My ex Mal broke up for the second time. I need love advice from every one, with my history of 30 exes. And the whole recent breakup. I don't know what to do. I'm lost and I don't know where I'm going in life. I know Breanna and Lilly were trying to save the relationship. But the ship broke in half and sank. The lack of communication was the problem. Spatenka was right. I'm incompatible with anyone. She said I'm like a pickle jar, sour to everyone. I have Borderline Personality Disorder. But society says people with that disorder are lethally toxic. The reason we broke up was no communication whatsoever and Mal with his boyfriend Max. But then there was the fact Wilson did love me and that made Mal mad. There were a lot of factors that contributed to the breakup. But now that we are single and I'm friends with Mal and seeing where that goes. I need advice on what to do. I am so lost. I don't know what to do. And I need help. But I do at the same time want to see where life takes on me. Some told me to focus on myself. But then others said it was selfish to focus on myself. Please someone help me.

My friend Lilly died a month ago due to cyberbullying and doxxing. A guy that she rejected didn't take it to kindly and made her sleep with the fishes. But before her attacker ended her I promised her to look after her husband and draw her more, which I will be doing. I even promised her husband a few days ago I'll draw him and his deceased wife together. And for those who asked me for commissions in PM please have patience. I know I'm behind but now I'm working on them. I'm swamped with taking care of sick or injured people not as a doctor but as a friend. But new and old people can ask for more. I don't mind stuff being added to the commission's request.

I like to redraw some drawings I made as I feel like they aren't how I wanted them to come out. So every now and then I'll be going back to redrawing some drawings. Some will have constant revisions till its just right. And two people said they would help me. Even better. And they would be teaching me under their wings.

Two people gave me the best advice. Now I can start to slowly improve. It will take time. But it will be worth it. With them guiding me. I can get to drawing furries and women. Plus I'm way behind on commision that people have asked me to draw for them that involve women or furries. I had to put those commissions on pause almost forever. But now I can slowly start to fill out those commissions. Plus I will take the time slowly to work on the drawings. I don't want to rush. God knows when I rush, I sweat and pencils create smudges. Planning on buying artist smudge-proof gloves soon.

I'm asking for help from anyone or a group to teach me how to draw both male and female furries. And how to draw female humans. I've only known how to draw male humans. The only tools I use to draw are paper, colored pencils, and Sharpies.

My scanner finally came in. Now I can start uploading again. And I chose a scanner who's design is sleek and more robust.

I won't be able to upload new drawings till next month when I can buy a new scanner. Till then I'll still draw. But I'll focus more on my writing stories.

Starting a new series that has to do with plants vs zombies but traveling the world fighting zombies. Plus I'll also start drawing scenes from My stories I've written so far.

The writers block finally ended. Now I'm working on chapter 5 along with the other chapters of my written book series.

Want to roleplay with the characters of my world. I now made a dedicated Discord server where you can roleplay with them. Moving things to World Anvil soon. Message me if you want to join.

You guys I feel so comfortable with that I'll share more art and I'll also be writing more stories too.

I'm going back to fix the manual's information on my characters. I saw there are tons of mistakes. And information errors too.

I posted NSFW like I promised. I'll start posting more from now on. Usually, I always post NSFW stories. But now I'll also post art too. More art to come from now on.

You're probably wondering when I am going to upload lewd drawings. Well, the short answer is soon. But it will definitely be my next upload. It's just I have no inspiration on what to draw next.

I'll also start releasing episode short stories because writing those is faster. Plus I'm going back to reworking the Touching Sprit Bear book rewrite AU. Plus I'll extend chapters and add new chapters in the book since there was a considerable time skip in the original. And I'll start releasing more drawings soon—even drawings of the characters.

I'm taking a break from working on the Demon Roommates series because of writer's block. But I'll upload one of my stories I did work on a while ago last year.

I'll start now drawing the titles of the books that I write. Plus I'll be also drawing scenes from my stories too. And another update. I'll be uploading more drawings. And I'm getting better at drawing furries now.

I'll be uploading more stores and art. This will be big for me since I'm very shy. And if you thinking. Yes. I will be uploading NSFW art soon. Right now I'm focusing on SFW art. And I'll be also practicing drawing furfandom. For now mostly I draw humans. I want to also draw furfandom stuff too.

Now I'll start the process of uploading my drawings here and at the same time redraw my fursona.

Good news is i'll be now posting art since I finally got a scanner and printer and devoting All my time here and on Steam and Twitter and Discord too. Bad news is people on every social media platform hate me and are getting me kicked out as fast as possible. I don't think anyone knows what Borderline Personality Disorder is, do they?

I have been feeling down with depression. Plus I had writers block. But now that I feel better. I'll resume chapter 4 of my demon roommate series.

Here is a link to my new Steam https://steamcommunity.com/id/stevenr380680s/

If you wanna add me on steam. Just ask me. I have a new account. my old one got deleted because my friend framed me to the cops and the steam company for bad things I didn't do.

I finally finished working on Chapter 3. I started Chapter 4 already. But it is still a Work In Progress.

For those wondering what's going on. I'm currently working on chapter 3. Plus I'm working on writing other stories.