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Fate. Rest In Peace smokey.
Posted 8 years agoIm sitting here, petting my rabbit. watching the life slowly leave him. He's only three years old. With his healthy diet and exercise he should of made it to ten minimum. Im beginning to see this pattern in life. That it sucks. It kicks you while your down over and over. Every now and then you try something new. Maybe find a new source of happiness. Through all the shit you manage to get by on that glimmer of hope you find... But then it just gets ripped away. Theres nothing you can do. Fate is a monster. It cares not who you are or how badly you need that glimmer of light, it just takes it.
Smokey probably wont make it to the morning. Honestly if i didnt have archimedes depending on me i wouldnt want to either. I hate life. I want off this ride now. I'm not suppose to be happy.
Fuck you god if you exist you piece of shit.
Smokey probably wont make it to the morning. Honestly if i didnt have archimedes depending on me i wouldnt want to either. I hate life. I want off this ride now. I'm not suppose to be happy.
Fuck you god if you exist you piece of shit.
Whos on secondlife?
Posted 9 years agoI could use more people to hang out with on secondlife... So who here uses it??
The worst feeling...
Posted 9 years agoRegret… The most awful emotion iv ever known… It lingers the longest… And gives such a empty feeling inside. I have a lot of regret. More then I feel I should at such a young age. And lately what’s hurt the most are the decisions iv made, the ones I know were the right ones, that still hurt anyways. The absolutely hopeless feeling that even though you made the right choice you regret having to make it. You regret the outcome no matter what…
I don’t have a lot to show for with what iv done with my life. It sucks, it really does. There are so many “maybe if I..” Thoughts that go through my head every day. And in the end I don’t even get the liberty of being able to vent it into anger or sadness at something else because ultimately it’s my fault.
Either due to my own actions or lack there of I have put myself in this awful situation which leads to one failure after another. I regret it all. Save for meeting the love of my life everything I did between 2001 and 2013 was a mistake, and I will likely pay for it for the rest of my life.
I’m sleepy. I had to write this out to clear my head enough to sleep.
I don’t have a lot to show for with what iv done with my life. It sucks, it really does. There are so many “maybe if I..” Thoughts that go through my head every day. And in the end I don’t even get the liberty of being able to vent it into anger or sadness at something else because ultimately it’s my fault.
Either due to my own actions or lack there of I have put myself in this awful situation which leads to one failure after another. I regret it all. Save for meeting the love of my life everything I did between 2001 and 2013 was a mistake, and I will likely pay for it for the rest of my life.
I’m sleepy. I had to write this out to clear my head enough to sleep.
My pet bunnies
Posted 10 years agoThought I'd finially share my lovely bunnies with anyone that wants to see.
The white one is a female Britania Petite named Aphrodite and the black ones a male Rex named Smokey
https://www.dropbox.com/sh/8gxx60a5.....J31Z1Y-Ea?dl=0
The white one is a female Britania Petite named Aphrodite and the black ones a male Rex named Smokey
https://www.dropbox.com/sh/8gxx60a5.....J31Z1Y-Ea?dl=0
Destiny anyone? (Xbox 360)
Posted 11 years agoJust got it a week ago. Anyone wanna play it with me on 360?
Level 23 Titan. Love doing strikes. Hate crucible. Won't even touch that cricible crap...
If your up for it just tell me your gamertag here or in pm
Level 23 Titan. Love doing strikes. Hate crucible. Won't even touch that cricible crap...
If your up for it just tell me your gamertag here or in pm
Anyone want to skype?
Posted 12 years agoLike no one is on tonight... anyone who watches me want to chit chat on skype?
My name is Stratusfears
My name is Stratusfears
People who overdo Adoptables / Auctions...
Posted 12 years agoI... freaking hate this...
Adoptables i have accepted are a necessary evil in the art community, but you know what, its freaking lazy. You make one image, add some shading, and then just randomize the colors and patterns and pass it off as a sell-able item. Its sad really. If you need some help once or twice its fine but im sick of my submissions being filled with these lazy ass adoptables.
And also these YCH auctions.... im sorry are you too busy to take a real commission but still want people to fight for your time? Once again, okay from time to time, especially if it cost less then a true commission. But unacceptable in place of proper commissions.
This will be my only rant on the matter, its time for a un-watching spree
Adoptables i have accepted are a necessary evil in the art community, but you know what, its freaking lazy. You make one image, add some shading, and then just randomize the colors and patterns and pass it off as a sell-able item. Its sad really. If you need some help once or twice its fine but im sick of my submissions being filled with these lazy ass adoptables.
