Today is the day

the hatch day hath ariveth
happ birth to me ^.=.^

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My birthday is always a point of reflection for me. I thankfully have a family that I can always celebrate it with and it’s always nice to see the greetings pour in from friends so I’ve got those baseline reasons to feel special and actually happy when it comes around.
The day is always special to me because it’s just an empowering day to me. I tend to go through the entire year with anxiety about social interactions or things I’m interested in. I’d worry I’d come off as annoying from hyperfocused topics or needy or inferior in knowledge/skill or a lust-addled creep depending on the topic when I would try and reach out to someone, so having this period where I can see all the love pour in for reminds me “You know, I am special! I am worth it! I do deserve to be adored and pursue whatever I want!”

It’s an urge that pushed me to not-so-subtly panhandle for gift art in a previous journal that reminded people that my big day was coming up. Sure it’s still a bit begging, maybe it could have used a bit more advertising than a few days prior and some grass roots messaging by changing some of my social handles and statuses to say my birthday was coming up a week or so ago, but it’s a part of the whole feeling that I should draw attention to myself for things I’m proud of. And, I mean, it my bday, gifts are always appreciated 🥹.

As much as I’d hope for all the other grand gift art I’ve seen others get for their birthdays, I know that’s only born from them being actual close friends so they would do nice things like that for each other. I know I’m not on that many artists’ radars purely from just not being in their regular friend circles, but even the littlest doodle from an artist I admire would have made my day.
It’s also parallel to the sentiment that if I want people to know about me, I actually need to tell people what i’ve been up to and planning. Can’t have a party if you don’t actually tell people there’s a party 😅.

Same goes with the friend circle thing. People won’t know if I exist if I don’t talk to them so fuck it, yeah I should talk to people I like. I’ll get hung up on what to actually talk about with them, whether I should go with furry teasing or genuine IRL connections, and I’ll certainly feel like I’d be getting up their ass trying to regularly talk to them for the same projecting feeling I have of “how dare someone actually want to ask what i’ve been up to as a conversation starter to learn more about another person”. I should still try to poke people I find interesting. Even though a lot of the time the momentum doesn’t last because I’m just not that in their circle, most of the people I’ve talked to are always happy to chat with me, so that’s still a pretty good success rate all told which means I should just reach out to people whenever.

This is all to say thanks everyone for the attention and love. As much as I can keep headhunting for those popular artists I admire and moan when the only people that pay me attention on social sites are a regular peanut gallery, it’s still that peanut gallery that give me those dopamine hits when I see them like and comment on the occasional posts I put out.
Thank you all ^.=.^

P.S. Yes I’ll finally get to that upload dump. Kinda keep putting it off bc PostyBirb is PC only and I only really get the energy to do it when I WFH and I only really got my iPad as something to use when I’m monitoring stuff at work.

My birthday’s in a few days!

I’ll leave it up to you guys whether I shrink or grow for my party guests~

winkwinknudgenudgegiftartbaitgiftartbait😳😳😳

I’ll make it up by I swear I’ll finish a big art dump I started before this week as my gift to y’all, need some sort of project to work through anyway

How come the sky is yellow instead of blue?
I must have grown so big I’m sprawling across social sites.
Joined the BlueSky hype so come follow me there!

https://bsky.app/profile/raxinath.bsky.social

Today is my hatch day, my day of birth

Pats and hugs and worship are acceptable gifts, and since it’s Micro May shrinkies and bullying are also valid

I regret to inform you all that  Panscolipede passed away tonight from late stage complications with Leukemia. He was only 29 years old and taken two hundred years before he should have

I've known of him as an outstanding artist that was certainly present with his work while I was discovering the fandom and muscle community a few years ago now, but haven't had the chance to personally meet him until a couple years ago online and very fortunately in person at BLFC '21.

I was so worried I was bothering him to meet up at the con being a well known artist in the community, but once I finally met him I was so glad to have hung out with such a sweet, earnest, caring, and talented soul. I sat with him in the ballroom while he was working on pieces and doing a commission for me even, enjoying each other's company. Then later had a room party in his room on the last day of the con since we were all just waiting for our early flights, playing Smash Bros. with a full house of 8 players and getting one of the biggest hugs I ever received. He was easily a highlight of my first ever furry convention.

I was even more blessed to have met up with him again in two Maryland trips to visit my boyfriend. The first we watched Jurassic World Dominion immediately after I landed and were practically pretzel knotting all over each other trying to snuggle each other across three theater seats. The second we ended up having a meetup at Sosa's house with a bunch of other people in Hydra's server that happened to live in the same area and we found him passed out on the couch from being so tired.

