The name speaks for itself. Pretty much I will be doing a pros and cons for characters that I have so everyone would get to know the other when and or if anyone would interact with them. So to starts its Jack P. aka my sona.

Pros:
- Friendly
- Compassionate
- Nerd (But mostly gaming)
- Cares for others
- Loves to help
- The thrill of a challenge
- Perseverance

Cons:
- Selfless
- Competitive
- Bottles up his feelings
- Hard time fitting in.

Wish this journal was like a life update, but no. This time its something that I want to do. Paying respects to the creator that started it all. A guy that touched the hearts of Yu-Gi-Oh players like myself and others that I met and even those that watched the show, Kazuki Tatahashi. Rest his good soul for giving me something that I can connect with others even if it was hard to find others like me that liked the card game. Still, without this man I wouldnt be able to meet other people when I was a kid or connect with others too. Best moment, waking up every morning on saturday cartoon watching OG Duel Monsters on the edge of my seat with every duel and play and bs, but all amazing. Thank you Kazuki Tatahashi, may you find peace in the next life because man...you are the best for giving me what I love :(

Name: Lunar Eclipse Sarah

Personality: Calm, assertive, caring, and protective

Alignment: Lawful good

Weapon: Spear

Powers: Restoration, healing, dark infusion, dark ball, shadow wave motion blast and dark spike

Bio: Sarah was having a night flight at a beach just to spread her wings. As she was gazing at the beautiful moon, she noticed that the moon was disappearing as she didn’t know what was happening. As the moon was completely covered, she felt something strange. She quickly landed and she glowed a white aura. She felt that her lunar powers were getting stronger, and she started to change, but unlike solar eclipse form she felt somehow calm and collected. Her clothes changed and that white aura turned into purple shadow flame embedding her whole body from head to toe. As the flames disappeared, she examines herself and then a spear appeared in front of her, and she takes it. She then looked around knowing she was around people, and she quickly goes to a forest wanting to test her new abilities. From then on, she was getting the hang on her dark abilities and her weapon. She then stopped and heard of an animal crying in pain. She walked towards a deer who was hurt from how she sees it. Her hand glowed and touched the deer as she wanted to calm it down. Then, to her surprised healed the injured animal and the deer raced away feeling better.

Name: Red Flare

Species: Phoenix

Age: Unknown

Powers: Elemental Powers. Can be out of Jack's body and be away from him within 6 meters and only maintain partial of its power.

Height: 30”

Weight: 650 g


Companion: Jack Purity

Bio: Red Flare was a once in a egg in a cave in the fiery depth in its nest. There was a mother bird that was protecting it and watching over the egg. The guardian bird was an elemental bird who was a phoenix. The mother was guarding against anything that may harm it. Moments later creatures such as fire imps and demons were attacking the mother bird and try to steal the egg itself. The mother bird tried to fight it off, but end up being hurt and injured as the imps and demons was large in numbers. Soon later the egg was taken as trophy deep in the fiery caverns of the cave. Moments later, Jack was exploring the fiery cave wearing a fireproof protective gear that he bought from an merchant. He explored the cave to get some red fire rubies just to sell and at the same time to keep one for himself. As Jack was exploring the cave, he came across the injured mother bird and its nest for its missing egg. He then saw footprints of the creatures that took it and followed it until he came across their lair. The demons and imps were sleeping. Jack was slowly creeping around the demons and imps to retrieve the egg.

He grabbed the egg and attempted to escape until one of the imps woke up and started to attack him which alerted the others. Jack ran, but decided to put the egg down and tried to fight it off. He couldn't take them all as he tried his best to defend the egg. The mother bird with the last of its strength flew by and burst out from its mouth a water tornado to extinguish the demons and imps. The water tornado was strong enough to cool down the cave itself, but not enough to put out its flames. The mother bird fell in front of Jack and he pet it hoping that the mother would be ok. He checked its pulse, but he felt nothing which clearly was a sign that the bird died from saving its child. The mother then turned into a ball of light, bursts into flames and disappeared. Weeks later, Jack took care of the egg until moments later it hatched into a large baby elemental phoenix bird that imprinted on Jack. He named it Red Flare which sounded cooler in his head. The bird nuzzled on Jack’s tummy approving the name. Days later, the bird began to evolve as its power grows and gained new abilities. Jack and Red Flare started going on adventures and test out its abilities. Jack then developed elemental powers that Red Flare passed its powers to him. Red flare nuzzles to its owner bonding with Jack. Red Flare has now gained a new friend and companion as well for Jack.

