its strange, in christmas' in the past I always couldn't wait to see what was under the tree for me, but the last few its been more I cant wait to see the looks on the people face of the ones im giving gifts to. this year as an example I only got one thing, beyond the family tradition of give ordiments as a gif, and it didn't bother at all. It was watching the expressions on my neice and newphews face when they opened their gifts, and see the looks of surprise on my brothers face, and his wife when they opened theirs, that brought joy to me. I don't know if its because I had to scrimp and save for those gifts because I've had a bit of a rough time this year, or im just growing up, but to me this has been the best Christmas ive had in a long time.

 masked-lion is in need of some help so She can stay in university http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5144509/ If you her a paw, it would be most appreciated, even if its just by get the word out.

well this tiger is moving out, and getting an apartment. my first apparment, now I have share a town home with a friend before, but this is different, every things in my name, and its just me living there no one else, best part is its 2 minute away from my new job and only a mile or so from my grand dads. im really excited. and plus ill no long have to put up with my sister inlaw, don't get me wrong she family and I lover her to death, but 6 months under the same rough has got old for both of us. lol besides that its going to be easier for me to have a life with outmy niece and nephew constantly nosing around and pestering me, lol. :) I one excite tiger cant yal tell

Why is it when I feel like the world is caving in, and frustrated with hoe things are going in my life, I turtle and wall my self off, and end up pushing people away? And why is it the more frustrated and bottle up I get the more and more the most petty and insignificant of things get to me? What is worse it at these times I feel what I can only describe as a darkness creeping in, with brings with it a very dark thought. that though scares me, but it always comes when I feel like I hit rock bottom.
This cycle seems to come every time I hit a rough patch in my life. This time at the third month of being jobless after following my gut instinct and picking up everything and moving to Texas. The frustrations mounted I walled enough even though I have been staying with the two people I can talk too about anything,my bro and his wife. And now since I did what I do when I get this way and turtled up,instead of talking about my problems with my bro and his wife. Something so petty that it should have not have even bothered me in the least, cause me to snap and do something really stupid. And because of my stupidity and me inability to open up when I should, I may have destroyed my friend ship with my bros wife, and I only have my self to blame in this. I look back every time I do this I end up hurting people who care about and are just trying to be there for me. And all because I want to be stubburn and handle my promblems my self………

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4522373/  DashaRhosenwyn of  cuddle_puppy_quilts is taking emergency quilt commissions, She needs a bit of a helping paw.

Merry Christmas yal :)

Till my life changes hopefully for the better. At the of Augest, i am leaving maryland to move to texas. I hoping that one ill be able to find a good job that i will enjoy and beable to make a career out of, and two be able to find a place of my own to where i dont need to have a roommate in order to make ends meet. all in all im excited and cant wait though the prep for the move is making my life completely chaotic.

Heres my battle tag
Stormtiger#1475

Hello yal,

Just thought i would pt the out there. Do to the reaction of certain furs around fa an on the advice of  Amwulf My aligator snapping turle Tempest now has a dedicated FA page  Tempest-Turtle though right now the only uploads will be he ref sheet and a wonder piece by Amwulf. i will be add more images of him as soon as i can afford some commishes of him. please fell free to stop be and say hello, just becare Tempest has been Known to snap at people. =)

I'm back from my 2 week trip to texas for botcon and some time with my brother and his family. i will say the it was a blast and i had alot of fun, and i even met a fellow fur there  kits5786 he's a great guy not to mention the first fellow fur i have actually met in person =).
Also i want to apollogize for the spuradic replysa, and comments, unfortunately i was trying to stay in contact with my smart phone while i was at botcon and well for some unknown reason verizon service does not like the area the hotel the con was in was at.

Well im about to depart on the 2 day cross country tripfrom maryland to texas, for this year Botcon in dallas, and to see my Big bro and his family, and to see my grandfather, aunts, uncles, cousins and a few friens in the tyler,overton, kilgore areas. Im cant wait to hit the road. If any other transformers fan type furs are going to bethere, drop me a line maybe we could hang out at the con. I'm going to be there from the 24th to the 29, rest of the time ill be visiting family and friens in the area, and getting into the usaul havoc i get into, lol.

 Neko-Maya is having an art raffle to celebrate 3000+ watchers so go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3300096/
if you like a chance at some really exquisite art.

