Okay so after much back and forth I think I really am gonna move to my other account. I'll be re uploading stuff and then submit new junk there from now on. So please watch me there if you aren't already! ;3;

HERE

I know I haven't been uploading but I also haven't been really drawing... save for some pieces of stuff and doodles probably no one wants to see.

I want to try harder to draw more often and I'd like some suggestions.. if anyone has any.

Stuff to draw.. something more specific... Throw whatever ideas at me and I'll try to try it.. xD;

Sorry I'm not being all gung ho about it, but I haven't felt like drawing really and sometimes I feel like I can't decide what I wanna draw so I just don't.

Any characters of mine you'd like to see more of?

Let me knoooooow. You can comment here or note me.. whatever..

<3

Homophobia means:

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the Realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong.
Please do your part to end it.

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I'm so brain dead right now so I probably can't put anything intelligent to say together but I just wanted to show my support for the gay/lesbian/transsexual and so-on community. We're all human so really there shouldn't be any discrimination at all; be it race, sexuality or whatever. Sometimes I wonder how people can be so cruel and especially to go as far as harming others or letting others be harmed because of their preferences or simply because of how/who they are.

I know I probably sound a dork nerd or something but it's not all the time I get the chance to speak out for what I believe in or whatever and it's nice to get some things out there and I really appreciate all the people who also support this. I'm sure one day things will be different.

Feh.. I fail.. Ilu guys.. <33333

Thanks to enjoipands and caramelmilk for bringing this thingy here to my attention. I'm glad to show my support and voice my opinion. :D

My grammar is win.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
First thing's different each time...

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black, white, purple, and blue checkereds.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I've never kissed anyone. *sadface*

4. Do you plan outfits?
Not really.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Happy, full of sweet potato fries and chocolate milk. My aunt's here! Yay. O:

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
My contact lens case has pooh bear on it and he's wearing a red shirt. >:

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Some weird, scary, graphic, gory horror movie dream. 8D

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope.

9. What are you craving right now?
I was craving sweet potato fries and I made them. 8D

10. Do you floss?
When I think about it.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage

12. Are you emotional?
I'd say so yes.... >>;

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
A few times.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiick.

15. Do you like your hair?
I guess it's okay.

16. Do you like yourself?
Not really.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Hell to the naw. 8D

18. What are you listening to right now?
Mom talking to aunt Nicole. xD;

19. Are your parents strict?
Nope.

20. Would you go sky diving?
That's a negative.. xD

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Only in lasagna

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Never.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Netflix ftw!

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
*looks around* I'd have to say no...

25. How many countries have you visited?
Zero. ;A;

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I don't think so.. xD;

27. Ever been on a train?
Yep.

28. Brown or white eggs?
White.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yezzir

30. Do you use chap stick?
Yep.

31. Do you own a gun?
Nope.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yezzir. :>

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My mom? xD; And Ramsey... (the dog)

34. Are you too forgiving?
I dunno...

35. Ever been in love?
Possibly... I dunno..

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
I HAVE NO FLIPPIN IDEA... WHAT ARE YOU DOING, GUYS? D:

37. Ever have cream puffs?
No.... booo. I want some.. D:

38. Last time you cried?
Don't remember, but it was probably not long ago.. >>;

39. What was the last question you asked?
"Mama do you want anymore sweet potato fries?" I know.. epic question.

40. Favorite time of the year?
Autumn/Fall. Perfect weather... no bugs.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No, but I want a few.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Sometimes, I guess.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Nope... and I never really wanted to see it either.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
More than a few times.. I even skipped into a glass door and it shattered..

45. Favorite color?
Blues, greens, reds, silver, black/white

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeeeeeesssssss.

47. Is your hair curly?
Not if I get my dose of hair crack. 8D

48. What was the last CD you bought?
No idea.

49. Do looks matter?
To a certain degree, but it's not everything. You have to be physically attracted to a person at least a little right?

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Probably not. Fool me once, shame on you... fool me twice, shame on me.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Nope.. mama keeps a pretty tight leash on it. xD;

52. Do you like your life right now?
I hate my life..... so much.. >>;

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No, the noise bothers me.

54. Can you handle the truth?
Not all the time.

55. Do you have good vision?
Nope... glasses ftw!

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yes.. 8D

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Very rarely... like... no one really calls me....