And also these YCH auctions.... im sorry are you too busy to take a real commission but still want people to fight for your time? Once again, okay from time to time, especially if it cost less then a true commission. But unacceptable in place of proper commissions.
This will be my only rant on the matter, its time for a un-watching spree
Streaming over
Posted 12 years agoshould be some adventuring and talking to myself!
http://www.livestream.com/randomoldmanapb
STREAM OVER
Three Things meme that tsuda tagged me in >:/
Posted 13 years agoDamn it tsuda tagged me and since HE did it i have to praticipate
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Stratus
2) Matt
3) El Magnifico Grande
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) Stratus
2) Darksquril
3) El Magnifico Grande
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) My penis.
2) My butt.
3) My hair.
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) Excessive Hornyness.
2) Excessive tallness.
3) How picky i am with food.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) Out there fetishes (scat, water sports, etc)
2) Loved ones dieing...
3) Dicks over 10 inches long.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1)
omgtedrick
2) My Computer
3) Guns.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) Underwear
2) headphones
3) glasses
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS:
1) Helloween
2) Night Wish
3) Avicii
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1) What are you wating for
2) The bad touch
3) Enjoy the silence
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1) Snuggling with
2) Weight Training
3) Paramedic School
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) Love... pure true love <3
2) Cuddles...
3) Children O////O
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE IN NO ORDER
1) I love Tsuda <3
2) I want to spend my whole life with him
3) My penis is bigger then his ;3
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Boobies.
2) Hips.
3) Dat Ass...
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) Hetrosexual intercourse
2) Taking my fist :<
3) Getting all my math credits DX
THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1) Play Halo4!
2) Drafting and engineering
3) Snuggle my kitty
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) Drafting
2) Writing music
3) Art
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) Snuggle Tsuda...
2) Weight lift... i want my muscles
3) Climax >o<
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Engineering
2) Law Enforcement
3) Paramedic
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Japan
2) Alasaka
3) My mates pants
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1) Iris
2) Fred
3) Matt XD
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Make love to the love of my life <3 yes baby that means you...
2) Get married to my mate
3) Start a family with my mate
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Stratus
2) Matt
3) El Magnifico Grande
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) Stratus
2) Darksquril
3) El Magnifico Grande
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) My penis.
2) My butt.
3) My hair.
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) Excessive Hornyness.
2) Excessive tallness.
3) How picky i am with food.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) Out there fetishes (scat, water sports, etc)
2) Loved ones dieing...
3) Dicks over 10 inches long.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1)
omgtedrick2) My Computer
3) Guns.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) Underwear
2) headphones
3) glasses
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS:
1) Helloween
2) Night Wish
3) Avicii
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1) What are you wating for
2) The bad touch
3) Enjoy the silence
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1) Snuggling with
2) Weight Training
3) Paramedic School
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) Love... pure true love <3
2) Cuddles...
3) Children O////O
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE IN NO ORDER
1) I love Tsuda <3
2) I want to spend my whole life with him
3) My penis is bigger then his ;3
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Boobies.
2) Hips.
3) Dat Ass...
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) Hetrosexual intercourse
2) Taking my fist :<
3) Getting all my math credits DX
THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1) Play Halo4!
2) Drafting and engineering
3) Snuggle my kitty
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) Drafting
2) Writing music
3) Art
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) Snuggle Tsuda...
2) Weight lift... i want my muscles
3) Climax >o<
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Engineering
2) Law Enforcement
3) Paramedic
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Japan
2) Alasaka
3) My mates pants
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1) Iris
2) Fred
3) Matt XD
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Make love to the love of my life <3 yes baby that means you...
2) Get married to my mate
3) Start a family with my mate
Streaming Music
Posted 13 years agoI am writing music again!
This time for omgtedrick
Come hang out if your bored or whatever!
May end up playing games or something in a while X3
http://www.livestream.com/randomoldmanapb
This time for
omgtedrickCome hang out if your bored or whatever!
May end up playing games or something in a while X3
http://www.livestream.com/randomoldmanapb
Wanted to avoid a political post but
Posted 13 years agoBut i cant. so i will try to stay as neutral as i can despite my massive dissapointment. (meaning since im trying not be fair im not gonna do any arguing over it)
Last night we had two people running for president...
The Business man who knew nothing about politics,
and the politician who knows nothing about business...
We picked the second. Either way though god help us...
Electoral collage sucks. The Bush Gore deal in 2000 alone was enough to convince me to get out of this country... Well if im gonna deal with obama for 4 more years there better be some gay marriage goin on...
Bah. Fuck it all, im playing APB...
Last night we had two people running for president...
