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Posted 4 years agoI got my drivers license, I'm far more mentally stable than I have been a year and a half ago (severe depression episodes and hard angst), I'm soon to be getting a job and I now have a life (a balanced one at that, trying to stay off of twitter and also still have things to do other than being on the internet.) Sorry to anyone who stumbled upon me tearing myself down or had to hear it, and simply growing up to be responsible for things was the right choice after all, so no need to give a shit what people think anyway, I'm making it through and that's all that counts.
Vent
Posted 5 years agoI'm feeling the worst kind of anxiety atm. My mom is going to take me out on vacation with this psycho she married even though she said she hates him, which makes me confused. I fear my dad will get the corona virus. And the fact that I'm going to public school soon, which gives me bad memories. Etc.. Rn, I'm just trying to keep calm, as I take a mocha and listen to some relaxing music, and just hope for the best. Because I have to many choices as of now, and it's starting to really get to me with all the things I need to do, and my current state which I am in atm..
My favorite YouTube playlists I've made.
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....iHuC9IQsDLaEGf (Misc stuff.)
These are playlists made to tell a story, the first one is Light and Dark, and they each go up in timelines.
'Team Atomic' being the last one.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....EqVsDxM-j97Brg (Team Atomic.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....KHZSLKhQO0Eqpw (Frigid / Inferno.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....X8J9yZ1R8Le70O(Light and Dark.)
These also tell a story:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....Fg3bDAVIb9GSPS (Dojo.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....yCXaSxLtP3hQXd (Warfare.)
These stories may be hard to understand, because they're not exactly told in words, unless you're me.
But I really just use them to cope with situations in life.
I even use the characters I make as a way to vent in a way to cope with things.
And so I made a new timeline called "The Nomadins", which are all the characters working together in the Astral era, a war where evil spirits take form as Gods called upon by people. A world of Magic and Technology combined, along with other worlds/dimensions colliding.
A sci-fi medieval war/fantasy combination. Each character will meet up as the story progresses, and each character has a enemy as-well, but the true enemy is what they're all getting together to fight against. Something that has been causing these wars for many, many years.
And this is melleniums after a massive war involving machine and nuclear devastation, and before that was a battle of Fire/Ice, which formed the planet as a whole, and way before that was even the battle of Light/Dark which created the universe as a whole. It's a'lot I know.
These are playlists made to tell a story, the first one is Light and Dark, and they each go up in timelines.
'Team Atomic' being the last one.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....EqVsDxM-j97Brg (Team Atomic.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....KHZSLKhQO0Eqpw (Frigid / Inferno.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....X8J9yZ1R8Le70O(Light and Dark.)
These also tell a story:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....Fg3bDAVIb9GSPS (Dojo.)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....yCXaSxLtP3hQXd (Warfare.)
These stories may be hard to understand, because they're not exactly told in words, unless you're me.
But I really just use them to cope with situations in life.
I even use the characters I make as a way to vent in a way to cope with things.
And so I made a new timeline called "The Nomadins", which are all the characters working together in the Astral era, a war where evil spirits take form as Gods called upon by people. A world of Magic and Technology combined, along with other worlds/dimensions colliding.
A sci-fi medieval war/fantasy combination. Each character will meet up as the story progresses, and each character has a enemy as-well, but the true enemy is what they're all getting together to fight against. Something that has been causing these wars for many, many years.
And this is melleniums after a massive war involving machine and nuclear devastation, and before that was a battle of Fire/Ice, which formed the planet as a whole, and way before that was even the battle of Light/Dark which created the universe as a whole. It's a'lot I know.
Other Characters
Posted 5 years agoThese are my characters, please comment, I like to know that people actually care about these things- ;C
Constructive criticizm is also welcomed.
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[|]Jaul[|]
Quote: "In between, the thread. = A new window."
His dimension was consumed by a unfathomable force with immeasurable size that is trying to consume every dimension it comes across.
Jaul managed to survive, and is now on a long journy of saving the multi-verse after finding a strange multi-dimensional plain of existance.
And by fighting multiple enemies and mainly the "Prisma's" which are a dimensional travelling shape-shifting elemental replicating prism-like beings that are after Jaul for breaking the laws of space/time etc.
And each dimension he comes across, he finds all sorts of things to aid him along the way, new weapons, armor, etc.
The thing that consumed Jaul's dimension is made of everything and nothing simultaniously, something made out of infinity itself, with only one weakness...