58. The last person you held hands with?
Probably my mom. xD

59. What are you wearing?
Snoopy and Woodstock shirt with plain baggy black pants.. and... socks... purposely mismatched socks.

60.What is your favorite animal?
Goats, dogs, cats

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
I don't have a favorite picture with me in it...

62. Can you hula hoop?
I'm quite proud to say that I can... xD; Used to not be able to.

63. Do you have a job?
I wish.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
BB cream, skin lightening lotion, and circle lenses.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
I don't really remember but probably.

FAILZ STAMP.

Hi. It seems like it's been forever since I've been active on here. To be honest, I haven't felt much like uploading anything I've been drawing. So... boo.

How are you guys? Anyone alive?

I've been bored and watching random stuff on youtube and googling junk... on google..

Anyway.. I have a question about something that's been on my mind for a long time: Name change... I've always wanted to have my name changed but I kinda feel like I may not have the guts to... mainly because I have kind of a big family (bunch of aunts and some cousins) and it would definitely be weird for them if I did have it changed. If I had no one I'd probably change it in a heartbeat. And I have a couple names I really like but then I'm not sure if I really.. "look" like that name. I dunno.. it's silly.. But I seriously consider it every once in a while.

So... has anyone thought about/wanted to change your name.. or has changed it?

As for the art... I dunno... I don't think anyone's waiting/hoping any of my junk pops up so I won't worry about it. xD

I'm thinking of moving over there permanently.. Not really sure.. Kind of want a fresh start, ya know?

This is it just in case.

I wanna give my babyboy a tattoo.. or two...

Any ideas? 8D

I was thinking some kind of Jack Skellington tramp stamp... I dunno.. xD Jack's face will probably end on him regardless.. but I'm open to any suggestions. O:

IT'S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE!! :U *faints*

I'm happy... for the most part.. And I slept all fucking day.. I just woke up. xD Got the aches and kinks in my neck too.. shoot.

I didn't mention to you folks about my tablet troubles.. but I finally got the money to get it (THANK YOU MAMA AND GRANDMA THROUGH HER) and I was so flippin doodle excited about it that when I ordered it I somehow managed to put my email address in the billing address line and not catch it AT ALL.. until I got an email that the damn thing got canceled.. (Am I that lame.. srsly)

Anyway, I was all upset over it because though it was canceled, my money wasn't back in my account and I was flippin out and crying.. checking my account like a mad man the couple days after. See.. I'm new to the adult world and making dumb mistakes that result in shit I don't know about and still have to handle. I'm seriously like some.. 10 year old.. I hate doing adult shit on my own like calling a place for customer service and whatnot.. I even hate calling into a place to order food.. >>; (I'm screwed up you know) xD It's a long story why I'm behind even though I'm 20.. Just trust me on it..

Anyway.. so I was depressed cause I was thinking.. what if I don't get the money back.. then that's it.. I don't get the tablet cause I'll NEVER come across 469 bucks again until I'm like... old.. so yeah.. it got me down. But the money was in holding and I saw it in my account last night.. AND I DID THE FUCKING WAVE. I did the wave and said "Banzai" and re-ordered my tablet.. This time making doubly sure I put my home address... in the billing address line.

SO IN CONCLUSION. I'm happy.. can't wait to get my tablet and start artfartin.

As for my sleeping.. well.. I can't seem to get out of my sleep all day and up all night rut.. There's like no freaking body to talk to late at night.. I get bored.. it's sad. ;^; I'm on US Eastern time.. if you're up at like.. 2-3am.. hit me up or something.. ;A;

The end.

I was just wondering about like custom brushes and shiz. If you have any info/advice.. I'd like to know. <3

"I am unique"
Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.


How to Get Along with Me

• Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

• Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.

• Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

• Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

• Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!



What I Like About Being a FOUR

• my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level

• my ability to establish warm connections with people

• admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life

• my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor

• being unique and being seen as unique by others

• having aesthetic sensibilities

• being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me



What's Hard About Being a FOUR

• experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair

• feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved

• feeling guilty when I disappoint people

• feeling hurt or attacked when someone misunderstands me

• expecting too much from myself and life

• fearing being abandoned

• obsessing over resentments

• longing for what I don't have



FOURs as Children Often

• have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games

• are very sensitive

• feel that they don't fit in

• believe they are missing something that other people have

• attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.

