Hey guys... it's been a long while, hasn't it? I can't believe it's been a year since my last post

Last time I returned to FA, I came back feeling so confident. My health was on the rise and I was really excited to produce artwork and catch up on everything, but in the end, things just started getting worse again, but for different reasons

My physical and mental health have been on the decline and I've become very weak. I keep having seizures (or my doctor is pretty sure they're seizures, I can't do more testing until I get my insurance back in April, because I started a new job and don't have any at the moment) and I just don't have the energy to do much of anything. It's been really, really difficult, and honestly at this point, I have to face facts that I don't know when I'm going to get better... if I ever get better

So I'm going to be providing refunds to the people that I owe art to. I feel ashamed of myself for having been forced to do this, especially because I wanted to badly to give people something worth having waited so long for. People have been so kind and patient during all of this, and I wanted to repay them by giving them something nice. I didn't want this to end in disappointment

But honestly, while I'm pretty sure I'm not dying, I have no idea how things will go. I don't want to cheat people, and even though I know none of this is my fault, I've been carrying around an unbelievable amount of guilt for my failure to create artwork for people who liked my work enough to commission me. I let people down and that's a horrible, horrible feeling. But this is all I can do at this point, you know? All I can do is try to pay people back and hope that people can forgive me

If I owe you artwork, please send me a note with your Paypal information, and I will refund you as soon as I can. I don't get paid much at my job because I can only work so many hours due to my health, and I have bills to pay (especially medical bills, god) but I'll do my best to get back to people as soon as I can. And if people don't see this and I realize that someone hasn't sent me a note, I'll reach out to them, but I'd honestly prefer if people could initiate first because it's a real struggle for me to even be online writing this. I have a very limited amount of energy right now, so saving me some mental effort would really mean a lot to me

Thanks to everyone who was so kind to me during all of this. I'm really grateful to the support I got, and I'm sorry for letting you all down. I'll do whatever I can to make things right again, and hopefully when I get a little stronger, hopefully maybe I can draw again someday