Yes, that's right. I've been at it a while now, but I've been at this pretty heavily.

I haven't quite decided if I want to direct it specifically at the furry community, but there's definitely more elements that I think a lot of ya would love, rather than not. The only change I feel like in the transition would be including sexual scenes. I also have no idea if it's good, but based on the last five or ten things I've read, I feel like my writing is better than theirs. I'm very excited to share this with some people.

But hey, if you're curious about what happens when a Red Dragon, a Griffon, the human Prince he's bonded to, and an exiled Wolf-man turned knight go on an adventure, sound off in the comments.

On August 29th, the hockey world was rocked by the loss of Johnny Gaudreau, also known as Johnny Hockey. He was only 31 years old. His brother Matthew, 29, was also lost.

They were both professional hockey players, taken from us by a drunk driver with a case of road rage. Don't drink and drive. Don't enter the bike lane with your civilian tank SUV or Truck. These are recipes for murder.

The NHL has lost one of its best, and hockey players under six-foot have lost one of the greatest inspirations of our time that we can still excel in a sport increasingly dominated by the 'basketball mentality'.

Hey all,

My birthday is coming up, it's my 28th, and that will mark... Probably about 10 years since I've done anything really exciting for my birthday.

October 6th is the day, and it just so happens to be a Friday this year, so, I'm looking to do something with the weekend, like actually have a party. So, for the weekend, October 6th, 7th, and 8th, I'm doing just that. The house I live in is large enough to sustain a decent party, and there's plenty to do, even in the downtown nearby if you decide you want to wander or explore.

It'll be BYOB(bring your own booze), try to bring something to share. I'll provide what I can, but I'm already intending to provide food, and I asked my roomie if he'd bake a cake. Anything over the aforementioned bottle of liquor (or a case of beer) would be appreciated. I kind of want to keep it low key, not too many people a day, but depending on interest, that could change.

Message me on Telegram, (where this journal will be shared to), if you're interested.


Additionally: Anyone that knows someone looking for a roomie for MFF, hit me up.

I've made it this far, but there's a pretty good chance I've hit the end of the line. I won't know until tomorrow, and as I type this, I have to confess I have been slamming beers because I cannot emotionally cope with the reality, or even fathom how I am going to recoup the possible loss I'm facing.

Today I left work to find my car not going in to gear. It would shift from Park, Reverse, Neutral, and Drive, but none of the gears were being engaged by the clutch. It took a while to realize the extent of the problem, and I found that I had a transmission cooler line separated from the fitting it plugged in to, and leaked out all my trans fluid. I reconnected the fitting and added the extra fluid I carried in my trunk. A couple miles from home it popped out again and pissed out more fluid. I had thought it was fixed until it entered limp home mode, so now I can pretty safely say there's something wrong with my transmission. Tomorrow I have to miss (ANOTHER) day of work to junk yard pick with the roommate for another pair of trans cooler lines, in hopes that this isn't a transmission issue. And then I have to hope that this issue didn't burn out a clutch pack or leave a gear assembly dry enough to waste the transmission.

In summary, my car may in fact be impossible to save at this point. With the other things wrong with it, there is actually no worth in replacing the transmission, as 95 Saturn S-Series are getting harder to find, and their parts harder. So, if the car is dead, I will probably take it for one last 'good-bye' drive, and say goodbye to the rest of you with it, since as a college graduate, working in his career field, I can't afford a car payment, or even a used car.

October 6 is coming again, I'm turning 27!

For my birthday, I got myself another 2 goal hockey game, lol. I've got 5 goals on the season, 3 games in.

I am still looking for a roommate in the Milwaukee area, whether they already have their own place or not doesn't matter. I NEED one.

I am desperately reaching out to the furry community right now.

I'm honestly tired of struggling with this, I've been trying to move out of my current (and very stressful) living situation for a long time. Finally, I have a solid option, and don't have enough fucks left to give about what happens to the people I separate from.

Currently, I am looking for residence in the Milwaukee area, I've found several places, but I'm running in to a recurring issue. The cost to live alone is a bit too steep for a 27 year old man just 1 year in to his professional career of choice, so I am seeking a roommate to fill the void in those expenses (and honestly, to keep me from becoming oppressively lonely).

If you or someone you know is looking for a roommate, PLEASE FOR FUCK'S SAKE SEND THEM MY WAY. Seriously, don't be like every other fuck in the world or on social media, read it(or not), scroll on by, and just think 'hope he finds someone'. FUCKING LET THEM KNOW I'M LOOKING.

