Lights are on again!
WOOHOO!!

There's gonna be a delay in messaging and posting as the power in the apartment I'm living in is out because the electricity wasn't paid. I'm currently using my mobile data and what's left of power in my laptop to charge my phone...

Even though the apartment isn't in my name, it's kind of my fault because I neglected to find employment to even help out to pay.

If I don't answer much, you'll know why.
I'll keep you all posted

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62528477/

Okay I uploaded it and I still dislike the way on how I had to make it. I hate that I had to rush all the way through it and made it look rough...
But i got it done. That's the most important thing. It was one of the most challenging things I've ever had to do. It pushed me to my limits!

'Sona saga sketches will continue soon along with more art!

Oct 04 is the day of the 24 Hour Comic Book challenge. It was made by Scott McCloud, the author famous for the book "Understanding Comics".

The challenge goes like this:

-Every first Saturday in October, you have 24 hours to make a 24 page comic from start to finish. Just 24. No more, no less!

-The drawing stops when it hits midnight. You can continue afterwards but the thing is to do 24 pages in a day.


I managed to complete the challenge and this is my first time ever doing it.

It was pretty taxing and difficult. The art is pretty bad and the story is corny imo but at least it's finished! That's all that matters!

I probably will do it again next year... hopefully if I'm in a better situation and have improved more in art...

But yeah, I did it! x3

*falls over tired but happy*

Better quality submissions of my recent sketchbook drawings:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62062888/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62074815/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62074847/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62319769/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62335112/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62422950/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62465950/

Check 'em out~

I'll update the ones on BlueSky too

Instead of the Sometober series, I think I'm just gonna draw whatever comes to mind at my own pace rather than just posting a drawing each day. I've been putting myself in a creative mood by focusing solely on this silly solo drawing accidently turned into mini project of sorts with the Sonas...

Besides there's way too many things and challenges to do that's trying to catch our attention. I mean, good on those who can do it all but I know myself all too well that I can't really do it all (yet!). That's why I'm choosing to just work at my own pace and working on what I want to work on

Speaking of which, you all deserve better, high quality sketchbook uploads from me. It's getting harder to take good pictures...

The reason why I took pictures with my phone because I didn't feel like using my printer's scanner which only works with Windows and I didn't feel like switching over on my dual boot laptop for every upload.

I will update the submissions here soon. I will post a journal update for everyone to see. I don't want to repost the pictures over though.

So I wanna do that Sometober Challenge (made up by Ninetails where you just post a drawing of anything on each day of October) but I need a theme to go with it to focus on.
I mean, I could do more Dee/Dough-Mutt related stuff but you all probably would like to see something else...

I need to have a plan and a theme or idea that I could hyper focus on throughout all the month... any ideas?

If there's one thing I've learned about getting older all of these years is that you learn to stop worrying about how you're perceived and focus on things that really matter in life. Besides, people are really too busy in their own lives to be worrying about somebody else. Unless if it's something that really calls attention that's in need of changing, there's always plenty of time to prioritize embracing values that will help you to grow as a person.

For the longest time I've always been held back by my insecurity of having everyone to like me but I'm starting to let go of it little by little. An important lesson that can be learned is that not everyone is going to agree with or like you and that you have to learn to live with that. Whatever opinion of what others have of you may or may not be your fault but it's your responsibility on what you do after knowing such things. Like harsh things happened to me 3 years ago alongside May of this year, I could do call out posts and rage on or I could just move on. I just choose to be the bigger person and just move on. After all, what can I do? What happened to me wasn't my fault but I'm still responsible for what I decide to do afterwards.

Is it hard? YES. It's one of the most difficult things that I ever had to do. I'm still learning and hammering it in my head that you need to put focus on things that truly matter than being hung up on something... but it will eventually stick if I keep up with it

Am I angry? Of course I am! The newest Donkey Kong game is out and I can't play it because I have no money for console and game!! Even if I wanted to, I'm buying both second hand off of someone else in the future.

I've been too busy trying to find ways to get back my creativity again instead of wasting all day not doing nothing! Trying VERY hard not to go crazy here... It doesn't help that this year is throwing bs after bs nonstop...

I don't know when new stuff is coming. Just know that it's coming. Just give me more time to cook, okay?

