update part: i moved countries like i wanted to and people who donated have helped me hugely (i was really hanging there and it was the help i needed at the moment), i live in a communal refugee housing whats almost always without internet connection but its ok. my cat is living with my partner and i want to move out to be together with them in the future (and i finally want to transition how i wanted to since 2017 but i didnt because of my fear <3 and im basically having mental breakdowns like every month or so about it but it was a secondary issue until rn)

now i will jus yap because i want to put it out there somewhere ... im not happy with myself and my art and i havent drew anything i would be really proud of for a while. artists i adore and things i adore in art is so far away from what im creating and i feel frustrated with not being able to show people what i feel like reflects me the most, and im scared audience i collected over time wont be there for me if i will ever change. i have huge art block issues since war has began in my country and i just want to feel connected to my creative self again ...

anyways !!! im also on artfight this year in team fossils and i *barely* been attacked yet like i dont understand is something wrong with my characters or people dont like me for some other reason like ??? i really dont know what to think T_T also i wanna remind you im pretty active on tumblr too and i wanna get more social media accounts but i dont have much energy to have a lot, im thinking about bluesky and instagram and also simply posting my art in groups/telegram channels idk let me know if you have any recommendations and thank you for reading this if ur here <3

hello furaffinity users ! im super appreciative of a community i have and im really happy about the way you like my art here, this is perhaps the place where i feel the most stable and grounded on the internet ❤️

to put it short: i was in ukraine all my life and im moving to eu in a month because im trying to save myself from going insane (or possibly being killed with a russian missile etc) ... and im broke as hell so heres my buymeacoffee. longer rant below:

i somehow wasnt been able to leave since the war started despite what i always wanted to. im a very freeze response type of person and i only got enough courage and support to do it now. so im more or less moving to germany in a month and i have a cat who i cant leave behind so documents for her were honestly super annoying and expensive to make. my commissions havent been opened for what, like a year? and most of what i had saved i spend on it and im kinda really stressed because it feels so stupid to move out with how little money i have in my pocket but im really scared i cant keep myself alive mentally if i wont do it
i really dont like being annoying like that eeeh but i work really slowly on the commissions and i feel as depressed as i ever was in my life right now. you could notice all my art for a long time already is mostly my ocs + its just sketches or quick low effort drawings because i genuinely almost never can make myself draw for more than a couple of hours once on a lucky day and every time i can only motivate myself enough with my beloved ocs and a thought what i can finish it quickly and get some quick dopamine of creating something + showing it ... and honestly im really sad and unsatisfied in my art being that way. i hope i can use this journal as some extra motivation for me to finish the only 2 commissions i have, i feel really guilty and i dont recognise myself with how quickly i could do the same work before ... but sentimental things aside, i will probably open my commissions again after the move (if i will finish the works i have before of course) depending on how much free time and energy i have. i feel hopeful about it, i would like for myself to do it but i can only hopeee

idk if anyone reading it but thank you if you did !!! feel free to reach out in any way, donation would be the most appreciated - any little number means a lot more for me in my currency. other donations you can see on that page are from when us elections happened and i majorly freaked out back then and started to plan my move. im so hopeful for it and overwhelmingly thankful for support im able to get

hi hi hi i made some polls on tumblr about my art blog, follow me here if you havent done it yet. i have 2 polls about if i should post more things about my ocs there & reblog others people furry art and i would be happy for as much people possible to vote there and generally get myself more connected to furry tumblr !!!

if you dont have an account there its already cool enough that youre reading this post rn

im deeply sorry for how inactive ive been and im trying to get myself out of here and out of the whole situation i have with my mental and physical health. furaffinity is the place where i feel the most appriciated for my art and im endlessly thankful for everything i got here. by the way if youre reading all this you can also interact somehow to let me know if youre interested in my ocs (cotton & candy in particular) so maybe i can crosspost or make extra FA posts about them here too ❤️❤️❤️

i would never concider stop drawing no matter how tough it gets, thanks to all of you

hi everyone im not doing very good and creating something for one of you would very much help me to feel better about myself and my art (or maybe its about getting myself a treat im not so sure). you can dm me or comment to order something
heres my price list . all numbers are in usd <33

🟥 headshot - 17
🟧 halfbody - 25
🟨 fullbody - 30
🟩 illustration - 55
🟦 oc reference sheet - 32
🟪 3 sketches - 20
🔻 additional character for any option is +10

you can find more info and options at my carrd
i use paypal email or buymeacoffee for payments if its important ! even if you cant order something i would appreciate any small interaction with my art or this journal !