I live in a world of make believe
I am deceived by what I perceive
this world i see is fantasy
nobody ever understands me
dreaming high and achieving low
the smile I wear is just for show
wishing for things that will never be.
the only one time where i truely am free
and that is when im dreaming you see.
maybe its me
maybe i'm the weird one
but at least i know that I can have fun
thinking of things that some find insane
or plain, or stupid, or downright inane.
constantly dreaming, in a world of my own
though people may not condone such behavior
I seldom see anything is greater.
this may be in vain, and you may not care
this world is my own, and i wish i could share.





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that dreadful attempt at me making a poem/rhyme was so terrible, but its mostly the truth lol XD

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- nope
Been arrested? --- nope
Kissed someone you didn't like? --- nope
Slept in until 5 PM? --- yup
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- yup
Ran a red light? --- nope
Been suspended from school? --- nope
Experienced love at first sight? --- yebno?
Totalled your car in an accident? --- yup
Been fired from a job? --- nope
Fired somebody? --- nope
Sang karaoke? --- nope
Pointed a gun at someone? --- yup
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- nope
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- nope
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---nope
Kissed in the rain? --- nope
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- yup
Seen someone die? --- yup
Played spin-the-bottle? --- yup
Sang in the shower? --- nope
Sat on a rooftop? --- nope
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- nope
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- nope
Skipped school? --- yup
Eaten a bug? --- yup
Sleepwalked? --- yup
Walked a moonlit beach?--- nope
Ridden a motorcycle? --- yup
Dumped someone? --- nope
Forgotten your anniversary? --- nope
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- nope
Ridden on a helicopter? --- nope
Shaved your head? --- yebno?
Blacked out from drinking? --- nope
Played a prank on someone? --- nope
Hit a home run? --- nope
Felt like killing someone? --- yup
Cross-dressed? --- nope
Been falling-down drunk? --- nope
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---nope
Eaten a snake? --- nope
Marched/Protested? --- nope
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- nope
Puked on amusement ride? --- nope
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- nope
Been in a band? --- nope
Knitted? --- yup
Been on TV? --- yup
Shot a gun? --- yup
Skinny-dipped? --- nope
Caused someone to need stitches? --- nope
Ridden a surfboard? --- nope
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- nope
Had surgery? --- nope
Streaked? --- nope
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- yebno?
Passed out when not drinking? --- nope
Peed on a bush? ---nope
Donated Blood? --- nope
Grabbed electric fence? --- nope
Eaten alligator meat? --- nope
Eaten cheesecake? --- nope
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- nope
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- nope
Peed your pants in public? --- nope
Written graffiti? --- nope
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- nope
Think about the future? --- nope
Been in handcuffs? --- nope
Believe in love? --- yebno...
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- nope

I tag noone

i seriously cannot stop watching this ahahahaha



"thats whatcha get *trollface*" XD

this piece of shit must be stopped just like SOPA and PIPA its going to ruin the internet, its as bad, if not worse than them, so sign this petition and try to stop it!

https://www.accessnow.org/page/s/ju.....say-no-to-acta

yeah making a balisong/butterfly knife so i can do what the spy on tf2 does when he flicks it around haha

was wondering if any of you wanted me to put some pictures of it being made throughout, altho im not sure if such pictures would be aloud on a site like this :/...

its snowing lightly, but its not sticking :/.. man the UK sucks.... I wish i lived of top of the mountain instead of half way up, its white on the top of the mountain lmfao

they exist in my damned college!!!! theres a huge poster in the hall and a smaller one in one of the classrooms with a cat and the words
"please...

stop anthropomorphizing me!"

the anger DX it filled me up, I have the nerve to write a letter saying

"Dear furry haters

get a life

from:
the furry fandom~"


lol XD

yup just what the title says, SOPA and PIPA have both been postponed indefinitely :P thank god congress noticed our rampant protests on the internet and has not allowed them through :D more info here

http://money.cnn.com/2012/01/20/tec.....IPA_postponed/

sopa backwards: apos: a piece of shit???

dun dun daaah lol turns out the people putting the SOPA thing through are the people who STARTED pirating in the first place lmfao

no really.. rum... it doesn't affect me hahaha,a bottle of rum on second attempt at getting drunk, and im STILL not drunk can still see, think talk and walk properly lmfao

my resolution this year was the pass english LOL its annoying me, and improve my art :3

haha yeah... I was thinking of doing the voice meme thing from like... what... was it last year? lmfao.... I'm not sure if i should do it tho, its pretty much drudging up ancient history, and im sure none of you want to know what I sound like... I mean not even I want to know what i sound like and personally i dont like my voice ahaha... XD

thats a vid of what is happening whenever i put the pen on the tablet or hover it, the cursor jumps up and down, I don't know why its doing this or how to fix it.... I had a suspicion that it was a conflict between two programs on vista, then i had another one that its because my pc is vista and the drivers are only meant for xp, 2000, 98, and ME lol..... however im not sure of this because the smaller tablet old one i had before was the same type of drivers and for 98 me xp and 2000, so it doesn't make sense, does anyone know whats wrong and how to fix it?.... :<... please i would really like to know how to fix this DD:.....

