with my Language exemptions thrown into the mix I have just about Six subjects
5 Higher
1 Ordinary
...and with this new marking system I should, should pass all of them (Unless the exams decide to f*ck me over)
Of course what I want to do in Uni isnt asking for much (350 points) I really dont know how Im going to fair in that regard (at least I have the DARE (Disabled Access Route to Education for yall non Irish Furs) yay?)
Im wishing any fellow Irish Furs doing their exams the very best,
Im estimating (optimistically) the results as follows...
English: 60% - H4
Maths: 60% - O4
Art: 60% - H4
Music: 75% - H3
Geography: 55% - H5
History: 40% - H6
(New system = anything over 30% at Higher Level is a pass)
The Rains Stopped now, I think I'm going to go and Study my English
Cheers!