Yep as of today I am now 32 years old, man where as the time gone. it seems like yesterday i had just hit 18. Since i have to work today im not realy going to be doing any thing to celabrate it until this week end, then its off to virginia to spend time with some long time close friends and cause havoc like there no tomorrow, lol.

heres a wonder ful link to enlist for the closed beta https://playhawken.com/?ref=zp5w334s

I have to admit as a transformers collector, hunting for new transformers can be rather frustrating. Like right now when there is nothing new out or if it is its so sparce distributed its next to impossible to find. Its also frustrating when you are looking for one toy and it just never seems to be any where you look for it. Right now my bane seem to be the transformers prime first edtion cliffjumper, i found the other 3 first edtion deluxes before xmas, but this seems to be now where to be found, except on ebay or amazon for extreme prices, its list on amazon for $124 i cant see paying that for a toy that cost 12 buck to begin with. =( it just drives me crazy. if it wasnt for the fact its a different toy from the mainline transformers prime cliffjumper toy, the lack of being able to find wouldnt bother me. but saddly i have a completionist streak when it caome to have a version of every mold, and character. =(

 Lil-MAJ is hold a contest where the prize is one of 3 wacom tablets. head over here to have a go at it http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3110750/.

yal got to check this out http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3089460/

A fellow fur  Kacifox is in need of help. and support, http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3055487/ if any of yal can lend a hand it would go a long way to help her out.

to every one here on fa. I wish yal a merry Christmas. I hope yal get what you wanted this year =)

Cybercat is running a little journal contest to help draw in some buisness for her online stores, she a great artist show please check out her shops.

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http://www.furaffinity.net/user/cybercat/


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2950591/

Well I have decide to dust off an old tome, well note book i should say, of poems i have written over the years and post here on fa. I have been wanting to get these poems type up for a while and i want to rekindle the creative spark that spawned them in the first place. since i have writen poems for skyler, shoe and tribble, i want to write a poem for jedi, and for her little cavy brother patchwork(i admit i have not really mentions patchwork before). But i also have an ulterior motive, I plan to write a few short poems inspired by some of the Furs i know. so word of warning if your on my watch list or are watching me you could be a victim of this,lol(insert your favorite evil sounding laugh here). Ok that was a bit over the top, lol. I do actually want to write a few poems inspire by some of my friends and fellow furs. Also im planing on up loading images of my ceramic work as well, were as they are furry related i would still like to share them with yal.

StormTiger

Isolation is a place you don't alway ways realize when you are there or that you sometimes have put yourself there. Saddly as for myself i put myself there by building walls to keep the world out figuretively speeking. yes i do let people glimpse the inside of those walls on very rare occasions, and there have been one or two that have broken through over the years, but the walls go back up and the door shuts again if slowl. why i put these walls up, well in truth im affraid, im affriad of getting close to people and for emotional bonds, im afraid that if i let some in im just going to get hurt, as has happened in the past. Oline i hid behind my character in the mmo's i play, or am a silent watcher who rarely comments on the art sights and other online commities i have been appart of, out in the real world i hide behind my sense of humor using it both as sword and shield to protect me. but this is no way to live... The wall has to come done the sword and shield put down, other wise the coldness of loniness will take over. i know the fears will always be there but they are something that has to be conquered not something to be conquered by.

Earlier this year i had a conversation with a artist via shouts on our user pages, i was among some of the earlist people to fav som of his work. When i admited to him i was most a silent lurking faving here and there when i found something liked, his reply seem crest fallen. for the life of me i wish i could remember who he was of find a way to pull up old shouts to find out who he was. I really want to thank him, that conversation was the hammer blow the put the first real cracks in the walls i had built around that i could find some excuse to repair, and put me on the path to bringing down the walls to really let people in and be more than a silent watcher/fav. I do admit its slow going path and i've got a long way to go but the first step have been taken and im not turning around. and to that person who wield that hammer and shattered my shell, thank you.

Stormtiger

death is not something i like to deal with, and i dont handle it. which makes what happened to me this after really hard for me both in haert and soul. I had to make the toughest decision of my life today and my mind says it was the right thing to do but my heart says other wise. I had to have my baby girl, my beloved dog Jedi put to sleep this afternoon. I can not begin to discribe how i feel everthing has be but a blur to me from the time i got the call from the vet's to the time i got there and had to make that dreadful decision, to bringing her home to my parents house and laying her to rest in a spot that over looks the yard she always loved to be in. I know there is a lot im not saying, details that are left out, but right the pain is too deep, the wound to fresh to my heart for me to talk about the whole of the matter.
I know she is in a better place, Where she does not have to deal with the illnesses she has delt with since she was a puppy. but truth be told i want her here with me, i know it sounds and is a very selfish train off thought, but i just want my baby girl back. My heart breaks more and more at every thought and memory of her......