Let's try this out then :p Ask me anything and I shall answer truthfully!

So, I went to MFF with the determination that I was going to see if cons really were my thing. On the first day there, I wandered around and just felt complete shit and thought to myself 'This will be my last con until I get better mentally.' But then things changed. The morning after I told myself "Fuck no, I won't be beaten this easily by my inner demons. I'm going to have fun and make sure of it!" And so I headed to the lobby and wandered around, met my good old friend Arashiin (  Arashiin ) And we went to the Con Suite, had a soda together with two other furs, Bluefire and a german guy whose name I forgot. And after a while I went back to the room for a breather and I simply went back out and then back to the room whenever I felt like I needed a rest.

Got to make great friends with several furs some of whom i've talked to online before,  veskar ,  zalluth ,  asyr ,  ShiroBear to name a few.

And then it happened. On Saturday evening there was a comedy thing called "Whose lion is it anyway" (Whose line is it anyway) and I went there with Veskar and his awesome mate Skyy. They were calling for volunteers for the "Scenes from a hat game." And I thought to myself, 'Bye bye, social anxiety, you're heading towards the grave now' and I went up on stage and got to come up with a few fun things. The first one was "What MFF's theme should really have been?" To which I said "MFF in December, because freezing your ass off in Chicago in November wasn't good enough." And the second one "What would you say to your friend or group when you've really got to use the bathroom. My reply "Since we're ordering dessert anyway, why not get a mudslide?" and there was a third one but I forgot it. And then I got to do the Dating game where I played an angry black friday customer and later I was in the "New line" game. Got a fair bit of praise from the guy hosting it afterwards. I had tons of fun and managed to beat my social anxiety to a pulp.

MFF 2014 is officially the best con i've been to since EF in 2009.

Where are you staying?
Hyatt

What day are you getting there?
Thursday

How are you traveling?
By car with  spacewolfe

Who will you be rooming with?
 Spacewolfe  jbadger and someone else.

Who will you be hanging with?
Hopefully a lot of new friends.

How is the best way to find you?
Look for a chubby, derpy guy in a sports jersey with KAZAMA and 13 on the back.

Are there any panels events you might be attending?
Depends, haven't seen the conbook yet.

What do you look like?
Big, chubby, Swedish, etc.

Will you be suiting?
Yeah, i'll be cosplaying my IRL me.

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
6'1"

Can I talk to you?
Yeah, sure. Though beware if i'm in a blegh mood.

Can I touch you?
Anywhere inappropriate or other than a hug or handshake/brofist whatever and you might be served a knucklesandwich.

Can I visit your room?
Well, I don't know why you'd want to, it's like every other hotel room i'm sure!

Can I buy you drinks?
Sure. Free is the best spice.

Can I give you stuff?
Sure, just don't give me a dead hamster or a rotten banana or something.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hug, sure. But not in an awkward way if you know what I mean :P. Snuggles are reserved for those I know well.

Are you nice?
Varies, that's for you to find out!

Will you be going to parties?
Nah, not my thing.

Will you be performing?
Nope, thank god :P.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Call for Stripey.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Unless my social anxiety kicks in and I'm stuck in the hotelroom feeling down, probably walking around aimlessly :P

What/where will you be eating?
I'll be eating food. Where? No clue, I hope to devour sushi with some friends though.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure!

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Sure, though expect to find nothing :P.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Most certainly!

Can I take your picture?
Sure, though expect a major derpface.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To see if I can kick my social anxiety to a bloody pulp and enjoy my first convention since FCN 2011

Who else is going? I am! :P

If I started a foodblog or cooking channel on YouTube, who would read/watch?

Masterchef went to shit. My nerves took over and now I feel like shit. But I also feel good for trying it out at least

I have reached the goal! Thank you to all that helped me and spread the word. You're awesome <3

Hey, so yeah. I am giving Masterchef another shot. Problem is the economy to fund the groceries for the audition and so I set up a Donation fund if people would like to help. http://www.gofundme.com/e2u2hk

So, I just came back from the psychartists and after months of tests and talks they came to the conclusion that I have PTSD

So yeah, starting yesterday. It was very early morning and I was feeling so nervous I almost threw up and fainted, and well I had to make my way to the bus as I had to go to the psychiatry. And when I head out I see the neighbour about to drive off and so I approach him and ask if he's going nearby where i had to be. And he wasn't, yet he told me to jump in and he drove me nearby the psychologist, taking that little detour just for me. And well, at the psychiatist I spent an hour talking about my issues, my past and things like that and found out that I have a rather deep depression due to events in my past. And I am now going to get professional help to ward off my demons. And I pretty much stayed up all night (Fell asleep at 6AM my time, woke up at 11AM my time.) with a sharp pain in my shoulder and was stuck in bed for a long while. I eventually felt the need to do something and so I got some items to bake muffins. To which I did. I don't have a lot of money this month so I took a gamble by purchasing those items. And when i got home, a fur had stopped by. I told him about the day before and about not having much money this month. He suddenly gives me a fair deal of cash and tells me to get something nice and I almost start crying as I am not used to such things. I've always cared for others and just never given a shit about myself so this took a lot out of me emotionally. And well, I baked the muffins while he was there and went over to the neighbour with them to say thanks for the ride yesterday and I am now just mentally and emotionally drained from all this.

