http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=Q6HDYIdBp-A#t=737s

... my Large Moko, that is. I got it on impulse, as part of my huge toy spending spree, last month. Originally, I was intending to get it for my boyfriend Jag, or my good friend Brauner. However, I got it as a flop (small nick in the shaft's urethra where a small piece was removed), and as a result, Jag doesn't want it. Brauner's willing to take it off my hands, but this thing is HUGE! I mean, "if you cockslap someone with it, you'd give them a concussion" huge, hug enough that I'm afraid he might not be able to take it (I distinctly remember giving him a similarly-sized toy that he tried to take, but had to get rid of because it was too big for him). It has a cumtube and is in dark natural colors, which makes it awesome, plus I got it at a good deal, so I'm kind of loathe to get rid of it, but it's just too big. Maybe I'll deal with it, maybe I'll take Brauner up on his offer and hope he can get more use out of it. Either way, it was an impulse buy that I'm now regretting.

Anyone who really knows me knows that, among other things, I suffer from clinical depression, which gets worse whenever I get hit with something that frustrates me or makes me feel helpless. Anyone who knows me also knows that I've been struggling to get on SSI and stay on Medicaid for years, now, and each time I get denied, I slip further into depression.

Well, guess what? I got denied Medicaid, again, and my SSI application's at a standstill.

This had the unfortunate side effect of putting me into such a deep depression, I had to ask my boyfriend to call the local inpatient unit to allow me to come in and talk with someone. That, as it turns out, was a huge mistake.

The person I got was some thick-accented foreign guy who was probably a desk jockey and not an actual doctor, because when I started telling him what the issues I've been going through were and how they made me feel hopeless and alone, he somehow got it in his head that I was depressed because I wasn't working, and thus had too much time on my hands to worry about, and his solution to that was for me to get a job, so I would use up that time I had, and thus I wouldn't be so depressed.

This guy is dipshit incarnate; this guy, who is supposed to be a professional, working with mentally-disturbed patients on a daily basis, flat out told me that I was depressed because I was fucking bored, and working would pep me right up. And no, he wouldn't listen when I tried telling him that wasn't the issue, and that I COULDN'T work, because of my conditions; he just assumed that I meant "I'm bored, therefore I'm depressed", and told me "get a job, you fucking hippie, and you wouldn't be so bored and depressed". This goes beyond the stupidity of hearing someone tell you "Oh, it's just depression, get over it and stop whining", especially since it's coming from someone who is supposed to be working with clinically-depressed individuals, among others, almost constantly. Even if you, yourself don't submit to the idea that depression is a clinical ailment that needs diagnosis and treatment, and instead is a phase that can be overcome with the power of positive thinking, who in their right mind would think to themselves "This guy is depressed. Boredom leads to depression. Therefore, he needs to stop being bored to stop being depressed. Therefore, he needs to get a job to keep him from getting bored." *headdesk*

Yeah, sure, my boyfriend's dad got on my case in the past about getting a job, but that was because he was worried about my financial stability and my ability to be self-sufficient, and he wanted to make sure I could pay for my medication and appointments should I not have insurance or whatnot, and he eventually stopped after he got it through his head that I'm just too far gone with fucked up mental and physical conditions to keep a job. This guy, though, tried to pull some bullshit Yoda non sequitur on me, and didn't bother to listen to what I was trying to explain to him. It's like missing the point and thinking he knows best got together for a wild, drunken orgy, and six months later had to call in didn't give a shit to act as midwife for their new spawn of illogic.

At least the talk DID change my disposition; now my depression has been all but drowned out by an overwhelming sense of RAGE.

I recently managed to sell the hand-made statue I made for a friend of mine to someone in Pennsylvania, i believe? I bought a box for it, big enough to ship it, I wrapped it up securely with bubble wrap, packed the rest of the box with bubble wrap and packing peanuts, marked it as fragile, and had the post office mark it as fragile, AND I paid for "special handling" on it, so it wouldn't get broken.

Fat lot of good that did.