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_J5vsL0A-EY
8-bit Theme: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/deja-vu
Themes: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-.....ip-in-the-fold
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-.....he-other-world
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/darkness
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/in-between
Battle Theme: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/battle
Jaul is a representation of loss and creation. A quote signifying that: "When one door closes, another one opens."
-+-Zane-+- (Maniacal scythe-wielder and one of the main characters.)
Quote: "From the dust, we emerge victorious. From the depths, we remain unknown.. We, are the Nomadins."
Zane has died once, but came back to life somehow, resurrected and fell from the sky from a portal nearly dying again while landing with a parachute. (Lol)
Has a yellow hi-tech visor thingy and multiple computer chips to insert into it for A.I. Excluding the Fading A.I. Eugh...
Favorite weapon: Heat-scythe. / Eldritch abominations are his friends!. Got them from a strange dream. / The power to summon strange anomalies and portals..
His bestest friendest, Bullet. / Is very creative and good with jokes. / Very manic, crazy, funny, and expressive personality. / Misses his friend "Dave". / Founder of the Nomadins.
Age: 36 / Gender: Male / Race: Human / Dislikes: Pineapple on pizza / Likes: Bullet. Video Games. / Master at scrap-metal origami. Robotic leg due to injury.
Slicc FaBuLoUs hairstyle and blue eyes, skinny dood with muscles, and vereh tawll. Also white with a red shirt, and navy blue pants.
Favorite color: Blue. / Became a scouter by joining a group of scouters and getting trained, also where he met Bullet.. / Loves space adventures, exluding Space Pirates.
Bigeth Backstoreth, and loreth.
Abilities: Sharpshooter (The Ability to not miss a single shot completely for 3 actions, but with a cooldown of 20 actions.)
Fleshweaver scythe abilities: Life-steal and Self-repair, Can be summoned and de-summoned at any time.
During ultimate, the blades are imbued with cursed ichor flames, dealing tons more damage.
Fleshweaver scythe appearance: Has a eyeball on it, which spots enemies from all directions. Gore, sinew, and blood.
Also bone for it's structure, and flesh as the shell. The blades are non-fleshy, althou with veins slightly visible closer to the hilt.
Two scythes can be summoned at once, made from your own flesh bone, and blood. And can be sPiNnEd like saws.
Strength : 10
Agility : 12
Vigor : 8
Charm : 7
Passive ability : Agile - Any action that involves agility will be successful, however if the roll fails, the effect shall be minimized.
Ultimate : TBA?
Favorite flavor: J O Y
Hi-tech visor abilities: The ability to detect things behind walls. Useful for a variety of reasons.. Builds up on abilites the more microchips you find and install.
Using eldritch powers, ultimate, and anomaly/portal stuff decreases your sanity the more you use it.
Visor during ultimate: Way more glitchy, with the strange ability to discover one's weaknesses and strength's, as the A.I. is corrupted and switched and speaks to you how to take the next step in killing your enemies..
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyF.....x=412&t=5s
Theme during ultimate: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtCo--GAAnA
M I S S I N G
Quote: " ?! /=‗ : ∖∕ --∥ ― –\| -. . . i¿ " Or to put it simply ' '.
No true form. Went to deep and never came back the same.
Past forgotten, doesn't even know who it is anymore.
Can take form of any being, and any persona or personality.
There's no true explaination to this 'character' or it's knowabouts.
It's technically not even a character at this point.
But something always feels missing.
Abilities: The ability to glitch reality itself and go out of bounds like in a video-game.
Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRa.....ex=55&t=0s
<=Sheolaurius=>
Quote: "Heaven or Hell?.. Why should we choose?"
Half Demon half Angel, born in the war between good and evil, where Demons and Angels are at war constantly, a spiritual battle.
Main theme(s):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kB7.....dex=2&t=0s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zK.....dex=4&t=0s
(Both go together perfectly, listen at same time.)
Other themes: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29B.....ex=21&t=0s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u00.....ex=22&t=1s
^=/\/Loid\/\=^
A cloaked and hooded being with a strange mask that looks mechanical with clockworks, a seemingly infinite and never-ending contraption of 'time'.
The "Coincidences" in a story are his works, to keep the protagonist going, in every story. He is in every universe simultaniously, He is multi-dimensional.
Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLR.....x=193&t=0s
'.'Elrune'.'
A wizard from a distant land, made out of magic itself.