Okay... is anyone ready for a bunch of Lucius Lupus pics this month? I'm calling it JuLucius!
...
Yeah, yeah, corny name, I know.

But I wanna do more with him! So I'm going to mostly improvise along with other stuff.
I mean I'm open to suggestions too if you want!

Man, there's too much stuff going on and too much to process...

I'm reliving similar similar online experiences I had back in 2022... only compounded with things falling apart here in this country and home life getting on my nerves...

I feel like I could snap at any moment. It's like I'm building up pressure and explosive decompression could happen at any time. Like, all I want is for everything to slow down for a moment... at least for a moment.

Why is it every time I declare that I'm going to do something creative or do something to improve myself, bad news and influences seems to strike? I hate it that my solace always gets violated at those moments... Creativity seems to be like my only sanctuary that I have to take into nowadays. Especially in a society where they're forcing AI onto us and some just turning to it...

It's just a lot...

This site still needs fixing up and an overhaul! :P

At least we can upload pictures, audio and stories again!!

Since FA is still in Read-Only mode for submissions...

You can catch me on BlueSky:

https://bsky.app/profile/korisudomu.bsky.social

it's the only other site that I frequent.... for now.

I need to update my Tumblr and Itaku accounts...

Still iffy about DA and Instagram is pretty much still there but retired...

Okay, so...
NEWS!

I'm currently working on writing ideas out and will work on the scripts for the short comics and the next issue of the Dough-Mutt comic!

Now I'm working on the summary for Issue #2.

I won't say much but Issue #2 will be a bit longer than #1.

I don't know how long but I predict it will be between either 36 or 48 pages with what I want to put in... 60 max.

The short one to two page comic ideas are...many though...

I'm wondering if I should work on Issue #2 first or the short comics first?

Issue #2 will take longer since it's one continuous story but the short ones are their own stories and will be quicker to finish...

Hmm... 🤔

If there's anything I'd like to confess is that when it comes to art, I have a fear of practice.

While I do have aspirations to get better than how I usually am, it's always that I see what needs to be practiced, get overwhelmed and be like "Yeah.... no".
Or it would be like I would do practice or warmups to build a habit but then I get bored and then all motivation for drawing is gone. Plus there was always that constant fear of "What if I dedicated myself to practice and it goes nowhere?" Those were things that I had to confront and confess about myself when a certain YouTube video came on my feed saying "Why do so many artists fear practice?" by Vespertiliu and she made some good points on to not fear practice and used a certain Latin phrase: Ars longa, vita brevis which means "Art is long, life is short" by which she interpreted as that it takes a long time to master your craft and that life is short.

We're always telling ourselves "Oh there's always time to get to make art or get good at art despite the age!" and while that is true, what's also true is that tomorrow isn't promised for anyone and we really don't have much time to wait. And it hit me again like how it did 2-3 years ago... "Listen, you're getting old. There's no time to keep wasting and waiting for the right moment to create" that was the main drive of me making a comic because I wanted to make one. That's how I have to be when it comes to creating in general, regardless if it's just practice or not. I'll be 36 this year.... four years shy of 40. I don't have time to worry about trying to get good in a short time or whatever,because it honestly does take a while to become better at your craft. I just have to be consistent and tell myself that it's a not a race and you're not doing it to compete with others. I will eventually get better. I just want to create more and get into the habit of creating more. I wanna tell my stores, show off my characters for everyone to woo over again and again. As long as I'm still here and able, I still have a chance to make more.
I also must change my mindset too. Change negative affirmations into positive ones. Like instead of "What if I fail?" I'll change it to "What if I succeed?" and see what happens

It's been tough this first month... dealing with what happened with my mom, uncle and with me with this darn cold virus... I'm gonna work on making this second half work for me despite my difficulties and doubts... let's do this~✨

"Dee, it's still January."

I know....
But there's been stuff coming my way that's been hitting me like a truck...

I was all excited to do some new art this year, then BOOM!
My mom gets sick with appendicitis and had surgery to remove her appendix. Then I heard of news of my uncle being diabetic, surviving a high sugar level and that he recently had surgery on his heart... and he has prostate cancer (thankfully he caught it early but still)!
Not to mention both me and my mom are sick from some respiratory illness for a couple of days... it may be a virus going around.