I'm looking at a goal move-in date of October 1st, so that I can get back to my regularly scheduled living of my life. Furthermore, striking it out on my own, I am at a... Lack... of finances to fill all the holes. Hell, some more expensive move-ins are beyond my reach right now just because of finances. I could really use a little help with money to help get me out of this stressful environment I'm engulfed by. Any kind of monetary donation would be greatly appreciated.

Said financial assistance would be towards me getting an actual bed, and basic furniture that I lack, due to the way my previous living arrangements, as well as move in costs that I will very likely lack.

I could use some for real help here, from other people. Please tell me I'm not alone in this situation, that at least some of you have been here before.

At the very least, I would really like to relocate with someone I know to ease the transition.

If you or someone you know is in need of help sharing the burden that is trying to strike out on your own, please let me know immediately.

Donations can be sent to my paypal, enjoycoke182[at]hotmail.com

Celebrations are in order, I've survived 26 years!

So, lately I've been craving a hockey themed commission of my character, since I only have the one badge, really. I'm looking for a skilled artist that would want to do something clean, hockey related, and I'm potentially interested in seeing if anyone I know would like to be in it with me. If you know of an artist that would be interested, or are interested in splitting art with me, give me a poke.

So yeah. I was at Chlorine-con as we dubbed it. In all the most fun I had was the MFF hockey game organized by Poomie and PJ-fox. After that I met a few people, worked some con suite, and spent about an hour in the cold without anything but a rather light shirt and blue jeans. I think the thing that will stand out most to me that night was evacuating the hotel and smelling chlorine. I was on the 9th floor at the time, but if I hadn't been in another room I would have likely been one of the people in the hospital. Then I spent a while huddled up to Truegrave, Ket, and a fursuiter I didn't get the name of. We were really damn cold too, when we finally were able to get inside, adrenaline was starting to let go, and the sudden induced sobriety gave way to a very painful hangover.

In my room, after we were all let back in the hotel, was where my mind went from survival mode to full on mental breakdown. Panic attack with pretty much nobody to pull me back. I spent most of the night feeling like I was going to vomit. So much for going back to work at 6am for con suite.

I've tried so hard not to let Sunday morning define my convention, I met some incredible people, and I had a great time at the hockey game. But my mind can be incredibly weak at times, and I always go back to it when I reflect on MFF, or the hockey game. I love MFF though, so I hope I have a better 2015.

I've been a bit sick since I got back from MFF. What troubles me more though is my drinking, I don't think I've had a single night since I came back where I didn't pick up the bottle. I'm pretty sure drinking for depression, especially if it's just PCD, is very unhealthy. If it doesn't stop soon, I think I'll be seeking some help.

On the bright side, I finished all my classes for the semester, I pulled 2 A's and an A-, the latter of which I'm a little disappointed in. Now hopefully I can get through what I'm dubbing the 'doom' semester. I am going in to a stretch of 4 classes a week, each of them very long, limiting my ability to work and pay my bills. I need these courses and if I stop now I'll have to start paying back my loans. Of course, my employer isn't quite opening up the new location for a few months. Hopefully I can transfer to it, and can find a place to live in Kenosha within a short period.

Advice on the living arrangements would be appreciated, the rest of it is just me getting my thoughts out.

I'll be there! You can spot me by my bright red Grand Rapids Griffins jersey! I'm Con Suite staff so you'll see me in there in the early mornings, and on Friday I'll be at the MFF pickup hockey game! Come watch!

You won't hear me admit fear of very many things in life, I am one of those men who like to hide behind a layer of 'bone-headedness', awkwardness, and dissociation by bad jokes, and in general maintain a rough around the edges exterior, so this is a moment of extreme weakness for me. Even my own boyfriend gets the rough side of me because I have a hard time opening up...

If anyone wants to psyche me or something, more on that later.

What I understand is... College, yeah. I'm turning 25 this year, and am finally beginning college. I'm recognized as an independent going in to this, and I've been on my own since I was 20, even before that to an extent because my parents hardly had the money to take care of me after my fifteenth birthday. So here I am, I'm accepted to a local college, beginning to register for classes, thinking I've done my FAFSA right. And I find out... No, there's three things I didn't do right, even though I've got more comprehension skills than 95% of other human beings, according to the testing. And even with someone showing me everything and guiding me through it at the campus today, I still have absolutely no idea. And to make it worse, the questions, I have no idea what questions to ask to figure out... Where this money is going to go, how I'm going to continue to make a wage that I can live off of, a plethora of things including supplies. The grants and federal loans only cover so much... I scrape by as is.