A man as big as his sona with a heart that was even bigger, I feel so blessed to have met this random person on the internet and be able to physically meet them and actually experience who he really was.
He leaves behind a boyfriend, Drader, and the whole muscle fur community who will all struggle to fill the hyper void of his passion.

Rest in power you big hulking dork 💐

There are so many parts for this and prepare for an essay below

So I have naturally accrued a crap ton of art over the course of time since my last dump and as much as I can go along with the productive idea of “do something with the art and have others enjoy it rather than rot away in a personal archive”, I’m kinda running out of reasons to do so that could be qualified as a depressed/defeatist running away from responsibilities and project efforts.

First off, right here. I liked uploading here to essentially have a full quality gallery of all my stuff that is publicly available, as well as give me a chance to do little writing prompts for each piece.
That full quality benefit has unfortunately been ripped away from me without paying for the FA+ sub, leaving me with what? A fat stack of Faves that I will never acknowledge like those with way too much time on their hands that personally thank people for every follow they get as a profile shout (On top of always referring to the action of “watching” as “giving a watch”? Come on people it’s not a noun)? Only ever gaining attention in the comments from only the laziest of simps that don’t give me anything to banter off of from an “omg so hot” or “hehe would love that to be me”?
Unlike an artist creating a profile, in a very reductive way that ignores the self expression of characters and worlds I’ve created which can have just as much artistic value to share with others, I have nothing to gain from here other than a tabulated spreadsheet of how much money I’ve compulsively dumped into yiff and art.

Next, Twitter. I’m of so many minds on the usability of the bird site. Wanting it to die in the hands of the Chief Twit, admitting defeat that all of my friends and people I like are still on there, lets me poke at people who are generally quiet in public by at least getting into their heads through comments, its short form micro blogging is my favorite form of a social media for intermittent thoughts and feelings, remembering why I want it to die as it continually twists and changes with the most recent unusable change being if you follow an account but they’re search banned, the follow doesn’t take priority over the search ban so you’ll never be able to find them in searches or mentions and there is no fucking way I can remember everyone I care about’s handles bc like 95% of the people i follow are absolutely search banned.
It almost makes the poor concept of having it as a competent art gallery pale in comparison for the overall usability and stability of the site. Also I end up with the same engagement issues as FA, jack squat of people I enjoy chatting with.

Metatext is my ideal twitter replacement, but people still aren’t making the switch over so it maintains most of the lack of the engagement points as the other two.

And then there’s discord/telegram, my only real options to get attention. I have a whole ass server, full of a lot of the people I actually like (but unfortunately aren’t regulars so the only real members are less favorable choices) inherited from the eternally anxious but good bean  azolt, and I have done jack fuck all with any of that. I just can never bring myself to do anything with the vicious cycle of “I want to do a thing, but nobody’s here to do it with”, “nobody’s here bc I don’t do anything” ad nauseam. Even with poppin’ servers I am a mod for, I just can’t bring myself to arrange anything or invite people for things.
And god forbid I actually get that praise and affection I oh so desperately desire. I can’t handle it. I tease and fantasize at arms length because I’m just so hyper sensitive that even the slightest exposure to kink talk without sexual intent make me too flustered to comfortably play along. I keep downplaying praise and I toss back and forth on the power struggle of Dom v. Sub, it keeps messing with me whether I want to be worshipped like a puppy or hand squeezing it from those beneath me, switch positions be damned. Its just too flip flopping how I want to take things.
And as far as claims of me being selective of friends in favor of big names based on what I just mentioned with the discord servers, I’ve discussed this with others but no it’s not clout chasing. I just think they’re neat dorks to hang around, I get a read on those people’s vibes a lot faster than people I see around a server and naturally want to be with people whose vibes I like, and at the end of the day they all get tossed to the side all the same like a rich kid’s toys because I find out they’re just ordinary people with dime-a-dozen social interactions I can get from anyone else so I learn to settle with those around me rather than head hunting, and the cycle just repeats.

I feel like I’m relapsing on bad, depressive habits and unmotivated mindsets that just leave me shut up and not really feeling like sharing things with others. It’s like near bipolar how these moods hit me like now. Just suddenly low energy, always wanting to sleep even when taking my meds. Also just been very iffy on commissioning which is good since I definitely could cut down on those and can be more tactical by getting more pieces with others rather than compulsively getting YCHs, but does still drain the overall motivation to coordinate with people and open artists.