and a happy new year... was your inbox filled with like 100 journals all saying that? mine was lmfao hahaha XD

according to this im 60.22727272727273% insane haha its pro XD

http://penddraig.co.uk/pen/tests/sanity.htm

I wanna know if anyone who reads this will do it and help turn it into a meme hahahaha

http://www.avaaz.org/en/save_the_internet

sign it to try and do something about it haha, i find it funny that i live in the uk and i am the only person i've seen speaking about this on my websites, noone from America has posted anything to try and help stop it... its odd XD

and what it means...





in layman's terms it means the end of deviatnart, youtube, and any other website which ends in .com and has copyright infringement of any kind on it....

you know that meme, yeah, the comparison meme?... I'm thinking of doing it but im not sure anyone would want to see it haha XD

are completely useless.... all my life i've stayed away from drinking alcohol of any kinds, only having a small glass of TVX on new years... thats about it for my whole year...

but today cos christmas is coming i thought "hurr durr i'll try n get drunk... :F"

however... it appears my alcohol tollerance is high.... I had 2 glasses of TVX, another glass of red wine, and a glass of tia maria, and I wasn't drunk... now im not sure what went wrong but as far as im concerned thats like.... enough to get drunk.. but i wasn't drunk... what went wrong? DD:

yesh it does!... it should be known as a daredevil because it has been doing a lot of this thinking business lately, its a very deadly thing for me to do haha XD
anywho back down to business!!

brain: yeash i has been thinkings... dis Trust A4 graphics tablet of which we are receiving.. it has come to my attention zat ve could make some very awesome modificationz and make it like a DIY Cintiq.. only a trust version.. HOWEVER! this would require some testing for my to do first before purchasing a screen, the tablet needs to be tested for how far away from the desk the pens movements can be sensed so dis shall be tested first, if the results are... what I desire... I expect that I should be able to make my own sort of Cintiq muehehe, and all for a grand total of... wait for et... about £50... lol... XD

zat is all... jou may leave nao!

im going tobe using a Trust tablet that is a "Trust 1200 wireless A4 tablet" lol £25 much better than a wacom if u ask me, just on the price alone haha XD

tagged by  puppyloveimani ¬_¬ lol

First off.... Rules!
1. You must post these rules (Very Important indeed).
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this." You legitimately (AKA, really, truly, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.


11 things about me

1. I'm lazy
2. I'm ugly
3. I'm a computer geek
4. I can't draw
5. I'm a virgin
6. I have 3 dogs
7. I get easily bored with things
8. I'm running out of things to say
9. I hate memes
10. They are like the only thing I hate
11. I fear the reaper :/...



1. What is your favorite animal?
uhm... horses :D and dogs XD oh and bunnys are cute XD
2. What is your favorite rock band?
Queen
3. What is your favorite song?
too many to choose just one XD
4. What do you wear to sleep?
uhm.. if its cold a T-shirt and come trousers and my socks
if its warm I take the trousers off lmfao
5. How often do you have sex?
never haha XD
6. How long do you stay on the computer per week?
uhm.. thats a tough question :o.. 7 hours a day 7 days a week thats like 48 hours a week, 2 full days a week on the PC the rest is basically sleeping lol XD
7. How long was your longest (bf/gf, bf/bf, gf/gf) relationship?
uhm... 0 seconds and 0 miliseconds, I've never had a girlfriend :<
8. Where did you lose your virginity
I still have it so... yeah...
9. How much do you eat a day?
A LOT XD OM NOM NOM food is my best friend hahaha jk XD
10. Do you have any pets?
3 dogs, Storm, Rocket, and Shadow XD haha
11. Interwebs? :3
I luff teh interwebs xD




1. whats ur fave time of day?
2. whats ur fave hobby?
3.do you like waffles?
4. do you like pancakes?
5. are you bored yet?
6. can you tell i've already ran out of things to ask? XD
7. what operating system do you use?
8. what type of computer do you own?
9. if u own a tablet, what kind of tablet?
10. headphones or speakers?
11. what is your favourite car?


I honestly do no t have 11 people who I can tag so im not tagging anyone even if it brings me badluck -.-

I've been taking photos of my fireworks, they suck, but expect to see pictures of them :D lol

so yeah, I gots a new camera x3 lol
its a fujifilm 12.2megapixel camera and its awesome :D lol
i hope it snows so i can take loads of lovely pictures of teh shnowz XD lol

but yeah apart from that theres not much thats new :O..

oh and its bonfire night tonight :D, happy bonfire night peoplez and have a safe one :3

oh that reminds me, imma try and take pictures of our fireworks haha XD