guppic (Let's see if that works) is doing an art raffle, for a pic with a background. See it here. (edit: it worked! yay!)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57092389/

 jazzycat90 is having a giveaway for 300 watchers. Check it out here!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52.....#cid:173122113

 invidiasaunder is doing an art raffle. Check it out here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44433582/

Is good arts.

Melon Puff is doing an art raffle. Take a look at
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43488706/

Is good stuff.

Go here for details.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40242970/

Thought I had been following them, but apparently not. Glad I got the reminder. :)

What the heck? :P

Heh. Ok, so I have a blender model made for me by WhiteSkyPony for posing in SFM and Garry's Mod. I didn't know there were difference between posable and printable; I'd like to get it modified to be able to print it on Shapeways as a desk toy. Does anyone know anyone who can do such a thing?

This is an animation I had done by Setup1337, if you want to see it.
https://youtu.be/2SNe1DSPGqw

See the picture here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35739621/

And the journal explaining it here
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9455298/

I've had two cats from the same litter for half my life, got them when they were two months old and both of them together would fit in one hand. Tora http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10974401/ died at 16 of kidney failure five years ago, and Bastet http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33161538/ just died at 22 a few months ago. I miss them terribly.

...but I'm old, and sick (diabetes, failing kidneys (which is what killed both of the cats and one of my parents), depression, high blood pressure, etc) and a cat may outlive me and be left alone.

I've been waffling on this for months. My roommate lost a dog and replaced it in two days, but he'd only had her for like six months. A kitten is entirely out of the question, no way would I want to outlive one that long as much as I would like to have one... I don't want to mess with fostering, because that'd be like constantly losing them.

So if I were to get one, it would be an older cat, maybe 5-6ish, or possibly a pair if they had some that wanted to stay together, and that would need to get along with the dog.

I can't decide on my own. This has been a serious shitshow of a quarter, nothing I do works right, and I don't want to make it worse...

Oy, that sucked. Still not sure I did the right thing... have a new roommate, and am in a small room without room for my couch, so there's nowhere comfortable to watch TV... sitting on the bed kills my back. But I have my computer back, and I can live with that for now...

The movers will be here in about 12 hours, and since I was sick all day and most of yesterday, I didn't get everything packed. Yay. But I mainly need them for the larger stuff, like the desk and couch and so on. The smaller stuff I can do myself. Hopefully.

But until I'm settled in I won't have any internet connection, and since I won't have my Roadrunner account anymore, my email will be down until I figure out what to do with that. So, woo.

I kind of forgot my lease is up, and got a second notice (which, since I didn't get the first, is kind of annoying), so now I have a set GTFO date. Joy.

(comes back from throwing up) Mew... I just want this shit to be over. Where is a montage when I need one...

Big changes, I mean. Getting a new, faster computer, that's nice.

Your father dying? Not so much. Standing at his bedside after you and your brother made the decision to remove the forced breathing mask that he hated and stop the blood pressure raising medicines that made dialysis possible at all, although extremely painful, and holding his hand as he dies...

Having your best option be to move into his house, because you can take over the mortgage and it will end up being cheaper than the rent at the apartment? Not too bad... but there's a roommate. I'm demophobic, so I need my own space... so I'll end up living in the master bedroom, pretty much. So i'm essentially moving from a one bedroom apartment to one bedroom... I work nights, so I won't likely see him much. For reasons, while I COULD throw him out, since it's going to be my house, I really can't.

So there's that. And then there's moving. Not as stressful as normal because I know where I'm going, I'm not going to have to scramble to find a place to live because I can't afford this one anymore... I can continue to, although my rent will be raised shortly as my lease is up. But... like all cats, I hate change. I've thrown up four times in the last three days from the stress... I asked my mother to help me pack and I'm continually resisting, and I know I'm doing it, and I can't stop and that adds to the stress and... I thought the suicidal depression was gone, but I cried myself to sleep thinking about Pop and the move and what I'll do if my car stops working, since it's started acting weird the last couple of days and then I threw up again..

I have no friends. (Yes, I have friends on the internet, but none of them are close enough to give me a hug or just have someone to sit with and do whatever nearby.) I'm a tiger, I'm a loner, I always have been... but even tigers meet once in a while. Family isn't the same thing, and I don't have much of that left anyway.

