Helluva year. Going to try and upload ALL the art I have been getting here or at my vore alt :Jagerchen: commissioning more to play around with a lot of themes I had sat on for years.

Stuck in Florida for a bit. Trying to find places to relocate too. Partied myself into the type 2. Going to try to make it to cons eventually.

I'm going to try and be more positive and less cynical now. Just had a legit stroke after doing a few months of self HRT and untreated high BP because I couldn't stand to be stuck in this gender any longer. Hopefully I'll be able to find an endo soon. Need to let go of this anger and bitterness. Trying to use the conception of Butterfluff to accept this non-ideal body has been a goal for awhile, maybe that'll alleviate some of the dysphoria and dysmorphia.

So I'm no longer in Kentucky! I'm out of that place, should have burned the house to the ground but now I'm in Phoenix, Arizona! And this place is a lot less humid than either Kentucky and Florida but the temperature is insane. So I got to live for one year in a place that has seasons before moving to an arid desert that's a testament to man's hubris.

Luckily for me most of the shit I had packed up from the first move hadn't been unpacked a year later, so that's points for procrastination. We're in a much smaller place now, but it's modern! No more dilapidated sinks dripping in the kitchen, or rickety water heaters that turn showering into a quick time event so you have to slap the shower head out of the way before it boils your skin off. No more sketchy ghetto neighborhoods were I see 4 hookers a night playing Pokemon go, or are constantly asked for cigarettes. Now, all that's ahead of me is dehydration and heat strokes, and trying to establish some degree of normalcy in my life.

I finally moved to Kentucky! So I guess that makes me an official  kentucky-furs now. I'm sad to leave Florida and all my friends behind there, but I needed the change of pace, needed to get out and live on my own, live with my boyfriend(s).

The move itself was stressful, spent a week partying and packing up, took 30 something hours of driving a U-Haul that literally ran on money, and my girlfriend and the friend I took with me to kentucky and I ran on nothing but energy drinks and adderall for the duration. (I felt like a real trucker!)

So now it's taken me about 2-3 weeks to slowly unpack my shit and find places to put it, make new places to put my shit, and clean up the entropy that had developed over the course of 2-3 years of people living here while they stopped giving a shit, hopefully this place will clean up nicely.

I'm excited to meet new furs in the area, even though I've already met quite a few the last few times I visited here.

I feel like any time I try to make a journal that is somewhat in depth with what's going on in my life I always scrap it mid way through. I start to think "Hey, you're being kind of selfish thinking anyone gives this much of a shit about what's going on in your life, why are you wasting the effort?"

Anyone else have this same problem?

Just want to know if I should look for peeps when I'm there.

Don't tell me you weren't warned. >:C

Well, I'm in a poly relationship, been in one for a year. Not that I had any intention of hiding it on FA. It's just relationships can be a bit tenuous and prone to bursting into smoke. My friends know I have two boyfriends, it's not something they care about since they're furries and not complete assholes.

However, my problem comes from having to deal with people who are close enough to me to know I'm gay, but not trustworthy to tell about being poly-amorous. This has caused some unique problems in ordinary dialogue when talking about my relationship, referring to an interest, career, item, experience a boyfriend has, or talking about the general routine or dynamic. Half-lies through omission and editing have to be performed on the spot.

This in turn has created a quantum boyfriend. A boyfriend that has both and neither contradictory attributes of either boyfriend at the same time. Such as: He has a GED and finished Highschool, he hasn't gone to college and has a bachelor's. He is both working and unemployed (although that changed today). He is and isn't on medication! Some things are more plausible like: He has a car he's fixing and a usable one. Or Recovering alcoholic and can't drink because of meds. So like at any given time depending on what information I give to people, it sounds like I might be a compulsive liar. My big problem is I'm used to talking about them as "they" or "them". Might also make me sound schizophrenic.

On that note, one of them was laid off today, the other was fired when I visited a few weeks ago so now they're both unemployed. And on top of it, a schizophrenic ex showed up to their house completely out of the blue, which the other did not handle so well. Yay long distance, nothing like having problems that I can't do anything to solve. /rant

Like seriously, I'm hungry and don't want to get out of bed.