Turns out, while the box itself wasn't damaged, when it got to its destination, the statue inside was trashed; everything in it broke apart, not into unrecognizable bits, but to the point where it could not be fixed, anymore. I already had to repair two cracks in the tail from a previous break, but this... I am shocked by this. I specifically paid to have this package handled with the utmost care, to ensure it got to its destination intact and unblemished. But the USPS decided to fuck that all over and treat it like sadists treat a puppy; kicking it and mistreating it until it broke.

I've got the before and after pics of the statue printed out, and the receipt showing that I did indeed pay for special handling, and I'm going to go down tomorrow to get this sorted out with the USPS. If they try to pin this on me and my supposed negligence, I've got my boyfriend Jag as a witness to how well I tried to secure it. If they still try to be dicks about this, I'm going to demand their manager, and complain to this. I'm not going to take this sitting down, honestly.

At the very least, I'm not going to be shipping anything through the USPS in this city, ever again, or at least anything fragile. I can't trust them to not mishandle my mail.

Please remember, before contacting me, that I can only mail my items to buyers in the continental US (I tried shipping internationally before, couldn't due to confusions over customs). If you want any of these items, DO NOT RESPOND TO THIS JOURNAL. Instead, SEND ME A NOTE. Also, if you need photos of the items being sold, please send me a note asking for them. Thank you.

(2) White Tiger Head Statues: A pair of tiger head statues from Classic Wilderness Collection. One is a standing Tiger head and forelegs, the other is a large tiger head with a cavity in the side with tiger cubs inside. Both are undamaged and in excellent condition. Price: $15 Each, both for $25

Beast Wars: Transformers PC Game CD/DVD: A Beast Wars PC game CD, with a DVD of "Spider's Game" included. The DVD was included with a 10th Anniversary toy I got that I don't have, anymore. Price: $10

(9) Transformers PVC figures: Lot of 9 Transformers PVC figures. Covers G1, Beast-Era, and Bayformer Movies. Price: $10 for the lot

Victorian-Era Black Panther Statue: Statue I made for a friend of mine, proved too large for him to use. Black panther with multicolored spots in green and blue Victorian-era garb, bent over and spread on a wine cask. Tail has a crack that will be repaired before shipping. Price: $40

Open-Mouthed Tiger Plush: A large, 40-inch open-mouthed tiger plushie. It's a bit dusty, and has a few ripped seams (which have been repaired), but otherwise in good condition. Need sold ASAP. Price: $60

Transformers RiD Predacon Bruticus figure: Bruticus figure from RiD. This is the cerberus one, not the gestalt. Good condition and loose complete. Price: $12

Also still selling my adult toys here (https://www.zoofur.com/forum/index.php/topic,838.msg269...). Added my boyfriend's gel Tiger's Touch ($35), Leo's Lance ($25), Oro vibrating sheath ($15), and silicone Teaser ($5). Again, PM me for photos and offers. Note that I am willing to trade the above adult toys (in any combination) for a small or medium Bad Dragon Moko toy.

Since it seems like selling my stuff on ebay and FurBuy won't work, I'll try here. Please remember, before contacting me, that I can only mail my items to buyers in the continental US (I tried shipping internationally before, couldn't due to confusions over customs). If you want any of these items, DO NOT RESPOND TO THIS JOURNAL. Instead, SEND ME A NOTE. Also, if you need photos of the items being sold, please send me a note asking for them. Thank you.