With two friends, "Lakia" and "Damian"
His father was the strongest wizard in all of the Frontier, but due to a experiment with 'strange magic' he turned himself into a giant spider, doomed to be trapped in blackrock mountain.
Part of the ol' Fantastic Frontier roleplay's we did on Roblox.
A Adventure Time-like roleplay but with a darker backstory, etc.
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tc8.....dex=2&t=0s
Dark Magic Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoG.....dex=3&t=0s
.DOT.
The embodiment of madness and pure chaos.
A terrifying jester that seeks and destroys reality, torturing those in his own dimension, playing with them like toys.
I guess a combination of 'Bill Cypher' and 'Flowey' in a way.
He can do ANYTHING in his world, Playing God, with his twisted imagination.. You might just go insane trying to fight him.
He plays tricks in your mind, making you hallucinate, and he knows your deepest fears, he speaks in many tones of voices all at once.
1st stage theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nLr.....&index=107
2nd stage theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygv.....&index=108
Quote: "I have done a replacement for you- A SAVOR FOR YOUR UN-DEATH.. SO YOU CAN WATCH ME TEAR YOU TO BLATENT PIECES.. OVER. AND OVER. AND OVER..."
Host: Dystopian Overlord, dictator of a massive army of machines that used to be human, and cybernetic individuals controlled by him.
His main element being 'Schrabiddium' the opposite of Tiberium, being of some kind of cyan glowing liquid that can turn any ordinary human/robot into a super soldier/droid, it also came from the depths of nuclear craters after nukes being dropped on uranium.
It also has a rare chance to implode/explode someone's insides and warp them to another dimension. Main weaponery is his army, and the ability to summon swarms of robotic flies that rapidly spread and infect their surroundings and turn people into living robots.
As-well as turning everything into a metallic hive like structure that seems to build itself upon everything, ripping everything to bits and replacing it.
Host performed many horrible experiments on humans, such as ripping their organs out, and their insides as research, like lobotomy, then turning them into robots using the knowledge he has gained, to make his army.
His appearance is that of a being, mostly robotic, his brain being the only thing organic, his jaw ripped off, and being only his head left with cybernetic implants due to the explosion of a massive cybersphere planet.
Wears a facemask to allow him to breath, with a robotic eye, and the other eye being of pure hatred.
Enemy but also the brother of Atom: Nuclear Armageddon.
Main theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5d.....=410&t=91s
(So many more characters to go too.)
Constructive criticizm is also welcomed.
======================================================================
[|]Jaul[|]
Quote: "In between, the thread. = A new window."
His dimension was consumed by a unfathomable force with immeasurable size that is trying to consume every dimension it comes across.
Jaul managed to survive, and is now on a long journy of saving the multi-verse after finding a strange multi-dimensional plain of existance.
And by fighting multiple enemies and mainly the "Prisma's" which are a dimensional travelling shape-shifting elemental replicating prism-like beings that are after Jaul for breaking the laws of space/time etc.
And each dimension he comes across, he finds all sorts of things to aid him along the way, new weapons, armor, etc.
The thing that consumed Jaul's dimension is made of everything and nothing simultaniously, something made out of infinity itself, with only one weakness...
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_J5vsL0A-EY
8-bit Theme: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/deja-vu
Themes: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-.....ip-in-the-fold
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-.....he-other-world
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/darkness
https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/in-between
Battle Theme: https://soundcloud.com/angry-pixel-1/battle
Jaul is a representation of loss and creation. A quote signifying that: "When one door closes, another one opens."
-+-Zane-+- (Maniacal scythe-wielder and one of the main characters.)
Quote: "From the dust, we emerge victorious. From the depths, we remain unknown.. We, are the Nomadins."
Zane has died once, but came back to life somehow, resurrected and fell from the sky from a portal nearly dying again while landing with a parachute. (Lol)
Has a yellow hi-tech visor thingy and multiple computer chips to insert into it for A.I. Excluding the Fading A.I. Eugh...
Favorite weapon: Heat-scythe. / Eldritch abominations are his friends!. Got them from a strange dream. / The power to summon strange anomalies and portals..
His bestest friendest, Bullet. / Is very creative and good with jokes. / Very manic, crazy, funny, and expressive personality. / Misses his friend "Dave". / Founder of the Nomadins.
Age: 36 / Gender: Male / Race: Human / Dislikes: Pineapple on pizza / Likes: Bullet. Video Games. / Master at scrap-metal origami. Robotic leg due to injury.
