Well I think I'm going to bring back alter egos and starting with one. Might mod her style some, ajust some of her features. And change her name, if you haven't guessed Deliria. Well back story to this is Deliria is on of the voices I chat with even still she's did some growing up and well she calmed down, she is now known as Alice. Guessing because one of my favorite story's is Alice in wonderland, I guess it's hers as well. Anyways she slips up now and then and flips her shit starts talking crazy and at those times prefers to be called Deliria. But I like Alice now, she's not forcing me I just think it would be nice to draw her out again.

To make things crystal clear... Yes I'm aware that these voices are simply my own mind personalitys what ever you want to call it, maybe when I was friendless my minds way of cooping was to make my own friends. Either way I'm aware that they are there and it's my own thoughts and no I'm not crazy or perhaps I'm a little less crazy these days. However...

Back on topic. Gonna draw out Alice. First pencil and paper and then some tablet work later. My job is taxing but yea eventually.

Actually looking good for me, starting a job that pays well, way better then I was. Will end up getting out of my current line of work, so I can have less unhealthy stress in my life, and possibly have more time for my art as well as inspiration to go along with it. It sucks how it took so long to get here but I'm finally here with high hopes. It feels like I've been in the dark searching for a light for years, and I can finally say a glimmer of it is with in my grasp. I shale take it and hold on for my life because I really don't wanna be in the same old despicable crap I've been in for the longest time.

I really can't wait this opertunaty is what I need that someday ill be able to offord nice things, practical and helpful. Hell I might even get back into meditating.

-SynisterWrath :3

Might pick up my tablet again lol :p

I have a couple gift arts I am in the process of doing. The idea of this is to allow me to be more comfortable drawing other people's charecters. I might take a couple more requests before I feel comfortable enough to do trades and maybe commissions. :p

I need to draw more porn...

Hard to in public with out getting fucked up looks... Hmm and WoW gets in my way when in home so tablet has been dormant..... Hmmmmmmm..... :v

Well been on world of Warcraft doing blah blah blah, however when I'm sitting in the parking lot waiting to go into work I've been drawing like crazy. Got some neat stuff testing black and white pencil smudge shading and all sorts of fun shit, I gotta fine tune it so I can actually get good at color shading.

I've been coughing up blood off and on this whole year, from time to time... It's prolly my own damn fault, smoking cloves and having them menthol flavored is prolly the worst thing you can smoke... I need to quite but it's the only thing that calms my hand enough to be able to draw well, even then I often find myself needing a little... Help... From other sources, no not hardcore drugs.. Prescription medication for anxiety and sometimes pain killers... Now I may have lost my insurance but ill be damned if I can't get my meds some how, anyway... Fucking coughing up blood hurts being dehydrated hurts too... >:/

Fuck..

just thought id ask for some feed back as it may only allow me to improve through critique, i don't offend that easily so it is alright tell me some areas in which i could improve. also still have this stupid wobble wave with a strait line its weird i do the exact same thing on paper with a pencil and its fine soon as i use the tablet this fucking wavely line appears for strokes... it really is pissing me off.... eh.. ill look into it just trying to kick myself in the ass to do it.

- Also i draw for fun, but ive done commissions before if your interested perhaps we could work an art trade out just hit me up on skype or something.

Well, I still get a wobble with drawing on my tablet its annoying but eh I'll google it again later... However this week has got me so overworked, honestly I feel like sleeping all the time. Might not pump as much art out for a couple days dunno ill figure it out.

that i should find other places to post my art, not just FA. i gave thought into deviant as ive had a account with them for a bit, but in all honesty i think i want something new maybe a fresh start with another site that ive not been on.

but i don't know, i guess ill stick around on this site either way, but a fresh start would be nice. :3

I keep thinking that maybe if I had some schooling in art mine would dramatically improve, being self taught and all that having some actual training would most likely help improve myself over all. Practice is still key though, so ill continue to work on getting better.

On a side note, I gotta figure out why I'm getting a weird wobble with strait brush strokes, with my bamboo tablet. On pen and paper I have no problem but I'm not sure why it's doing it with my tablet or if its sketchbook express that's doing it... Eh I'm not sure lol but It would be nice to know how to fix it :3

It's hard for me to focus on work days even after work... Otherwise I'd be drawing.. Eh either way gonna give it a shot after work and see how it goes.

Well, I'm not entirely sure how I can get better aside from practice, I seriously need a collab pain/art program so I can watch others and have others watch me so I can see what I'm doing wrong. I know I'm not that great to begin with and perhaps I am my own worst critic but at least I'm attempting to better myself, the websites that have this idea have lag and well lagging with trying to draw is like seeing trails on acid it fucks me up.. Eh I don't know... I'm not going to quit drawing, but at times like this I wonder if I'm alone... :(

Well I'm at a point where I'm getting the hang of the tablet, however I would like to figure out more basic stuff, shading and all that fun stuff.. Perhaps there are collaborative art programs like the web based one that I could download and learn more from others.. Maybe it's a pipe dream but if anyone knows drop me a comment please :3

I'm now 27 lol 30 is getting closer fml I'm almost a old chimera D:

soo my bamboo create has a dock and that dock has a program for animation... its pretty amazing, simple and stuff. but im curious as i havent saved anything from it of what format it would save in, i dont know for sure but ill figure it out and see about posting some animations. ;3

well this tablet has proven to be amazing, however it seems my own skills are lacking.. gonna need to practice hardcore... gonna be hard with a job and a pet, but eh im sure ill figure this out at some point. perhaps youtube tutorials on the programs i got with the bundle pack would ease some of the tension.. hmm... >.>

I just got myself a fancy new tablet!! Gonna try it out when I get home!! Can't wait to see just how epic it will be. ;)

Gonna invest in a tablet... Gotta figure out a quality tablet that would be ideal for drawing, ect. Hmm need to do research, as I don't have a lot of money to play with around payday. >_>

ive found that, when i don't try so hard i can draw easier. often when i over draw i get drained and sloppy, so ive been trying to find that perfect zen moment where my drawing abilities are heightened. I need to start putting money aside for a tablet, so i can draw as i used to digitally, perhaps then adding effects color and the worry's of fucking up will vacate my mind again with all the joys of layers ect with photoshop.

Anyways i AM planning on making a new comic, based off of dust an elysian tail. id love to do said comic entirely with photoshop and a tablet but i dont see that happening as of right now, thus i may just draw it out panel it all find a good story and place in which i can spin off in the game like a 'side story' where Fidget and Dust can be placed meshing with the story. im sure as the game has hit steam that others may end up making a comic as well but still i got a good idea of a story for this already and how id plan everything out, the hard part is drawing everything panel for panel with AS much detail as i can with out half assing it. hmmm

other then that keep watching im sure ill have more stuff posted in no time. :p

lol im still alive, still drawing. just lacking motivation, and half the time im working soo its hard for me to get around to uploading and or other things. however i will be at some point, just not now. :p

lol im still alive, still drawing. just lacking motivation, and half the time im working soo its hard for me to get around to uploading and or other things. however i will be at some point, just not now. :p

hung over, it sucks. Dx

like im not good enough to continue doing art...

like im a failure that should have been put down years ago...

like i will never amount to anything..

like i should give up...

like no one cares...

oh well.. >.>

I've been drawing a lot of sketchy line-work type of non naughty art for awhile now, im planning to mix it up with some porn lol, hopefully sometime soonish ill end up getting another tablet and drawing with photoshop again. you never know though, intell then ill keep drawing. :p