I don't know what to do... I just want it to be over. Once I'm moved, I'm sure I'll be fine, once the change is over and has settled, but this slow death is just miserable...

Happy Hearts and Hooves day, or Forever Alone, as the case may be. :) Love you guys...

Am reasonably happy at work. Still in training, and after a month I JUST got a login for my computer. (I didn't even have a computer for the first two weeks, or a chair for another three days after that... ) Still can't log in to anything else, so I'm just sitting with people and watching / listening to them work.

Apparently the guy responsible for the logins went on vacation just before I started. I was brought on so quickly that nothing was prepared as it would normally be. I interviewed on a Friday, had a call before I got home that they wanted to hire me, and I started that following Monday.

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So, did you get anything fun/silly for xmas? I got a huge jar of cheezypoofs that's now about half gone after a week, and a hot dog toaster.

I start monday. I has a happee. Stressed as fuck, thinking I was going to be homeless in a couple of weeks, but knowing money will be coming in I can cover it safely. Actually bad enough it made me throw up a few times.

A tiny, cautious bit of optimism is starting to grow now... I hope this works out.

Had an interview today... it went pretty well. Got a call after I got home, a conditional offer for the job, contingent on passing a whiz-quiz (which is no problem; I haven't even been around people who take drugs in months...).

Not only that, I asked for 15 an hour, and they offered me 16. This seems like a great place to work.

I've been near suicidally depressed for a couple of years now, and this last couple of months has been... well, a lot nearer. (I tried to come up with a list of reasons not to just before I got my last job, and came up with 5... what it would do to my mother (who had recently had some of her favorite relatives die that way), what would happen to my cats, my WoW guild friends, the upcoming season of My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic.

In short order after that, one of my cats died of old age kidney failure, the new MLP was going to be delayed for a year or so, the wow guild broke up... I can't even remember what the fifth one was. And then I lose my job...)

I don't tend to post things like this because I don't want people to think I'm doing it for attention. I'm not. I generally hate attention. But I'm so gorram happy at the moment it almost hurts, and I'm desperately dreading the possibility that they change their minds for some reason. So, cautious happydance.

And
http://flutteryay.com/

A job I'd been really hoping to get fell through. 16$ an hour, ten minutes from here. This hurts. I turned down a 3 month contract job to be sure I'd be free for this one. (I didn't WANT the 3 month one, but it would have been money coming in...)

Fuck. I hate looking for work.

Interviewed with the company in Largo. Pain in the butt to get to, but he seemed cool and it sounded like a decent place to work, but waiting on a director now for further stuff.

Had a phone interview with another place, and she seemed to like me, another tiny place (If I joined, the tech support staff would double. :P ) but getting in on the bottom floor. More stuff in a couple of weeks, maybe, yay.

I hate looking for work.

Got an 8 hour one-shot thing on Sunday, installing memory in an assload of PCs for NY Life, for not much money but something to do. Got home, and had a call from a recruiter, for a place called Modern Enterprise Solutions. Didn't balk at 15$ an hour, so I probably should have asked for more. I hate interviews, and I hate phone interviews twice. Especially hate being asked 'how much money you want'... tell me how much you're offering and I'll decide it's worth it. XO.

It's nearbyish, so not a ridiculously long commute, depending on traffic and time of day... Definitely going to get 'when do you get a raise' in writing, and if I can, a minimum amount. Anyone have tips for that sort of thing?

They let me go in that Monday to pick my stuff up, so I now have it and it's all ok. No job yet, had to turn one down that was 18$ an hour because I would have spent four hours a day on the road back and forth to it, in rush hour traffic. Would leave no time for anything but literally 'get up, go to work, eat, sleep' What's the point of a well paying job if you can't do anything at all but the job?

Fortunately, the Kelly recruiter understood, since he used to live near where I do now, and said he wouldn't want to do it himself. Anyone want a live in roommate? For room and board I'll provide all the cuddles, snuggles and oral you can use, plus 'other duties as required'.