Slicc FaBuLoUs hairstyle and blue eyes, skinny dood with muscles, and vereh tawll. Also white with a red shirt, and navy blue pants.
Favorite color: Blue. / Became a scouter by joining a group of scouters and getting trained, also where he met Bullet.. / Loves space adventures, exluding Space Pirates.
Bigeth Backstoreth, and loreth.
Abilities: Sharpshooter (The Ability to not miss a single shot completely for 3 actions, but with a cooldown of 20 actions.)
Fleshweaver scythe abilities: Life-steal and Self-repair, Can be summoned and de-summoned at any time.
During ultimate, the blades are imbued with cursed ichor flames, dealing tons more damage.
Fleshweaver scythe appearance: Has a eyeball on it, which spots enemies from all directions. Gore, sinew, and blood.
Also bone for it's structure, and flesh as the shell. The blades are non-fleshy, althou with veins slightly visible closer to the hilt.
Two scythes can be summoned at once, made from your own flesh bone, and blood. And can be sPiNnEd like saws.
Strength : 10
Agility : 12
Vigor : 8
Charm : 7
Passive ability : Agile - Any action that involves agility will be successful, however if the roll fails, the effect shall be minimized.
Ultimate : TBA?
Favorite flavor: J O Y
Hi-tech visor abilities: The ability to detect things behind walls. Useful for a variety of reasons.. Builds up on abilites the more microchips you find and install.
Using eldritch powers, ultimate, and anomaly/portal stuff decreases your sanity the more you use it.
Visor during ultimate: Way more glitchy, with the strange ability to discover one's weaknesses and strength's, as the A.I. is corrupted and switched and speaks to you how to take the next step in killing your enemies..
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyF.....x=412&t=5s
Theme during ultimate: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtCo--GAAnA
M I S S I N G
Quote: " ?! /=‗ : ∖∕ --∥ ― –\| -. . . i¿ " Or to put it simply ' '.
No true form. Went to deep and never came back the same.
Past forgotten, doesn't even know who it is anymore.
Can take form of any being, and any persona or personality.
There's no true explaination to this 'character' or it's knowabouts.
It's technically not even a character at this point.
But something always feels missing.
Abilities: The ability to glitch reality itself and go out of bounds like in a video-game.
Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRa.....ex=55&t=0s
<=Sheolaurius=>
Quote: "Heaven or Hell?.. Why should we choose?"
Half Demon half Angel, born in the war between good and evil, where Demons and Angels are at war constantly, a spiritual battle.
Main theme(s):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kB7.....dex=2&t=0s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zK.....dex=4&t=0s
(Both go together perfectly, listen at same time.)
Other themes: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29B.....ex=21&t=0s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u00.....ex=22&t=1s
^=/\/Loid\/\=^
A cloaked and hooded being with a strange mask that looks mechanical with clockworks, a seemingly infinite and never-ending contraption of 'time'.
The "Coincidences" in a story are his works, to keep the protagonist going, in every story. He is in every universe simultaniously, He is multi-dimensional.
Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLR.....x=193&t=0s
'.'Elrune'.'
A wizard from a distant land, made out of magic itself.
With two friends, "Lakia" and "Damian"
His father was the strongest wizard in all of the Frontier, but due to a experiment with 'strange magic' he turned himself into a giant spider, doomed to be trapped in blackrock mountain.
Part of the ol' Fantastic Frontier roleplay's we did on Roblox.
A Adventure Time-like roleplay but with a darker backstory, etc.
Main Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tc8.....dex=2&t=0s
Dark Magic Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoG.....dex=3&t=0s
.DOT.
The embodiment of madness and pure chaos.
A terrifying jester that seeks and destroys reality, torturing those in his own dimension, playing with them like toys.
I guess a combination of 'Bill Cypher' and 'Flowey' in a way.
He can do ANYTHING in his world, Playing God, with his twisted imagination.. You might just go insane trying to fight him.
He plays tricks in your mind, making you hallucinate, and he knows your deepest fears, he speaks in many tones of voices all at once.
1st stage theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nLr.....&index=107
2nd stage theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygv.....&index=108
Quote: "I have done a replacement for you- A SAVOR FOR YOUR UN-DEATH.. SO YOU CAN WATCH ME TEAR YOU TO BLATENT PIECES.. OVER. AND OVER. AND OVER..."
