Heyyyy my friends! Been such a long time since I’ve been active and it’s not intentional. I do have some things to fill everyone on and maybe talk about future plans:

- So throughout this year I’ve been down and it’s because of my mental health involving medical changes. At one point I almost went into psychosis. Thanks to my husband , friends, and even family for supporting me during these times. Been going to Trauma therapy still and I’m on a waitlist to get a service dog. Very happy about that. Speaking of dogs..

I got a dog! She is my emotional support animal but let me be sappy and say how she is too cute. I got her in February/March - she is a rescued. She is a Decker Rat terrier mix named Possum. I’ll be posting a pic of her in my gallery soon. I was very lucky to get her because no one wanted her as everyone who had her returned her back immediately (4 times ya’ll.) I fell in love with her immediately after hearing her story on the phone with the lady in charge of the sanctuary. She was extremely timid but never aggressive. She hid under coaches and hanged with the cats under there. I explained to the lady that me and her are relatively alike and maybe we can heal each other from the abuse and trauma. The lady was extremely happy that I gave her a chance and even half the adoption fees and transportation. (She was almost half the country away.) Oh even the dentist work for free - poor baby has an overbite. She had to have the work done if not she would have holes in the top of her mouth. They were supposed to take her teeth out but they decided not to risk it as the factors included having a fragile jaw. 💔 They just tipped her canines.
I was extremely patient when I got this baby. In short she finally opened up and i completely changed her into a playful loving sweetie. It took like 7 months but healing takes time and she is still healing. I’m slowly healing as well.

and I have been visiting back and forth. I love the extreme weather in Finland. His mother is always asking about me so I feel very special. Pretty soon my living situation is changing in little less than half a year. We’ll be in a house and not at my old place haha. Hoping everything goes to plan. He a good boi.

I’m still in my Cannabis Program and hoping to be finished soon so I can get that job I always wanted. Medical user I am but I want to expand for folks. Study and research team.

Did I tell you I broke my wrist? Miss lady knocked me over while trying to take her to go potty. She got too excited and darted for a squirrel ( still teaching her how to maintain her high hunting drive.) she is very sorry though you can tell but I’m still out of work atm. I had to get surgery to fix that and there were a lot of torn ligaments, bruising of the bones, broken scaphoid- oh even have calcified tendinitis. Yikes.

Art wise I’ve been drawing but been extremely stubborn and don’t post it. Hoping it changes; You probably see some new works in my gallery already. I had revamped a lot of my old ocs like Kekira she is a Chi now and Connor is a Donkey. ❤️ Swirly is now part alien and not just pure serval. Alien traits like “the thing” creature. So beware for some freaky shit haha.

I do have a ton more info but gonna keep it very short now; Any ways how is my friends? C:

https://bsky.app/profile/swirlyspot.....an.bsky.social !

Hello cool kids. I last made a journal from like 4-5 months ago? It was vague but if you checked out my GoFundMe that I had the full details. Since it's no longer in use and those who still don't know what happened I'll tell you with some other things with some future plans.

My and I had frequent trips ( mostly him here ) but last summer was kinda an odd one. In short, in like July I had to get an emergency life-saving surgery. A simple IUD check up with intense fainting spells, pain, bleeding, and vertigo became an ruptured ovary from an 8 week ectopic pregnancy. I didn't know I was pregnant the whole time. I showed no signs besides my hips got a tiny bit wide as the words from Moose. Unfortunately it wasn't viable - no heartbeat. That was very stressful and I was down in my luck. I was out of work for the longest time and bed bound. Thanks to all the help from fellow friends and strangers I got through with financials to tie me until this was over with. I'm okay now. Mentally I was devastated. I had to change meds once again on and off because the deep depression I got from this. Weird thing is my IUD was in place and it could of been that 1% or just genetically me. Any who I got some cool scars and now have one ovary.


Good news! I have been engaged to my Moose. Summer of course we announced it finally. <3 Feels new to me to wear a ring hehe. We had fun. Seeing Ghost. Going to firework shows; the movies. Little dates and being best partners to each other. <3

So Now I'm studying cannabis stuff and some horticulture and hoping I can land a good paying job and just work part time at my current job. I feel jaded. I need to evolve. My art I still work on but mostly it's non-finished pieces. I'm too stubborn to post haha. I am slowly working on commissions and maybe I can open some more.

In like 9 days I'm leaving for Finland to have Xmas with Moose and his family. I'm excited and get to try all the new experiences in winter now. In a few years he'll be living with me. <3

But... How is everyone besides me rambling?

It’s been a while friends.. I have set a gofundme suggested by my friend to help with my medical bills. If you want the story it’s in my gofundme or my Twitter page. I need help and even just sharing can help. I’m bed bound but I can get some commissions going soon if anyone is interested.