Like watch this, seriously, go watch it. Then tell me how you feel.


http://www.collegehumor.com/video/6.....re-super-gross

Why are people threatening to leave FA again? Jesus, it's like it happens every 4 months or so. It's like everyone suffers from a case of thong-up-the-butt. And I will make that judgement without ANY PRIOR KNOWLEDGE ON WHATS GOING ON/DOWN.

You ain't gettin out of this. I had to pull a lot of strings to get them to hire an 8 year old.

Pretty much this, like all the time.

 Krispup is holding a raffle for a spot in a comic he got from Jailbird!

Rules are you have to be watching him and the artist, you need to repost a journal as advertisement (like I am doing) and you need to post references of your character and tell a funny furry related story about your stay in the fandom. Specifics to these rules can be found in his entry journal here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5109972/ Good luck!

It's time for me to write down all the stuff that I owed/paid for. I feel kind of bad for doing it. But it just needs to be done for the sake of posterity/memory/convenience. Dates may be rechecked later, list will be edited.




Artist Paid What/When


 Nayel-ie $120 couples picture of cosplay for me and Ophois June 2013
 BearPatrol $80AUD Wanted something by the artist. Months ago

Thank you so much to all who participated, it was a great way to start off my first raffle with so many participants and it pains me that I can only choose one winner. I used a random number generator to choose from 1-230 of the entry points. The result was number 76

http://i784.photobucket.com/albums/.....ps25d01fc7.jpg


Number 76 corresponds to  syst84 give them a round of applause, congrats on winning the raffle. I will send the references to  Hardyboy so that they can complete the picture.


HOWEVER: Since this took so long, and I put work into actually assigning the numbers I MAY be using the same numbers to choose a runner or runners up next sunday(possibly earlier) for an inked sketch picture by an artist who's stream I frequent (if she feels up for it) and I'd like to hear any ideas you all may have for that.

Sorry about the long delay, I feel really bad for making you wait so long, as well as keeping the artist in waiting. Saturday-Monday at work really kicked my ass, had three stressful days that really took it out of me. Started getting sick Monday and accidentally mixed Dayquil with my ADHD medication which led to some really bad things. Then Tuesday and Wednesday I was combating a 101 degree fever, chills, aches, congestion and coughing. Could barely move out of my bed. I really appreciate your patience and will work on it when I have the energy.

My very first art raffle! I've decided to do a raffle for the femboy group by having a scene with yours truly. The artist who will be participating in drawing the raffle picture is  Hardyboy , it is a full coloured commission.

The scene itself is a femboy Stiefel helping one of our amazing femboys get more acquainted with the girly fashion. The picture itself is mature, but I'd like the participants to vote on whether or not they want it mature/g-rated. Peenors can always be removed with the magic of photoshop, or a good surgeon in Thailand.

http://www.imagebam.com/image/6f7c1b271308490

Rules for the contest:

1. You must be a femboy or have the option available for your character to be femboy.

2. Replying to this journal will get you in the raffle with 1 point.

3. Watching me will net you an additional two points.

4. Posting a journal here advertising this raffle will get you another 2 points.

5. Watching the  femboy group will get you another additonal 1 point.

6. It would help if you also posted a reference and whether or not you want this to be a mature pic. As well as a notification on who you've watched.

Points are equivalent to how many chances you get to win in the raffle. Someone with six points has a way better statistical chance to win versus someone with 1. After the cut off date I will tally up all the points versus participants, assign numbers and will choose a winner with a random number generator (Or a hat if I'm feeling old timey).

The cut-off date is Saturday the 24th Noon....or noon thirty, depends when I roll out of bed.

So speaketh Caesar.

A relative of mine was vacationing in Vero Beach and the only day she could see me was the day I had work at 9am. So I woke up 2 pm Thursday, went to work 7am Friday, got out of work after 25 hrs sleep dep. drive north for 40 minutes car starts breaking and accelerating slower than normal, something smelled like it was burning. Smoke starts pouring out of the right side front wheel 4.4 miles away from my destination. Relatives had been drinking and where uncomfortable driving. Had to wait an hour and 10 for a taxi. Phone is about to die, have to hitch a ride and spend $39 on a charger else I have no way to make contact. So I'm stuck here for the night in the old timeshare I spent weeks of my summer life as a kid in. The smell of the ocean breeze. Things have changed. There are all these young people here, it used to just be patents and their snot nosed kids. Holy shit, those teens are the snot nosed kids! Hopefully the mechanic won't try and fuck me for replacing the seized caliper. I also have to be to work by 5. I'm 30 hours in and not tired.