I'm getting so tired of coughing and blowing my nose...
I wanted to work on so many new things in this year so I can help myself out and my family out... I can't give up though...

Keep us in your thoughts, guys ✨

One thing that I can hope to do more before the New Year, carry into it and beyond is to find time to reach out and communicate more with others.

If there's anything that I learned from recent news and such is that I should make time check in more on people instead of them checking in on me all the time. I feel bad that I didn't make enough time to communicate with others as much as I did before. I think it's possibly tied to me switching from Konana to here but that's just an assumption. I want to find time to reach out to others because I don't know when it's going to be last time I'll see them or if it will be the last time they'll see me. I don't want to be seen as that guy as "Oh he's nice but he doesn't talk much..." I already feel bad enough that I don't make enough of an effort to communicate as much as I used to... just starting is the hard part because I never know if I'm doing it at a time where it's convenient for them or if they appreciate my presence... it's just a lot...

As you guys know, I'm no longer using Twitter and using BlueSky!
My page is: superdoughmutt.bsky.social !

Come check it out and join the site if you can! ^^


Also, I'm gonna ask a question...

Is it alright if I make a separate account on BlueSky for suggestive to mature content?
It's not gonna be explicit but not completely sfw either.
I don't have to ask that here since most won't see that stuff unless they have their filters switched off...
Not that there's anything here (yet, probably) though. Just asking.

Woohoo! 🎉

It's been many wild days huh?

I'm just glad that everything got sorted out and everything is alright.

The nerve of that hacker snatching up the domain, redirecting it and snatching up the FA Twitter!
All after Dragoneer's (R.I.P.) passing too!

This just happening to this place makes me appreciate it a bit more.

Sure, there's issues with this place and all but this is where I got my start at as  konanarillah and my new start over here! Lol
It'd be a shame to lose it all.

It's the "How would you defeat my OC meme".

I made one for Dough-Mutt (assuming if he were to ever turn evil, go rogue or if he's just going to stop you from doing whatever) and I got answers ranging from...

-Donuts 🍩🍩🍩

-Using logical weaknesses of elastic abilities e.g. freezing, melting

-Mind control

-Inflating then popping

-One method was pretty cold and scary... I mean, I was impressed by it but... Wow... 😅

-One method was something out of a Shonen manga or anime mixed with a comic book that I absolutely loved! 😄✨

-And taking advantage of his exposed belly.

-And other stuff lol

Surprisingly, I hadn't got any thirst answers.

I didn't tell some that certain methods won't work too well... Because of reasons.
But I would rather reveal them through stories than outright saying anything.
Dehehehe! 🤫✨

Happy New Year!

Sorry for the late greetings!

Anyway, I hope we all achieve our aspirations and dreams this year. And no matter what happens, make this year, YOUR year!

NOW FOR THE OTHER PART!

I WANNA MAKE ANOTHER COMIC!!!!

But which one though... another Dough-Mutt comic, a Lucius Lupus comic... Something else?
Hmm... Let's see... x3

...Kill the part of you that cringes.

A most useful phrase if I say so myself.

I has been officially one year since I kept to this art identity and I'm never been more proud of myself. It's honestly a lot better than switching back and forth between identities at every given moment. It also didn't make much sense to do so because I mostly watched and interacted with the same accounts. Plus it was high time that I moved on from it.

In case if no one didn't know, my old account was  konanarillah. It was an account that I had since I was 17 joining this site. My first fursona was a colorful gorilla with a red nose. Needless to say, my start on this site was pretty rocky to say the least. It was due to a combination of awkwardness and immaturity. I almost destroyed this site with accidental spam submissions because I left a stack of paper on my keyboard over the Enter key while submitting my first posts to here... thankfully that got resolved but I did catch some heat for it.... then after I turned 18, I started a problem with one of my first influences on this site over on having one of my OCs be included in his comic, knowing that this comic was nsfw and full of gay content... that was all my fault because it came from my own insecurities at that time.... that also got resolved, thankfully and we're both still cool to this day. (I don't know if he knows about this account though.) Also, I figured things out with myself at that time too and just accepted them. Yeah. :P

I mean, it was a rocky beginning... but what came after was an okay middle. Made many friends along the way. Tried to figure things out with what direction I wanted to go for. You see, the old account was like... mostly sfw but it often veered into suggestive territory with bits of nsfw here and there. It was like a weird mix... it was like whiplash to see this cute colorful gorilla in the front with mostly sfw stuff... then BAM, nudity! :B
When it came to figuring out what I wanted to go with, I was thinking... maybe I should do a new identity, maybe one for NSFW stuff or a hidden one dedicated to art development and etc... and roleplaying etc!
I would stick to something for a while, then go back to something else... then go back and forth...
Yeah, I was a mess... :P
It probably didn't help that others who were watching me do this were feeling the same way...

