I've been afraid to log back in
I don't know whether to check my inbox or not
I know this problem is serious so I'm going to be gone a while, probably going to enter rehab
Don't worry, I'm in a better state of mind now so I'm not going to do anything drastic
I really am sorry for disturbing you all and I'm sorry for letting friendships be destroyed
But it is what it is
I'd like to keep touch but we know what happens when I have access to booze and a computer, aha....
Anyway, take care guys, I'll be back one day, not sure when but one day
In the immortal words of Spike Spiegel: "I'm not going there to die, I'm going to find out if I'm really alive."
Later space cowboys.

Just quit my job in a drunken rage.
This is getting bad.
Hahaha

If he ever thinks about me. A mild curiosity? Is that all I would be? Disgusting. It makes me sick. Even more so than if I were forgotten completely.

I really need to stop drinking and posting embarrassing shit.

Thanks for the feedback, fleshform siblings. :)
Let's see what happens.

I know I'm being annoying, its just...Every time I draw anthro stuff I hear my father's voice "Oh, you shouldn't draw that stuff you should draw blah blah blah blah....". I hear society as a whole telling me I have no worth as a person every time I draw this stuff and it has... Cut deep. I know I shouldn't consider these stupid, retarded, unproductive opinions but....They've caused me to put my pencil down on more than a few occasions and it hurts. It really hurts. It impedes my creative process, I want to feel free, I want to draw whatever I want. I've decided recently not to pursue art as a professional career and I think its helping mentally so I guess I'm testing the waters to see If people want to see me posting again to see if its worth it.

Are you guys interested in more? I'm at an impasse art-wise so please, dont hold back your opinions.

So real talk: life's becoming fuzzier than it was two years ago. I love drawing this shit, I love experimenting and I love creating stuff within this sphere. I DON'T like doing commissions, I just don't. I've tried over the however-many years it's been since starting this account but I just can't get into them. I'd love to go off and let my mad mind run wild and get paid for it buuuuut... I don't know, I really just don't know.
Obviously there'd be nudity involved, I'm all about that cheesecake, I like vanilla porn too so that'd be included.
Its really come down to allocating time to certain projects and while I have a strenuous relationship with this fandom; I can't deny the cross of my parish. I just like drawing this shit.
So a Patreon is the obvious solution. Thoughts?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EulADHQ4hPQ

I'll start posting again eventually. In the meantime here's a song special to me.

I've been an alcoholic for 5 years now, it used to be cute but I am now actively burning bridges and ruining my relationships over trivial matters. I apologize to those who I've said vehement, ugly, evil things to but the damage is done. Whether or not I ascend from this spiral is up in the air at this point.

Amazing horror movie! Just watched and it will make you think twice about taking the trash out at night. >;)
Also, anyone in favor of horror in conjunction with eroticism in future works?

It has 16% on rotten tomatoes and that is...A pretty big fuck up. 0_0

giving the only monkey character you have a bo staff is the furry equivalent of giving your only black character a gun as their weapon.

Whether I'll implement suggestions or not is up in the air. Some of the style changes are definitely conscious decisions. Sometimes people tell me they miss my old style so I'm just curious.

I couldn't take an interest in a piece of media over the last few years without looking at spoilers first to make sure it was worth it.
It's just not right.

Fuck the gifts I can barely afford
Fuck the remixes of Frosty the Snowman songs I have to listen to over and over again
Fuck the garish nightmare of Christmas decorations
and fuck the healthy relationships of people who genuinely enjoy each other's company and this time of year.

-Sincerely your bitter, crusty, old man Scrooge, Syncope

Totally not shilling at all for  ressie 's new game on gamejolt!


http://gamejolt.com/games/adventure/spotney/57990/


If post-apocalyptic bars and beefy bounty hunters are your thing have a look! If not then, uh, I hear that new animatronic mascot game's pretty good too....

10$ for base sketch

20$ for base color sketch

Further prices such as additional characters and backgrounds will be negotiated.

Remember I do not do visible penetration anymore, nudity is more than fine though.

Have a beautiful day.~

So I'm back from  heatstrokecat, read other journal to find out por que.

Hey guys, hope you're all well, doing another round of these so here's the drill:

sketch-$10 +$5 for extra character
ex:http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11126060/

ink-$20+$10 per extra character
ex: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11219550

Color-$25 + $15 per extra character
ex:http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10760628/

Backgrounds and such depend on their complexity

Note me!

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