Tomorrow will be a busy day for me!
First day of gender therapy, as well starting my work out routine.
After all that I will also try to knock out a few commissions and see if I can take more.
Although financing my transition is pretty scary, I'm still trying to keep my head up and hope for the best.

I may start seriously considering selling my plasma again.

Hello everyone!! I am opening back up for commissions.
This time I want to take "experimental commissions" which are cheaper for the customer and funner for me to make so everyone wins.
The idea is that you give me a character, a prompt, an object, a place, etc., that you would like me to draw, and I draw it in any media of my choosing.
I can't promise that it'll look 100% like your character, but I can promise that it will look good!
I don't have any examples to show yet, but that's one of the reasons it's so cheap.

An experimental commission will be $3, and if you're local I can deliver the product to you in person.
I may also do adult work, though the price will have to be negotiated.
I am only accepting payments through paypal at this time.

Comment below if you're interested!

So I reserved my hotel like a month ago but they still haven't charged my bank account for the reserve. I ran my card as credit I don't know why this is happening anyone know?
It's stressful.

Hello everyone, I apologize for the lack of activity. A lot has been going on in my life.

First things first, I now identify as male. I know this may seem sudden to many of you, but I actually haven't identified as female for a long time. I haven't really felt "female" since puberty, and my senior year of high school I realized that it was actually possible to not identify as female. Up until recently I personally saw myself as Androgyn, though the dysphoria I felt for the way I was presenting myself was getting really painful and I came to terms with the fact that I'm an androgynous male, not a genderqueer female. I'm hunting for a gender therapist now, and I would really appreciate it if you guys refered to me using male pronouns since it would feel really good. I plan to start hormones as soon as I possibly can.
I've began giving away all my girl clothes, and it's felt so awesome!!! Being honest with yourself is very rewarding.
I've gotten a lot of support for my transition from friends and family, overall I would have to say that I've felt much better about myself since I've come out to myself and my close friends.

So anyway, I just wanted my watchers to know, since it's kinda important and all that.
If you'd like to follow my transition, here is my personal blog for it http://kennedys-tale.tumblr.com/

Comparing yourself to others is not healthy!!!
Especially when I do it.
ouch

Hey guys I'm reserving a room at the marriot hotel for Anthrocon this year.
I have a couple spaces available. (probably about 2)
If you are interested please let me know.

Add me on skype (black_monarche) for more info

I'm doing a bit better today than I have, the panic attacks have stopped.
Going to school is still hard, it's very difficult for me to be around the other students, and faculty even.

A lot of it is self loathing I guess, I don't trust myself to function in social situations anymore.
I keep hoping tomorrow will be better.

I just hope tomorrow is better
it still hurts a lot though

I just wanna end.

Can I just say, wow. FWA was hands down one of the best weekends of my life, I am so amazed and I could not ask for a better con.
I met so many incredible people, people who I aspire to even! It just baffles me that you guys wanna talk to me ahhaa. I hope that I can continue to develop my friendships with you lovely people and it feels great to be around so many folks that I "click" with.
The support I received for my zine was overwhelming and it's really inspired me to keep working on my comics and keep getting better.
(I'm trying to get everyone's skypes, if I missed you please note me)

My suit is amazing and I can't wait for it to be finished. I'm really grateful that I have the opportunity to commission the talented  designosaur to bring my character to life.

I'm not good at recording everything that happened, so much happened. Whoops.

Im on my way home from FWA right now. I will write more about FWA later but I should just say, I've met some incredible people and I just really hope that I can continue to foster the friendships with them.
I will definitely need your guys skypes

So I will be leaving for FWA tomorrow night, leaving KY thursday morning and arriving thursday afternoon.

I WILL BE SUITING MOST LIKELY 24/7
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10117223/
So if you see something resembling that IT'S ME SUCKA

I will still be passing out zines, even when I'm in suit
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10082740/
So if you want one lemme know and I'll give it to you. I got plenty so don't be shy!!
I would really love to spread these around.

So WHO else is going?! :B

raaaargh why don't they make square glasses for animals in that game guh.
I just want to make my avatar look like my kitty self.

I feel like I'm just using lineplay to live out my animal crossing fantasies, because being a human is so DUMB gosh.