Out of all of them, Super-Dough-Mutt was the one that thrived the most, even though this isn't the first version of this account. It was  doughnutt ... then I added back to  konanarillah later on... then made this afterwards much later. Meaning that this was technically the first alt account that I would basically stick with because I became attached to this chubby, stretchy superhero dog. I don't regret it! Lol
Of course I was still veering between accounts then and when you stick with certain accounts for so long you gain a reputation. And when you don't live up to them by a person's standards, things happen. Meet 2022... the year of disaster that made me seriously reconsider keeping up with Konanarillah because even though I was doing fairly well with Super-Dough-Mutt, I couldn't keep up with doing things like this... I honestly wasted 17 years online with barely no direction. It came to the point where I had to tell myself...

"Listen... you're getting older. You can't keep doing this to yourself and others. You need to make solid choices and stick with them."

So for one year since September of 2022... I stuck with this one... and out of it I managed to:
-Make it easier for people to talk with me and keep up with me.
-Art wise, I was able to be more productive because I focused on stuff that I liked the most.
-The greatest achievement I made so far in my years of posting art online is that I finished a full comic. It's still my proudest achievement online because I've been wanting to do one for years but never managed to finish anything, really! It helped greatly that I had an audience cheering me on and having an accountability partner! I know it's not perfect but idgaf... it's mine and I made it!!

Ngl, it was pretty difficult because when you had an account since you were 17 on a site, you grow attached to it. I had to move on from that part of my life and stop doing the things that I used to do in my late teens, twenties and early 30s. Konana is still around, but not as the face of an account. It's ironic that Dough-Mutt is now the new face... even though I don't really see him as a sona, but everyone else sees it so... heck... why not? :P

I just hope the next 17 years of posting online will be better than my last 17 years. Let's see how things turn out when I'm 51... if I get to live to see that age. You never know, let's see what happens in another 34 years! I dunno when my time will come... but as long as I'm still here and able, I will make the best of it from here on out~!!

I'm on BlueSky!
Check it out!

https://bsky.app/profile/super-doug.....tt.bsky.social

Also, what's next after the comic?
I can't tell you! I'm keeping it a surprise for now! Lol
😉

Hey everyone!

A big thank you to everyone who read and enjoyed my comic!

This project has been in progress for a long time coming. I’m happy that I was able to finally complete and finish a comic project after so many years. The short comic was supposed to be finished years ago but things happened… Things that kept me from holding back my true potential in creating…

If you guys know me (or not), I had a particularly bad history with procrastination when it comes to wanting to do projects. Always promising but never delivering. But another thing that also kept me from continuing and progressing with projects and such is fear. Fear was a big factor along with my procrastination. It was always a dream to make a comic about Dough-Mutt but I’ve always put it off for the longest time out of laziness or fear… but I managed to overcome them and finally finished it.

Last year, I had to really think about what I wanted. I couldn’t continue holding off on a passion project. I had to think to myself “Hey, I’m getting old. So I should decide either now or never…” So I started in January and finished by September.

ABOUT THE COMIC:

This Dough-Mutt comic was supposed to be a simple premise. I didn’t want to make an origin story yet nor anything that was too complicated. So I settled for a simple rescue story where Dough-Mutt saves someone from danger. That was what I decided on.