• become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood

• feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)



FOURs as Parents

• help their children become who they really are

• support their children's creativity and originality

• are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings

• are sometimes overly critical or overly protective

• are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

New/Side account.. I'll probably be using that for more serious works.. if I ever get more serious.. I'll try. xD

Especially once I get my tablet. <3

GO WATCH IF YOU FEEL~

Fill this out bitches. :U


1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Stolen from: :>

My uncle's funeral is on flippin April Fools day..

Is it bad that I pictured him popping up out of his casket and screaming APRIL FOOLZ DERP!!! and scaring the shit out of everyone....?

That's bad isn't it... ;^;

*bangs head on desk* Bad thoughts.. bad thoughts.. ;^;

I really don't.

I dunno what it is... maybe I just flat out don't know what to say and don't want to leave a stupid comment.. Either way.. I just can't comment most of the time.

It doesn't bother me exactly, but I've been kinda thinking about it...

Boo...

TO ALL THE WONDERFUL ARTISTS OUT THERE THAT I WATCH.. I DO LOVE YOUR WORKS~!

Even though most of you will never know cause you can't see this..

The end.

It's done.. for now. 8D
Hope you enjoyed it. xD;

And have some Russian sushi...

It's good

And cheap

Russian sushi is fantastic!

I'm back from Virginyay (Virginia). I had fun.

I took loads of pictures of Sacha all over the house we were staying in and I'm gonna upload some here... so.. stay tuned. <3

I MISSED YOUS GUYS. ;^;

http://www.formspring.me/DjYoroshiku >>;

It's Settie's fault. 8D

I... don't feel like drawing.. I don't feel like doing anything. ;;
I don't know why. I'll just put some paper in front of me and grab my pencil and then.. nothing.. I just don't feel like it or if I do draw it doesn't wanna form the way it usually does. I know I should draw every day and practice a lot or I won't get better.

I haven't felt great the past few days.. all I wanna do is sleep but at the same time I want to go out and do something different than what I usually do everyday... which is sit around trying to find something entertaining to do. ><

Does anyone else have days/weeks like this?

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I think I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by all the characters I have too... I feel bad about creating one and not drawing it again or not drawing it much. I thought I'd try to draw a different one of the older characters at least once or twice a week. My mind's like AAAAAAGszfjkghsklfjghfkgf.. overflowing with imagination and I'm always thinking of a new character. Maybe one of these days I'll go through my folders of stuff and sort out any characters.. count them and stuff. I think I just hate the idea of throwing anything out so I keep it all thinking I'm gonna use it later... Buuu~

I'll probably delete this later. e.e

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPkMUU9tUqk

Word.

Here's some stuff that's going on right now...

I'm currently saving for an Intuos tablet.. I have about... 100something.. Been collecting change in a piggy bank since last year and then mama's boyfriend gave me monies for my birthday last month, so that boosted it a bit. :> I still have a long way to go, but I'm looking forward to it....
I think I'll flip my shit when I finally get one... excitement overload, doods.

THEN I CAN HAVE A DRAW OFF WITH  caramelmilk O:

I wish I could get donations... or a job... xD;

HIRE ME. D:

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This very moment I'm practicing random things.. Did some eyes, nose, and mouth doodles... Face doodles.. Probably gonna move onto hands for a bit since I have so much trouble with them. D<

Yesterday I read a bit in my Anatomy Atlas for the Artist book and doodled out of that too.. Practicing on body parts, body position, that kinda stuff... All while watching Dr.Phil... He was talking about pedophiles and girl fights. xD
Then I watched The Doctors and they were talking about sperm facials... So um... apparently jizz is good for your skin... so.. think about that. 8D

I'm really bored right now. Maybe the day will start going by faster soon.. YAY WEEKEND. At least I won't be alone all day.. mom will be around. I hate being alone so much. e.e

The end.

I just wanted to say thank you to my watchers and those of you that have favorited my stuffs. <3
I really appreciate it. It really does mean a lot to this silly girl who is too hard on herself over her art. xD;

ILU~

Get set!

So.. I've been drawing quite a bit, but I've also been too lazy to scan some of it... Plus.. I don't feel confident enough to post any of it.. no matter how proud I am of it.. I still can't seem to feel good enough about my work to share it with you guys.

I'm gonna try to do better and post it anyway.. Maybe if I get good feedback it'll give me a confidence boost.