The Business man who knew nothing about politics,
and the politician who knows nothing about business...
We picked the second. Either way though god help us...
Electoral collage sucks. The Bush Gore deal in 2000 alone was enough to convince me to get out of this country... Well if im gonna deal with obama for 4 more years there better be some gay marriage goin on...
Bah. Fuck it all, im playing APB...
Art time?
Posted 13 years agoI think it almost is...
Iv made some changes to my style and I think I'm almost ready to return!!!
Major changes:
•facial bone structure (general head shape. Now attempting to make them more animal)
•completly new eyes (also somewhat species based)
•refined methods for body perportining
•Substancial increase to hip fire accuracy and accuracy while moving.
•Substancial decrees to marksmanship bonus
^_^ that's about it
Iv made some changes to my style and I think I'm almost ready to return!!!
Major changes:
•facial bone structure (general head shape. Now attempting to make them more animal)
•completly new eyes (also somewhat species based)
•refined methods for body perportining
•Substancial increase to hip fire accuracy and accuracy while moving.
•Substancial decrees to marksmanship bonus
^_^ that's about it
I'm genuinely scared
Posted 13 years agoSo a very close friend of mine is going to the hospital tommorow.
He found out a little while back he has cancer.
Luckily they found it in its early stages which means it may be treatable.
Well I guess Friday they are going to try their best to heal him. I'm really worried...
I dont know what else to say. I guess I'll keep him in my thoughts and may even pray for him...
He found out a little while back he has cancer.
Luckily they found it in its early stages which means it may be treatable.
Well I guess Friday they are going to try their best to heal him. I'm really worried...
I dont know what else to say. I guess I'll keep him in my thoughts and may even pray for him...
Minecraft Server Up! (survival)
Posted 13 years agoWell thats all there is to it. My 24/7 Survival server is up! Come join us sometime!
No stealing
PvP is disabled.
Dont ask me to change the time unless its speical circumstances.
Dont ask to spawn shit.
Comment and i will send you the IP
No stealing
PvP is disabled.
Dont ask me to change the time unless its speical circumstances.
Dont ask to spawn shit.
Comment and i will send you the IP
Moving away from drawing
Posted 13 years agoAnd back to music...
All my life Iv had no natural talent for drawing... But Iv always LOVED music. So I'm making it official... I'm going to switch gears and practice composing, while occasionally drawing. (rather then what I am now which is a artist that occasionally makes music).
Writing the stuff I submitted yesterday was the most fun I have had in a very long time... And I am hoping to relive that experience many times over. So, thanks for the views, and the occasional favs!
Love you aqua.
And good night!
All my life Iv had no natural talent for drawing... But Iv always LOVED music. So I'm making it official... I'm going to switch gears and practice composing, while occasionally drawing. (rather then what I am now which is a artist that occasionally makes music).
Writing the stuff I submitted yesterday was the most fun I have had in a very long time... And I am hoping to relive that experience many times over. So, thanks for the views, and the occasional favs!
Love you aqua.
And good night!
Skype experiment
Posted 13 years agoAs a little experiment I'm going to include my Skype info on my page... Just to see if anything happens. Though I doubt anyone will really notice
doing commissions soon
Posted 13 years agoI was going to wait a bit longer... But I now have a reason to want to do them.
All proceeds will go to the "flying stratus to his loves city" fund. I'm unsure about prices but they should be fairly affordable.
Well until next time...
-Stratus
All proceeds will go to the "flying stratus to his loves city" fund. I'm unsure about prices but they should be fairly affordable.
Well until next time...
-Stratus
Just got back from the hospital
Posted 13 years agoAt 3:00 am i woke up with some disicomfort in the lower areas of my belly. This was concerning because i have had trouble using the rest room over the past three days...
Long story short, it was kinda tramuatising for me...
at 3:45 am i arrived with the symtoms of "my stomach hurts like hell, and im feeling sick to my stomach as well."
To avoid giving tmi i will tone down the detials.
long story short i was given a room and bed at 4:00 am and say the doctor for the first time at 4:20...
around six i got my tail hole probed and bladder draine >_<
how do people get into that urethra expansion shit... THAT FUCKIN HURTS
well at 8:45 they finially told me it was nothing serious and gave me some epic pain medicine...
*shrugs*
sorry for the wall of text. I just felt like rabling after that constant agony DX
love you guys, also
MY ALIENWARE JUST ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!
SQQQUUUUUEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
*stratus is a happy bunny*
Long story short, it was kinda tramuatising for me...
at 3:45 am i arrived with the symtoms of "my stomach hurts like hell, and im feeling sick to my stomach as well."