So, I'm fired. "You've done a fabulous job but due to budget constraints we have to end your contract". And they're going to mail me my shit. Which, last time that happened, meant it took two months and all got destroyed.(A 500 year old Cinnamon stone cup carved with tigers, smashed beyond repair. A heavy blue glass cup, smashed to the point of leaving microscopic shrapnel everywhere on everything in the box. A bag of potato chips crushed so that all the stuff that wasn't smashed or shredded was covered in grease, ants and potato crumbs.)

Not even a full fucking week. I was consistently the top performer, by half to double. And now I have less than a month to get a new job and get paid enough to make rent.

Hurray.

(Later edit, http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7104187/ Dunno if this will re-signal a change))

Dicking around through my old journals and found this from  kynelwynn.

1 - Go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random and the first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to random quotations at http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 and the last three to five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album. (If you want to do this again, you'll hit refresh to generate new quotes, because clicking the quotes link again will just give you the same quotes over and over again.)

3 - Go to flickr's "explore the last seven days" at http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/ and the third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover. At most, use something to clip it to a square and add text.

Mine (And yes, every bit of it is legit.I clipped the picture to a square and added text):
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17115994/

My original one from 2009:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1649100/

If you do one, post it and link here? I'd love to see what people get.

 Jazzpaintball is doing a raffle for, as mentioned in the title, around 900$ worth of arts.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6350167/

RTFM on how to sign up, and spread it around; the more people who enter, the more art happens.

I've got a bunch of steam game codes for games I either already have or don't want.

Anyone want to trade something for them? Other games, art, whatever?

Gun Monkeys
Sanctum
Eve Online with 30 days of game time, plus the Colonist, Explorer, Industrialist and Skirmisher addons

Bastion
Battlestations: Midway
Brutal Legend (the umlaut fell off, sorry.)
Deus Ex: Game of the Year edition
Deus Ex: Invisible War
Just Cause
Just Cause 2
Mini Ninjas
Nosgoth Veteran's Pack (Access to the closed beta!...that ended in June...)

Maybe a few others; I've got several of the Hitman games and haven't decided yet. Last Remnant too. Not a huge fan of turn based adventure games, but it looks kind of cool. If someone makes me an offer I can't refuse...

Why spoons? See here.
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/w.....-spoon-theory/

Short form; lady with lupus uses spoons as a token because they were handy in the diner to illustrate how her illness affects her life.

I don't have an overarching illness, so my flatware is more compartmentalized. One thing I run out of a lot is 'interaction with people' spoons. I've worked nights for most of the last 25 years because my cupboard is short on spoons. Night shifts are usually quiet, usually little or no management, and limited contact with people. My last job with 'can you hear me now', to start I'd see my cow-orkers for the night, and I can deal with the same four or five people with no trouble, plus the clowns that called. Later, I worked from home as they were closing the commercial support I was doing (and in the process totally accidentally for real you guys getting rid of the more senior and more importantly, higher paid people), so I saw no one, and took maybe ten calls a week.

Now, I'm working literally insurance agent hours, 9am to 6 pm, mon to fri. I'm always having to interact with people and talk on the phone, When I leave, I'm driving and can't relax there. When I get home, my cat never shuts up. (She misses her brother who died a year ago next week. I can't blame her for it, but seriously... unless she's asleep, she NEVER shuts up. She meows with mouthfuls of food.) I can't really play games much anymore because as soon as I wake my computer up, Steam notifies everyone that I'm online, and if they miss that, it notifies them when I start a game, so half a dozen people want to have conversations, and I can't play a game that takes concentration and attention when I have to stop and reply to people every 30 seconds, so I no longer get that release.

Working nights, I'd interact with people for an hour or so before they went to bed, then I'd have all night to myself to play or read or whatever, and my cats would keep each other company, wandering in once in a while for ear scritchies, then off again. So my meager collection of spoons was not unduly taxed.

Now, I never get silence. There's always someone or something demanding my attention. I have no time to quietly sit and read, or play a game. I can watch TV because Bastet will curl up on my arm (which makes it hard to do anything with my right hand) and shut up for a while. So I watch fucktons of TV I don't really care about because there's nothing else I can do...

This is not aimed at any one person in particular. It's the combination of everyone I know, and my cat, and traffic, and my cow-orkers, and the people on the phone, and... There seems to be no middle ground between 'never stop talking' and 'never speak to me again'...