Host: Dystopian Overlord, dictator of a massive army of machines that used to be human, and cybernetic individuals controlled by him.
His main element being 'Schrabiddium' the opposite of Tiberium, being of some kind of cyan glowing liquid that can turn any ordinary human/robot into a super soldier/droid, it also came from the depths of nuclear craters after nukes being dropped on uranium.
It also has a rare chance to implode/explode someone's insides and warp them to another dimension. Main weaponery is his army, and the ability to summon swarms of robotic flies that rapidly spread and infect their surroundings and turn people into living robots.
As-well as turning everything into a metallic hive like structure that seems to build itself upon everything, ripping everything to bits and replacing it.
Host performed many horrible experiments on humans, such as ripping their organs out, and their insides as research, like lobotomy, then turning them into robots using the knowledge he has gained, to make his army.
His appearance is that of a being, mostly robotic, his brain being the only thing organic, his jaw ripped off, and being only his head left with cybernetic implants due to the explosion of a massive cybersphere planet.
Wears a facemask to allow him to breath, with a robotic eye, and the other eye being of pure hatred.
Enemy but also the brother of Atom: Nuclear Armageddon.
Main theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5d.....=410&t=91s
(So many more characters to go too.)
(Venting Journal)
Posted 5 years agoVent:
It's all but a fading memory.
Everything that has been done or seen.
I wish I could go back, If only I could.
But it's all gone now, and everything stays the same.
I feel lost...
Sometimes I think I'm in a simulation. Like all my feelings and desires are all fake.
I used to cry and weep, I used to feel much more, and I had a sense of direction and need.
But now all I feel on the inside is emptiness mostly.
I'm in between, where I am neither in a place of something to good, or to bad.
A loneliness I can't describe, and nobody seems to understand it.
I don't even know who I am.
I don't even know where I am.
And I don't even know why it even matters.
I'm sharing my thoughts on here because I don't know how else I can.
I just hope that one-day I'll see the morning sun again, and this'll all end..
Because I feel hopeless and I feel that something is missing.
..I feel that something is missing.
..I used to be so much more.
I'm lost, and I want a way out.
I've done so much not just so I could give up here.
But the stress is starting to wear down on me.
Sometimes I feel that I've gone insane due to self isolation over the course of 7 to 8 years.
I've even stopped doing the things I used to do, and I'm mostly negative about myself with a tendancy to beat myself up for everything.
I'll never try suicide though, as it is for people who are selfish and only care about themselves. In-fact I'll keep walking through this
seemingly never ending chaos till it is over.
Because when all is silent and broken, is when I shine the brightest.
It's all but a fading memory.
Everything that has been done or seen.
I wish I could go back, If only I could.
But it's all gone now, and everything stays the same.
I feel lost...
Sometimes I think I'm in a simulation. Like all my feelings and desires are all fake.
I used to cry and weep, I used to feel much more, and I had a sense of direction and need.
But now all I feel on the inside is emptiness mostly.
I'm in between, where I am neither in a place of something to good, or to bad.
A loneliness I can't describe, and nobody seems to understand it.
I don't even know who I am.
I don't even know where I am.
And I don't even know why it even matters.
I'm sharing my thoughts on here because I don't know how else I can.
I just hope that one-day I'll see the morning sun again, and this'll all end..
Because I feel hopeless and I feel that something is missing.
..I feel that something is missing.
..I used to be so much more.
I'm lost, and I want a way out.
I've done so much not just so I could give up here.
But the stress is starting to wear down on me.
Sometimes I feel that I've gone insane due to self isolation over the course of 7 to 8 years.
I've even stopped doing the things I used to do, and I'm mostly negative about myself with a tendancy to beat myself up for everything.
I'll never try suicide though, as it is for people who are selfish and only care about themselves. In-fact I'll keep walking through this
seemingly never ending chaos till it is over.
Because when all is silent and broken, is when I shine the brightest.
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Posted 5 years agoFixed all of my edgy angsty nonshits.
New user on Furaffinity.
Posted 6 years agoHello!, I just made my account, and I'm still trying to figure out how to publish my artwork here, if anyone can help me out, I would be very thankful. ^w^
I'm also still kinda new with art music and writing, so if anybody has any tips on how to do better, or constructive criticism for my works, that would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you!
I'm also still kinda new with art music and writing, so if anybody has any tips on how to do better, or constructive criticism for my works, that would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you!