As many of you may know, I have since my very early teen's suffered from depression due to my mom's sudden passing to the afterlife when I was 12. I have always told myself depression isn't a mental sickness until a few years back when I finally got help and started getting medication for it.

Now recently, I have discovered that I might have a hint of anxiety/social anxiety too. So, the other week I have now been sent to the district's psychiatry and they're going to help me dig deep down in my brain (figuratively speaking of course.) and find the roots to all my mental issues i'm dealing with. So hopefully, before this year is over, my depression will be severely suppressed.

My fight towards a happier and finer me is continuing.

So, who's up for doing an international treat trade with me? Could be anything, candy, chips, salsas, jams, etc. As long as it is native to your country. Who's up :D?

So, it's my birthday today :P..

If you feel like it, feel free to send birthday money through paypal to emilandersson28[at]hotmail.com :P

So, me and a local fur walked around town and we saw a homeless man with his border collie. I got an idea and went into a discount store and bought a pack of dog biscuits and gave to the man, telling him it was a christmas gift for his dog and then I offered to buy him a cup of coffee and he accepted. So I did so, and then my friend bought the man a sandwich. The shocked expression on his face when we did this was worth it. And it made me feel so warm inside :)

So, if one has a depression in the fandom they're a dramafur apparently.

I've mentioned on my Twitter that i've been feeling really depressed the past few days. And someone goes insta-dramafuralert on me.

If someone's feeling depressed, instead of kicking them while they're laying down instead, try to talk to that person. Because telling them to fucking do something about it just like that is really the best reason according to that fur.

QUESTION.

If I were to open an online store with home made jams, jellies, chutneys, hot sauces, condiments etc. Would you be interested in actually purchasing items from it?

And what if I make the items furry themed?

I sent a contribution and got on it xD http://notalwaysromantic.com/the-bi.....a-gender/27473

Feel free to answer these questions in a reply, and/or steal them for a journal of your own.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?


Stolen from a  bigtig

So yeah, decided to try this out xD.


Ask me ANYTHING and i'll give you an honest answer.

So, since two weeks back (Roughly) I've begun this odd thing called dieting. Haven't had a drop of soda or alcohol. Neither have I had chips or candy. And so far, the result is that I've lost 1,7 kilos (3,7lbs.) It's not much, but it's a good motivation for me enough to continue going downwards.

And soon, me and  alex-l aka my houselion are going to start working out properly too. Right now we're doing frisbee and/or badminton in our backyard for 30 minutes every day. The plan is to go to a gym every tuesday and thursday as well as go swimming every sunday so that there will be a fair bit of working out.

And obviously more veggies have been added to my diet as well as things with wholewheat. So yeah, hopefully there will be great results in a few months :)

Wish me luck folks!

I had this silly idea, thinking it could be fun to send postcards out, in return from another postcard from a different part of the world.

Would be fun to get a postcard from your local area, and in return you'd get a Danish one. Anyone up for this silly idea? x3

My furrysis  Thrasher is looking to get a fursuit, and so she needs to raise £100 (British Sterling Pounds) in order to get the fursuit.

If you donate at least £10 to her, she will happilly draw a picture for you. So, come help out a fellow floof, and get some art along with it!

More info here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4609649/

Since my old Yahoo "stripekazama" has been blocked by Yahoo because someone had apparently tried to hack it and even though I have tried to assure them that I am who I am, they still won't let me get my account back, i've created a new one, so for those who have been wondering where I've been, it's Yahoo that's messed things up. Either way! My new Yahoo is: zambarautiger so add me xD.

I may not have known this guy, but from journals written by people who knew him well, I can see that he was a wonderful guy and this pisses me off to be honest. Not the fact he died, but the fact that people never freaking learn.

The woman who rammed into them shouldn't even have been on the roads, Just because you've had a drink or two, does not fucking mean that you can drive safely. If you've had a drink, take a cab or even walk home. Or if you're in a group, make sure you have a designated driver.

I am not pointing any fingers but honestly, we've lost too many good people within this fandom because of reckless driving and it pisses me off. I mean, not too long ago we lost Aethus, and before that we lost Furp as well. I don't know of other furs that's died because of reckless and/or drunk drivers.

I know accidents do happen, but regarding drunk driving, it's accidents that can be stopped if people just fucking learn the lesson.

If you can read this wherever you are now, LemonadeCoyote, I hope you're in a world without the ignorance and close-minded folks that are the majority of this world. As mentioned before, I didn't know you but you seem like a great guy for sure and I hope you will get to spread your joy and warmth to those around you where you are now.

This rant is over. I just had to let my heart out.. x.x

... as I am now engaged officially to Spacewolf :).