I havent updated this in eons lol, but well it shows because I dont put much on here because I dont have nothing to show or share to anyone since well I dont draw much like that. Still, I do have a new character that I am going to post and do a bio for, but for right now I will give it a hint. Its another feline character.

Its been a while since I wrote a journal, but letting everyone know that I'm still alive and kicking. I haven't been drawing anything really cause i been lacking motivation, but on the plus side I got Animal Crossing now thanks to my wolf  madam-demonessa also happy 6 years together! Still I am ok, I just need motivation. Actually thats not hard since I been seeing a lot of art from everyone. makes me wish to draw. The first order is to still figure out how to draw my fusion character. thats what the trouble is and I'm having a hard time with it finding references. Still anyway just letting everyone know that I am ok, just right now I don;t know on how to occupy myself aside video games.

ok. I'm getting that moody feeling in my mind that I feel like people are better off to hang with someone else other than me because I'm not that interesting enough. I'm always silent and I Barely have anything to say at all cause I don't know anything interesting other then what I know. I feel like people are better off not being around me and I should stop trying if I don't have anything interesting or fun to say.

Hello everyone to all the watchers I currently have. So, yes as the title said I'm still alive and still going. I been busy lately and I still been liking the artist on here. I also finished school and everything. So, whats next well a couple of things I would like to address. First off, yes I haven't posted on here since forever and also I haven't Rpd with anyone for a while. The reason being is that deep down in me I lost the motivation to not only draw, but also making character development. Now the character development I can still do, but for a while now I just haven't been finding anyone who would Rp with me to help. Then again I guess, the fact that I haven't been communicating with the artist that I follow and stuff so thats really my problem. I don't know what to do with my characters now since that they don't have a story to make them or appeal to others. I may drop some really or give it to someone that will be a good home to them and they can do whatever they want, but I don't think that can happen. Second, as for Rping, I still want to Rp, but now I feel uncomfortable Rping now. Reason being is that I feel like I'm not good enough to anyone who I would ask to Rp and not to mention I don't think most would rp with me cause the way I reply and stuff. Other than that, I might restart by making character development.

Thats all for now. So yeah, I don't have that many to talk to on here so yeah thanks for reading.

So 2018 is about to end soon and i been thinking on something that I may or might not do really. I been thinking that in 2019 I been thinking about taking a break from discord and some things like twitter (even though I never use twitter expect for reblogging art) all what its really doing is making me not happy and even make me feel alone. With that I don't want to be in a place that it won't make me happy, I decided that on 2019 I will be taking a break from discord for a bit cause I can't do this.

that is all.

I'm now done with the fall semester. My experience is still a learning process, but also I beginning to realize more and more about myself as a person to everyone. I felt like I was being tested and I nearly passed, but theres a lot I need to work on. What happens next? Well, I need to expand my horizon about other people so I can be more interesting to them. I am also going to draw my new character the best I can. I can't slack off and play video games and not do something else. I am going to find something that will interest me too and above all I will do my best to be a good person.