Before I did any drawing, I would come up with the script first. Originally the story was supposed to have Dough-Mutt rescue a cat lady from a robbery of a gang of hyenas. Dough-Mutt successfully saves the cat lady. The next day afterwards, Dee tells his story to his friend, Lenny. The beginning of the comic started with Dee resting in the park and hearing the cry for help. It was originally supposed to be in all black and white because I first wanted the process to be easier and not rely on using color. I did not get far in drawing it… only two pages. Then I revised the script again and tried drawing the whole comic traditionally then digitally ink and color afterwards… This time, instead of having Dee in the park, it would’ve been from his apartment that he’d heard the cry for help and jump into action… that wasn’t finished either. Then I revised it over again and again… the script was rewritten over 5 times… 6 if you count some minor changes to this current comic…

This time, instead of the cat lady being rescued, I put Lenny as the dude in distress. I wanted to show the connection that Dee and Lenny had. Dee’s always there to help Lenny out if he needs it… Plus they’re pals! Why not show their dynamic? The number of pages fluctuated from time to time… It was supposed to be originally 25. I thought that was too long. So I changed it to 15 for the next revision. I still thought it was too long. So I made it 9 pages in the next revision. Then 26 in the next one… Finally I settled for 28 for this comic, but certain circumstances made me change it to 29.

COMIC PROGRESS: PROBLEMS AND SUCH

Pages 1 to 12 were done on my touchscreen laptop/tablet hybrid using a pen stylus. It was at that point that my laptop wasn’t charging anymore for some reason. So I did a backup of the files but I’d forgot to back up the script for the story… oops. So on my other laptop I had to use my pen tablet to make pages 13 to 19. I also had to remember what I wrote for the script and improvise the dialogue until I got a new charger for my touchscreen laptop along with some new screws. When I got the new charger, it still didn’t charge my laptop, so I opened it up and checked the connector… The connector slot was pushed in a bit which prevented the charger from fully going inside. So I adjusted it and voila! It works again! So I managed to drawing on my touchscreen laptop again (Pages 20-21)… until my pen stylus’ nib broke off and I didn’t have a suitable replacement… Nor did I felt like looking for some online when the company doesn’t sell it anymore… So it was back to the pen tablet again… (Pages 22-29) It was quite a hassle but I managed to overcome.

Oh and about pages 22 onward… they were originally going to have Dough-Mutt stretch wrap Yeen Boss as he were charging at both DM and Lenny. The next pages would’ve had DM warping his hand into a hammer and knocking Yeen Boss out… it felt like it was bit anticlimactic as one reader said. So I changed page 22 for the upcoming events to be a bit more suspenseful and to show a bit of vulnerability with Dough-Mutt not being able to react fast enough… but overcoming nonetheless. Also changing the pages afterwards as well. But no matter the changes, the ending remained the same.


WHAT I LIKED:
I liked that I was able to draw in as much action as I wanted to. Not to mention doing a comic helped me in brainstorming how to make backgrounds and character interaction scenarios. I think the comic is colorful and vibrant enough and such. And having the action take place at night was something as well. I also like that I went for black-colored gutters and borders than the standard white-colored ones.

WHAT I DISLIKED, COULD’VE DONE BETTER AND WHAT COULD’VE BEEN:
I wished I could’ve shown more action between Dough-Mutt and Yeen Boss but I didn’t want the comic to go on for too long. Another thing is that I’m not really a fan on how the character designs seem to fluctuate from page to page. I mean, they still have the basic designs but different ways how they’re portrayed. I can’t tell if it’s my artstyle trying to evolve or I need more practice with consistency. Also, I wish I could’ve kept up with the consistency in the visuals especially the part where Yeen Boss and his goons eat and throw the donuts but where the boxes went to? Where did Lenny put Dough-Mutt’s backpack when DM went off to the cry for help? How do I explain that Dee also hid donuts in his bag?

What I have learned is that I have to keep consistent with what’s happening so people won’t have to question about what’s going on.

The comic was originally supposed to be finished by mid-February or early March since I was doing a mostly daily work and uploading… until the procrastination hit… with sparse pages posted here and there… then a big increase in June… then sparse uploads until I was finished. This tells me a lot about how I make things and upload… even if I’m just focusing on one project only! Overall, making this comic was difficult, fun and so satisfying to complete.

I hope you all enjoyed reading it!

I eagerly await your feedback, thoughts, comments, what I could improve on etc!
Thank you all so much!! ^^

I can't believe it... After all this time... after trying and trying and trying... and starting over so many times... I finally did it!

I finally finished a comic after so long!

Also I finally finished a project after so long as well!!

I'm so incredibly proud of myself!

Oh man... there's so much I have to say... I'll write more in an upcoming journal...


You have no idea how I feel right now... ^^

Thank you to all who read it and commented! ^^