This had a few tangents, but still circles back to what should I do? I know not all appreciation needs to be vocalized but still, it goes a loooooong way to getting enjoyment of out this debatably narcissistic side of the community. What would yield the best responses from people I actually enjoy talking to?

Hey all, Rax here

Just wishing everyone a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!
…idk what else, too horny to think 🥴.
I don’t got much else outside of really needing to do an art dump so I’m just gonna chill with family and play with my new toys and I hope you all can do the same

I’m here, I’m queer, and I’m ready to party and snug

Holler down here if you’re here so I can hug and boop ya

Heyo all! Wanted to give a heads up that my birthday is next week 5/2

I’m going to be away with family in Florida so I probably won’t be able to do anything special with anyone online then but I’ll still accept all the well wishes.
I’ll also use this as an announcement that I’ll finally do another art dump soon if everything I’ve commissioned since last time and accrued without posting cuz I’m lazy so be on the lookout for that in the next week or so.

This totally isn’t an early alert towards artists to fish for some gift arts. Nnnnnooope! No siree, just wanted to let everyone know my special day that tends to call for gifts from others is coming up with no ulterior motives at all.

Oh shoot is this still recording?! Click!

I’ve been having a very annoying issue when using FA on my phone since it was updated to iOS 15.4 and it doesn’t seem to have been fixed in 15.4.1.

More often than I would like, whenever I go to a new page, it kind of freaks out, reloads the current page I’m on but wipes out the current tab’s previous page history.
As you would expect it makes it really annoying when you’re in a custom search, go to a page and either it proceeds but loses the previous pages which makes you have to redo the search and find the page you were on, or going back to the search results and having it just reset and reload back to a blank search screen, also making you redo the search.

I’m pretty sure I’ve only experienced this on FA and not on any other site I’ve visited on safari so I don’t think it’s anything to do with a 15.4 change.

Tashi’s running a raffle, come join!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44742557/

I'm sure many of you have heard over the past few days that Discord has been flirting around with the idea of allowing some sort of NFT/ETH/crypto wallet connectivity and have also most likely negatively reacted to said notion, saying they are being greedy and reckless going in on this with all the infamy that crypto has associated with it. I am certainly one of those people and have already determined to not renew my nitro sub next March.

In such situations of feeling betrayed by a place you considered home, you absolutely will search around for alternatives and one name I've heard tossed around was Guilded.gg.
Apparently created in 2017 and recently bought by Roblox, it certainly follows Roblox's tendency to copy things by greeting you with an interface that is eerily an exact replica of Discord's UI and many of it's functions. Under that veneer is actually a bevvy of really cool services you can use in your servers.

For starters, there's a native server browser that lets you find servers to join and while that sounds like a trolling nightmare, it also has a built-in application system that can force new members to answer a series of pretty customizable form questions and then need a mod to approve their application before they can even set foot into the server. Already, a marked improvement in server moderation.

The actual server organization gets a little convoluted tho but still coherent. In the server setup process you're asked to add games your server would be interested. Those game you choose end up creating "groups" within your server, which essentially are separate servers within your servers with each group having it's own set of channels separate from each other. You can make non-game groups and you still get the same discord channel categories to help sort them.

The channels themselves have so many more tools than you can even shake a stick at. You got your basic text chat with extra features like private replies and voice channels with integrated text chat and whispering to other users, but they even have dedicated channels to view people streaming within the server, dedicated announcements channel that give it a blog format, dedicated media sharing channel, shared lists and calendars and a schedule viewer to coordinate all those calendar events (hello actually sticking to server events), you even get forums for when you want old-school post-by-post discussions in your instant messaging client, you get a shared basic document editor bc why no throw in Google Docs, and a partridge in a pear tree. It's insane the amount of things you can do in these servers. You can genuinely just have one server and then have so many groups to do whatever you want and keep everything siloed away from each other and run whole community events and tournaments in there, of which you actually can organize and manage tournament brackets there bc there's tools to run all that too.
Also many of Discord's Nitro and boost features like profile banners and high quality streaming and vc are natively available
So. Many. Things.

The one theme to pick up with Guilded.gg's features is sub-division. Looking at all the layers, you got your servers, those servers have different groups, within the various channels in the group you can have thread chats branching off of your general chat, several forum channels with their own threads, you can make sub-vc rooms within vc rooms. It all seems excessive how many sub-divisions you can make and it's certainly a feature that those huge community-encompassing mega servers would benefit the most from but this still offers a great quality of life for even casual servers.

