In so far, I find it difficult to stick to a rigid one-a-week submission schedule for myself when inspiration tends to ebb and flow quite frequently. Regardless, I don't feel like I'm falling out of wanting to draw like I feared. I'm quickly realizing that my references folder is dreadfully small, yet at the same time, I don't know what exactly I should fill it with. Perhaps those that I feel as though I'll frequently use? Photos or artwork from others of poses that I may want to try? It's strange to be speaking of what is probably so painfully obvious for most, yet I'm only now sort of realizing now. It's comforting to say it, if nothing else.

With my spring semester ending, I can't help but feel annoyed that I won't be able to do any summer classes as I had last year; perhaps this is just the payoff from getting a headstart both from a basic degree several years ago and jumping right in during the summer semester. But fuck me do I dread the looming break - several months with a lack of structure to anything carries with it a certain anxiety that I struggle to describe. I'm considering something art-wise to do over the summer in lieu of classes, but I'm not sure. There is a lot that I would love to do, so many characters I want to put to paper, yet I don't think I have the confidence or ability to attempt anything more than a head-shot.

I'm hating the temptation to open a Twitter account as well. I'd deleted my facebook account years ago and swore off social media, so this consideration shouldn't even be a factor, yet for the sake of putting my art out there, I can't help but wonder if it would be worth it. If anybody sees or reads this, advice would be greatly appreciated.

Amagumo ~ Wet Kobold

With so much going on for what feels like all the time, I've found it difficult to remain dedicated to most things. Over and over again, I've tried getting back into drawing, as after high school, I'd simply given up on it. I was losing interest in the pony fandom, and that affected my motivation to continue drawing for it, and coupled with the feeling that I sucked at attempting anything anthro simply killed all creative desire. Only in recent years have I been slowly creeping back, dipping my toes into basic sprites for my Pathfinder campaign with the occasional sketch here and there in CSP.

And while it might not be the most revolutionary, ground-breaking thing in the world, completing my sona's reference sheet feels like my first real step into what I see as 'proper' furry art. I constantly shit all over myself and the things that I do to the point where, most of the time, I deny the things that I can do. But seeing an actual, completed work that I'm happy with is kind of my way of proving that this is something I CAN do. That I was wrong to be so hateful toward myself. What most would see as innocuous and part of everyday goingson is monumental for my self-esteem.

So for my own sake, I'm using this as a public declaration to continue with trying to get better, to get back into drawing again. I'd like to be able to not only finally give faces to the multitude of NPCs in my setting but also to take commissions one day. I want to stop lurking and actually contribute something to the community at large. And I guess this is just me saying that I'm going to work toward that.

At present, I want to try and upload something at least once a week. I'm happy with the current art style I've started using, but even then, there's going to be room for improvement.

Amagumo ~ Wet Kobold