If you wanna be friends on there we should totally do that. My name is Kennedy but there seems to be a lot of other kennedy's out there. Is there a way to specify usernames???

EDIT: Changed my name to JF Kennedy for simplicity

Hey people! Anthrocon is just around the corner and I'm curious about whose going?

I'm also looking for roommates!

Hey guys I've officially started doing daily comics (ferreal this time!!)
And I think I'd like to have even more practice, so I want to kinda do these silly "prompt" comics where I draw a comic based on a word or phrase.
Here is where you guys come in, just give me a prompt!
After I finish them all I'll post them to here or tumblr.
Thanks guys!

http://dailysteely.tumblr.com/
Okie doke so I've been drawing comics on a sorta regular basis recently, though they're all pretty vent related.
If you would like to follow me that's alright, but it is pretty whiny so I won't feel bad if you guys don't want to. :B

Seriously it makes no sense.
I'm tired of being kept up at night because of this.

1. First thing you wash in the shower? My shoulders I guess.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Ah well I only wear one "hoodie" regularly, it's red, so I guess that's it.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes! All the time.
4. Do you plan outfits? Everything I own sorta goes together in a weird grungy way so I guess not.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Sick!
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? The plastic covering my paper towel rolls.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? A-I-M, but I never use it sooo...
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? Before european intervention the Native Americans were an advanced civilization that watched TV on plasma screens
9. Did you meet anybody new today? Don't think so!
11. Do you floss? Yes but not as often as I should!
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? Skyrim. :B
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? In monthssssss
14. Are you emotional? Well I'm not a toaster, so yes.
15. Would you dance to the taco song? Only if I got tacos out of it!
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? No?
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? Lick, it hurts my teeth to bite :9
18. Do you like your hair? It's hair.
19. Do you like yourself? Not...really
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Met Matthew Shultz (lead singer of cage the elephant) in a little obscure thrift shop. Kind of an annoying guy! >:/
21. Do you like cottage cheese? No get that shit away from me.
23. How many countries have you visited? None unfortunately. Never had the opportunity to leave America
24. Are your parents strict? When I was a minor living with them, yes. Now that I'm an adult they're not at all.
25. Would you go sky diving? Maaybe
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Dinner is dinner! Better be good.
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? Noooooo...
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? MY BLINGING CALCULATOR!!
29. Have you ever been in a castle? Yes, it was pretty cool.
30. Do you rent movies often? No.
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? Not taking a math class currently!
32. Have you made a prank phone call? Nope.
33. Do you own a gun? Nope!
34. Can you count backwards from 74? Yes why wouldn't I be able too...?
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? Probably just and maybe my roomie
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? Yeah probably. Maybe a t-shirt or something.
38. Ever been on a train? A couple times yeah!
39. Ever been in love? I love lots of people!!
40. Do you have a cell-phone? Yes
41. Are you too forgiving? I forgive people a little too easily, to be honest.
42. Do you use chap stick? Yeah, it's winter and my lips get all dry. :B
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? Going to class!!!
44. Can you use chop sticks? Yes but not very well. :'B
45. Ever have cream puffs? Yes and I shamelessly enjoy them.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? No.
47. What was the last question you asked? I can't remember!
48. What was the last CD you bought? An Arcade fire album I think?
49. Boys or girls? Gender doesn't matter, as long as you're tall and beautiful.
50. What is your bus number for school? I just walk to school.
51. Is your hair curly? Not at all!
52. Last time you cried? A couple of days ago unfortunately! :/
53. Ever walked into a wall? Dur yes.
54. Do looks matter? Yeah, sorry peoples. Looks play a huge part in level of attraction. Although personality is extremely important as well! And intelligence UvU
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? Nupe.
56. Have you ever slapped someone? Haha yeah! Never seriously though.
57. Favorite time of the year? Spring, because then I have 9 months of awesome weather to look forward to!
58. Favorite color? Honey's colors honestly. Sky blue, orange, and yellow.
59. Are you sarcastic? More Apathetic really.
60. Do you have any tattoos? Not yet!
61. The last person you held hands with?
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? No??
63. Where was your default picture taken at? HMMMMM
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? Unfortunately yes.
65. Do you like your life right now? Somethings I like, somethings I don't!
66. How often do you talk on the phone? Only REALLY talk to my folks on my phone.
67. What is your favorite animal? Therapsids, armored fish, squids, pigs, deer, cats, chickens.
68. What was the most recent thing you bought? Groceries I guess, stuff for my roomie to make some truffles!
69. Do you have good vision? Ehhh. I mean I can function without my glasses, but I'd much rather wear them.
70. Can you hula hoop? I haven't tried in so long I can't tell you!
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? Depends on the reasons and what the circumstance is. If they went behind my back and purposefully kept it a secret or did it to hurt me than nope nope nope.
72. Do you have a job? Yep :B
74. What are you wearing? Sweat shirt and underwear.
75. Have you ever crawled through a window? Yes