;( My GoFundMe

Story on Twitter
Im open for icons and headshots: Forms here

I'm open for a couple of icons and headshots! Info more on twitter. :)

https://twitter.com/SwirlySpotBean/.....753410050?s=20

Hey! I’m updating a bit here with some stuff.

I am currently cleaning and condensing my art sites to be a bit smaller. So NO more: DA, InkBunny, SoFurry with Tumblr down the hitch.

I have my Twitter, FA (here) , PillowFort, ToyHouse and Weasyl atm. I’m debating if I should get rid of Weasyl. I’m actually doing some small art goals yay!

After that I’ll be making some examples because pretty soon I’ll be taking on small batches of commissions!

A lot of character revamps, some probably will be on sale or trade!

Oh and a side topic; has been with me for almost a year. He also had his very first trip to the USA to see me not too long ago but I do miss him dearly. ;w;

Anywho how’s my peeps?

So some things have changed. I've not been around because some huge life changes. Too many details to explain all in one go.

Here is some things that have happened:

- I'm no longer in that 12 year relationship with a certain someone.
It was very hard but it was for the best I wasn't happy no more.
That's another can of worms I'm not wanting to go into depth right now.

- I've been officially diagnosed with ADHD, Bi Polar and the other stuff that I already knew. ( PSTD, Anxiety, and Depression.)
I've been going on trials of medications to find what works with me and now I'm now on a waitlist for trauma therapy.

- So some you folks now, but I'm with someone now. Heheehe with a very special moose I honestly couldn't be more happy to be with! 8) <3
We been together for 4 months so far and I even went on a trip to see him in Finland in June [ Even for birthday! ] <3

- When I got back from the trip I had covid, but I recovered quickly. That was terrible bleh.

-So if some folks follow my twitter they noticed some art activity. I've been slowly returning to art thanks to for the encouragements and help to get me back on track. Always pushing me and me not just laying in bed like a depressed bean. Btw I'm very active on Twitter, follow me if you haven't. > https://twitter.com/SwirlySpotBean
I even converted to draw back on my pc while I got a brand new one with a brand new tablet. I'm going to sell my iPad. It doesn't do it no more for me but we will see.

- I'm still working constantly but I'm going to make time to do some commissions on the side. I really want to save this money for my boyfriend and any future endeavors with him.

There are more but this is what I'm comfortable sharing atm. I hope to be active once again. Anyways how's life?

Hi, I’m kinda back? Anyways I’ve been busy with irl life thus not much art as promised. I’ve been dealing with mental health stuff. I’m on antidepressants [second type since Prozac didn’t go well with me.] Trying to find the right balance for my brain as I’ve been officially diagnosed by my doctor with clinical depression, anxiety and ptsd. [Already knew this but needed to be confirmed.] I’m now learning I ‘’might” have adhd since I'm having secondary symptoms still, so evaluation is in line. Im slowly feeling like my self. I feel it’s a weird all over progress but it bounces back and forth. I picked some games up and actually started playing them! I’m having the urge to draw too but imma have to take it slow so I don’t overwhelm myself. Anyways how’s everyone?

Who needs a code?

Sooooo its not finished but here is my server if you wanna join! https://discord.gg/4TtpHSue

Hey I’m trying to look for any artist that is open for nsfw with slightly paw fetish commissions? It’s for my friendo, if you can suggest anyone - shoot them this way!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38228297/ I’m trying to sell this adopt; I’m willing to drop the price to 25 USA dollars if not I’ll just permanently delete this char and start over.

I’m old now.

Made one > here

I’m convinced taco bell cures my depression haha.. so hows life?

So I see so many servals now! I’m just so happy there is a increase but sadly no group for them yet. Hmmm 🤔 might make a serval group?

So I’m moving again in rl, so hopefully I’ll have spare time to draw! If so would anyone be interested in a headshot and maybe I can take a headshot commission? I ask because imma be in limbo with work since I’m transferring at a different store. Any thoughts but yeah I’ll start prob 19th so.

Reminder that my old art is on my old account. I’m finishing some art so I can actually post on here for once lol. Also follow my toyhou.se https://toyhou.se/nullifydreammonster

Woah its changed here haha.

So I have a problem; I really want to commission some art but I’ve yet to make reference sheets of my beloved Swirly. Big ouff, but I work all the time so? Halpppp.

Thanks for following me on my new account, those who are new enjoy your stay. Also those who followed my old account, thanks for sticking around for this long. I surely appreciate it and makes me feel good about myself that I have folks who enjoy my works. One good thing to remind myself my art doesn’t totally suck haha. ;w;

So what are ways to keep motivated when you work 50+ hours and really want to draw but I sleep from exhaustion? I really want to join back but I cant? I thought my month long vacation with my boyfriend in Canada would of helped but ended up spending all my time with him. Oh I’m engaged, something random to ramble about one day. Yeee.

I’m on artfight! Let’s add each other, I’m team dream! https://artfight.net/~SwirlySpotBean

I’m not new, just made a new account from to get my new name updated.