So that means I have to do more than collect every free penny I can, and the 9,500 the government will loan me that I can pay back(probably.) It's all in all a huge commitment financially, and if something, anything goes seriously wrong in the next 2 years I could be out all this money and be totally in debt and completely screwed. If I make it through college then yeah, I am fine, I'll be very employable... But my life has been one disaster after another, so I naturally expect something to go wrong. I don't want my hand to be held through life. but I really wish I had someone that could... But I really truly understand why so many people are afraid to take this step, and I no longer will criticize someone for not wanting to. It's just... Scary, I took a leap of faith moving in with Pan and his boyfriend, and it has somewhat worked out, I got lucky. I took a leap of faith dropping out of high school and getting a GED instead, that was a fuckup in my mind. That's also another thing that scares me, I've quit partway through so many times...

I won't say don't do college, it's a waste of money... But I won't accuse someone of just not wanting to take that step.

I will be leaving Tuesday morning for Michigan to pick up Ix the Puppy, my boyfriend, I will also spend some time with family in recognition of 4th of July if I'm not totally fucking exhausted from the drive.

On Wednesday we will depart early as possible for the hotel, I am staying at the Omni with  noiresalem and his boyfriend, and  Ix_The_Puppy until Sunday. There will be significant amounts of alcohol in my room and friends will be invited to consume it, bringing something to share would be greatly appreciated if you do.

If you run in to me, feel free to talk me up, hug me, or invite me to your room or out for a drink! I'm very friendly and maybe hopefully not a creeper to all you much cooler folks.

As journal implies, I'll be at MCFC, if you spot me, give me a hug! I'm not hard to miss. Unless I don't get it in time I'll be wearing a Grand Rapids Griffins alternate jersey with "Storm" on the back, and if you're not good at that, my badge if that wasn't obvious enough. I'll be like, spending most of my days looking for parties and drinking at the bar, or at werewolf! Drunken werewolf hosting may happen, as I've been asked to help run it.

As most of my friends know I've had a pretty rough month, from people pretending to be my friend to pain from a wisdom tooth that has become impacted, now its hit rock bottom. The engine in my car has died, my baby, the most precious thing I owned.

We did a compression test, and stopped at cylinder #3, it's supposed to have 180 psi minimum, but it only had 55, the most likely diagnosis is a burned off valve, anything it could be means the engine is done...

Well, after three months of managing to not drink... Here I go again, a depression spiral, so I'm going to bust out the Jager.

It's unbelievable how I can feel like I'm completely alienated, even among a culture of people who have been alienated from others. So I drink tonight, to forget shit and pass the fuck out.

Maybe I'll die in the process and everyone will be rid of me.

So one of my bi-weekly things is hockey, I go to play quite a bit!

I thought it'd be nice to see how many furs we could get to play together, and have noticed a decently sized following through the hockey furs page.

So I've gone and started spreading the idea of a furry hockey meet, right now there is no date, and the availability for a position is limited, here's what I know right now and what I'm looking at.

September/October/November weekend date, Saturday or Sunday. If it works out better may do it the day before MFF, this depends on how many people I have interested.

Location will be "Crystal Ice House" in Crystal Lake, Illinois. It is a fairly large facility, they have 3 rinks and the ice is well taken care of. They also have good rates on ice rental.

It will be a 2 hour scrimmage. If anyone wants to run the score clock or "Ref" then let me know,

The arena will require you sign a waiver. Hockey is a fast paced sport and you can get hurt, that's why it's there.

Ice House rules requires it be NON CONTACT - not that I worry with this regarding furries too much, but this means No Checking! Obviously its hockey and there will be incidental contact, and getting in someone's way is totally viable still, but no taking a run at somebody and looking to lay waste to them. At my sessions I lean in to others a bit.

FULL GEAR IS REQUIRED TO PLAY! Participation is not restricted to gender.

There is room for 24 skaters and 4 goalies. It will likely be $10 or $20 to attend, which will cover the cost of renting the ice. Cost will depend on number of attendees. The rules will likely be self enforced, it is more than likely that nobody will 'officiate' and I would have to check with the ice house before even having that, as they may not allow it. That means icing, offsides, out of play, and high sticking will be enforced by the players, and it will be up to the players to keep it fair.

This will be a just for fun thing, I love hockey, and long to know more people that share it as a common interest. If you are interested in taking part, contact me, leave a comment on this journal.

If you are willing to get the time off work/whatever, then let me know. If you have thoughts, leave those too.