Asteroid is scheduled to pass by in an hour (14:00 EST.)

If I don't make it, tell my family I said "Hello"

Come for the art, stay for the cookies!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4328641/

Character as a Legionary Decanus from Fallout New Vegas
Ref: http://fallout.wikia.com/wiki/Caesa.....e=Decanus2.png
Why: I like Roman things, and I loved the concept of a revived legion in a post apocalyptic wasteland. Also may make this a cosplay if I can get the bits and bobs together.

Character as a Hessian Jager
Ref: http://oyster.ignimgs.com/mediawiki.....tabase_Art.jpg
Why: play on names. Also, dat uniform

My character with an update to hair that sort of reflects my own, maybe a more male looking version. Not as a change, just as a curiosity.


Smut involving someone else, possibly going halfsies.
Ref: My gallery
Why: Smut is popular.

A commission themed to the thrift store song
Ref: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QK8mJJJvaes
Why: Its hilarious, and I could see a thrift style going well.

Well the good news is: I have a job!
So I have money and feel like a contributing member of society. So you may be seeing more of my character if I get commissions.

The bad news is: I had to cut my long hair. ;A;
So now I look like a boy again rather than an androgynous whatever, and the ego shall surely suffer.

Thanksgiving went par for the course. I wanted to go to a friend's house but decided to stay with my family. Family got drunk cooking, turkey was undercooked, mashed potatoes came out watery, stuffing was burnt, and they forgot to make gravy. Also one friend of the family came over and was making rather inappropriate jokes considering his past.

Or what it really is about: Elliot's Spring Gathering 2012.

I had a great time, although I felt like the con was geared mostly towards couples. I roomed with  Ladyeclair , feyla , and  nekousagi We went to wonderworld together and got to do the rope climbing course, I dressed like a pretty androgynous faggot for the most part of that day, and had  khirnah and  valanth crash with us.

Saturday went pretty well, got dressed up and hung around the artist lounge some, saw my favourite yeener  knottyascot Got my hair did in the morning by  ladylablanc and hung out with her boyfriend  easarcher. Bought some synthetic Double D tits from Zom-B-Bunny for a bargain, wore those for most of the day, they made me feel like a real woman. Ended up partying in  majinkaosu's and  corvuszero's room, but did some pregaming with  hale_laocon,  cherryvulpine, and  kodakk. Also met the coolest couple Kian and  Auracomicobsessed at the end of the night playing on the pool slide and using pool noodles as lightsabers.

Sunday breakfast was cool, the little western town setting made me feel like John Marston, sat with  Rayfoxsith  Raashk and  Kikiama. I'm one of those furfags that doesn't like disney too much, but the experience at Magic Kingdom was still FUCKING FABULOUS. Rode six rides in 3.5 hours, the Jungle Cruise boat operator was chill and didn't give a fuck in any direction. I was dressed in girl's clothes and with boobs for most of disney. Ended up going to a waffle house afterwards, although the last three letters were out so it wasWAFFLE HO. Two boys were ogling me trying to figure out if I was a boy or girl which gave me the idea for a future comic commission.

Got home around 4 in the morning, still dressed up. My makeup has racooned around my eyes like I am Ke$ha, my legs hurt from all the walking and I couldn't be happier. Below is a link to the reference of my journal title, because whenever I hear of Elliot's, I always think of Elliott.






P.S. Look at me name dropping like a fucking boss :p

Anyone else catch Adult Swim's April Fools prank last night? They decided to bring back the old toonami lineup, shit was so cash. I'm asking because I fell asleep after Blue Sub #6 and am trying to find out what shows I missed after that. Who else had a flood of nostalgia from that? I felt like I was caught in a time warp to 10 years ago.