Wookiee 2002 CD: Includes all of Wookiee's art up to 2002. Has his dalmatian stripper on the front. Price: $15
(2) Scars: An Ironclaw Novel: Two copies of the Ironclaw novel Scars. In pristine condition. Price: $10 each
Spooo Presents Comics -- Coyote River Trilogy: All three Coyote River issues, in excellent condition. Price: $7 per issue, $15 for all 3
(2) White Tiger Head Statues: A pair of tiger head statues from Classic Wilderness Collection. One is a standing Tiger head and forelegs, the other is a large tiger head with a cavity in the side with tiger cubs inside. Both are undamaged and in excellent condition. Price: $15 Each, both for $25
Ironclaw 2002 revision edition playbook: An Ironclaw playbook, 2002 revision edition (meaning it's rather old). It has some wear and tear, with some page staining along the edges, some cover damage, the back character sheet filled in (you can use it to start a game, if you want), and pages 301-308 detached from the book but still included. Still in decent usable condition. Price: $10
Beast Wars: Transformers PC Game CD/DVD: A Beast Wars PC game CD, with a DVD of "Spider's Game" included. The DVD was included with a 10th Anniversary toy I got that I don't have, anymore. Price: $10
(9) Transformers PVC figures: Lot of 9 Transformers PVC figures. Covers G1, Beast-Era, and Bayformer Movies. Price: $10 for the lot
Victorian-Era Black Panther Statue: Statue I made for a friend of mine, proved too large for him to use. Black panther with multicolored spots in green and blue Victorian-era garb, bent over and spread on a wine cask. Tail has a crack that will be repaired before shipping. Price: $40
Open-Mouth Giant Tiger Plushie: A 40-inch long open-mouthed tiger plushie. A bit dusty, and had a few ripped seams repaired, but otherwise in very good condition. Need to sell ASAP. Price: $60

Auctions are still going here (http://www.furbuy.com/seller/SynjoDeonecros.html). New items include two tiger head statues, an Ironclaw novel, the first six issues of Furnation magazine, and the complete(?) Coyote River series. Get them while they're hot!

Also, selling my 2001 Revision edition Ironclaw game book on ebay (http://www.ebay.com/itm/Ironclaw-Game-Book-/1308481531...). Item is in fair to good condition, with some damage, but nothing that would impede using it in actual play.

Finally, toy auctions are still going on here: (https://www.zoofur.com/forum/index.php/topic,838.msg269...). Still have a vibrator from a "Clone-a-Willy" toy, a vibrating sheath, and now a soft ZetaPaws Teaser that proved too soft for me to use. I'm still debating with my mate on whether to sell his two ZP gel toys, so stay tuned for updates on that. (For those who can't see the journal, the "CAW" vibrator and Teaser are $5 each, the sheath is $15, shipping for each is $5.60.)

I've posted a few journals with intent to sell a few things of mine, first pictures I made, then links to a bunch of Furbuy auctions I have for stuff I have but didn't make (statues and comics and stuff, you can find them here: http://www.furbuy.com/seller/SynjoDeonecros.html). Since the pictures failed to get any interest, and I'm having trouble selling the non self-made stuff on there, I've been told to try and sell the latter through a journal on here. However, I'm not sure if that's against FA policy. Can anyone confirm whether or not this is the case?

I'm trying to get Arcsoft Webcam Companion 4 to work, but whenever I try to record video, it crashes on me. Does anyone know what the issue is? I'm using Vista 32-bit on an HP desktop using an HP webcam.

Also, if Arcsoft doesn't work, does anyone know of a good program I can use to record decent video from a webcam?

Selling some artwork and other furry-related things on FurBuy: http://www.furbuy.com/seller/SynjoDeonecros.html If you like my art, please check it out and bid. Thanks.

That's it. I'm done with this shit. No one wants my fucking stuff, then fine, you've just pushed me out of the fandom, you jackasses. I hope you choke on your own cocks and die.

The last auction I had was a bust, but I'm not sure if that was because of the crappy date I set it up on, or because I'm not popufur enough to be noticed, but I'm thinking of trying this again.

However, there will be more than three character pics for sale: I'll be cleaning out all of my old projects, and anything I choose to ditch will be up for auction, pictures AND stories alike. These range from the ones from the old auction, to unfinished fanfics. None of my personal character stuff will be sold, but since most of my stuff's been fanfic or ditched OCs, there should be enough items to make for a good "garage sale" of content.

Please, if anyone is interested, comment below, and I'll make sure to set you up a spot in the auction, when it happens. Thanks.

First of all, I've got a cold kicking my ass, which is dragging my holiday cheer down something fierce. I'm just glad I'll likely be over it before the next Yugioh Sneak Peak arrives; I really want to go there.

