Well if anyone wants to respond respond, i wish i could have a girlfriend, or boyfriend i dont care which, i want someone to hang out with and cuddle with and have affection for. I want that special feeling in my heart, but i always say i'm not that good enough for anyone, i'm always to shy or to afraid what should i do? how should i approach the person i like or have feelings for? Idk My life is completely all jacked up atm

Well Merry Christmas

So let's all get spooky and scare people tonight and have a ball hanging out with friends :D

Aperrantly a cat gave birth too four kittens and there in our garage. Soo yea i wish i could keep all of them but idk. There very cute and adorable so if anyone can possible keep them or give me info on where to drop them off to a great home please message me!

idk what's causing it but it seems like it's not going to go away for some time.

I mean, if anyone really has the time just ask me questions, i'm so down today and want to talk with someone.

No one should ever forget that day where america got attacked. Never forget.

So yea posted this a couple days late X.X
anyways 18 now :3

ugh. I'm happy i'm a senior finally but i'm so scared about the future, most importantly i suck at everything in life. who the hell would want me, also it's hard as hell to find any good job out there, hell i'm struggling just to find a part time job...not to mention i'm really paranoid. Sometimes i wish that my mind and mental issues wouldn't screw with me. But what else am i suppose to do now? Just say i quit? i just wish this year i have fun, Also i'll post a Journal ASAP about my Vacation, I don't know about any photos if i can figure out how to download them two my laptop, got to figure that stuff out first. *sighs*

yep having those feels again :l

Colorado was sooo fun. I'll post a journal about the vacation tomorrow. Tonight i'm relaxing at home chilling

I'll be gone all next week, i'm going to miss all my freinds online. ;~;
going to colorado this upcoming week. ^.^
so see ya all when i get back XD

I backed up and had my foot on the gas when i was in reverse and i took out my neighbors mail box.. XD
So me and my dad are going to pay the neighbor back, and i'll build a new one for him, i'm like hey what do u expect i'm a new driver i only drove 6 hours before with drivers ed they had there own type of brakes..but me i'm like it's alright it's all worth the experience x3
so yea new drivers like me like screwing things up x3

Well yea got that taken care of now i wait 2 months until i'm 18 then i'm going out to get my real drivers licence so yea~ :D

So i got on this morning just wishing i would get on my account, i tired to set up a account on the home computer but i decide not to bother with so i uninstalled it on the main computer, but guess what happens. i try log onto steam on my laptop, it said sorry wrong password or account name not right. so i decide okay just need to fix it, so i did, i changed the password from my email, so then i go back and type up the new password thinking this should fix the solution, well it did BUT, it took me to my old steam account that i thought i got rid of, i was like at first WTF?!?! y is this pulling up my old steam account that i don't use anymore, i clearly wanted the other account that i need! not this old piece of shit. So i changed the password again thinking that's the problem. NOPE it just gave me the old account again...i'm like fucking spectacular steam really loves shitting on me today omg i should fucking slow clap at those fucking idiots for doing a amazing job registering my old account when i just want the one I've been using for the past 7 months. So i decided to change the user name on the old acount...well guess what IT DOESEN"T FUCKING FIX SHIT!! Now i'm really pist off that steam likes to fuck over u if u have a old account so it's like hey lets just fuck with this kid and see how he LIKES IT!! I find it funny that steam aperantly loves shitting on people liek this...it's fucking fun as hell i mean i enjoy sitting here getting shit on. and it keeps reverting me to this old account peice of shit...*sighs* it's just i want the other account not the fucking old one...and now i don't think i can get on my other account for good now V.V *punches the fucking wall* I guess i'll have to start all over again fresh on my old steam account people don't give two fucks about... *crawls into a ball* I even tried to change everything that didn't work either....*lays there all sad like*

I'm just speechless....just wow.....Idk what to think of the human race anymore :/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=31B_phXLk5o
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After 2 years i decide to restart streaming video games, Yet again it's been a very long time since i did this so for the next few days or so i might do some test streams offline and configure my computer two best function as possible when i stream for whoever wants two watch stream scheculde is unknown for now.... but i'f not i'll just tell you guys when i'll start streaming on journals for now until i come up for a scheudle for streaming streams will prolly depend on that weeks but anyways hope you guys have a great time see ya soon again. oh here's my channel on twitch make a account watch me on it and youlll get informed on it when ever i go live streaming videogames. I can only stream PC games for now. And those are prolly the only games i will stream. Mostly RTS games like Total War. so see ya all there soon ^_^
LInk is here http://www.twitch.tv/strongwaterdog
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Just Saying to all the people that watch me (even though i'm not that very active x3) hope you all have a great month this month spend time with your love ones especially this month ^_^
Also In JROTC i'm pushing my self over my limits and REALLY going to get stronger during Raiders this week we only did PT for two days since we had snow days a lot this past week but over the weekend i need to Start Pushing myself everywhere. So no more jacking around in life i got goals to accomplish ^^ so everymorning i'm waking up at 3:30 am to countine you my own personal training so i'm going to start setting alram clocks on my cell phone this Person just waken up it's time to get real. Horah! :3

Just got back from a JROTC Drill meet I'm so tired...but i don't want to go asleep cause you know y? Cause i love being a freaking Derp~ x3
well i woke up at 4am today and the drill meet started at 8am and then the meet ended around 5pm i'm so tired.....