Funding these endeavors is an interesting approach. Aside from now having the infinite money that Roblox generates, they seem to be doing a hybrid of Discord boosts and Patreon. You can sub to servers ala Patreon subs and server owners can provide content exclusive to each tier. They proudly proclaim they only take 2.5% of your profits but it'll be interesting to see how much of a Patreon alternative they can leverage.
Also with Roblox being such a meme it's only a matter of time before they do NFTs themselves and the cycle continues if you take grave offense to that.

It is not shy about saying it's still in development and it shows from several UX adjustments they can make in terms of tap a comment for a thread, long press it to reply should be flipped, other servers getting hidden by all the groups of your current server in the desktop UI, missing unique server profiles and stickers for Discord parity, Twitter image previews not being viewable and open in a web browser, and the bot ecosystem still being nascent since the API was only released early 2021. Despite all that, it absolutely nailed the fundamentals and all the things Discord has done right on top of pouring a ludicrous amount of other tools to help communities organize and flourish.

Edit: Many corrections on the Roblox association, missing features and there actually is a desktop client option to have other servers aligned on a bottom bar to maintain visibility of your other servers

Oh and here's a referral link to get a small little bonus thing if you want to make an account Ig
https://www.guilded.gg/?r=40kPn5QA

This is getting a bit like a YouTube essay but I think it’s the perfect form of the switch aside from being the high end model.

Of course a 4K pro upgrade would be fantastic but I think people get hung up on how they want the switch to be a home console but it is a portable at heart, and a still remarkably powerful one at that.

I thought about that recently on how to best enjoy the switch in the face of next gen, and likewise at this rate I can’t trust the rumors anymore of how many years we’ve been told “this year I swear!”, that I think a spec bump is next gen hardware still a couple years out. More than likely it’s been severely delayed because of chip shortages and part of me thinks the OLED would have been the pro upgrade if that wasn’t the case.

So with the pro being MIA and the personal opinion that the graphics work best on the 720p handheld screen, the OLED captures the perfect essence of what the switch is, a really impressive and capable handheld device

Also fukken table top mode is usable like holy shit everyone ignored it bc the OG kickstand was absolutely awful but I always tried to make it work but now everyone will see how nice it is to plop it on a table and play with split joycon. And now we can comfortably do the fabled rooftop party!

I finally did it.
Did an art dump that’s been months in the making
That I put off for a good couple months
Please stop me from buying more art it’s not good for my finances
But I still have more to come
Fuck

I made a big stink about being primary maned wolf but I finally watched Suicide Squad and king shark stole my heart being an adorable wholesome big lug. Same as last time this changes nothing about output but the dissociation and indecision continues (we all know who I’ll probably side with)

This has been a long time coming, probably over a year in the making, but I’ve had a long, hard look at how I meld with the kinks and fetishes I pursue. Between Muscle, Macro, Micro, and the occasional Fat, it’s never been an issue to bounce around all of them, there’s plenty of precedent of those crossovers. There’s always been a gnawing lust though, something that just couldn’t be sated with Raxinath’s bombast; The love of fur and more realistic scenarios.

I did have an array of side characters to fill the floof and I could very well have thrown fur on Raxinath and called it a day but It just didn’t feel right. It always felt like a yielding of emotions and only turning to them when I wasn’t feeling the prideful zeal that Raxinath usually carried. Despite my intentions to make him a dork like me, the prideful, indulgent masculinity always took precedent and as I’ve grappled with before, he just felt detached from me. It wasn’t until now that I realized it spoke to something about me. I think I prefer looking at the big men more than being a big man myself and it does relate a lot to how I’ve been handling the expression of my arousal and just not being interested in that kind of flirting.

It’s with this I’ve been working out a setup that’s really been my thinking the past few sona crises I’ve had. Raxinath will be an OC to me, reflective of how impersonal and just a dart board of all my sexual desires he is. (Don’t you worry though, I think you’ll see in my next art dump I’ve still got plenty of love for him 😘).

Now you may be thinking, “Well if you aren’t going to be a swole dragon, what are you going to be?”. Well, I’m also going back to a past crisis solution and promoting a maned wolf OC to primary sona for his sof floofiness, unique leggies and more “fursuit marketability” but with a major redesign to make him feel a bit more “homier” under the codename “Project D.I.N.O.”. Between the two of them, I’ve been thinking about the the fetishes being split with Raxinath continuing to be a total mass monster and new sona Dino will take the role of macro/micro subjects but I’m sure there’ll be crossover between the two.