Second, I'm flabbergasted at the stupidity of some people on the internet. The incident is simple; a few weeks ago, a friend of mine introduced me to Corruption of Champions, and I played it for a while and liked it, but there was a character that I could recruit to my team named Jojo who I thought was interesting enough to seduce. Thing is, since he was a chaste monk who meditates to lower corruption, the only way I could do so currently is to rape him until he becomes corrupt enough to be my sex slave. I didn't like that, so I checked on the game's forum to see if there was a project idea in place to seduce him without corrupting him.

Turns out there was, but it involved subjecting him to the effects of a drink called Bimbo Liquer, which reduces intelligence, turns him into a herm, and lowers his inhibitions so he'd be more inclined to have sex with you, right off the bat. That didn't sit well with me, and the more I looked into what was being planned, the more flaws I saw in the project, especially with the logic the creator of it, LucaDoc, was using to justify its usage: s/he claimed that Jojo was too much of a bastion of purity and justice, and too smart, to be seduced in any other way, that he had set up the project so that he'd be "99% the same" as he was before the bimbofication after he takes the brew, and that doing anything else would "irrevocably change him" to the point of "not being the same Jojo you wanted".

I called bullshit on that, so I pointed out the flaws in this and proposed my own plan; save him from being defeated and raped during a nightly raid (which you can have him go on night watch for), and from that act of courage and/or self-sacrifice (since one option is to take his place as the rapee to spare him the act), you'd start becoming more and more chummy with him as time went on, talking with him and eventually (and by "eventually" I mean days or weeks of banter) getting him comfortable enough with you to confess to having feelings for you and possibly allowing for something more intimate. I, with some help with a few like-minded people on the board, also came up with the idea that, once the relationship happens, it would remain monogamous, out of respect for his former vow of celibacy, and once you take anyone else as part of your harem, he'll leave for good.

That's when the shit really hit the fan.

LucaDoc dismissed it all without even reading through half of it, saying that we'd be violating his trust if we "got into his pants right after saving him" (which wasn't what was planned), that it would irrevocably change him too much, and that he'd be too much of a bastion of strength and piety to accept it, anyway, whereas his idea would leave him nearly unchanged, would respect his vows, etc., even going so far as to say that it made no sense for him to leave if you took up a harem, because other people you can get into bed with willingly wouldn't leave if you took someone else.

First of all, characters that you've seduced CAN and DO leave, if you take someone else as a partner; for instance, Jojo himself leaves your camp if you take a certain character as your slave. So, having him leave after becoming his mate if you take anyone else as a harem is perfectly logical and sound as far as game mechanics, go.

Second, how is turning Jojo into a bimbo any LESS permanently altering to his personality than saving him from attempted rape and helping him get over it through friendship? Right now, the former change is PERMANENT, and even if it's reversible, later, as is being planned for this project, Luca has written ways that Jojo is changed by the experience, changes that ARE permanent to his personality.

Third, how is it disrespectful to Jojo's vows to give him any kind of support for a traumatic experience that ends up eventually leading to a romance, any more than dosing him up with a tonic that turns him into a horny valley girl does? Hell, the way Luca describes it, you can still have your harem AFTER he becomes your bimbo lover, yet that's not as disrespectful to his previous vows of celibacy than making a monogamous, lasting, and long-earned relationship with him?

Fourth, Luca keeps on insisting Jojo is "too strong, too pious, too chaste and chivalrous" to be felled by battle, or be raped, or be fooled by any old seduction. Yet you can beat him easily when you fight him (he's a low-level fighter), he's found policing an area that has the highest concentration of low-level enemies, if his interaction with Amily (another character you can befriend and/or corrupt) is any indication, he RAN AWAY from an invasion on his home village instead of fighting against them (btw, the original idea I had was that he was raped and/or made a slave early in his history and was saved and purified, but it was shot down as it would "corrupt him too much" to be a monk, even though you could purify him after corrupting him later, and he's just fine, and Luca himself keeps flip-flopping on whether he's ALWAYS been a pure and chaste monk or not), and the only way to get him to drink the liquid was to have someone force it on him, since he'd be too damn smart NOT to drink it.

