May he carry the United States into the future.
But rather if its white or black
republican or democrat
liberal or conservative
left wing or right wing
or even pepsi or coke this election was hard for both candidates and now Obama has to face the mess left by Bush.
We are in a era of uncertain times, so no matter if you hate or like Obama I personally request we all wish him luck.
I know I do, I am not in favor of either candidate but I know this next president has a lot of hard work ahead.

Forget about my series, I just cant do it anymore.
I cant hold this back any longer, my angst about the bullshit ready to befall me creatively this year.
Its synchronized sucking it seems, my main sources of inspirations currently are going to face an end one way or another.
But this time I see no hope, no nothing creatively for me... the wells will dry up and a vast desert of emptiness will fill my mind.
I know for sure that medication alone will fail me, I have my family yes but I will be dead creatively.
The shit hole will become dominant and possibly for good, I really dont feel this year is going to be a happy one...
I have been drawing straws to find my way again creatively and nothing is working and this year it seems my slip into darkness will be complete.
I knew there was something wrong with me, its just until now I did not know what it was as I checked myself into a mental hospital not so long ago.
I just dont know anymore
its not been easy, I have been tugged around emotionally for a long time now but maybe now I can get some answers thanks to my diagnosis of having a mental illness.
Maybe that is what has been my problem all along, its just that until now I had no guide.
My recent hospital visit had been a real eye opener, but still it leaves even more uncertainty in the long run... I am still learning about myself, before I thought I knew myself quite well but now I am not sure anymore.
I find myself questioning my existence, what the hell is it all for?
I am just left feeling angry, empty and confused.
right now I am going through a confusing phase in my life, I am still trying to make sense out of all this.
The biggest spot for me is why the hell my mental illness was not detected sooner?
look right now I am going through a very dark period, worse then anything I have felt before, I am trying to find help yes but so far I have not been able to contact anyone on this issue.
its almost a foregone conclusion now, hell I can barely write anymore.
I have no confidence in myself anymore, nor I have any confidence in the world around me...

I guess I am done, I had such great ideas but I just came too late

In 2008 things begin again, for the next two months I will be writing and re writing everything I have.
2008 is where I wanted this out in the real world anyhow so since that is never going to happen well it will be here on the net for all to see...
The revolution will NOT be televised, it will be DOWNLOADED...

The walls come down 2008

Alright, I have now have a new plan for my series and a brand new goal...
The new plan is simple:
I am going to reorganize my series, simply put only the stuff I put in will be intact now and anything else will be edited out.
The first few episodes will be totally re ordered, of course the first two episodes wont have too much change but the rest will be my territory.
The drafts I gave to my former contributors is still here, most of the material in the first few stories are mine however back then I had more or less an outline and not a full storyboard.
This is going to change.
I will also break each episode into three parts, this way there is no clutter.
I feel that the current format is just too big to draw attention, so to simplify things I will break the series down into individual segments.
No more improvising, this is the real deal.

and now its time to unleash my new goal:
My series will now become a weapon against the corruption of corporate America, we writers need to fight and win against it...
This writers strike to me is a good thing, its time for those bozos in hollywood to start treating writers like human beings.
I myself will never sell anything to them, for one it is obvious my works are infinitely superior to most of the crap going out there today in the world of animation.
it just seems that those idiots rather have low brow humor and bullcrap then decently written storylines.
It is the death of Avatar that has lead me to my decision, for me Avatar is the most original series to come out of America in like 10 years of nonsense and just when it seemed to be on top of the world its idiot host of a network has to favor a yellow sponge over it...
Its all about money people, if a show costs a network a lot of money they will kill it even if its a top dollar program like Avatar...
Avatar was the last hope for American animation in my eyes, and now it is being slaughtered by the very network who were so blind and stupid to see its potential.
Dark times are ahead for the american animation industry and it is only going to get worse...
Sure there is japanese animation but really must all future animation writers like Mike DiMartino and Bryan Konietzko fly over to friggin japan to get appreciation?
I think not... screw the big mass media who doesnt give a crap what kind of junk they produce, I am tired of the double faced standards of networks like nick and I will share my grievances in all good time.

Ever since I first started to promote my series Project TBX on the net I already had to reformat three times before now... and I am thinking of yet another reformat before I release my source code to everybody.
Its an obvious that I no longer want to sell my ideas to nobody, I dont trust any big companies or anything but myself for the future of my ideas...
I have said many times I wanted to make my ideas open source, open to the public... not just here but many other places across the web.
No publishers, no corporate overheads, just me and my ideas open to all.
I feel one of the things going against me getting anywhere with my series is that maybe just maybe...
My characters are Mary Sues and maybe I should no longer just focus on the all rabbit focus as I know its not everyones cup of tea... just do the random evolution thing like many other toons out there and ground the series on earth.
I really dont know what I want to do anymore, I have more then one idea yes but I no longer feel any confidence in myself.

I am just too burned out to do any more fics...

I really dont feel up to it anymore, there is just no point to me writing anymore....

I just give up