To avoid giving tmi i will tone down the detials.
long story short i was given a room and bed at 4:00 am and say the doctor for the first time at 4:20...
around six i got my tail hole probed and bladder draine >_<
how do people get into that urethra expansion shit... THAT FUCKIN HURTS
well at 8:45 they finially told me it was nothing serious and gave me some epic pain medicine...
*shrugs*
sorry for the wall of text. I just felt like rabling after that constant agony DX
love you guys, also
MY ALIENWARE JUST ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!
SQQQUUUUUEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
*stratus is a happy bunny*
Banned from APB...
Posted 13 years agoWell i don't know why.
My support ticket came back saying my account had been caught with hacking/cheating programs...
Ya that is horse shit...
I have come to accept this is just the finial sign i need to leave that game behind.
So long APB...
It was a fun ride...
My support ticket came back saying my account had been caught with hacking/cheating programs...
Ya that is horse shit...
I have come to accept this is just the finial sign i need to leave that game behind.
So long APB...
It was a fun ride...
feeling... unaccomplished
Posted 13 years agoall these other artist... they just kick my ass so hard >_<
i need to pratice my art more.... but damn it i just dont seem to be improving on the things im trying so hard to do.
im about ready to say fuck it and switch pimarly to humans XD
jk..... well kind of.
expect a drawing of HUMAN stratus_fear at some point :P
also if anyone knows a good eyes / general face totorial i would be very apprecitive.
i need to pratice my art more.... but damn it i just dont seem to be improving on the things im trying so hard to do.
im about ready to say fuck it and switch pimarly to humans XD
jk..... well kind of.
expect a drawing of HUMAN stratus_fear at some point :P
also if anyone knows a good eyes / general face totorial i would be very apprecitive.
being brief
Posted 13 years agothings are comming togeather in my life.
i don't think it will be much longer before my full return.
i cant wait. i made quite a bit of new art
i don't think it will be much longer before my full return.
i cant wait. i made quite a bit of new art
Looking for action furs
Posted 13 years agoim finially starting to sit down and work on my story. And instead of making up a bunch of generic furs, i would like to put some existing personalities in it. is there any furs who want to be in a action story...
there are a wide range of possible positions,
if i see some amout of interist then ill start posting more info.
im looking for some furries who can fight or provide some asset to a organised "gang" or "milita" or "army"
as i said ill post more info later.
lastly theres a good chance if your a important charecter, your going to die sometime.
heres to hoping someone takes interist.
-cheers ^^
there are a wide range of possible positions,
if i see some amout of interist then ill start posting more info.
im looking for some furries who can fight or provide some asset to a organised "gang" or "milita" or "army"
as i said ill post more info later.
lastly theres a good chance if your a important charecter, your going to die sometime.
heres to hoping someone takes interist.
-cheers ^^
i'm not okay
Posted 13 years agowell folks its that time of year again...
time for me to mostly dissapear for a few weeks...
i cant really tell you why or what i will be doing.
if i come back an ass hole im sorry.
i have been having to put up with more then i can handle and im ready to take on the issues.
but doing this envolves leaving the online world for a while.
i hope to come back a better man after all this.
well until we meet again,
best wishes
-Stratus Fear
time for me to mostly dissapear for a few weeks...
i cant really tell you why or what i will be doing.
if i come back an ass hole im sorry.
i have been having to put up with more then i can handle and im ready to take on the issues.
but doing this envolves leaving the online world for a while.
i hope to come back a better man after all this.
well until we meet again,
best wishes
-Stratus Fear
Florida weather...
Posted 13 years agoI'm sitting here freezing my ass off... And thinking...
When did I become a pussy...
I used to live in Alaska... It was actualy cold there...
But it's chilly here and it's kicking my ass.......
*shivers*
I'm a cold bunny... But soon I will be in my dragons arms again...
Sitting here in a jacket, with warm socks... And a huge blanket...
I feel so silly............
*meep...*
When did I become a pussy...
I used to live in Alaska... It was actualy cold there...
But it's chilly here and it's kicking my ass.......
*shivers*
I'm a cold bunny... But soon I will be in my dragons arms again...
Sitting here in a jacket, with warm socks... And a huge blanket...
I feel so silly............
*meep...*
The new object of my obsession
Posted 13 years agoSaintsrow the third...
And if you don't like this game you can go fuck yourself!
If you do like it then high five!
Either way here's a stupid video.
This will be the basis of some art soon to come
And if you don't like this game you can go fuck yourself!
If you do like it then high five!
Either way here's a stupid video.
This will be the basis of some art soon to come