The more I argue with him about it, the more bullshit his arguments are, and the more I'm getting pissed off at it. Now he's saying "Change what you propose before talking to me, or make your own damn thread about it, or piss off", instead of acknowledging any of what I said. I really hope the creator of the game realizes what's going on, sees that the guy is being an asshole and an idiot over this, and rejects his idea on the grounds I pointed out. The guy needs to get his head out of his ass, seriously...

I'm new at this, so bear with me. I have three characters up for sale: a herm dragon (https://sites.google.com/site/synjosden/artwork/naughty-tiggies/Dragozaur%20Base%20Color.jpg?attredirects=0), a male sabertooth tiger (https://sites.google.com/site/synjosden/artwork/clean-kitties/FeralTiggyWarriorInkcopy.jpg?attredirects=0), and a female wolf (https://sites.google.com/site/synjosden/artwork/naughty-tiggies/Shalimar-Rhaine-Sprite.gif?attredirects=0). These characters will be sold as-is (I don't have the time or the patience to edit them to the winner's preference, sorry), and all sales will be final. To bid, please post on this journal what amount you want for which character. The bidding will end next Tuesday, so I hope you bid big and bid well. The top bid between here, Inkbunny, and SoFurry for each character will get it, so please make sure you know which character you want before you start. Good luck.

I managed to find and download/convert to .obj a model of Kintaro from MK9. I want to rig and alter it so I can use it in Poser, but as a novice at that, I have no idea what to do. I want to be able to rig it, make morphs for it so it can do stuff like open and close its hands, express emotion, etc., and edit it so I can remove its armor (I'd also like to get a new texture for it that allows it to be "nude"). If anyone out there has knowledge about this and is willing to help me out, I'd be much appreciated. Thanks.

It's becoming increasingly clear to me that this place is breaking down and becoming little more than a den of shit, so I'm removing my stuff from here and distancing myself from posting on here. You want to see my stuff, click on my website link in my profile.

I demand an orgy pic of Mr. Tawky Tawny and his new tigermen clan after he kicked Kaliback's ass in "Final Crisis". Do it.

Well, we finally did it; we've moved in to our new apartment. It's cozy, and I really hope it works out for us. So far, it looks pretty good.

However, we are going to need more donations from people; we do not have much funding to get everything we need for this place. So, if anyone would like to donate, just send your money to synjodeonecros@gmail.com, or talk with HisakiChaser. Thanks.

Well, everything is set: my mate and I are on Section 8, we have the voucher, and have all of the paperwork in, so now we need to find a house or apartment to live in within the next month. This is going to be a bitch; we've never owned a house, before, and we're pretty tight on funds, so we need to look for a house within very strict restrictions. Even worse, except for a dormroom fridge, a microwave, and a rickety old bed, we have virtually nothing to furnish a house or apartment with, so we'll need to pay for or get for free everything we need. I know we're going to have to get at least a part-time job, but it's still a bit of a bitch to do.

Anyone have any advice for us? Anything would be appreciated, especially donations. synjodeonecros@gmail.com, for paypal, if you'd like to donate some money. Thanks.

Recently, I had a very bizarre dream about a mad alchemist who fully believed he was evil and needed to do evil for evil's sake, and he totally embraced that philosophy, gleefully charging into every evil deed he did. Thing is, his definition of "evil" is more like harmless mischief than anything society would truly believe was evil. In the dream, he kidnaps a kid bored with his life to be his apprentice, and they soon become fast friends and lovers (the alchemist is asexual up until he kidnaps the kid).

Here's my issue: I need to figure out a way for the alchemist to realize what he's doing isn't evil, per se, without him or the kid doing anything that would render them irredeemable. The plot is that the kid's influence makes it so that he questions whether being evil is a good idea, while the kid, tired of the comic mischief his captor believes is "evil", starts pushing for more and more extreme things to happen. Eventually, something has to break, and the alchemist comes into contact with true social evil. How would he react? How can he reconcile what he believes is evil to what is truly evil? And how would he - who fully embraced his belief that he is evil and must be and do evil - do to change his lifestyle, in light of this revelation?

If anyone has some idea on this, please let me know.