So in the end, what does this mean about my social pages? Nothing really. This is just a reconciliation of things that have been getting in the way of my enjoyment with this community and hobby and and is something that I think would help ease the pressure of feeling like I’m spreading myself too thin between art subjects and ultimately just bingeing on muscle art. I really hope you all enjoy what I drum up in the future because I think it’ll be filled with more heart than ever with this rebalancing

P.S. wholesome SFW twitter and fursuits have more power on my nonexistent homosexuality than baras

Arf arf arf and Rawr Rewr Roar!

It’s my hatchday today!

Moving up to the big ol’ 23 years old. I don’t even know where this past year went but I’ll definitely make this next one count

Don’t have many other plans for today, probably order some deep dish pizza and do a birthday Twitch stream so keep an eye out on Twitch.tv/Majestano

Hey everyone! I’ve been starting up Twitch streams playing a whole bunch of different games. Announcements will be posted on my SFW Twitter ManeyLeggy and you can find me at Twitch.tv/Majestano

Hey if you can help give my friend  lsd_screen some line art for him to color that would be awesome. He could use use some extra cash right now

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9831558/

We stand here to mourn the loss of a staple of the early internet. A workhorse that supplied both video and interactive media, especially animation to numerous early artists that have grown into much more successful show runners, to all corners of the internet until it has been surpassed by its web application brethren and diagnosed with numerous security vulnerabilities.

It leaves behind almost all of the quality, childhood defining content that has been preserved, updated and archived. Except for everything present on FurAffinity, who spent all of their site updates doing anything but meaningful structural updates and abandoning all of their flash content.

Macromedia “Flash” Player
1996 - 2020

Hey everyone! This dumpster fire of a year that would put most dumpster fires to shame is finally over.

I think it’s safe to say things are looking brighter as we at least have the COVID-19 vaccine making the rounds and we slowly recover back to a point of normalcy. Slacking off has been fun and all but a part of me kind of wants to be needed somewhere bc hell if I can self motivate myself or maybe I’ll still need to be very self motivated in a proper work environment, who knows.

Either way I wish everyone the greatest fortune in this new year, that everyone’s dreams and wishes come true and a hot dragon daddy in every pot. I’m capping this year off with a few extra pieces that trickled in and I hope to spread even more sizable dragons in the next one.

Happy New Rawr! ^.=.^

Ho Ho Ho! Happy Holidays everyone!

I hope everyone has a great time with all the holidays, get together and share the moment with whatever family and friends you can meet. This manic year is almost over and hope seems to be on the horizon, just gotta keep pushing through and give it all you got.

My gift to everyone this year is a good sized art dump that I just completed so hope you enjoy all the antics I’ve been up to! Here’s to another year of dragon fun and much, much less trash going on in the world ^.=.^

Thank you for bearing through the tidal waves of all my art I have submitted.
Ye gods that is fukken way too much art. ~200 pieces obtained over the course of being in the fandom for only a couple of years. As you all saw it took so long to get it all up. I'm going to hve some heavy thinking about my life choices after all this and probably won't want to see the color blue, yellow or slate for a while...

With that though, I have finally completed the complete upload of every singe piece of art I own. All of the Raxinath's wholesome, horny, and himbo sides are available for all to gaze upon and shower with affections.
Expect a lot more quiet out of me in the future. I'll only be posting art as I get it which should be a far, far less frequent occurrence now if I can get a handle on my life.

Hope to see you all around though! ^.=.^

Hey there everyone!

You may know me as the blue and yellow dragon with a mane as majestic as himself in many different sizes, or a lurking jumble of letters, but I decided to formalize my presence a bit more.

I've had my Twitter (see account info) that I've poked and prodded and teased with before but as I've felt with other artists, it isn't a good way to properly catalog any work you may have built up over longer periods of time. I felt it would be great to actually put my rather obscene collection of art I've obtained over the course of a couple years as a bit of a project to commit myself to something to maintain in the long run and help spread the great dragon that I've built up, whom critics agree is the hottest dragon around~. Some friends also educated me that half the reason to post things is to put a spotlight on the artists that I've worked with, to help highlight their talent and get their names out for more people to commission them for their awesome work.

So with those aims in mind, I'm going to be starting with a massive dump of my complete archive. The majority of the pieces are not my work and will be properly credited in their posts but there is also some small doodles and things that I've made myself. Other than that don't expect too much from me here due to either being more active elsewhere or general timid-ness xp

And before I go, Rawr Rawr Rewr Roar! ^.=.^