I took part in a Tiny Chat stream that lasted 12 hours man all we did was talk about well just about anything. But i made so many new friends i have to thank you all for being my Freinds. If i never would of found this fandom idk what i would do with my life. Prolly kill myself like others. But thank goodness i didn't You know i'm lazy and i can be a hypocrite sometimes but that dosen't mean i should kill myself?? People yesterday reassured this in me Also another thing Does anyone have Steam???I'm looking for furs that have it i'm only freinds with 7 furs on steam *not enough* i at least want 20 cause then i can have a varity of people to talk to ^_^. Everyone have a great day and continue to live happily. :3

Well hope everyone's having a great Day and a brand new year. Some things came up Besides having a good Christmas. One, A good friend of mine got arrested but lucky he was released so i'm happy for that but still he has to see a PO officer. I'm not going to do the talent show this year my family is being to bitchy buying Phat pants even a 80$ pair even though they bought me over 200$ worth of shit i didn't want for Christmas >.>......Another thing Me and Spaxter broke up. So i'm single again sighs v.v. But I'm looking towards 2014. One of my goals is to just get a permit for driving i don't need a driving licence i mean i can drive but not Legally~ lol X3. Another Goal is just get more involved with my high school i've been away in the dam closet to dam long in my life. And no that closet everyone thinks about there's more then one closet you know >.<;. So yeas~ nothing else to say oops i almost forgot. *looks threw his memory log* I Got Steam I just need to update that to my FA. But anyways hope you all have a great new year. "I have a bad feeling about this upcoming year" well cause 2013 had a lot of downs (mostly downs) then ups 2013 was a shit year for me..I learned a lot about life in just one year and don't get me started about why i think growing up blows more then if every gay guy in the world would blow. Also i'm looking for new friends if any one can introduce me to your freinds i'll be happier in life ^_^ *Wags tail happily*

So last year our school did a talent show, i'm thinking how about i do dancing, but not just normal dancing nawwww~ Wait for it........HARDSTYLE WHOAAAAAA!!!!!!!! even though i'm brand new two the dance itself if everything goes wrong i can still freestyle two the beat and well pick back up from it if i can :3. But also i'm hoping i can build money up for some of these they defiantly need two be bought for this. http://spydahunny.com.au/product_info.php?cPath=35&products_id=155 Also Glow sticking as well one of my raver Friends that isn't a fur sadly :(. But she's cool person, Has tons and tons of Glow sticks i'm like yush this is what i need. So now i'm trying two get a part time job and practicing dancing freestyle/hard style and etc. and get with her and me and her both come up with a routine and practice it or we both do our own thing. Idk but i'm defiantly want two do this with the right stuff if not i look like a fool out there.... x.x
Anyways~ How was all of yours thanksgivings, and i know it's late but how about a TMI Wednesday come one just this once... :P

BTW: i'm a noob at all of this but if i practice like no tomorrow for the next few months whenever i can i think i'll be just fine. So please if any dancer furs see this journal just relax okie i'm doing this for fun ^_^

Apparently i found out i can still donate blood, i thought i couldn't cause i had sex....well i only have oral and oral isn't sex, Soooooooo. I can donate blood still until my mate moves to the U.S. It's just that someone lied two me and i should be okay for donating blood since i've never had Sex, If your wondering i was born in the year Vergo, which means i'm a Virgin which means i was deceived and also at the same time i over reacted, in short is it right they reject gays, but again i should know that oral isn't sex in a way i feel dumb, and in another way i didn't know. anyways you all have a nice day now.

Alright So I found out that our school was donating Blood right. I'm like hell yea i'll donate some blood i wouldn't mind passing out to save someone else. Yea. So when it came two it i filled out the questioner, It asked the usual stuff. Like if u have any diseases, or if you have been out of the country. I kept putting down NO for a lot of it cause i know for a fact i haven't done any of that. Then there was one question i put YES for, it was Have you ever had any sexual activity with another man ever in your life. I told myself yes so i put it down. The girl then said oh sorry we can't let you donate blood. I'm like at first oh maybe cause i just had sex two recently. so then later that day another student told me the reason i couldn't give blood was cause i'm gay. So I told her no it's just i had recent sex in the past year. She said No it's cause your gay, We also watch a movie about Discrimination and bullying in class. And guess what it's about two gay guys getting murder at a prom. Really?!?!? I had it!!! So then i found out the reason Gays can't donate blood, it's cause back in the 1980's the made a law saying that we can't cause they think gays carry AIDS each and everyone of us. My other Gay friend i know IRL got denied as well. I don't understand this they test the blood ASAP for any type of HIV or AIDS or any disease for that matter of fact. So Why couldn't they just checked my blood if i even donated? The reason is cause i'm Gay, Everyone i've talked to Teachers and Students says thats not fair, it isn't giving us our rights. So me and my Gay friend along with many others are going two start a movement two change the law saying Gays can't donate blood. I know the odds aren't in our favors and we probably won't win, BUT DAM IT. At least we can still try, we will show people that Gay isn't a sin we're not all evil. Were as human as you and the person two your right and left. So i need all the support i can get from this fandom as well out there in the real world until we make this change and happen, for now me and him are going to start talking about how we should present two the school, and to the community. Thank you for your time and reading this.
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