Still SOL with the SSI/Medicaid thing, but there is some hope; my mate and I had applied and was approved for Section 8 housing assistance. What is Section 8? It's basically a government-run assistance program allowing low-income families to rent out an apartment or house within a specific area, with the program paying for a good chunk of the bill. We have to find a house by my mate's birthday, or else the voucher we got will be invalid and we'll have to apply again, but hopefully we'll be able to do that.

I really hope this works well for us; we need to move out on our own, eventually, and maybe this'll be the start of a stroke of good fortune for us, who knows?

EDIT: More light: the FSSA has decided to continue my Medicaid until they make judgment on my appeal, which'll likely be for a while yet, so that's good. Hopefully, this will be a sign that things are looking up for me.

I just got the decision of my SSI appeal back, and... I got denied. AGAIN.

Evidently, it doesn't matter how much fucking evidence I bring to them proving that I'm disabled, they're going to find me fit for work. I doubt even getting a full spectrum autism test done, or getting a lawyer to work on this, or something like that is going to work out, thanks to how fucked up Indiana's health care is.

I dunno what to do, anymore; At this point, I'm stuck; I can't work, everyone and their mother that knows me knows that, but thanks to the bastards at SSI, I can't get on disability, which I need to do. I can't give them anything else to prove my case; everything I have I've given to them. So, what can I do, at this point?

If anyone has any experience with this kind of thing on here, please, let me know of something I could try.

EDIT: Great, now I just got denied Medicaid, because my depression, according to them, was "significantly approved" to the point where they don't think I need coverage, anymore.

I'm at my wits' end, here. You know the old saying, you can't fight city hall? Well, apparently, you can't fight the government, period, because every time we try to do it, we get fucked over.

I recently got a hold of a few "erotic toy" .obj files from someone on another board, and I want to convert them into full-fledged Poser props with movement. There's two models: a Sybian-type sitting dildo saddle, and a motor-powered piston. Both have material groups for texturing, and it's the motor-powered piston I want to be able to move. Can anyone help me with this? Thanks.

Bastard strung the gay Sonic community along. What do I mean by that? Well, last time I asked him about his thoughts on the whole "Gay Rotor" thing, he said that he would've continued it had he known about it, he couldn't do anything about it right now, but he thinks the new knowledge makes his killing of Cobar, ROtor's partner in the comics, more poignant. THis seemed to indicate that he liked the idea and considered it canon himself, but couldn't do anything about it through circumstances beyond his control.

Now he's saying that Rotor is NOT gay, never WAS gay, never WILL be gay, and that's his choice because he doesn't want to continue something that he personally doesn't think was set up well enough to bother with.

BULLSHIT!

I'm sorry, but this is a betrayal to the gay Sonic community, in my opinion. We've got proof in the comic that Rotor was gay, and even though Ken Penders, the guy who set the whole thing up, revealed it flat-out after he left, that's no reason for Ian to NOT try to pick that up and run with it. The ONLY reasons I can think of for him to legitimately be unable to do anything with it is if Sega and/or Archie changed their minds about allowing it, or the current lawsuit with Ken is barring him from doing it. What he's saying is that he's CHOOSING to ignore the facts, because he didn't know about it until now, and that somehow negates the fucking point. I'm sorry, but no. Yeah, the proof was more innuendo than anything, but it was in the fucking comic, the fans found it, they accepted it, and writers have done more with innuendo from others in the past.

The only reason why he's doing this is because he's anti-gay walrus, which is funny because he's supposedly pro-gay himself. If he really was pro-gay, he wouldn't have killed off Cobar. Sorry, Ian, but I don't care what you say, I stick with Ken's Word of God, here, and it says Rotor is gay. And if you try to do anything with him like hook him up with Nicole or something, I swear I'll start a protest against it. Who's with me?

A friend of mine is trying to come up with a phonetic language for his SOnic-based world, and I want to help. I thought I could direct him to the Primal! furry language website on wereanimal, as an example of how one could do that, but the site's down, and I can't save any of the items on there. Does anyone have a scan of the dictionary or a copy of the flash cards or a site rip or anything Primal-related that could help us? Thanks.