As the year and the semester is getting close to the end, I realized the biggest problem through this entire year. The biggest problem is myself. I realized that even though I'm a little out going a little I'm not the most fun nor interesting person to be around with. I only have very limited interests that I have for all my life like video games for example and now those interests will not be enough anymore to anyone. I'm not engaging enough for conversations either which makes less interesting as well. Overall, I always knew that I'd change, but now I know its never for the better. I used to be very fun to be around with, but now thats not the case anymore. I feel more like a not fun person to be with. I always think too much trying to fix myself and that makes it worse for me and everyone around me. NOW I'm done. I'm done of feeling this way. I'm done with myself. I'm done of thinking. I'm done of everything thats negative that I been putting on everyone. Its time for a dang change and I want that change to happen from now til next year and beyond. I want to expand myself. Its going to be very very very hard for me to expand myself on interests and things and if people don't understand my position then I don't expect them too. Its time for a new me and its going to be better than anything else.

To the people here reading this happy thanksgiving and whatever cause thats my mood

Happy spooky day to all.

*Tiger disappears into the shadows*

Today marks the day of me being the big 28. I hope I get birthday wishes and gift from my friends. Still tired.


*The Tiger disappears into the shadows*

Since summer is coming to an end and my semester is around the corner. I want to share my mental thought about all of this. For the past summer even though I had a good time with friends and stuff, when the fun is over I felt like I was alone. I know its really stupid and all that, but thats how I felt. I try to interact other people on social media, but I been having always no luck at all. Most of the time when I see people having fun and I want to join in and stuff I feel like I get shut out. I feel like I dont even belong at all or even questioning on why I'm even here, so most of the time I build a wall around myself from others unless its someone I know personally. The harder part is that finding something to talk about and I feel like I'm just a robot who just doesn't know anything. In conclusion, my summer was alright and everything. I wished I did more for myself and everything. The question that I'm asking myself is that..am I boring and weighing people down? Thats how I feel mentally for the summer.

Summer is over and otakon is this week. I'm going to otakon this week as a last and only fun summer I'll ever have. This summer hasn't been the best for me at all and the great highlight of it was really spending time with my friends that I know at the school and also my gf. Other than that, nothing really ever happen that was exciting for me or fun. I didn't do much drawing that I was suppose to do nor I didn't do any excercising. All I ever do is being busy with other stuff and then in the process I lost motivation ti draw as a whole with ideas that I still want to put in. Other then that, this summer is for the birds and otakon is the only thing that can make me happy and have the last fun.

So far the summer that I'm in and I can't believe that I'm saying this that this summer has been a disappointing summer that I ever endured. Normally I usually pick myself back up again and smile and normally there have been moments of when I was smiling sometimes, but right now the summer has left me with disappointment and bad karma. There was some good times this summer, but majority was bad ones. Theres one thing that this summer has taught me, if nothing comes your way even you feel like you deserve it or went through a lot of bad karma that you got out of and learned a lesson, theres always something to put you in a hole. I'm always going faster and faster and never slowing down. I'm always trying hard to change stuff, but things always end up hurting myself. As of now, I'm realizing not in a negative outlook, but more of a realization that I have to accept the fact that I lost this round for the summer. I lost the battle for making things fun and I lost to myself. All I can do is accept it and that the game is over. I lost because I didn't learn my past mistakes, I lost because I tried too hard on everything to make things better and I lost because my sense of self and all I can do is accept it and restart. I know one way to the path of restart. Thats all the things I really want to get out of my chest.

Thanks for listening.

tomorrow I'm goign to start drawing again. nothing is getting done anymore, so I'm goign to say that I'm going to draw. Screw streaming for right now cause I hadn't made up a plan at all for it. so I'm going to draw.

So July is around the corner and its fast approaching. I haven't been doing that much art except finishing on some stuff that I been working on. So right now I haven't been doing any art and I havent been making progress on my current character. Far as I'm concerned, I realized in the month of june that I been thinking too much on what I want to do when it comes to art. I been thinking of too many ideas in for art that I want to do without coming up with a plan and everything. So right now while the summer is still rolling and trying to get my stuff together for the fall semester, I'm going to try and work on one art at a time and I know who I'm going to work on. As for the rest of whats happening, I had a lot of fun times and then I also might be thinking of doing a gaming stream for the first time I just need time to figure out on what I need to do, but I haven't decided yet. Other than that yeah, thats about I still got a lot to learn.