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On another note... I'm not sure if I'm seeing improvement.. if there is any.. it's coming along very very slowly. I'm still fighting the battle with hands and angles/positions/perspectives... I have a lot of trouble with the placement of the shoulders/arms too. I guess I'll just isolate those and practice just that.
I feel discouraged a lot when I can't get things like I want or when I feel like I'm not making progress and improving. A lot of days I feel like quitting because I'll never be as good as some of the people I really admire.. But what I've noticed is that I can't quit... like.. it's not an option. I get frustrated and say I'm gonna quit, but then I pick up my pencil and start drawing again.. It's like.. I can't not draw... I just can't not draw. It's like wired in my brain to draw.... or something. I love it... and I love creating my own characters and seeing them on paper.. not just in my head.

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Sorry about all that.. I felt I needed to vent a little... get it off my chest. :3

I feel better now. :D

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Go! (The End)

Name: Sidney Mitchell Avalon-Oliveira
Birthday: February 4th
Birthplace: Stockholm, Sweden
Current Location: London, England
Eye Color: Left is silver / Right is ice blue
Hair Color: Natural blonde ( Had been dyed more times than he can count )
Height: 5'3"
Weight: 107lb
Tattoos: None right now.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Carlos Oliveira :>
Overused Phrase: "Stfu.. I will keel you."

Favorites

Food: Shrimp, hushpuppies, pasta
Candy: Raspberry anything, chocolate anything
Number: 7
Color: Pink, Red, blue, purple, silver, black, white, green
Animal: Goat
Drink: Coffee, tea, or juice
Alcoholic Drink: Everything
Bagel: Herb and cheese, blueberry
Letter: Z
Body part on the opposite sex: Ew. But I do like a nice ass and torso on a man. *licks lips*

This or that

Pepsi or Coke: Neither
Mcdonalds or Burger King: Nope... Smithfield's BBQ or White Swan. 8D
Strawberry or Watermelon: Strawberry
Hot tea or Iced tea: Iced
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Both
Kiss or hug: Kiss... and grope. 8D
Dog or Cat: My doggy, Carlos. *wink* 8D
Rap or Punk: Puuuuuuuuuunk.
Summer or Winter: Winter very much
Sad movies or Funny movies: Funny damnit.
Love or money: Hm

Your...

Bedtime: Random
Most missed memory: None
Best physical feature: Every goddamn thing.. I'm perfect. 8D
First thought waking up: "Drugs...."
Goal for this year: Don't overdose
Best friends: Setsuna/Carlos and Alastar aka Eri. 8D
Weakness: Being stoned all the time.
Fears: Nothing so far
Longest relationship: This thing with Car seems to be going pretty strong. Most others never got passed the first or second fuck.

Have you...

Ever drank: Hell yeah
Ever smoked: Hell to tha yeah
Pot: Done it
Ever been drunk: All the time
Ever been beaten up: Almost
Ever beaten someone up: More times than how many fingers I have.
Ever shoplifted: Of course
Ever skinny dipped: Yes.. and I skinny dip fucked too.
Ever kissed the opposite sex: Never
Ever kissed the same sex: Now, we're talking.
Been dumped: Nah, I always do the dumping.

In a guy/girl

Favorite eye color: Green, blue, or light brown
Favorite hair color: Black
Short or long: Doesn't matter
Height: Taller than me
Style: Same as mine is preferred.. but I ended up with someone who's a damn military freak. Ffft.
Looks or personality: Looks... I don't care what kinda personality he has as long as he can do me up right.
Hot or cute: I don't have time for 'cuties'
Muscular or really skinny: Middle ground

Randoms

Number of regrets in the past: None
What country/world do you want to visit: Japan and Korea
How do you want to die: I don't care.. I'll probably overdose and keel over anyway.
Been to the mall lately: Sure
Do you like thunderstorms: Hell yeah.. best weather to have some sex.
Get along with your parents: Never knew my old lady... father killed her... and sexually abused me til I was 16. Probably why I turned out to be such a slut. 8D
Health freak: Nope
Do you think you're attractive: Hell fuckin' yeah..
Want to go to college: Pfftahahahhaha.. loser
Do you smoke: I smoke everything, baby.
Do you drink: Yep
Shower daily: Gotta stay fresh and clean
Been in love: No... well... *has a mental flash of Carlos* NO. D< *Beats him away* 8D
Do you sing: Secretly
Want to get married: I am married...
Do you want children: Oh hell naw.
Hate anyone: Oh yes.... lots of anyones..