I'm sick again
Can some one come and put me out of my misery, I'd really appreciate that okay.

Also is keeping me up and wants to eat all my spring salad! (dats okay tho)

On a lighter note, new icon, DANCING COMPUTER!!!

I woke up to the sound of the neighbors above me abusing their dog.
Hya called animal control.

I'm so distressed right now.

EDIT: Animal control came
The officer was super helpful and looked like she cared a lot. Me and Hya both filled out statements.
Unfortunately since we didn't SEE anything, only listened to it, there was only so much information we could give them.
I just hope that they can see the evidence on the animal.

I'm thinking of doing sketch streams, where I do peoples characters.
Now I don't know which I should do, donation streams or "pay what you can".
The quality of art for "pay what you can" streams would probably be higher, since I'm actually getting paid for each individual image. And depending on how much they pay the better the image will be.
But at the same time I kinda like just doodlin for folks and if some one feels generous and tosses in a few bucks I'd appreciate it.

What do you guys think??

Hey guys!!
I'd love to get more digital practice in, and I really enjoyed drawing this picture
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9728091/

If you would like one I am taking commissions of these for $20-$25 (depending on the character)
Please let me know if you're interested!!

thank you UvU

Where are you staying?
Main hotel!

What day are you getting there?
I will be arriving thursday evening :>

Who will you be with?
aaand

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
I like to meet new people, but I'll definitely try to hang out with and feel free to chat with me though, I don't mind wandering on my own.

Will you be suiting?
Yes! Look out for a colorful bird cat thing.

Do you do free art?
Not if you ask.

What is your gender?
Does it matter?? I don't care about pronouns.

How tall are you?
5'2"

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
Yes I am taken, so nope.

Can I talk to you?
Yes please do! I would be delighted if people recognize me!

Can I touch you?
Really depends, though I'll let you know right away if I don't like something. I'm generally open to touching as long as you smell nice.


How can I find you?
I'll be in suit a lot, so that's a good start to finding me. Other than that I look like a little short scruffy dark haired person with thick squarish glasses.
I basically look like this!
http://imm.io/TNzn

Can I visit your room?
Only if my roomies are totally cool with it.

Can I buy you drinks?
Sorry, not unless I know you super duper well!!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I only really snuggle with people I feel absolutely comfortable around. Hugs are okay, especially when I'm in suit.

Are you nice?
I try to be, but I'm a little anxious and awkward so you'll have to excuse me sometimes when word vomit falls out of my mouth.

Do you have an artist table?
Nupe!!

Will you be going to parties?
Maaaybe?? Depends on how I'm feeling and who'll be there.

Will you be performing?
Not in an official performance no, I'll be in suit and that's the extent of it.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell "Honey" or tap me on the shoulder.

What/where will you be eating?
Probably granola bars. :B

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure!

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Go ahead, as long as I know where the sketch book is then I'm fiiine.

Can I take your picture?
You can take pictures of me in suit? I don't know why you'd want pictures of me out of it.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To meet people, and perform and have fun.

I apologize for the huge amount of uploads, I just knew if I didn't do it now, I never would!

Hi guys
As a lot of you know, my own art brings me great...anguish.
I'm not drawing much personal art because my motivation is at zero percent. Mostly because I feel like "I know I'll hate it so whats the point"
pretty dumb I know! but what can I do?
Anyway, I'd greatly appreciate if I could get some critique. I know what I currently have uploaded to my gallery doesn't fully reflect my abilities as an artist but I'd still appreciate if it was scrutinized.

Thank you everyone, I'm really glad you're still sticking with me.