Sometimes I been thinking to myself on a lot of things. Sometimes I thought about on what could I have done or what would I been if I was really a different person to myself and others. I feel like I sometimes I couldn't express myself to what I'm really feeling in my heart anymore. Most times that I wish I could turn my brain off and not think too much with my brain. I want to change for the better and hopefully to a point that I can be happy about myself and hopefully try not to be a person that can't turn his brain off. I want to be happy. I want to be a good person to myself and everyone. I want to express how I feel with my heart and not with my brain. I don't want to be in a bubble and be in a wall when no one can reach me. I just want to be back to the way I was in 2014. happy and smiling and being a friendly person again. I don't want to feel angry anymore. I don;t want to feel doubt. I want to be myself like I used to be.

So small update on whats been going on. I been doing really nothing much since my school was over. I been spending time with my gf and been thinking about a lot of stuff based on life and all and been learning about myself. Other than that, I been taking things easy and stuff. As for art, I haven't been doing much art or been working on my story of my character at all at some point in time, I may just scrap my story and just draw my character for fun or unless something else happen that would get me inspired. Also, I been thinking about drawing a couple of characters, based on fusion of animals. I haven't gotten any ideas yet, but I'll just start with 3 animals and make a character of the three. Maybe make a species name off of it I don't know yet. Anyway thats my update on life and stuff.

-Tiger is back to meditating-

School is closed cause of the snow and right now I have nothing to do so I decided to continuing making my story for my void sorceress. Its not going well after re-reading my bio of her and everything else I realize that it doesn't make much sense . I dont even know how the null tribe was founded and how did they get more people. I wrote the questions to help answer my troubled questions, but I couldn't think of a answer for it because I left myself with more questions. I took a break and I'm left with frustration. How do people do this? I started to realize that I'm not cut out with making stories or creating characters, but I don't want to give up on it. any suggestions on how to make it better?

Right now, I done my first week of Illustration class and to be honest, it wasn't what I was expecting at all. Turns out its all traditional drawing. The good news is that I'm with my old professor that I had before, but the bad news is that this class is also my weakness as well because it involves free mind thinking and creativity which I realize I don't have the mentality for it because I'm too much of a academic person or in this case I think too much on this. I know I'm beating myself up about it, but its the truth. So, really I just have to push my mind and brain hard or force my way.

So next week I go back to school and I'm going to give my thoughts. Everything from this break has been up and down. I got to spend time with my gf and it was really good. I really enjoyed spending my time with her. I been trying to connect more with people and I'm slowly doing it. Aside from being busy, I havent been getting motivation lately for doing art and I been busy trying to figure stuff out on where I stand right now and also about katsucon. I really want to draw right now, but I'm trying to get motivation, but I haven't gotten much luck and I have ideas, but I haven't found where to start either. Either way, this is where I stand. So yeah.

This year has becoming a up and down year for me. Lets start with the good. For the good part, I had a great time with some of my friends and other than that going to cons and actually see one of the actors that I never thought of seeing in overwatch and I felt happy. Of course there are some who supported me for a while and I appreciate it and for art wise I'm being very active on art which is a nice change. Of course I been supporting as long as I can which is good. Now for the bad, the problem is I felt like I never connected enough with people and I'm at the point that I just wanted to stay quiet for a while. I want to pitch in and chime in, but I don't want to be that annoying person cause whats the point. Then on top of that, I been snapping at my closest friends that been helping me and thats not like me at all. Then again, I guess I felt like I'm just tired of all this for this year. All this year been giving me is nothing but stress, but thats no excuse for what I'm slowy turning into. Then, I been thinking too much on a lot of things. Overall this year is becoming a test that I felt like I failed. Have I been improving as a person? I will say no. Am I willing to change it, yes. Am I doing too much to feel like I fit in and don't want to be left out....yes. Overall, this year is up and down for me I don't expect no one to understand nor even get it, but thats whats been happening to me.

Thanks for reading.